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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    He’s just about ready to doze off—his ritualistic pre-dinner, thirty-minute nap—when, suddenly, Ilya says, “Huh. Interesting.”

    Shane cracks one eye open. “Hmm?”

    “Oh, nothing, малыш,” he replies, though his brows are furrowed when he says it. Shane’s even more curious now.

    “No, really, what is it?”

    Ilya must lose some internal debate; a deep sigh leaves his body before, wordlessly, he turns his phone to Shane.

    The bright light makes him squint, still not used to Ilya and his affinity for both using the light-mode feature and turning the brightness in his phone to a maximum. He forgoes scolding him when, after his eyes have adjusted, he reads: Metros acquires Fil-Canadian Rivera; second Asian player in franchise history after Hollander.

    At first he thinks, oh, that’s my name. Shane hasn’t seen his name mentioned remotely near the words ‘Montreal Metros’ ever since he transferred to Ottawa three years ago. Then, and this is when it finally dawns on him, Shane thinks: second?

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    16 May 2026

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    Yuna Hollander knows that it is normal for children to distance themselves from their parents as they approach adulthood. She expected it when Shane was a teenager, when he moved to Kingston for juniors, even later, when he moved to Montreal. When they stayed close, when he seemed happy to see them at his games, to have her managing his career, when he seemed not only to love them, but to still like having them around… When he invited her for dinner with his boyfriend and the four of them laughed until the summer sun dropped below the lake, she thought maybe this was one challenge of parenthood she would be spared. Which makes the day it finally happens all the harder to bear.

    Or, Yuna Hollander and the joy and anguish of growing up.

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    02 May 2026

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    In a pawn shop in Montreal, a bag of used golf clubs is sold to a famous hockey player.

    Less than an hour later, another, different famous hockey player’s car is vandalized. In Montreal. With golf clubs.

    The common thread between these two events is simple. One of these hockey players is bad at lying to himself. The other is even worse.

    Inspired by this post.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    “Wait, shit, is it really dirty?”

    He glances over to Ilya, who is now dutifully collecting cones. “It’s not dirty,” Shane laughs.

    “So what’s the hangup, then?”

    “It’s… kinda hard to translate.” He continues before Bood can call him on that, “it sounds more old-fashioned in English. Or, it’s fine in Russian, more like. It means my beloved. Or darling, kind of. Russian’s hard to translate directly sometimes.”

    “Man. That’s some Bridgerton shit.”

    5 times the Centaurs hear Ilya call Shane a petname, and one time they hear Shane call Ilya one.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    “I pee on a stick every day, take my temperature, app tells me when to fuck,” Ilya summarises succinctly. “App says we fuck today. Possibly tomorrow also.”

    “Tomorrow too?” Shane teases. “Are you just trying to get into my pants?”

    “If I was just trying to get into your pants I wouldn’t be on bottom,” Ilya points out, and he does have a point there. Not that topping is unpleasant, or anything, but it’s not exactly something Shane tends to do without an occasion. “I also wouldn’t have to use app. I would say ‘Hollander, get your dick out,’ and you get your dick out.”

    “Are you calling me easy?”

    “Yes. We are both easy, it is the best thing about our relationship.”

    —————

    Shane and Ilya want kids, preferably soon. The details of making that happen prove to be slightly more complicated than initially anticipated.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of Unreveal Me
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    20 Apr 2026

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    “I used to be so mad that she was gone sometimes, but it’s okay. I forgive her. I would forgive her every time.”

    Something in Yuna’s eyes fractures, like a bird bone under the sole of a shoe. “Your mother is very lucky, then.”

    “Yuna,” Ilya says, and he tries very hard to not look at Shane, to not see the unforgiving, enduring hurt in his eyes when he looks over at his mother, so far away from her that he can’t come home, even though he desperately wants to. He looks at Yuna instead, and somehow, even as he braces against the ice-cold concrete and lets the sound of the whistling wind settle in his ears and has been looking at her for a long time now, he finds himself entirely unprepared for familiar Yuna’s eyes will be when she turns her gaze from the distant streetlamp to him. “You’re very lucky too.”

     

    Shane Hollander is a ghost with a comatose body that won't work, unable to move on because his mom won't come visit him. Ilya Rozanov is the only person who can see and hear him, and against all odds, this is still a love story.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Ilya inherits a surly grief-stricken nine year-old.

    Charlie lashes out with anger. Shane makes schedules and plans meals and angsts about what a terrible father he's turned out to be. Yuna tries desperately to build another kid into a sports prodigy. And Ilya isn't sure how to reconcile all the different people in his life and become the father he wishes he could have had.

    Meanwhile, there's still a whole hockey season to play.

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    A fic where everyone is doing their best, not to mention attempting their therapy homework. But where success and family is not a straight line.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    [Boss Babes]

    Jessica:
    I just had a revelation
    So we know the following information about Jane right:
    1. Rich
    2. Famous (enough for us to ALL recognize her)
    3. Powerful? (has contacts in NHL)
    4. PUBLICALLY well-known supporter of the HABS (EW!) but born in Ottawa
    5. Lives/spends a lot of time between Ottawa and Montreal
    6. Extremely demanding job which involves lots of travel
    7. Fluent in French/English
    8. Would lose job, friends, and family amid massive public scandal if relationship with Rozanov was leaked

    So far we've been stumped, no female celebs match that description
    But what if we're looking in the wrong direction
    Because I believe there's a MAN who fits the description to a T

    Jane:
    I don't like where this is going

    Jessica:
    What if (s)HE's actually…
    JUSTIN TRUDEAU

    - Jane has left the conversation -

    Jessica:
    I rest my case

    The Boston WAGs and their investigations into the curious case of Rozanov's Jane Doe.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander had almost made it to morning skate on time.

    Then something ran out in front of his car.

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    Or, the one where Shane finds an injured kitten and takes it to the closest vet, Dr. Ilya Rozanov.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    For a second, Scott pictures it—their tragic gay love affair, conducted in Holiday Inns and Marriotts, following the usual routine; the cut-off afterglow, the tied-off condom burning a hole in someone’s pocket because they were too scared to leave it in the hotel trash, the look-both-ways paranoia leaving the room, fleeing the scene head-down-hands-in-pockets. Scott pictured a decade of that—a four-year marriage of that—and felt sick. Two thousand fucking ten. Christ. Kip had cousins younger than that.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    “We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”

    It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.

    He can’t breathe.

    (Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Shane is conscious for the entire crash. That doesn’t mean he remembers it.

    The brain has a funny way of blocking out trauma like this, of shielding the body from things that would hurt it to remember. But Shane’s ears are still ringing with the sounds of metal crunching and tires screeching, even if there’s a large blank space in his head where the memory should be. The crash was a blur, a blink. Terribly long and then suddenly over, a heavy silence now descending over the eerie stillness.

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    A week after returning from their honeymoon, Shane gets in a car accident that threatens the future he and Ilya so painstakingly fought to build.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.

    Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    He watches the tape again over dinner. Listens to Rozanov moan inside a girl's pussy while he eats. By the time he finishes his last bite, Rozanov's inside her, her nails raking down his back, her mouth twisted open in pleasure, and Shane's hard in his pants.

    So, Shane puts his plate in the sink and goes back to his room. Starts the video over.

    ———

    A sex tape of Ilya with a girl leaks. Shane reacts normally.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING -

    Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it.

    “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?”

    J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly.

    --

    The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Spoilers for The Long Game. Post-Canon.

    The start of Ottawa's season feels like a promise. Ilya finally has all the people he loves in one place, a team that can keep up with him, the whole world knows he and Shane love each other, and they have the sweetest, most perfect dog. So why is he so nervous about their first game against Montreal?

    AKA Protective Ilya Rozanov momentarily forgets his husband is still the hockey prodigy he fell in love with at first freckle in Saskatchewan.

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    10 Apr 2026

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