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It’s always odd to see himself, always so strange to see a living, breathing, tangible thing looking back and watching curiously. Because from the very beginning of his life, Connor has never truly felt…real. Like he’s just an intangible thing drifting through the world, alternating between being stuck inside sterile, cold walls and in the freezing outside.
Because what is he, really? Back then, after failed missions and painful deaths and he’d be taken back to CyberLife to be replaced, all they had to do was transfer his memory program to another, waiting empty shell that would soon be his body.
How ironic that despite the seemingly endless replacements they have for him, what truly makes it him are just a bunch of detached memories stored in a program. It makes him wonder sometimes. If he loses his memories for good, would he still be Connor? Is he just a truly intangible being in this world, just those clusters of memories?
[ Or; Basically a collection of one-shots focusing on Connor's trauma and recovery from his time in CyberLife. ]
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- Part 2 of perfect weapon
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It was true, in a sense. Every other android didn’t, and it was what everyone knew. After all, it wasn’t like CyberLife told the public about that one unique feature of the RK800. All they knew was that he was a detective model, programmed to catch deviants. That was all they needed to know, anyway.
Because no one needed to know how accustomed he’d gotten to pain. No one needed to know how CyberLife specifically programmed him to feel pain in order to ensure he does his mission successfully and efficiently. No one needed to know about that cold, uninviting room within the depths of CyberLife tower, where its workers would take him apart for the sole purpose of reminding him what pain feels like. Of what it feels like to fail.
[ Or; In which Connor is the only android programmed to feel pain. ]
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- Part 1 of perfect weapon
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It infuriates him how Joel makes him question all these things, because in the first place they weren’t even that important to each other. Grian could call Joel over, protect him from anybody who wants to harm him, say the most heartfelt declarations to him even though it holds absolutely no weight, but…they were just that.
And he knows deep down that people who aren’t important to each other most certainly do not act the way they do, but Grian would rather not ponder about it too much. Because he doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about Joel. He hates him. Hates how he laughs and grins without a care in the world like there’s nothing wrong. Hates how his stupid smiles and knowing glances makes Grian’s heart twist with longing.
Or; Grian and Joel and their complicated feelings towards each other.
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this hollowness takes up my entire heart by crystalscove
Fandoms: Life Series | 3rd Life SMP Series
17 Jul 2025
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And now he’s here again. Playing. Surviving. Trying.
If only it was that easy.
His footsteps lead him around the map. He distracts himself by building. At least then the sound of the blocks being placed will drown out the heavy numbness he feels. He smiles and laughs and jokes around but he feels hollow. Like an empty shell. Sometimes he’d see Grian from across the map, all smiles and grins and realizes that perhaps both of them are doing the same thing. Pretending.
[ Grian and Joel in the first session of Past Life. ]
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- Part 26 of memory keeper au
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Joel hums in agreement. Seeing each other like this—where both of them are wearing simple clothes and no titles to hold—is a lot different than passing by each other on courtyards and dining tables and corridors alike. There, they have to pretend like their relationship is strictly prince and knight, with simple, curt nods and a few words of exchange. But here, in the quiet of the night with no one to disturb them, all of that falls away. There was no His Highness Joel here, no Sir Knight Grian. Just Joel and Grian. Just two people, basking in a quiet, secret love.
[ Or; Prince Joel and Knight Grian and their secret meet-ups in the palace - and a strange, haunting painting Joel finds oddly familiar. ]
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DBH AU where Connor is the only android programmed to feel pain. Part 2 is ongoing!
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memory keeper au by crystalscove
Fandom 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Hermitcraft SMP, Life Series | 3rd Life SMP Series
17 Jul 2025
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Life Series AU where Grian and Joel are the only ones who remembers the previous games.
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to meet you again by crystalscove
Fandom 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Life Series | 3rd Life SMP Series
29 Jun 2025
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wild life finale ft. grian and joel angst
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Peter's Field Trip From Hell by chvotic
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
16 Aug 2020
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“Calling my kid a liar and a thief. Insinuating that he and his friend wouldn’t be smart enough for an internship in the future. One of your students pushing Peter into a desk, among plenty other things I’ve heard be said to Peter.”
“Your kid?” Mr. Harrington squeaked.
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Peter goes on a field trip to his own home. It goes just as well as you'd think.
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- Part 18 of Irondad/Peter Parker Whump Fics
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Bookmarked by crystalscove
31 Aug 2026
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Peter Parker: The human disaster by llovedove
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
10 Aug 2021
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Peter Parker is a human disaster and Tony Stark is a dad.
That's all.
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Bookmarked by crystalscove
28 Aug 2026
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if only they knew by sarayin
Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
14 Jul 2019
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a series of instances where peter parker fucks up until he breaks down.
thankfully, mr. stark will always be there for him even when no one else will.Bookmarked by crystalscove
27 Aug 2026
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hope is the strongest power by sarayin
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
18 Jul 2018
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*this is an alternative storyline that follows after the ferry incident*
“I want you out of my house. Pack your things and leave,” May said in as strong as a voice as she could through the tears in her eyes. She blinked them away and shook her head before making her way into her room, not stopping to look at Peter even once.
Not Peter, she corrected herself.
Spiderman.OR
the one in which peter gets kicked out after may finds out and has to now learn how to survive when hope seems bleak.
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Bookmarked by crystalscove
25 Aug 2026
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one of my all time favs!!
read this ~7 years ago at the peak of my mcu hyperfixation lol im so glad i found it again!! <33
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what I lost (I think it was precious to me) by evening_skies
Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
04 Aug 2026
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“You made new friends though,” Peter says, voice small. “You went out for drinks all the time. Your study group. Movie nights. Everyone loves you, Ned. You didn’t…don’t need me.”
And Ned just. Stops. “What?”
Peter’s face blooms red, like he realises he’s said too much and he has, because the only way Peter could know that is if he… he…
“Peter, did you watch my Instagram stories?”
“Um.”
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Bookmarked by crystalscove
23 Aug 2026