Beaniesintheclouds



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  1. Summary

    Prefacing this with a HUGE trigger warning for every part of this. This deals with a lot of unreality (dissociation and hallucinations), flashbacks and panic. If I missed any or forget to update this list, let me know.

    Sing a song for us in the silence. Fill the void with your terrible screams and hope you stay alone. My dear, you have so much to fear; you are not safe. Safety is impossible, just as your band-aid healing is inconsequential.

    A breakdown series of Leo, a way to release my inner pains and fears, and a feeble prayer I never experience anything like that again. A very experimental style is used in this series.

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  2. Summary

    “My identity left with the last train. I went to catch it, only to forget again.”

     

    Of the lost minds each must deal with after everything.

    Aka: the collection of dissociation fics I write to cope with my own problems.

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  3. Summary

    The fics I write surrounding our local blue turtle! …what? He’s not just local? Someone should’ve told me that.

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  4. Summary

    This is a collection of all the rise one-shots I’ve written! Most are unrelated with a couple stated exceptions.

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  5. Summary

    Of teddy bears and tears, of painting and panic attacks; the two eldest discover new ways to release the memories and hurts inside.

    Aka a collection of self-indulging agere fics surrounding Little!Leo (and hopefully Little!Raph, eventually).

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  1. Public Bookmark 43

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    At the end of the day, even as the big-top tent fractures and the circus threatens to cave in, Ragatha is still stuck in that dining room, pinned to her chair at one end of a long table. The shadow at the far side watches her. Ragatha cannot leave.

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    15 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 75

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    There's an empty circus to perhaps rebuild, a lot of questions to ponder, and a lot of 'what-now's they'll all have to figure out. But right now, Ragatha's still trying to forget her mother's gaze. It isn't working.

    She'll have to forget her, to move on, and to start 'conjuring' a new life here, not that she even knows how to do that yet. But, then, knowing how to do it isn't a requirement; she only has to be thinking about it hard enough, and the subject of her mind will find her.

    Set in the immediate aftermath of Episode 8.

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    13 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 68

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    It’s been months since the failed Krang invasion, his brothers were all well on their way to recovery but Leo can’t seem to catch his breath.

    Fortunately for him, the EPF has generously opened a clinic for Krang victims.

    The process of healing is not easy, and sometimes despite one’s best efforts it feels like climbing up a mountain of sand, getting so close before the ground gives out and sends you tumbling back down.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Leo was injured, badly, during a mission gone wrong. One moment he was on lookout duty with Donatello, the next he was on the ground, trying to make sense of everything as the world moved around him.

    Fortunately, his brothers are there to help him through, at least, Leo thinks they are.

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    27 Feb 2026

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  5. Public Bookmark 55

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    ‘“It’ll be easier, if you stop,” Ragatha admits from her spot beside her on the sofa. They’re all present around where she’s curled up, a small indent against the cushions, watching each ragged breath tear through the round curves of her shoulder puffs. Her eyes are glazed over, dry without reprieve; she fights the urge to close them, because she’s almost certain that if she does she won’t ever wake up again.

    She’s pretty sure she’s dying.’

    The human body can only survive up to three days without water. As Pomni is forced to acclimate to her new life in the circus, she can feel the tether connecting her to her real body dwindle with every passing day. Lying undiscovered in the remnants of a long abandoned building, her true body withering away to the elements, her consciousness is accompanied by various other trapped souls in Caine’s twisted wonderland. They’ve all been through the same brutal hazing; now they have to be there to sit through Pomni’s.

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    16 Feb 2026