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These days, Till finds solace in the fact that he was right in his suspicions. The violin may have disciplined Ivan, but the guitar pushes his throat past the limits their old world had imposed on him.
On the stage, the heat makes Ivan's hair curl, allowing him to look as ragged as he did during all their childhood tussles. His leather jacket, which now lies discarded somewhere near the entryway, still smells like the hotteok Till burned in their kitchen a couple of nights ago. There’s a tiny brown smear near the zipper of his pants where he spilled a little bit of sauce from the kimchi okonomiyaki he had been eating before rehearsals, because Ivan is the kind to spill things on himself without consequence now.
(Or: When it comes down to it, there's not that much difference between making music and making love.)
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05 Sep 2026
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Till's guide to thawing his popsicle boyfriend by fflyhigher
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
13 Sep 2025
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“You did good today,” Till tells him, voice soft and honest, and something warm starts spreading from his chest to his entire body. Ivan hadn’t even realized how cold he was until Till touched him.
Ivan is life's biggest winner, and it's not because of the competition.
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03 Sep 2026
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Babysitting, Which Is to Say, Sitting as Far Away as Possible From This Baby by fflyhigher, pinecow
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
24 Sep 2025
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“Do you think Till baby likes the food?” Ivan asks.
Till wears a look of abject horror. “Please don’t call it that.”
“I should kill myself if he doesn’t.”
“This can’t be real,” Till whispers, face in his hands.
Something is happening here. It cannot be acknowledged out loud lest it play a role equivalent to a flammable gas leak.
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02 Sep 2026
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The Devil at Your Doorstep
★★★★
The film wants the audience to be well-acquainted with Baek-ssi's gentle nature. In one shot, taken off the railing of the cruise, Baek-ssi is shown staring intensely at the sea. The camera zooms in so far on his eyelashes, I can only imagine the purpose is to make the viewers count them. I got to seventy-six before the camera rudely panned out. I think the film should give poor, slow bastards like us a second chance.
This review has been partially censored because it might contain spoilers.
(Or: Actor Ivan reviews his boyfriend's films)
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02 Sep 2026
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"He can use them to hold an eyelash under Till's mouth, so Till can exhale and set it free. When Till breathes, the air from his lungs is soaked in through Ivan's skin. He inflates with the sounds that live inside Till. The grumbles, the keens, the sighs, and the snores. The failed A minor note from last afternoon. Even the light glinting off Till's glasses, folded on top of the wrong bedside table, pierces Ivan's brittle ribs. It aches, it aches, it aches.
Perhaps all his life, he has been making space for this."
RAHYWJYSJUFKYWK5JW5JWTAJTJSJW5Q5U4H4QU5QU4QU4UQ5QU5WI52II516QI6WJTJSYJSTJSTSH GOD. MAY A LOVE LIKE THIS REACH ME.
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Till and Ivan find a new way to talk things out.
There was always, between them, the looming understanding that ground rules hardly served as ground rules as much as they did mild suggestions or, if Ivan was being particularly irritating, petty challenges.
Don't leave marks above the collarbone or past the elbow. Don’t touch the ribs poking out of my sides. Don’t press your thumb against my snaggletooth. Don't scrape my nails when I’ve painted them. Don’t order me around. Don't touch my piercings. Don’t say my name when you come. Don’t stop just because you noticed me crying. Don’t stare. Don’t look at me like that. God, please, don’t look at me like that.
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02 Sep 2026
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Till is weaker to Ivan's unusual requests than he'd like to admit.
Ivan had mumbled something inaudible with his cheek pressed against his shoulder. After a minute of Till trying to make sense of it, Ivan repeated, “Sit on me.” Then added a polite, “Please.”
“Uh,” Till said smartly. “Um.”
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02 Sep 2026
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Don’t Go Wa(i)sting Your Devotion by fflyhigher for pinecow, nemoys
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
24 Jan 2026
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‘Tiiiiiiiill,’ Ivan sends, and Till already knows he’s fucked. ‘I get a free day next week!! Let’s meet up!’ he says, then forwards a pathetic gif of a puppy with the wettest eyes ever looking up at Till’s perplexed stare.
This is a trick. Till should say no. Till should acknowledge that he’s been acting really weird about his best friend lately and that he has to get normal before they see each other again. Till should tell Ivan to spend his once-in-a-blue-moon free day relaxing at a spa—a spa? Till frowns. People would get so fucking weird about that. He should go somewhere else where clothes are involved. Skiing sounds better—and not slouching at Till’s ass dorm. Till should get a grip.
‘Please? :((’
Goddammit.
Five times Till loses his mind over Ivan's waist, and one time he does something about it.
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02 Sep 2026
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"I didn't say you disappointed me," Till says, poking Ivan's ribs with his blunt fingernails. Once, Ivan tried drawing guitar strings on their chipped surfaces to get Till to stop biting their edges. Maybe if they resembled what you loved the most in the world, you would stop chewing on them so, Ivan had reasoned, after Till had gotten angry. To this day, Till hasn't told him that he was off in his guess, if only by a little. Till does love the guitar. Loving it the most, however, is impossible, given the existence of other, much more frustrating entities. "I'm not your teachers or your classmates or your father, remember? Use a different word, maybe."
"Disillusion? Disenchant? Dissatisfy?" Ivan suggests, raising a finger with each new term. Till tries to keep staring at him unblinkingly. "Has anyone ever told you that you resemble one of those little dogs that try to bark up a storm every time they encounter a dog twice or even thrice their size? I must say, you do share their disposition."
(Or: Ivan misses a few movie nights. Till decides to corner him with quite a failed kabedon.)
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02 Sep 2026
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After catching Ivan making out with a stranger on the couch of their shared apartament, Till suddenly developed homophobia. Without anyone to confide in, Till does what anyone in his situation would do: he asks for advice on Reddit.
Or that mandatory fic about the character mistaking their jealousy as homophobia.
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02 Sep 2026
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01 Sep 2026
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walk my days on a wire (burning till the very last night) by unanjepasse for yuri_islife
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
06 Apr 2025
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“You’ll break me,” Mizi says. “I’ll break you. We break each other and kiss away the tears that form because the ache is all we know.”
“But why?” Sua looks to her. The world around them creeps towards dawn and the flowers sway gently, beautiful for all eternity. “Why must we?”
Mizi circles MALACHITE SUNBIRD with her finger and murmurs, “You’ll leave me, Sua. You always will. That’s just how we are.”
The protest in her throat dies like the faint embers of used-up coal and Sua reels in her bed, head throbbing. Her phone blares and lights up when she smacks it. 37 HOURS LEFT.
Or, Mizi and Sua only have 48 hours and 32 minutes left to live.
(The ethos? Eating is hard, dreams are so cruel when they dangle what you don’t have in front of you via Tantalus’ grove, and never trust another goddamn faggot.)
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31 Aug 2026
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Till's Expert Guide to Asking Your Crush Out by myarkive
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
19 Jan 2026
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Four times Till tries to confess his feelings for his best friend Ivan, and the one time he succeeds.
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31 Aug 2026
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Harana
/haˈɾana/
noun1. to serenade
2. refers to a courtship tradition where a man sings to someone he is interested in, often accompanied by a group of friendssee also: the solution to pathetically yearning best friends
Till courts Ivan the old-fashioned way – with his voice, a guitar, and two (questionably willing) friends for moral support.
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31 Aug 2026
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They’ve only been dating for a couple of months so they still blush over each other quite easily and are still very much in that honeymoon phase.
“When did you get here?” Mizi asks, heading over.
“Just.”
Mizi hums and puts her bag on a nearby table before standing next to her. Her hair blows in the breeze like a curtain obscuring her face from Sua’s view.
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Or oneshot were mizisua kiss in the classroom :)Bookmarked by Saysau
29 Aug 2026
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Till gave the paper a little shake. “C’mon, princess,” he teased, like his own words didn't have his heart racing. “Please and thank you — you really need me to teach you how to use your manners?”
A muscle jumped in Ivan’s jaw. His gaze flicked from the paper to Till’s grin, then to the floor. “...Thank you.”
“Thank youuuuu….?” he trailed off.
Ivan’s shoulders hiked up around his ears. Till didn't think he’d ever seen Ivan this embarrassed in his life. He was enjoying every second of it. He wished he could pull out his phone to take a picture — or fifty — without Ivan trying to kill him for it. “Thank you, Till.”
till hasn't seen ivan in over a decade, not since the older boy left for college and they drifted apart. now till's got the role as executive assistant to the ceo of anakt co., and till spends most of his waking hours up close and personal with an older, more serious, more perpetually exhausted version of ivan.
till doesn't give much of a shit about the job itself. ivan clearly won't take care of himself, so till will take care of him whether ivan likes it or not.
(ivan likes it. a lot.)
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26 Aug 2026
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I think I've been fundamentally changed as a person. which is to say, god this was so hot jeiahsksessja
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“What the fuck are you wearing?”
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25 Aug 2026
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Till throws his hands upwards, “Seriously? Ivan, what did the last few months of us screwing around mean to you?”
“It was a mutually beneficial arrangement,” Ivan finds himself saying, nodding slightly at his own words as if to affirm himself.
Till’s eyes widen incredulously, “Did you think we were fucking friends with benefits?!”
“The benefits tend to include fucking, yes,”
Ivan thinks he knows exactly what he and Till are. Till thinks Ivan's an idiot.
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23 Aug 2026
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“I’m being serious, he’d say yes and start crying like an idiot, even if you asked him in a dumpster,” Sua stresses, her brows pinching as if she were imagining the scene playing out before her.
“But he doesn’t deserve a dumpster!” Till exclaims, indignant, “And besides… we don’t know if he’d say yes.” He mumbles, looking off to the side of the room out his window, his face flaring.
Sua gives Till a long, painful look. “We don’t know if he’d say yes,” She repeats, her voice devoid of any emotion.
Till wants to give Ivan the perfect proposal. Cue the universe not letting him have his way.
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23 Aug 2026
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Till frowns, finally tilting Ivan’s cupped cheeks towards his eye level, “You make it so hard to apologise, y’know that?” He squeezes Ivan’s cheeks harder as emphasis.
Ivan’s eyebrow raised, “Why are you trying to apologise?”
Till feels guilty over bruising Ivan. Ivan doesn't take it very well.
Ivantill Week 2025 Day 4: Childhood
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23 Aug 2026
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if you love me right, then who knows;) by sleepingfairy
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
21 Dec 2025
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Ivan was being weird today. Not that he wasn’t weird normally but he’s been…off.
Ivan is the clingiest man Till knows but he’s not, for some reason.
He’s not touch deprived, he’s just Ivan deprived but for some reason, his boyfriend is being so distant!
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Ivan’s complaints of his sore body turned into a month long edging session.
And they both enjoyed it;)
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23 Aug 2026