RavenQueeno



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    “I am sorry,” he says. “I am not trying to fight. I just don’t like the idea of you not being okay and me not knowing, even when I am in the same place as you.”

    That Shane can understand. He wouldn’t like it if their positions were reversed, after all, if he thought Ilya was potentially in danger and he was in the next room over drinking champagne and making smalltalk. He sees Ilya go somewhere in his head sometimes, sees him retreat inwards, sees him check out even if his body is still there, going so deep inside that he doesn’t even catch Shane’s eye for a bit even when something funny happens, too far away for Shane to reach him.

    But it’s also not like he can just go up and grab Ilya by the arm and pull him away from the party, not without inviting speculation and a whisper storm. He doesn’t have that right, doesn’t have that privilege, to potentially need Ilya or be needed by Ilya and be able to just pull him away.

    It’s moments like these that Shane feels the weight of their secret like a physical thing.

    (5 times shane and ilya couldn't be openly together and 1 time they could)

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    When Shane opened the door, his parents stood there looking winded. "I’m sorry Shane, I know you must be tired, but the radiator blew up," David explained while entering with Yuna, though his eyes were already scanning the room. "The CAA said-"
    He stopped dead. Behind Shane, standing stiffly by the couch, was the #81 Boston player.
    "Rozanov?" Yuna’s voice went up an octave. They looked shocked, which Shane understands.
    "Mom, Dad... yeah.” Shane said, his voice cracking slightly. “This is Ilya Rozanov. We, ah, were just... catching up," He is such a horrible liar. "After all these years, we figured it was time to get to know each other. As friends."
    They are going to know, they are going to fucking know.

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    Jane
    Right
    Well, okay
    I want to try body worship

    Huh. That doesn’t seem so bad. Actually, now that Ilya’s thinking about it, it’s hot, and he almost regrets getting undressed as he wills himself to not get half-hard in this locker room full of idiots.

    Lily
    body worship? when did you get so vain hollander
    you want me to hold you down and taste you everywhere, is that it?

    Jane
    Don’t text me like that when you know I’m still around my team!
    And, no, you asshole
    I meant I want to worship you

    Oh.

    Or: Shane loves Ilya. This is how he shows it.

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov fell in love in 2008. Just because their love story has to remain behind closed doors, doesn't mean they have to pretend it's not happening.

    a fix-it from the beginning, where they actually get their cute romance.

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    17 Jun 2026