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did you have to hit me where i’m weak? by bqzare
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
02 Feb 2026
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(COLLEGE AU)
Kaiser had always been a little distant. A little avoidant. He was always 10 feet away from Ness, one step ahead, all to conceal his insecurities. But what happens when Ness jumps a mile ahead and confronts Kaiser?
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Old Habits - A Cycle That Never Breaks by bqzare
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
05 Jun 2025
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uhhhh second ao3 fic… lowkey forgot about my first one!! both characters may be OOC, please give me tips in the comments on how to portray them better!!!
TW: Self-Harm, mentions of abuse, PTSD, flashbacks, ETC! (Read Tags)
Michael Kaiser struggles with self-harm, he always has. He believes putting himself in dangerous situations will help him. He inflicts past trauma onto himself, hoping for the best. He embraces his trauma, trying to use it to his advantage. He pushes away love, finding peace in discomfort and pain. Alexis Ness tries to help him on his journey, always sticking to his side. Go on a journey with these two through their complicated feelings for each other and about themselves.
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Michael Kaiser struggles with old habits that linger, and Alexis Ness tries to relieve him of his troubles.
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Don’t Forsake Me. by bqzare
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
15 Apr 2025
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Rui Kamishiro has abandonment issues and Tsukasa Tenma has PTSD.
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Hesitantly Xie Lian steps out of the alley he’s apparently standing in, moving from it into the great avenue beyond, and then he freezes as what his subconscious has been trying to tell him hits him harder than any blow.
He knows this avenue.
He knows these houses.
He knows the river and the accents and the clothes.
And better than all of it, he knows the palace rising from the avenue’s end.
This is Shenwu Street.
This is Xianle.
OR Xie Lian wakes up in Xianle ...800 years in the past.
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Can't Control My Mind, I'm Just Thinking 'Bout You by orphan_account
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Cartoon)
12 Apr 2025
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Xie Lian wasn’t… entirely sure when his ‘problem’ started. All he recalls is that one day he woke up and, as hard as it may be to believe, he could hear the thoughts of those whom he touched, or who touched him.
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A Hualian Cherry Magic AU
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A Long and Slow Recovery by ardenrabbit
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
26 Dec 2024
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The light still doesn't make sense against his eyes, but he thinks he remembers something like color. There is a lot of color around him, and he is able to discern white and black and a great deal of something else. It's a breathtaking splash of vivacity on a new canvas, where there had been no canvas at all for so many eternities. It is the most beautiful thing he has ever seen.
Red, Xie Lian finally names it.
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In a disorienting turn of luck, Xie Lian is rescued from State Preceptor Fangxin's coffin. He recovers his other senses in good time, but his sight is taking longer to return—decades with no exposure to light have weakened his capacity for it.
His benefactor and worshiper, a wealthy and eccentric ghost named Hua Cheng, hasn't left his side for months.
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No Paths Are Bound by Cataclysmic_Calamity
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
08 Sep 2022
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Xie Lian found something in himself that he thought was gone—worn away with every mistake he had made.
Faith.
His arms opened, and the child was hesitant—but eventually, he fell into them, his body trembling with silent sobs.
"I remember you," he whispered again, voice breaking as Hong-er clung to him.
I remember you.
I remember you.
I will always, for as long as I live, remember you.
(A re-telling of TGCF where Xie Lian has his cursed shackle placed in his eyes, blinding him. And yet, through all of his struggles; there is always someone watching over him.)
(MULTIPLE TRANSLATIONS AVAILABLE)
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- Part 1 of MXTX - Retellings
- Part 1 of No Paths Are Bound + Extras
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Faded Glory by fuckingsherlock
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Cartoon), 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Webcomic)
04 May 2026
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After a devastating injury destroys aspiring Olympic Martial Artist Xie Lian’s career, he starts over and makes a friend in the most remarkable art student, Hua Cheng.