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    Shane is usually such a good puppy for Ilya.

    Usually. Not always.

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    Ilya: He should buy lottery tickets because he is the luckiest man on earth 
    Ilya: He should get on his knees and thank god everyday that he got to fuck you
    Shane: Oh my God stop
    Ilya: What? I do that

    Or: The man who topped Shane in Mexico posts about his experience, Ilya contemplates murder, and the other queer NHL players get caught in the crossfire.

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    Shane reached out without thinking, his fingers brushing against the rough fabric of Ilya’s jacket sleeve.

    Ilya flinched away. “Dun’ touch me!”

    Shane blinked, thrown. “What the - ”

    “I already have boyfriend!” Ilya declared, pulling his jacket around himself like a shield. “Are practically engaged!”

    Shane just stared. “Ilya. It’s me.”

    “Only my boyfriend may unwrap me.” Ilya announced. “Is respect.”

    Ilya gets drunk and refuses to be touched by anyone except his boyfriend. Unfortunately for Shane, Ilya does not realize his boyfriend is the one taking him home.

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    Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”

    “Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”

    He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.

     

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    Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.

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