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Dazai Osamu moves to a new city to escape the suffocating future his father has planned for him, only to become obsessed with the fiery red-haired neighbor smoking outside his window at midnight.
Chuuya Nakahara is an art student with expensive tastes, too many secrets, and a job he refuses to explain.
Neither of them expects the other to become impossible to ignore.
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The Shape of Staying, Part II: Fever in Your Name by I_hate_living
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
06 May 2026
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When Chuuya gets sick, Dazai discovers two things very quickly:he is worse at handling it than he thought, and Chuuya is far more stubborn than any fever has a right to deal with.
Or: Chuuya refuses to rest, Dazai refuses to leave, and caretaking turns into something softer, sharper, and impossible to ignore.
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- Part 2 of Skk Sickfic + Fluff
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In a prison made for monsters, Osamu Dazai is the one even monsters avoid.
Serving life for a string of brutal murders, he rules his cellblock with a smile and a secret kind of terror.
Then Chuuya Nakahara arrives—newly convicted, violently defiant, and impossible to break.
Dazai becomes obsessed.
In a world of locked doors, gang alliances, and corrupt guards, Chuuya finds himself trapped between survival and surrender as Dazai’s fixation turns deadly. Because Dazai doesn’t just want Chuuya close.
He wants him his.
And prison is the perfect place for a man like Dazai to prove that no one leaves once he decides they belong to him. -
You Were Always Leaving (the space you left behind) by I_hate_living
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
01 May 2026
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Dazai and Chuuya have always loved each other in the worst possible way—loudly, desperately, and never at the right time.
In their final year of high school, the line between friendship and something far more dangerous finally breaks. For a little while, it almost feels like they might survive it.
Then Dazai leaves.
And Chuuya is left behind with unanswered messages, unfinished promises, and the kind of grief that never really ends.
Or: two boys in love, and all the ways that still isn’t enough.
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When Dazai arrives at Chuuya’s apartment feverish, rain-soaked, and entirely too pleased with himself, Chuuya does what he always swears he won’t: lets him in.
One stormy night of soup, medicine, jealousy, stubborn tenderness, and far too much shared space turns into something softer than either of them is willing to name out loud.
Or: Dazai gets sick, Chuuya takes care of him, and both of them are unbearable about it.
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- Part 1 of Skk Sickfic + Fluff
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Chuuya is in love with his boyfriend. He really, really is. After all, how can one not love their soulmate?
His boyfriend has one fatal flaw, though. The flaw can walk, talk, retort, offend, and, with a doubt, fly spaceships.
Chuuya doesn't fall in love with flaws. He falls in love with stability, precision, kindness, and wit.He doesn't know that Dazai has all of that, and much more.
Bookmarked by I_hate_living
03 May 2026
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Dazai and the Moving Detective Agency by forest_raccoon
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
06 Mar 2024
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Chuuya has the misfortune to run into a very irritating wizard detective, and the next thing he knows, he's trapped in a tangled web of curses, weretigers, and scarecrows. He did not sign up for any of this.
[Or: A rather chaotic mashup of BSD and Howl's Moving Castle (both the book and movie canons)]
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- Part 1 of Tales from the Moving Detective Agency
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Bookmarked by I_hate_living
04 May 2025
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When Fuku begged Dazai to kill her excuse of a husband, he expected nothing more than fleeting amusement.
Then, the door opened.
And he saw her.
For the first time, the heart he thought long dead began to beat again.
From that moment, he knew—they were meant to be.
— Or: Dazai meets a neglectful mom and gets obsessed with her kid.
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22 Apr 2025
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Sasori doesn’t pay for tenderness. He pays for control. For excess that drowns out everything else. But with Deidara, the lines blur between power and surrender, possession and desire.
It's a game of dominance, obsession and the sweet poison of addiction.
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Bookmarked by I_hate_living
16 Apr 2025
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Deidara did not like talking about his upbringing. He didn't want the sympathy or the pitying looks. He especially did not want it getting credit for his obsession with destruction, violent outbursts or need for approval. For his art. That was all him, thank you very much.
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Deidara grows up, becomes a missing nin, joins the Akatsuki and somehow manages to find purpose along the way.
Bookmarked by I_hate_living
16 Apr 2025