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Rain began before sunset and settled over Yokohama like it had no intention of leaving.
It silvered the streets, softened the sharp edges of neon signs, blurred traffic into ribbons of moving light. Water slid in steady lines down the tall windows of Chuuya Nakahara’s apartment, gathering at the ledges before falling again. The city beyond looked half-drowned and distant, all color smeared into darkness.
Inside, everything was warm.
The apartment held heat well. Hardwood floors warmed by rugs. Lamps casting amber pools of light instead of the harsh white glare Chuuya hated. Shelves of books and records. Clean lines, expensive furniture, a wine rack selected with religious seriousness, and enough blankets folded over the couch to imply softness Chuuya would deny under interrogation.
The kitchen smelled of garlic, butter, and simmering stock.
Chuuya stood at the stove in socks and black lounge pants, sleeves shoved to his elbows, one hand stirring a pot while the other held a report folder open against the counter. His hair was tied back loosely at the nape. Music played low from the speaker by the bookshelf—something jazz-heavy and slow enough to blend with the weather.
It was, by any reasonable measure, a peaceful evening.
Which meant disaster was due.
The front door unlocked.
Chuuya did not look up.
“If that’s you,” he called, voice carrying easily through the apartment, “wipe your shoes or die.”
There was a pause.
Then Dazai Osamu’s voice floated down the hallway, warm with amusement.
“Such hostility. I crossed the city in a storm for love.”
“You crossed the city because you’re annoying.”
“Love wears many masks.”
The coat stand rattled. Shoes thudded against the mat. A moment later Dazai appeared in the kitchen doorway like a problem given human form.
His trench coat was damp at the shoulders. Dark hair slightly flattened by rain. Bandages visible at his wrists where sleeves had ridden back. He looked unfairly good for someone who spent most of his life acting like gravity was optional.
He also looked tired.
It was subtle enough that most people would miss it. A slight drag to his posture. Shadows beneath his eyes. The smile a fraction slower to arrive.
Chuuya noticed instantly.
“You look terrible,” Chuuya said.
Dazai brightened. “You noticed.”
“I always notice when pests infest the house.”
“And yet you leave food out for me.”
Chuuya turned back to the stove. “You have thirty seconds to explain why you’re here before I charge rent.”
Dazai wandered in without invitation, trailing cold air and rain smell. He leaned over the pot.
“What’s for dinner?”
“Poison.”
“It smells delicious.”
“Move.”
Instead of moving, Dazai inhaled appreciatively. “Something with broth. You only make broth when you’re in a good mood.”
“I make broth when I’m hungry.”
“You’re also humming.”
“I am not.”
“You were.”
“I’ll kill you.”
“See? Humming.”
Chuuya finally looked at him properly.
The flush high on Dazai’s cheeks did not belong to the weather.
“Come here.”
“How commanding.”
“Now.”
Dazai tilted his head but obeyed, stepping close enough that Chuuya could catch his jaw in one hand and press the back of the other to his forehead.
Warm.
Too warm.
“You’re sick.”
“I’m radiant.”
“You have a fever.”
“I have admirers.”
“You have three seconds to stop being stupid.”
Dazai’s eyes softened in that dangerous, private way he reserved for moments when no one else was around to see sincerity.
“I wanted to be sick somewhere nice.”
Chuuya’s hand dropped.
That answer landed harder than it should have.
He scowled to hide it. “You’re pathetic.”
“I know.”
“Take off the coat.”
“Is that an invitation?”
“It’s a threat.”
Dazai smiled and shrugged out of the damp coat, draping it over a chair like he belonged there.
He did not.
He absolutely did.
Chuuya hated that those two truths could exist at once.
---
Cooking with Dazai nearby was less a task and more a test of endurance.
He insisted on helping in the same way hurricanes participated in architecture.
He opened cabinets, inspected contents, asked useless questions, stole slices of carrot from the cutting board, and leaned against whichever section of counter Chuuya needed next.
“You’re swaying,” Chuuya said after the third time he noticed Dazai subtly bracing himself.
“I’m graceful.”
“You’re feverish.”
“I’m elegant.”
“You coughed twice.”
“I coughed artistically.”
“Sit down.”
“No.”
Chuuya pointed to the chair by the table.
“Sit.”
Dazai crossed his arms. “Make me.”
There it was. That familiar glint. Even half-sick, he could not resist provoking disaster.
Chuuya set down the knife.
He crossed the kitchen in three steps, caught Dazai by the wrist, spun him neatly, and pushed him into the chair by both shoulders.
The chair scraped loudly.
Dazai blinked up at him, then grinned.
“How thrilling. Manhandled in your kitchen.”
“You need to shut up.”
“You need to admit you like doing that.”
Chuuya leaned in until their noses nearly brushed.
“I need you quiet.”
Dazai’s gaze flicked to Chuuya’s mouth.
“That can be arranged.”
Chuuya straightened so quickly he nearly gave himself whiplash.
“Stay there.”
“Yes, chef.”
“I hate you.”
“Deeply mutual.”
But he stayed seated, elbows on the table, chin in one hand, watching Chuuya cook with infuriating attention.
There was something unnerving about being observed by Dazai when he wasn’t performing. No mockery. No elaborate nonsense. Just those dark eyes following the movement of Chuuya’s hands, the turn of his wrist, the lift of steam from the pot.
“What,” Chuuya snapped eventually.
“You’re domestic.”
“I’m cooking.”
“You chop onions like a husband.”
“You’re delirious.”
“You tied your hair back.”
“That means nothing.”
“It means everything.”
Chuuya threw a dish towel at his face.
---
They ate at the small table by the window while rain traced soft rivers down the glass.
The soup was rich and savory, loaded with vegetables, herbs, and slices of crusty bread on the side. Dazai took one spoonful, closed his eyes, and sighed like a man receiving revelation.
“Marry me.”
“No.”
“Cruel.”
“You ask every time I cook.”
“I mean it every time.”
“You mean nothing responsibly.”
Dazai opened one eye. “That hurt.”
“Good.”
He ate with real hunger, not the absent-minded picking Chuuya had seen too often when Dazai was exhausted. Spoon after spoon, shoulders loosening by degrees.
Chuuya watched him despite himself.
“You didn’t eat today.”
Dazai paused. “Accusation.”
“Observation.”
“Rude.”
“Answer.”
Dazai tore off a piece of bread. “Busy.”
“That isn’t an excuse.”
“It becomes one if I say it enough.”
Chuuya’s expression hardened.
Dazai noticed immediately.
“Don’t.”
“Don’t what.”
“Make that face.”
“What face.”
“The one where you decide whether to yell at me or take care of me.”
“I can multitask.”
“I know.”
The humor thinned.
Rain filled the pause.
Finally Dazai set down the spoon and said, lighter than the words deserved, “I forgot.”
Chuuya stared.
Forgot.
As if food were optional. As if bodies were machines to be inconvenienced by.
“You can’t keep doing that.”
“I’ve done it for years.”
“That doesn’t make it smart.”
“It makes it efficient.”
“It makes it stupid.”
Dazai smiled faintly. “There’s the concern.”
“Shut up.”
“You worry too much.”
“I worry exactly enough.”
For a moment neither moved.
Then Dazai reached across the table and took Chuuya’s wrist.
No flourish.
No grin.
Just warm fingers closing around pulse.
“I came here,” he said quietly.
Chuuya looked down at their joined hands.
That was true.
Dazai, who disappeared whenever pain got too close to name, had come here instead.
Progress. Terrible, inconvenient progress.
Chuuya turned his hand and squeezed once.
“Idiot.”
“Yours.”
Chuuya kicked his shin under the table.
Dazai looked delighted.
---
The fever climbed steadily after dinner.
By the time dishes were stacked in the sink, Dazai’s responses had slowed. He stood in the living room pretending to browse records while very obviously using the shelf for balance.
Chuuya dried his hands and watched for ten silent seconds.
Then: “Bedroom.”
Dazai glanced over. “Scandalous.”
“Now.”
“You move so fast.”
“You’re about to fall over.”
“I’d do it beautifully.”
“Bedroom, Dazai.”
He went with suspicious obedience, drifting down the hallway while Chuuya followed carrying water, medicine, and a blanket because Dazai somehow managed to be cold and burning at once.
The bedroom was dim except for the bedside lamp.
Dazai sat on the edge of the bed and blinked at nothing for a moment.
“Tired?” Chuuya asked.
“No,” Dazai said, then yawned so widely his jaw clicked.
“Liar.”
“Sometimes.”
“Take your shirt off.”
Dazai looked up slowly. “You say the sweetest things when I’m vulnerable.”
“For fresh clothes, you menace.”
Chuuya threw him a T-shirt.
Dazai changed with maddening slowness, then slid beneath the blankets and sighed into the pillow.
Chuuya handed him pills.
“If I take these,” Dazai murmured, “do I get rewarded?”
“No.”
“A kiss?”
“No.”
“Hair stroked tenderly?”
“No.”
“Verbal praise?”
“Absolutely not.”
Dazai swallowed them.
Chuuya took back the glass.
Then, because his own body routinely betrayed him, he sat on the mattress edge and brushed damp hair off Dazai’s forehead.
Dazai smiled without opening his eyes.
“Predictable.”
“Sleep.”
Chuuya tried to work in the living room.
He made it twenty minutes.
Then checked on him.
Then again twelve minutes later.
Then eight.
On the fourth visit, Dazai opened one eye.
“You’re haunting me.”
“I’m supervising.”
“Fondly.”
“Medically.”
“Your footsteps are affectionate.”
“I hate you.”
“Mm.”
Chuuya folded his arms. “Move over.”
Dazai shifted instantly.
That annoyed Chuuya more than resistance would have.
He sat against the headboard with a folder in hand. Dazai rolled toward him like a compass finding north and placed his forehead against Chuuya’s thigh.
“What are you doing.”
“Cold.”
“You’re literally feverish.”
“Then imagine how cold I’d be otherwise.”
Chuuya opened the folder one-handed.
Dazai found his free hand and placed it against his chest.
Warm skin through cotton.
Steady heartbeat.
“Greedy,” Chuuya muttered.
“Resourceful.”
The report remained unread for several minutes.
Near midnight, fever loosened Dazai’s tongue.
He lay on his back staring at the ceiling.
“That broker flirted with you.”
Chuuya did not look up. “What broker.”
“The one in blue yesterday.”
“He wanted lower rates.”
“He wanted you.”
“He wanted survival.”
“He complimented your hands.”
Chuuya slowly lowered the folder. “My hands.”
“Yes.”
“You’re insane.”
“They’re elegant.”
“They sign documents.”
“They also pour wine aggressively.”
“You need sleep.”
“I need reassurance.”
Chuuya stared at him for a long moment.
Then he held out one hand.
Dazai blinked.
“What’s this.”
“Apparently the source of public unrest.”
Dazai caught the offered hand and kissed the knuckles one by one.
Slowly.
Chuuya forgot language.
“There,” Dazai said, eyes half-lidded. “No one else gets these.”
“You are impossible.”
“And soothed.”
“Sleep.”
“Say it.”
“No.”
“Chuuuya.”
“No one else gets my hands.”
Dazai smiled like sunrise.
“Wonderful.”
The fever broke sometime before dawn.
Chuuya woke because the heat beside him had gentled. The restlessness was gone.
Grey light edged the curtains.
Dazai was awake, watching him with sleep-heavy eyes.
“You stayed.”
“You trapped me.”
“With cunning weakness.”
“With dead weight.”
“Still counts.”
Chuuya tried to move. His arm was numb beneath Dazai’s head.
“No,” Dazai said.
“I can’t feel my fingers.”
“They belong to me now.”
“You’re a thief.”
“You adore me.”
“Incorrect.”
“Then kiss me and prove it.”
Chuuya glared.
Then kissed him.
Because sometimes resistance only prolonged problems.
The kiss was brief at first.
Then not.
Dazai’s hand rose to the back of his neck. Chuuya’s free hand braced against his shoulder. Morning quiet gathered around them.
When they separated, Dazai touched their foreheads together.
“Thank you.”
The sincerity of it was worse than flirting.
“Don’t be weird.”
“I’m grateful.”
“That’s weird for you.”
“It is.”
They stayed in bed far longer than either admitted later.
Every time Chuuya attempted to get up, Dazai tightened around his waist.
“I need coffee.”
“You need rest.”
“I’m not the sick one.”
“You’re recovering.”
“I need breakfast.”
“You need cuddling.”
“I need to hit you.”
“Violent affection again.”
Eventually Chuuya escaped by threatening cold water.
He returned with coffee and toast balanced on a tray.
Dazai sat up, blanket pooled at his waist, hair ridiculous.
“Breakfast in bed,” he said reverently. “We’re married.”
“We’re one complaint from homicide.”
“Still commitment.”
“Eat.”
Halfway through the toast, Dazai said, “Move in with me.”
“No.”
“You answered too quickly.”
“I’ve seen your apartment.”
“It has character.”
“It has mold.”
“It has mystery.”
“It has three cups evolving life.”
“That’s judgmental.”
“It’s accurate.”
“Then I’ll move in here.”
“You already infest the place.”
“Excellent. Settled.”
“Nothing is settled.”
Dazai smiled over his coffee cup like victory tasted rich.
By afternoon he was fully recovered and therefore intolerable.
He followed Chuuya room to room asking questions.
“Why seven wine bottles?”
“Because taste.”
“Why is this sweater softer than ethics?”
“Put it down.”
“Why two toothbrushes?”
Chuuya froze.
Dazai held up the spare toothbrush with delight.
“Oh,” he breathed. “You planned for me.”
“It’s practical.”
“It’s devotion.”
“It’s hygiene.”
“You thought of my smile in the toothpaste aisle.”
“I thought of your germs.”
Dazai looked absurdly pleased.
Chuuya snatched it back and shoved him toward the couch.
“You need boundaries.”
“You need honesty.”
“I need silence.”
“You like me.”
Chuuya stopped.
Dazai stopped too.
The room quieted.
“You know I do,” Dazai said, softer now. “But you—”
Chuuya crossed the room, grabbed his shirtfront, and kissed him hard enough to cut the sentence in half.
When he pulled back, Dazai looked stunned.
Then delighted.
Then terribly gentle.
“There,” Chuuya said. “Figure it out.”
Dazai touched his mouth. “You’re romantic when cornered.”
“I hate you.”
“No,” Dazai said quietly. “You really don’t.”
Chuuya had no comeback for that.
He hated when Dazai was right.
Evening came blue and slow.
They cooked together this time, which meant Chuuya cooked while Dazai stole ingredients and clung from behind.
“You’re in the way.”
“I’m supportive.”
“You’re attached.”
“Correct.”
“You’re heavy.”
“You’re beloved.”
Chuuya elbowed him lightly.
Dazai only laughed and held tighter.
They ate on the couch with a movie neither watched. Shared wine. Argued about plot holes. Kicked each other’s legs under the blanket.
Eventually Dazai stretched out with his head in Chuuya’s lap.
Neither commented.
Chuuya’s fingers drifted into his hair.
Dazai sighed like a spoiled cat.
“You’re ruined,” Chuuya said.
“By love.”
“By indulgence.”
“Same thing.”
Rain tapped softly at the windows again.
Dazai’s eyes drifted shut.
“Stay tonight,” he murmured.
“You’re already here.”
“I know.”
“Then what are you asking.”
A pause.
When he answered, the words were almost too quiet to hear.
“Stay because you want to.”
Chuuya’s hand stilled.
There it was beneath all the nonsense.
Not obligation. Not illness. Not emergency.
Choose me on an ordinary day.
He looked down at the man trusting enough to ask honestly only with his eyes closed.
“Idiot,” Chuuya said softly.
Then:
“Yeah. I want to.”
Dazai smiled without opening his eyes.
“Mine.”
“Possessive bastard.”
After a beat, Chuuya added, quieter,
“You’re mine too.”
That night they argued over blankets in the dark.
“You steal them.”
"You hoard them.”
“You become horizontal greed.”
“You radiate cold.”
“I am small, not cold.”
“You are both.”
Chuuya kicked him.
Dazai caught his ankle and tugged until Chuuya yelped and collapsed against him.
The laughter faded.
Moonlight striped the room.
The city glowed faint beyond curtains.
Dazai’s hand settled at the nape of his neck.
“Stay tomorrow too.”
“Greedy.”
“Yes.”
“Annoying.”
“Yes.”
“Needy.”
“Painfully.”
Chuuya tucked closer, face hidden in Dazai’s shoulder.
“Fine.”
A kiss touched his hair.
Then another at his temple.
Then one to the corner of his mouth.
“Insufferable,” Chuuya muttered.
“Loved,” Dazai corrected.
Silence stretched.
Then Chuuya sighed like surrender.
“Yeah,” he said into the dark. “That too.”
And because there was no one there to witness it but the rain, he let himself be held until sleep came.
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