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  1. Public Bookmark 13

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    HAH!! You get it! You really get it now!!

    You will never get to die! You will never get to rest! Never! You could take your dagger to your throat a hundred, thousand more times and it would never mean a damn thing!! Your suffering means nothing; YOU mean nothing. You are going to be trapped in this stars-forsaken prison, LOOPING and KILLING and DYING and ERODING UNTIL THE END OF TIME!!!

    Or maybe—maybe you’re already dead! Maybe this—the sunny meadow, the fleeting touch, the victory, hesitant and hopeful and warm in your hands finally, finally, finally—is all just your own personal hell!!

    Your limbs shiver, violently, freezing from the inside out despite the bright sun that logic tells you must be shining so lovingly in the distant and fuzzy world of the living which exists beyond the brim of your hat. You wish you could feel it. You wish you could be real. But you know, you know, the sun cannot warm you. You are detached, other. 

    (you don’t remember what the sun feels like anyway)

    (can’t miss what you don’t remember ever having~!)

    Your throat constricts like a noose.

    For some demented reason, you laugh. 

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    07 Apr 2026

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    You don’t want to be this anymore. You wish you could be something else entirely.

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    Things have smoothed out since Siffrin broke free from the loops, except for one thing. Their family is giving them distance, the last thing Sif wants. Desperate for touch, they turn to the universe, subconsciously reaching out and wishing for its help- and the universe answers. By turning them into a cat.

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    28 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 33

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    "It's not cute! It's weird!" You gasp. "I've been carrying you all in my pockets for months just for my own comfort without telling you!!!! Just so I can pretend I'm squeezing you so hard I break your bones!"

    "Siffrin." Odile tilted her head in that way she does when she's amused with something you've done. No. Not again. "Most people would call that cuteness aggression."

    … Wait, what?

    "… What's that?" You ask dumbly.

    "It's like when you see a little puppy and you just wanna shake its little face around!" Mirabelle smiles.

    "Or make silly noises and shake your friend back and forth when they do something funny!" Isabeau adds.

    "More specifically," Odile spoke. "It's a sense of wanting to act violently towards something you find … cute, and it is completely normal."

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    Siffrin's darkest most evil secret is found.

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    28 Jan 2026

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    It can be hard, sometimes, for Siffrin to remember that the loops are over. Sometimes that's just frustrating. Sometimes it's dangerous.

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    14 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 99

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    mirabelle had hoped siffrin would talk to people whenever he started feeling rough again--she just didn't think he'd come to her

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    13 Jan 2026

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