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    “I decide,” Ilya repeats. “You do not have to worry about it. You do not have to think about what is enough and what is too much. You just have to eat what I tell you.”

    “That’s crazy,” Shane says automatically. But his pupils are blown wide, his lips slightly parted.

    Ilya gets abruptly to his feet. He takes Shane’s plate, heaps a large slice of lasagne on it, and moves around the table until he’s standing right next to Shane. He puts the plate down. Shane looks from him to the food and back again; Ilya almost imagines he can see the flutter of Shane’s pulse at his throat.

    “Eat,” Ilya says.

    Post-retirement, Shane finally lets Ilya take care of him. So what if he gets a little fat as a result? His husband certainly doesn’t seem to mind.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    It’s not like his mom had been celebrating Ilya having a fucking heart attack. It’s just that if Shane hadn’t been such a coward, he would have told his parents about Ilya sooner, and then maybe none of this would have happened at all.

    After a fluke cardiac event leaves Ilya with an anoxic brain injury, he and Shane attempt to cope with their new normal.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Media: Here is the goodest most normal boy.
    Me: Oh so he’s a lil fucked up, got it. Here he is developing a bruise kink on top of everything else going on.

     

    Something’s different, just in general. Like wearing sunglasses, a filter of sorts over everything, but if Shane was in any way honest with himself, he’d know it was more like going without for the first time.

    He’s painfully aware of his body these days; how it looks, how it moves, how it responds to… stimuli. And it is responding, lately. His bruises, too: always just there, so used to them they’d barely registered anymore, but recently there’s been a sort of constant hum of them at the edge of his awareness. It’s a layer of input he really doesn’t need right now, busy as he is.

    But he’s been woken up. Restless. Needy.

    Late in bed, when all his chores are done, fingers travel up to his collarbone, where the newest acquisition is waiting for him.

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    30 May 2026

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    "Oh my God, what?" Shane demands, nervous now.
    Ilya swears in Russian again. "Is, um. The condom."
    Fuck. "What about the condom?"
    "On porvalysa," he says, like he can't fucking bring himself to say it in a language that Shane can understand. Then he finally looks at Shane, mouth covered like he's a cowering dog afraid to show Shane his teeth. "It broke."

    Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander are twenty, on top of the world, and a little irresponsible about it. This is the crash.

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane made a decision a long time ago: he wants hockey, needs it, and he wants it for as long as he can get it. He's going to play till he can’t anymore, and he’s going to do all the right things so no one can ever argue otherwise.

    But also: he knows his body well, and he’s worried about an emerging pattern.

     

    Or: the Shane abortion fic

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    10 May 2026

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