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    A series on (mis)communication, starring Shane and Ilya as they navigate their relationship (plus Rose and Svetlana, eventually). Kind of a mosaic of missing moments, Hollanov revisiting early relationship lore and sometimes just having some (horny) fun.

    Fics are meant to be read as standalone stories, but contain references to one another. They span from pre-cottage to married life. I tried to arrange them chronologically, but the 5+1s are all over the place time-wise.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    The day before Ilya's birthday is a bad one. His Shane takes care of him.

     

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    Part of the To Give and Hazard All series, can stand alone.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Ilya was good at noticing things about people, and he was good at understanding them. Shane was not. That was okay. Shane had developed his own way of getting to know Ilya. It involved a lot of inane questions and, more importantly, no longer involved condoms.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Summer at the cottage is the first time Shane and Ilya have been able to spend any significant time together. Naturally, it comes with some revelations.

    Or, Five Things Russians Do Not Do, A Detailed Observational Study By Shane Hollander.

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    13 Jun 2026