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    Ivan suggests they watch porn together. For some reason, Till agrees, and the videos Ivan picks are...weird. The actors bear a strange resemblance to himself and Ivan. It's inspiring, but not in the way Till anticipated it being.

    “Teenage boys watch pornography together all the time,” Ivan confirms. His expression doesn’t waver even a little bit. He is serious, isn’t he?

    “Can you at least say ‘porn’ like a normal person?” Till folds his legs up into his chair, propping his chin up on his knees. Ivan’s fingers fly over the keys, his mouse glides smoothly across the branded pad that came with the computer, and he opens his web browser. When he types ‘porn’ into the address bar, there are no suggested websites that appear. He either never watches it, or he clears his history every time like a creepy stalker freak.

    Ivan adds ‘ography’ to the end of the word before he hits enter. Till despises him. Really and truly, he hates Ivan.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Angel presses on. "Do you want to die?"

    Of course he wants to die.

    He wants to die just as much as he wants to live. Just as he is now devil and human, just as Angel is both beautiful and monstrous. Aki swallows the smoke and it kills him a little, just as it makes life a little more liveable in return. That's how it's been for most of his life.

    "That's not what this is about," he says simply, unable to explain it.

    Alive, Aki has survived by selling away his heart. Alive, Angel's memories have come back along with guilt. They find solace and understanding in the only person who sees them for what they are.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    the way akiangel always hits

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    Hinata laughs quietly, his eyes seeming to glow in the dark as he grins in Kageyama's face. "Make me."

    Kageyama and Hinata wind each other up. They sling insults, pick fights, and challenge each other every chance they get, both on and off the court. It's just how they are. It's what they do.
    But when the tension between them leads to an impulsive action neither of them expected, Kageyama has to question whether this is all a normal part of rivalry, or if what's between them runs deeper than that.

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    02 Sep 2025

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    the characterisation here is so unbelievably well done and realistic. the writing is beautiful, without feeling too flowery. the subtlety of the way the feelings are portrayed match perfectly with the thrum of denial that beats at the heart of this story. simple, magnificent, quiet yearning.

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    “So, you don’t want to kiss a man anymore?”

    “I didn’t say I changed my mind about that,” Till replies. “I’ll just ask someone else.”

    “Just try it,” Ivan says. The words are sweet, but the sheer amount of venom in them is nothing if not a warning.

    whenever till kisses men, they always mysteriously vanish in the next few days. he knows why that is. but the thrill of the chase is much too fun to give up.

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    10 Aug 2025

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    Kageyama is selfish.

    This is what he thinks when he lets Hinata sit so close to him that their sides press together. Hinata’s babbling, lunchbox empty on his lap. Kageyama chews carefully for once. He tries to concentrate on the food instead of the warmth at his side, practically cocooned into his ribcage.

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    05 Aug 2025