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  1. Public Bookmark 1

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    Series of vignettes on Shane smoking, how he and Ilya talk to their daughter about addiction as she grows up, and the relationship between love and addiction. Smoking is central to this story, but, as Ilya will continue to remind Shane, smoking does not define him. Post-TLG and canon compliant except that Ilya is a non-smoker and Shane is addicted to nicotine.

    Backstory: Shane inexplicably starts smoking at 27. He gets addicted quickly. He sees his addiction as a personal weakness and is deeply ashamed. The secrecy, shame, and fear of being discovered create ongoing tension in his relationship with Ilya. Ten years later, Shane is still an elite player, but years of smoking and hiding eventually impact his health and game. He retires at 37. Post-retirement, Shane and Ilya talk about having kids. They both desperately want to be parents, but Shane insists he must stop smoking first. He spends a year trying and failing before finally quitting. They adopt a newborn who they name Katya. The are happy—really happy. When Katya is four months old, Shane relapses.

    Work is fully mapped. Title is a play on Love in the Time of Cholera.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is part of the Russian mafia, ever since he was young he would get what he wanted, no thanks to his father, the king of the empire. So when he runs into Shane Hollander, a host at a diner, he decides he also wants him. No matter what it costs him.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov try to live an inconspicuous life whilst being very very much in love. Shane transfers to a new college and finds some friends whilst Ilya is still famous hockey player.

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    Shane Hollander is a college student, Ilya Rozanov is a hockey player, no one knows they're married.

    (Title is a lyric from So Easy (To Fall In Love) by Olivia Dean)

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    20 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 10

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    “You want to go outside for some fresh air, malysh-“ As Ilya talked he witnessed in slow motion as his Shane, who never drank during the season, who never even thought of drinking or eating outside his strict plan, was suddenly picking up a wine glass from the waiter walking around the room.

     

    “Ah, thank you so much!” exclaimed Shane, sounding cheerful for the first tonight.

    And consequently, he gulped down almost all of the liquid in one go. Eyes pinching as the wine taste grated at his throat.

    OR: Shane starting to indulge in alcohol after his outing and consequent move to Ottowa as it was the only thing, other than Ilya, that made his brain go fuzzy.

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    18 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    17 May 2026