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    “Perfectly fine. I’ll be good as new in a couple of days.” 

    “Good.” A moment of quiet on the other line. Shane could hear Ilya breathing. 

    “I love you so much. You know this, yes?”

    “Of course I do. And I love you too. I’ll see you…” Shane had to consider when the next day they could visit would be.

    "When you see me," Ilya supplied.

    “I'll see you when I see you. Okay. Sure.”

    “Bye, Shane."

    “Bye.”

    The Boxing Day argument doesn't happen, Ilya doesn't seek professional help, and he and Shane keep pretending everything's fine. In the last few weeks of the season, Ilya reaches a breaking point. After saving his boyfriend's life, Shane is forced to grapple with the broken pieces, figure out what went wrong, and try to slot everything back together again.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in the front pew. His face is—Ilya does not have words for what Shane's face is doing. He has seen Shane angry and afraid and exhausted and soft and undone. He has never seen this: living at the very bottom of a person, surfacing only when every single thing above it has given way.

    This is what it looks like when Shane has nothing left to manage.

    Ilya reaches for him.

    His hand passes through air.

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov turns the same age his mother was when she died. Featuring strange dreams, tarot readings, and a woman with her back to him who keeps appearing where she shouldn’t.

    A man who spent twenty years preparing to die, and one husband who refuses to let him.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.

    Ilya is alive.

    Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.

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    AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Yuna doesn't like him.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Have more drinks. Go to the next bar. Then the club. The bass throbs and it’s like if your heart can follow the pulse of it, maybe it will keep beating. You’re the last ones left. You can’t go home, because home is where all the rest of it waits. Luca stumbles into you and blushes so easily with blue eyes so wide — desire that he doesn’t know what to do with as his gaze slides to your mouth like someone else you once knew.

    What’s the worst that can happen?

    Shane and Ilya had a plan. Ilya being outed by pictures of him getting a blowjob in an alleyway behind a club from Luca Haas was not part of the plan.

    A not-very-nice Hollanov infidelity fic.

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    05 Jun 2026