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    A collection of standalone but related stories surrounding secretly married Dazai and Chuuya. They just take place in the same universe and happen in the order listed. Enjoy!

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    At fourteen, Dazai is the one to find Chuuya after the lab explosion.

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    He watches Chuuya fall asleep, slow and soft, in small bits. He is so beautiful, and he is mine. All mine.

    I am the first person he smiled at.

    I am the first person who said his name.

    I am the first person who has held him like this.

    He is mine. He will always be mine now, after these things.

    Dazai thinks, for a moment, that he might not ever get to feel things, or see the world the way most people do, or find a reason to live. But he can live for this, for him. For this boy. He does not care about birds or parks or trees or people, does not feel all that much when he sees the sunrise or sunset or the stars and the moon. He does not like dogs or children. He does not like the world.

    But he likes Chuuya. He likes the way Chuuya looks when he is looking at all these things.

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    24 Jun 2024

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Feel like crying? Read this. 💕💕💕

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    Death held the weapon high above his head. “We will never recognize each other again.”

    Life looked up through wet lashes, but his eyes reflected sharp, angry determination. “We are both damned,” he hissed. It sounded like a prayer. “You will never escape this.”

    Death’s answering grin was sharp as knives. “I suppose you’ll never know.”

    Or, Dazai Osamu is the latest Angel of Death sent to the mortal realm. When he awakes, he does not expect to find a strange red-haired boy standing over him. When Nakahara Chuuya is on his way home, he does not expect a strange dark-eyed boy to crash-land in his field.

    Neither of them expects to fall in love either.

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    09 Mar 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Holy shit. So good.

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    “Who are you then?”

    “I am Dazai. Dazai Osamu.”

    Chuuya’s eyes opened wide. He blinked a couple of times, then let out an incredulous breath. While retreating into his chair, he mumbled, “I... didn’t think it would work.”

    “It really didn’t,” Dazai smirked. He made sure to inflect his tone with scorn and mockery; let it be known that he would not bend to a human’s fleeting desires. “That is not my real name.”

    “It is.” Chuuya inclined his head to the side, curls caressing his features in fire, highlighting the redness of his cheeks — he was embarrassed, Dazai mused. Humans’ foolishness really was amusing: they had so little time and spent so much of it feeling. “As long as we’re together, that is your real name.”

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    Dazai is the Lord of Dreams. He breathes life into humans' dreams and nightmares, despite not being interested in them at all... until he encounters one human that wishes to live forever.

    And so, Dazai and Chuuya start meeting every hundred years.

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    14 May 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This is incredibly well written and I love it so goddamn much

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    The word caught in Chuuya’s throat, time seeming to freeze. In the moment he let his guard down and raised his gaze, he had already braced himself for what was to come—to see the lively, deep eyes, glowing at him for a fleeting moment before turning into their lifeless, stone version of them.

    But that didn’t happen.

    With Dazai’s hand still on his chin, Chuuya saw something of incomparable beauty, something he would never be able to liken to anything else for the rest of his life. Milky-white irises, practically blending into the whites of his eyes, gazed at him softly, and the smile playing on Dazai’s lips seemed almost visible in his pale pupils.

    “You—You’re blind,” Chuuya choked out. It probably wasn’t the most appropriate thing to say, but he couldn’t muster anything else. Dazai stood here before him, looking him straight in the eyes, alive. It was something Chuuya had never expected to experience again in his lifetime.

     

    or, medusa! chuuya AU, where he had spent years in cursed, eternal solitude. but a fateful encounter with a blind man named dazai seems to bring colours back into his dull existence.

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    29 May 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This broke me - but it’s also maybe one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read.

    A new favorite for sure.

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    Chuuya always knew he would die young. He knew this fact since he was king of the sheep, and it was only made all the more true once he joined the mafia. Still, he clung to life like a leech and managed to make it all the way into his 20s before it was confirmed.

    Nakahara Chuuya would die in a month's time.

    In that time, he prepares those around him for a world without him. If he were to truly die, he needed to fill in the holes that would be left once he passed. Ane-san, Akutagawa, and especially those in the Detective Agency. After all, his 7 years of knowledge regarding Dazai had to go somewhere, right?

     

    When asked about one Dazai Osamu, most would shiver and mutter the lines of "that man seems to know everything". It's a false statement, of course, since that fact goes to his coworker, Ranpo. No, it's not that Dazai knows everything, it's just that he plans for everything. Most things are fickle, after all, and can't be expected to remain the same.

    The only exception is Chuuya. The sky is blue, grass green, and Chuuya will always be there. It's the way the world works.

    Except for when it isn't, and Dazai's world suddenly stops spinning on its axis.

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    14 Jun 2025