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    Here are some facts:

    Six months ago, Ilya and Shane sat on Ilyas’ couch, in Boston, and said, we want to be more, even if it has to be in secret.

    Four months ago, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander bought new houses. If asked, they would both say it was a complete coincidence. They were not asked, because most people do not browse Zillow for fun in their free time (Shane-) and the real estate of hockey players was of very limited interest to even the most hardcore fan.

    Two hours ago, Shane Hollander was bleeding out on the ice.

    Yuna and David Hollander were at least three hours away, at the exact moment their son hit the ice. Yuna Hollander is a perceptive woman. If she enters the house, she will know her son does not live alone.

    Here is the most important fact Ilya knows right now: Shane would not want to come out to his parents like this.

    Ilya has one hour to wipe his existence from his boyfriends’ house.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    10 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 67

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    As Shane moves through and beyond his final season with Montreal, he finds himself carrying the weight of how he was treated - by teammates, management, and fans alike, and as he settles into his new life in Ottawa with Ilya realizes that it may have left a bigger impact on him that he originally thought.

    Or, what if, post TLG, everyone ends up in therapy to unpack the 2020/2021 season.

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    08 Aug 2026

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    Shane is having a hard time with new meds, and to make it worse, Ilya is at home with an injury while the team is in Dallas. Things just keep on piling on top of this shit sandwich for Shane when he gets arrested.

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    08 Aug 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 99

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    After being a witness to an horrible accident on the ice, Shane Hollander, riddled with PTSD, surprisingly retires from playing hockey for the NHL in 2015. The reasons for his Retirement are kept confidential and vague, the official statement only mentions an career ending injury.
    He needs years to even manage to set foot into an ice rink again but eventually manages to become an assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs, to reconnect with his beloved sport in some way.

    Ilya Rozanov had dealt with his fathers death and the final fallout with his brother alone. He feels lost and lonely in Boston and never wants to return to Russia. To secure permanent residency in Canada, he approaches a trade to Ottawa, shocking the entire hockey community.
    He won’t admit it to anyone but after Shane Hollander disappeared from the NHL and his life almost 3 years ago, a part of him disappeared too. The Centaurs are currently still the worst team in the devision but something about playing in the hometown of Shane Hollander draws him there.

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    08 Aug 2026