Selfish Prayers
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Holy Water by CursedNurse1
Fandoms: Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout 3, Fallout (Video Games)
26 Oct 2025
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"There is a way to lay down the burdens of the past. It is an old tradition, older than the bombs—older than the vaults, even. A ritual of water and forgiveness.”
Purified water at her thighs. Vault 101’s utility bay repurposed for sacraments. “A baptism.”
Joshua nods, slow and solemn. “Yes. Let me baptise you, Courier. Let me help you leave these sins behind. Wash them away, here in Zion, beneath the stars. You do not need to carry this anymore.”
(The Courier has a crisis of faith. Joshua has a proposal. Or two.)
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- Part 1 of Selfish Prayers
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Spare the Rod by CursedNurse1
Fandoms: Fallout (Video Games), Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout 3
04 Jun 2026
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He doesn’t touch her. Not yet. He lets the promise of it do the work first. Heat from his chest presses across her back. There’s a soft rasp of cloth where her top meets his ballistic vest. His arm cages the space beside her hand; the other hovers at her hip.
“I think that my little wife needs to be reminded what happens when she tests her husband past his patience," Joshua states firmly.
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The Courier deliberately distracts Joshua Graham from his Bible. Fortunately, the good Lord provides an opportunity for learning)
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- Part 2 of Selfish Prayers
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Katie keeps her eyes on him, refusing to let the silence win. “Joshua,” she says again, softer this time but no less certain. “I’ve never asked before. Not once. But I need to know why you won’t let me see you. Why you always wait until I’m asleep.”
(The Courier and Joshua are at an impasse over his wound care habits.)
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- Part 3 of Selfish Prayers
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Kyrie Eleison by CursedNurse1
Fandoms: Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout (Video Games), Fallout 3
28 May 2026
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Whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.
The verse arrives like an indictment. Matthew, chapter five. The Sermon on the Mount. Christ making it clear that sin isn’t just action but intention. It’s the wanting itself.
And Joshua wants.
Oh, how he wants.
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Joshua Graham catches the Courier learning to swim in the river and suffers a moment of crisis.
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- Part 4 of Selfish Prayers
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The view from behind is... educational. The worn jeans follow every shift of muscle as he adjusts his position. She finds herself wondering what it would feel like under her palm. Firm, she imagines, the denim sun-warm and the body beneath it solid.
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The Courier is very distracted by Joshua Graham's unreasonably tight jeans.Series
- Part 5 of Selfish Prayers
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Stone & Smoke by CursedNurse1
Fandoms: Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout 3, Fallout (Video Games)
20 May 2026
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Katie’s head snaps up. There, at the far end of the shelf, someone is sitting with their back against the canyon wall. The small orange point brightens as they inhale, dims as they lower their hand. Smoke curls pale in the moonlight, dissipating into the canyon air.
She knows the shape of him immediately.
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A homesick Courier stumbles across Joshua Graham smoking.Series
- Part 6 of Selfish Prayers
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Bible Study by CursedNurse1
Fandoms: Fallout: New Vegas, Fallout 3, Fallout (Video Games)
04 Jul 2026
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"This feels like an overreaction to some casual swearing, Joshua."
"There is nothing casual about the profanation of God's name, wife. Especially from a woman who once administered His sacraments."
(The courier keeps taking the Lord's name in vain. Luckily, Joshua has some effective methods for dealing with such transgressions.)
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- Part 7 of Selfish Prayers
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The linen pauses, mid-wrap. Then continues, the same pace. "She is devout," Joshua says, selecting the word carefully. "She takes her faith seriously. She sees in me the faith of New Canaan, and finds instruction there."
Katie scoffs. "Instruction. Right. I don’t remember looking my old Vault chaplain like that."
"Like what, wife?"
"Like she'd take the fucking moon out of the sky for you, if you asked."
(A Dead Horses Warrior is crushing on Joshua Graham. The Courier isn't happy about it at all, and reasserts her mating rights.)
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- Part 8 of Selfish Prayers