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  1. Public Bookmark 54

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    “It's the same, right? You should understand.”

    “As boxing?” When Ilya nods, Shane scoffs. “It's not.”

    “Yes. Is.” Ilya cracks his neck once-- Shane's eyes catch on the stretch of skin before he flicks his gaze back to Ilya's face. He's looking at Shane intently. “Pushing. Forcing. Winning.”

    “That's not…”
    It wasn’t always about that for Shane. Yes, he wanted to win, he wanted to be the best, he wanted to beat the best, but it wasn't about making any other player submit to him. For Shane, it was as much about strategy as it was anything else, about wrapping his head around the rink and knowing exactly how it would go, about executing the perfect victory.

    Still, he can't quite say Ilya is wrong. There was something about it, about shoving another player into the boards, about a clean hit, about a fight on the ice, gloves off. Sweat sticking to his skin, blood pumping in his ears, adrenaline making his vision blurred. Teammates else brawling right beside him, blood in his mouth or dripping from his nose--

    Woodenly, he shrugs again.

    // retired hockey player-turned-physical therapist shane x cocky boxer ilya... mm....

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    12 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 25

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    “Worth the wait?” Ilya asks, head pillowed on Hollander’s shoulder: a soft place to land, he thinks, delirious.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    OOF

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    A series of social media/epistolary fic exploring the world Shane and Ilya live in post The Long Game. Written before Unrivaled!

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    28 May 2026

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    MWAH

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    So Shane Hollander is, how do you say in English, a dirty little thief. A clothing thief, to be precise. Ilya can't say he saw that coming, but he also can't pretend he's all that mad about it.

    His shirt looks good on his Shane. On Shane. On Hollander.

    Right. His shirt looks good on Hollander.

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    27 May 2026

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    hurts so good :)

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    So fuck yes Hayden was a little jealous, shit, he was only human. But he was secure in his position as Shane’s best friend. Rozanov was a shiny fellow hockey god, but he was also an Olympic-caliber asshole, and Shane had spent his entire adult life hating him. He’d get bored of talking about how much he hated Reebok soon enough, and he’d make his way to his usual seat by Hayden’s side and he’d treat himself to one of his vegan cookies, and everything would be as it should be.
    Hayden leaned back in his seat, stretched his legs into the aisle, and waited.

    Or: Hayden Pike is slow on the uptake

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    21 May 2026

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    a commenter said “'Hayden finds out' is consistently one of my favorite storylines" and yeah me too man