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Evan looks at the backs of Connor's hands; the bumps of his knuckles like marbles under his skin. Black fingernails, trimmed short and freshly painted. His arms and his jaw and the thin, splintery bones of his throat like bird wings. Connor’s chest, Connor’s hips, Connor’s legs, Connor.
And for some reason.
For some stupid reason.
Evan looks down at himself.
He’s never really done that before.
(OR: Connor is beautiful. Evan has a breakdown. Also sex.)
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06 Jul 2026
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The Sudden Obliteration of Expectation by JulietRose
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
12 Jun 2020
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The majority of Evan’s thoughts after falling were not very coherent. Most of it was fairly obvious and to be expected after failing to kill yourself: there was the realization of what happened, the crushing sense of failure, and the pain. The pain was blinding. His head spun and it felt like gravity was working in reverse. But all of that was still preferable to what came after he went numb.
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04 Jul 2026
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sun's seen through my eyes by cecropia
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
19 Aug 2020
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“What’s that?” Connor asks immediately. When Evan looks up, his eyes are still narrowed.
Evan has to shut his eyes shut real tight to be able to say anything.
“Um… it’s… it’s for you.”
Connor just blinks at him. After that, his eyes are wide, almost with confusion. “It’s for me?”
(Evan's having a birthday party.)
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28 Jun 2026
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Connor's colour is red.
Evan's colour is blue.
Reaching out is hard but it can give you something worth holding onto--
AU. where you're born only able to see one colour and the rest of the world is monochrome. Touching your soulmate's skin for the first time instantly gives them your colour. And then over the next 24 hours you get the rest of them too.Bookmarked by chiakiki
26 Jun 2026
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sick of losing soulmates by GemstoneKitten
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
26 May 2021
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Evan goes for a late-walk after the first day of school. He encounters Connor on an overpass, and prevents him from doing something permanent.
It’s not every night Evan talks someone down, and he doesn’t feel safe letting Connor walk away, so they spend the rest of the evening together. They find, hey- maybe neither of them need to be as alone as they usually are.
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16 Jun 2026