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  1. Public Bookmark 29

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    “We love you, Carol.”

    She is sixteen and can’t meet her parents’ eyes as they try to say goodbye, her duffle bag at her feet and Camp Freedom Falls in front of her. She doesn’t want to be here. She doesn’t need to be here.

    Fuck this, and fuck them.

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    or: Carol Sturka and her complicated relationship with loving and being loved

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    22 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 34

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    Carol's mom dies. Carol cleans up after her. Helen picks up the pieces.

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    22 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 20

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    The end of the world in three parts.

    First, Carol saves the girl (done)

    Second, Carol saves the world

    And then, just maybe, she becomes okay with just being good.

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    22 Mar 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 19

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    It’s only been a little over a month, but already the warmth of Helen pressed against her chest is an anchor, any tension in Carol’s limbs unspooling over the steady thrum of her pulse.

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    snippets of carol and helen, before.

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    22 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 31

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    “I mean, are you just not into me? ‘Cause you can just say it. I’m not that thin-skinned.”

    Carol is staring back, totally blank. Her lips have fallen just slightly open — those perky pink lips that press together when she hears something funny, that tug sideways when she’s embarrassed, the lips Helen’s watched sipping glasses of wine for months now and has never been allowed to touch.

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    22 Mar 2026