alluvz
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All I’ve ever truly wanted was a best friend who actually considered me the best of their friends. And now I sit here. Stuck in a loop of liking people far more than they like me.
Somebody kill me.It's honestly embarrassing how much I try being friends with my friends.
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2 boys get in a 'fight' and stop being friends over a misunderstanding
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“Why are you acting like this?”
He tightens his arms around skeppy, holding him as close as possible. He's not sure what he was referring to. “What do you mean? Acting like what?”
“You’ve been ignoring me.. And pretending like I don't even exist.” He responds angrily to the demon.
His heart hurt seeing skeppy act out like this, he was never like this. He’s aware that he had been ignoring the boy for the past couple days but hearing him talk about how it made him felt made Bad feel increasingly worse about it. His whole expression softened as he pulled him even closer “It’s.. It’s not like that.. I swear.”
Skeppy shoves him off, “Then what is it like bad?!”Or
What begins as argument and avoidance between two boys slowly shifts into vulnerability and raw connection.
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10 Thousand Words Worth Of Memories by penformeri
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
31 Dec 2025
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It was cold, and Dan was bored. The journal rested easily on his palms; he hadn't opened it since Phil went away.
He doesn't have the heart to, but the only thing he fears is losing the memories of the love they once shared before losing everything.
In which, Dan kept a journal that kept every single memory and every single moment that led to their messy breakup, rereading it only to reunite with Phil through the pages again, Phil doesn't bother reaching back.
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31 Mar 2026
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There's Always Gonna Be An Ending by penformeri
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
17 Apr 2026
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“Hey, Martyn here… Phil really liked this pretty girl back at his school and um the ‘girl’ was actually a guy— his name is Daniel Howell… or Dan as Phil would say and they've been really getting along— he uh— he says some things about letters and how the other guy doesn't really like to talk bullshit… it seems to have helped Phil a lot when he was you know…
But now he ran like crazy out of the house and uh— tripped almost actually…Um… He was moving with urgency like super speed just threw on a fucking scarf and all— might have something to do with Dan the pretty guy… but uhm— I just wanted you to check on Phil yeah?
And call back… I hope I do hear something’
The line goes dead.
The lake that felt freezing cold felt more like that too.
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27 Mar 2026
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The Other Side Of A Loop by dandrogynous
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
17 Nov 2016
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“Well, but you're brave,” Phil says. Dan smiles slightly and leans his head on Phil’s shoulder again. “Braver than I am.”
“I’m scared of the dark,” Dan tells him. “Not brave.”
“I’m scared of putting new shoes on top of tables. Even more not brave.”2011 slice of life - moving in and dropping out
title from Seigfried by Frank OceanBookmarked by alluvz
24 Mar 2026
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“When I look at my old pictures, all I can see is what I used to be but am no longer. I think: What I can see is what I am not.”
- Aleksandar Hemon2009 except Dan is a trans boy
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- Part 1 of self-made man
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21 Mar 2026
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i won't break your heart if you can break my spell by red-string-of-phate (milo_greyby)
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
30 Mar 2026
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October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.
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“The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”
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formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult
(title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)
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14 Mar 2026