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    Ilya Rozanov's life takes an unexpected turn when a deadly plane crash in 2021 takes his life, right after a fight with his long-time partner, Shane Hollander. Though instead of the afterlife, Ilya is sent back to December 2008, just before his NHL career began, on the very day that he first met Shane. He finds himself in a familiar world, with knowledge of both the future and knowledge of the man he loves and the friends he holds dear.

    As Ilya navigates this new reality, he rebuilds his relationship with Shane, who is still finding his path in both hockey and his identity as a gay man. With their rivalry blossoming into a different experience than the one Ilya experienced the first time around, the two face challenges around acceptance, family pressures, and the struggles of being openly gay and lovers in the sports world. Throughout their journey, Ilya contemplates his first life, cherishes the present, and strives to alter the course of their futures (and the futures of their friends) for the better.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov discovers first hand what the butterfly effect is, and how it can drastically alter the future.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    “What happened to your hands?”

    Ilya pulled his hand gingerly out of Shane’s grip, planning to tuck them both under his thighs where Shane couldn’t see, but Shane caught him again despite his disorientation, as if drawn to Ilya’s skin by a magnet. He blinked his huge, dark, bottomless eyes at Ilya as a heavy silence filled the space, and Ilya felt like he was standing on the edge of a cliff, being pulled forward over the precipice with nothing to grab onto.

    “It looks like you hit someone.”

    Alternate ending for the club scene from episode 4.

    What if Shane had stayed to drink away his feelings and talk to a new friend instead of leaving with Rose? What if Ilya was the only one who could protect him from the fallout?

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    20 Mar 2026

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    “I wondered if you might be able to… hint that Rozanov and I are friends. On my Instagram and other social media. So, once we announce it, the fans won’t be as shocked,” Shane said.

    Nicole blinked. “You want me to soft launch that you and Ilya Rozanov are friends?”

    “Soft launch?”

    What was this life Nicole had found herself in? About to explain a soft launch to two-time MHL MVP Shane Hollander?

    Rose tells Shane to hire her friend Nicole as his social media manager. Over many months, Nicole starts to notice that Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov might be a little bit more than rivals and friends.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    What if the video never leaked and their relationship was still a secret when Shane joined the Ottawa Centaurs? The team wait in anticipation for Rozanov's reaction to his career-long rival joining their team... but wait a minute, they're jumping into each other's arms, giggling like a couple of schoolgirls?

     

    Aka 5 times Ilya and Shane’s 'friendship' seems really gay and the 1 time everyone realises it’s been actually gay the whole time.

     

    Cue the Ottawa Centaurs being absolutely clueless, the Montreal Metros mourning the loss of their best player, and the Centaur WAG's (+Harris) being absolutely done with their ignorant partners.

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    25 Feb 2026