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There was a wooden box under Ivan‘s bed, filled with memories.
Memories he hid from the world, until they burst at the seams.
Or: Ivan gets hanahaki and makes it everyone else‘s problem.
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22 Sep 2026
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“Every god had believers, and every believer had a god. Till and Ivan had each other.”
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Ivan– vice president of the student council, star player and captain of the football team, won medals in olympiads– he’s basically the cream of the crop. Everyone knew him.
He’s charming, kind and always ready to help. It’s no surprise that he’s an Alph– beta? He’s a beta?!
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EmoJock Alpha x Beta tiiv
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21 Aug 2026
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As we rest here alone like notes on a page,
The finest to compose could not play our pain.
With a candle through time I can still see your ghost.
I hate that it seemed you were never enough,
We were broken and bleeding but never gave up.
And I hope that I sing through your memory.
I hope that we meet in another life
("Another Life" by Motionless in White)Ivan looks at the stars, their flickering echoing painfully in his chest, the quiet glow reminding him of familiar eyes.
"In another reality, if I were to reach out, would I be able to reach your heart?"
Or Ivan is plagued by blurred memories of his past life, and Till is a suspended college student who seems too familiar to be a stranger.
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15 Jul 2026
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All of me, huh? Could he do that? He'd done so much in secret for so long, it felt terrifying to drag it all into the light. But for Till? For himself and the chance that this time, maybe, they could be different?
"Yeah."
And then Till looked over his shoulder, caught Ivan's gaze and held it. "Thank you. I know I'm really late in saying it. But I'm also really, really happy that I still have the chance to say it at all."
Till believed Ivan died sacrificing himself for him. Ivan believed Till died in the fiery destruction of the Alien Stage.
And neither knew that the other survived.
Eight years later, Till has settled into caring for the children he'd rescued from the Alien Stage Museum with the help of the rest of the Rebellion, while Ivan continues working to fulfill what he believes would have been Till's last wish. When they're reunited, they have the chance to say everything they should have said once upon a time and to discover the mutual love that once eluded them. But only if they can overcome all the scars that mark them.
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- Part 1 of The Absence of Stars
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12 Jun 2026
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Tell me all the time not to worry
And think of all the time I'll have with you
When I won't wake up on my own
Held close all the time, knowing I'm half of you· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
or, yet another Ivan lives AUSeries
- Part 1 of Ivan lives AU
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22 Oct 2025
Bookmarker's Notes
“ Ivan’s heart has always been just another one of those objects that he would ‘borrow’ from Till to see how he would react when he would return them. It is currently in Ivan’s possession, strictly speaking, but it has belonged to Till from the moment his tiny fists first left bruises in the shape of knuckles on Ivan’s fair skin.”