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It was all over, some part of Tyler was happy about that, but some part was also reminiscent of his time at high school already, he had the diploma in hand and was close to heading to university, but first there was another thing.
He and Josh were back where they started, in his bedroom, this time sitting by the window, Josh was leaning out of it and looking out to the street while Tyler was lying on his bed, playing with a lose strand of his shirt.
They were there in silence, hadn’t spoken in minutes, but it was fine, they were finally fine.
It was a wonderful feeling, this freedom that they now had, but the uncertainty that came with it still made Tyler’s heart ache, in just a few hours, he and Josh would take the car, that they had bought from the money from the gigs, and drive down that street that he was now looking down on.
They would probably only drive for a few minutes to the other side of town where they would play their first show, back in the bar that Nick worked at. Jenna and Debby would meet them there, they had a date today in the afternoon and were probably sitting at the parlour eating ice cream right now.
In the morning of this Sunday, he had gone to Taco Bell and handed in his key to the store, his manager had been a little sad to see him go, but as she had known of his plans, she had said goodbye with ease. It wasn’t like he wouldn’t be coming back at all.
Living on the road for two months wouldn’t be easy, but they had a student housing apartment lined up for them in the fall that they would be able to move into in late august, if it didn’t work out after all, they could always just come back home.
His parents would take him back immediately, his mother had been on her feet all day, preparing stuff for them to take with them on the drive, now she was downstairs with an iced coffee that his dad had made her to calm her down.
He was taking all of this way easier, he had helped load Josh’s drumset into the car in the morning and fastened it so that it wouldn’t slide around, on the backseat, there was the keyboard from Tyler’s room.
Said room suddenly looked very empty, his posters had been taken down from the walls and the photos of them were stored in a box that was already in the car, together with a bag of clothes that included just the necessities, plus the green hoodie of course.
His bed was almost the only thing that still took up room, his dresser was still pushed against one of the walls and his desk was cleared of all his books, they were stacked into a box as well, tucked beside the drums.
Josh had packed some stuff as well of course, but they were sure that they would come back before the start of the term to get the last stuff that they needed for their apartment. Hopefully they would make enough money in the summer to afford some new furniture.
Especially new curtains, they now blew against his face when he leaned closer to Josh, his face was at level with Josh’s stomach and he was close to pressing a kiss against the bare skin there, his shirt had rucked up and exposed his hip bone.
Tyler wasn’t stopping himself this time, his lips pressed there and he heard a soft gasp come from the man above him, he glanced up at his boyfriend and found him smiling at him. Crinkles around his eyes and his hair falling in front of his face, the black had faded a little, but it was still darker than normally.
“What’s gotten into you?” he now asked a little taken aback by the sudden act of affection, they did touch each other often, but not more frequently than they already had before.
“Nothing. Just happy” Tyler sighed contently and sat up in the bed, the covers pooled around his waist and almost dropped to the floor, he picked them up and tossed them to the side.
He would have to make his bed later, but right now he didn’t really care about that, Tyler stood up and was now face to face with Josh, the silence stretching between them, it was a good one though.
Their expressions were mirrored although there was a little more sadness in Tyler’s eyes than in Josh’s, he was simply a more anxious person than Josh who always took things with more ease.
This was a thing that he absolutely loved about his boyfriend, he was able to get him down from his world ending scenarios so easily, just like he now laid a hand on his shoulder and rubbed circles into the skin with his thumb.
Tyler relaxed into the touch and let out a sigh, his eyes fluttered when Josh pressed a chaste kiss to his lips, nothing more than a short touch of their lips that shot sparks down his spine, he let out a breathless gasp against Josh’s lips and rid himself of the tension flooding his body.
His hand moved on instinct to Josh’s cheek and kept the other man from moving away from his body, he simply brought him even closer by his action and pressed their lips tighter together, this elicited a content grumble from Josh that echoed into the otherwise empty room.
Tyler smiled at that, his eyes were closed but he was still able to know that Josh was grinning as well, he felt it against his own lips.
With his tongue, he pried open his boyfriend’s lips and slowly let them move against each other, without any warning, Josh pushed him backwards and onto the bed. Tyler groaned at the sudden force and let out a laugh,
“What the fuck Josh! Come on, don’t injure me while I am trying to kiss you!”
“No no, I just want to be able to get closer to you” he whispered as he climbed down onto the bed as well, now he was towering over Tyler, his hair forming a halo around his face.
Josh pressed kisses along his neck, Tyler warned him,
“Don’t leave any marks, my parents are literally downstairs”
While nipping on his neck, Josh shot back sarcastically “They know we are together, let me have some fun”
When Tyler almost swatted him away at that reply, Josh quickly ducked away and let out a breathless laugh, it seemed like he had learned his lesson and pressed a kiss to Tyler’s lips now instead, just to shut him up.
It worked, of course, his boyfriend was just great at kissing and letting him get lost in the touch of their bodies. Tyler’s hands found their way into Josh’s unruly curls and gently lifted him just centimetres away from his face.
Their noses touched and Josh immediately pressed a kiss to the tip of Tyler’s, it tickled him and he let out a breathless laugh. Now that they were a little apart, Josh was able to pepper kisses on his cheeks and even trail them a little lower.
This time, Tyler didn’t stop him, he simply left his hands in Josh’s hair and gently petted it while Josh nipped on the skin at the juncture of his neck. When he let his teeth sink into the skin just a little, not too much to leave a mark, Tyler let out a hiss between his clenched teeth.
He could already feel himself get aroused by this, he was only wearing joggers and he knew that if he would get hard, Josh would take notice immediately, that wouldn’t be so bad though.
So Tyler let Josh mindlessly kiss his body for just a few seconds longer before he sat up to pull his shirt over his head and toss it to the side, the now exposed skin was immediately attacked by Josh.
“Your parents can’t see here” he stated and started mouthing at a place that he knew Tyler was ticklish at just below his bellybutton.
Tyler knew that leaving hickeys was very irresponsible of them, but it just felt so good, he let out a dreamy sigh but was then suddenly surprised by a pressure on his ever getting more recognisable hard-on.
Without a care in the world that his parents were downstairs, he let out a breathy moan and pushed his hips up into Johs’s palm, he really hadn’t planned for today to go like that, but he wouldn’t trade it for anything.
Josh suddenly stopped in his tracks and stared up at Tyler, his brown eyes were blown and his mouth slightly red, Tyler knew that he was mirroring that exact expression.
“Can I?” he asked playing with the strings of Tyler’s joggers.
“Yes please, come on Josh!” Tyler almost yelled which made Josh leap up and clasp a hand over his mouth,
“You’ve got to be quiet, alright?”
“Yes yes, now get on with it” Tyler said impatiently, Josh immediately got to work, slowly he pulled down Tyler’s joggers to reveal his cock standing to attention, he wasn’t fully hard yet but he was surely getting there quickly now.
Tyler shuddered at the sudden cold, but that turned into a shout that was only silenced by his own hand when Josh took the tip in his mouth and swirled his tongue around it.
The taste was certainly not pleasant, Tyler knew that, he had also had his brief experience with blowjobs, but Josh took it without any complaints, sometime Tyler wondered whether Josh liked the taste of precum.
Something that Tyler had learned over the course of their relationship was that Josh really liked to give him blowjobs, it was almost as if he liked it more than Tyler himself. He certainly wasn’t complaining, Josh was great at them.
He sank down further and took what couldn’t fit into his hand, slowly he started to bob his head up and down and move it in tandem with his hand, Tyler could have screamed in pleasure of the tight heat, but he chose not to even tough it was very difficult.
The one hand that was still in Josh’s hair grabbed the strands harder as he found himself already tethering close to the edge, when Josh hollowed his mouth, he pulled at them just slightly.
It made Josh splutter and look up at him, his face debauched from his activities, Tyler smiled at him his face red and breath uneven.
“Don’t interrupt me” Josh muttered almost offendedly and since he almost always got what he wanted, Tyler let him get back to it.
Josh really was an expert at giving blowjobs, he knew just how to move his tongue or let his hands move downwards and fondle with Tyler’s balls or more recently occasionally cautiously press a finger against his hole.
They had never gone further than that, Tyler wanted it to be perfect for them, not rushed in his bedroom before they had to go.
Tyler looked down at Josh quickly before closing his eyes, he wouldn’t be able to hold out his orgasm for long if he continued to look at his boyfriend like that, with his mouth stuffed full of his cock.
His breathing had become erratic and when Josh pressed his tongue into his slit, Tyler came with a shout of ‘Josh’ on his lips without a warning.
He immediately scooted backwards on the bed and stared at Josh,
“Sorry, oh God I’m sorry, I should have warned you” he babbled apologetically as he saw Josh before him, his eyes a little watery and cum dripping down his cheek.
“It’s fine, you know I like how you taste” he chuckled and climbed up Tyler’s body again.
If he had been in a different headspace, Tyler would have pushed Josh away when he had bent down to kiss him, too grossed out by the fact that Josh had just swallowed his cum, but this time he let him slip his tongue into his mouth.
When Josh ground down onto his leg, he suddenly became very aware of the situation that his boyfriend was in,
“Let me go now, let me make you feel good, please” he whined. When Josh didn’t say anything, he stared at him which finally made Josh let out a breathy laugh, “Yes sure, if you really want”
Josh had always been precautious with Tyler, but today he had enough,
“Please come on, let me do it, I want to” he was close to begging, but he wasn’t sure if this already counted.
“Go on then, my perfect boyfriend, make me feel good”
Tyler couldn’t stop himself now, he flipped them over so that Josh was now the one on the bottom, his shirt had rucked up and Tyler finally helped him pull it off his head completely, he pressed open mouthed kisses along the ridge of his stomach and suckled a bruise into the skin of his hip bone.
Josh whined and tried to get Tyler to get a move on, but he quickly grabbed his hands and pinned them over his head, this made Josh moan and helplessly buck his hips up in hope for any kind of friction.
Not wanting to be the cause of his boyfriend’s death by depriving him of his orgasm any longer, he hooked his fingers into the seam of Josh’s jeans and pulled them down over his hips, unlike Tyler, he was wearing boxers that were now tented by a very obvious bulge.
Tyler continued to make his way downwards with his mouth and pressed a chaste kiss to where he presumed Josh’s tip was, the fabric there was a little soaked with precum and he let his tongue glide over it to savour the taste.
When even he himself couldn’t take it anymore, Tyler also removed Josh’s boxers and was finally face to face with his hard cock.
He started slowly and just wrapped his hands around it, slowly jerking Josh of, this made the most wonderful sounds come from the man above him as his now free arms reached for Tyler and found place on his shoulders.
Josh didn’t push him, but some part of Tyler wanted him to realise that he wasn’t fragile, so with uneven breath he said more confident than he thought he would,
“Come on, fuck my mouth, please I need it, I am not fragile, Josh please” he whined out loud when Josh now placed a hand in his hair and pulled him up by it, he gasped surprisedly, but when Josh looked at him with hooded eyes and asked,
“Are you sure?”
He nodded enthusiastically, Josh breathed out, “You’re gonna kill me one day, Tyler, oh God, I love you”
Josh stared with slow thrusts after Tyler had lowered himself and lapped around Josh’s cock experimentally for a few seconds, when he picked up his pace Tyler gasped but the comforting weight of Josh’s hand in his hair made him feel grounded.
Taking a slow breath in through his nose and feeling the stretch of Josh’s cock in his mouth, he let his hands wander around his boyfriend’s body, he finally placed them on both sides of Josh’s hips
The taste of precum was welcome to his lips and when he felt Josh’s cock touch to the back of his throat, he gagged a little much to his dismay and had to pull himself up just a tad.
Josh immediately checked if he was alright and after Tyler had given him the ok and slowly took him back into his mouth, Josh set a slow pace that was eventually going to make Tyler take matters into his own hands.
So, he started to sink down in time with Josh’s thrusts upwards which made Josh let out a breathless moan, Tyler felt his eyes water, but he didn’t care, he knew that Josh was close, his thigs were trembling under his hands.
He was right, as he often was, Josh quickly pulled him off and finished himself with just one drag of his hand over his hard dick, cum splattered on Tyler’s chest and a little on the lower part of his face.
Josh let out a laugh as he pushed himself forwards and wiped it off his boyfriend’s face.
“Come on, we gotta wash up a little before we can go down to your parents” he pulled a little dazed Tyler upwards and let him to the bathroom that was adjacent to the room, Josh grabbed a washcloth, wet it with warm water and continued to clean Tyler off.
He wiped the remains of cum of his lower body, after he had done that, he cleaned his face with such adoration that made Tyler’s heart want to leap out of his chest.
“I love you” he breathed out and turned around to press a kiss to his boyfriend’s lips.
“I love you too” Josh answered as if it had always been that way.
He silently cleaned himself off and when they emerged from the bathroom, he gathered up his clothes and slipped into them with ease while Tyler watched, when Josh was done with dressing, he turned around to see his boyfriend staring at him.
“Come on get dressed, we gotta go soon”
He pointed at the clock on the wall, it showed just a little after four in the morning, they would arrive at the bar around four and set up, after soundcheck it would be close to five probably, then they would have time until their show started at a quarter to six.
“Yeah, I know, I’m just gonna miss this” he stood there in his own old room that he had had ever since he had been a small child.
Now he was here with his boyfriend whom he loved and would go on tour with, they would move in together and spend time together even when they were in university in the next term.
“I know” Josh answered his voice small and uncertain, he walked over to Tyler and took him in his arms.
The hug was warm and Tyler laid his head down onto Josh’s shoulder, his arms flew to cradle Josh and grip into the fabric of his shirt.
“I don’t want this to end” Tyler sniffled.
“It’s not going to end. Nothing is going to end Tyler. We are just moving on and growing up. Come on, this year has been crazy, hasn’t it? And we are still here after all, so just a little change isn’t going to break us apart.
This time with you has showed me a few things.
I can be so fucking scared of something I so desperately want, something that makes me feel wonderful, something that I love. I can be afraid of taking a leap forward and doing something that I have never really done before.
But I can also just do the things that I am afraid of and hope for the best. The best isn’t always going to happen, you are going to fail and stumble, and I know this sounds crazy, but you’ll be sad and frustrated and angry all your life.
So, take these few moments that we have left in some sort of normality and let them be there to remind you that everything can be fine. That everything will be fine in some way. Maybe even a way that you cannot predict.”
Josh whispered quietly into the crook of Tyler’s neck and those were the words that he thought about for the rest of the day as he got dressed in some appropriate clothes and as they slowly packed their remaining stuff into the car, as Tyler walked through his room in search for anything important that he had forgotten.
Nothing that really mattered was there anymore, it wasn’t empty, he would still be able to return to it, but all that he needed right now was in a car downstairs where Josh was waiting for him.
Slowly he walked down the stairs and was greeted by his father sitting at the kitchen table, Tyler made his way over to him and when his father stood up, he embraced him.
“I’ll miss you, you know?”
“I’ll miss you too, but you won’t be far away, you can always come here if you need me or your mum. We’ll be there for you if you need anything at all Tyler.”
Together they walked to the front door where his mother was already waiting for him, Josh was there as well, leaning against the façade of their house.
Tyler hugged his mother as well and she pressed a wet kiss to his cheek.
“Come visit us alright?” she muttered.
“I’m not moving that far away, you’ll see me plenty I promise.”
“Well then, go and have fun, call from time to time, I want to know how the gigs go.” His mother said.
“Make some memories” his father added as he and Josh made their way to the car, hand in hand, “Goodbye” Josh also said and waved to Tyler’s parents when he slid into the driver’s seat and slowly backed the car out of the driveway.
Tyler put on their favourite radio station and when they drove onto the street, he rolled down the window and shouted,
“I’ll call you as soon as we are at the bar! Goodbye!”
Josh’s hand found its way onto his thigh and rubbed soothing circles into it, Tyler let out a breath that he hadn’t realised he had been holding.
The city brushed by them as they drove to the other side of town. The music blasting at full volume out the open windows, they were singing along.
Tyler loved this, he loved that he was finally finished with school, that he was going into uni, that he was playing music with his best friend, but he especially loved Josh.
A real fucking lot.
He was afraid of a lot of things that were there for them in the future, but he knew that he wasn’t afraid of loving Josh anymore.