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Dear father.
I apologize in advance for such a short and little emotional letter, but I think this resembles your presence throughout my life.
I don’t know why I write to you, Alzheimer’s has taken you a long time ago, even though your body is still physically present. However, I still think I need to do this.
You never understood and never will understand the sadness that surrounds my soul, since to you I was a man with much to live, the way I lived.
But I think many of us simply do not settle for the basic that you settled for during all the days of your mediocre and basic life.
In the end, I envy you, since you loved a woman who, even without loving you, stayed by your side for her entire life. I did not want a life without love, but I wanted at least for her to be with me.
I will go now, because I do not want to fake smiles at your funeral and also because the only woman I would like to be consoling me will never be able to be there.