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Rain always knew it would end like this.
Honestly, he had expected this to happen sooner .
But knowing it was coming didn’t make it hurt any less.
It was raining.
The water chilled him to the bone.
God, he really wished he had drove to Phayu’s place this weekend instead of letting his boy- ex boyfriend drive him.
He had contemplated walking to his mother's house, longing for the isolation of his bedroom to break down in peace.
But that was a nearly forty-minute walk, and Sky’s place was about ten minutes closer.
He just hoped Sky wasn’t with Pai this weekend.
A hiccupped sob escaped him before he could force it back, and Rain gritted his teeth as he tried desperately to make the tears stop.
Crying wouldn’t change anything.
It never made anyone come back.
He had learned that years ago.
With a list of old friends from school.
With his father.
And now, with Phayu.
The name sent a shockwave of pain through his entire body.
Phayu, the first person Rain had ever loved.
Phayu, the person Rain had trusted with his first everything.
Phayu, the man who inspired Rain on a daily basis.
Phayu, who somehow grounded him and encouraged him to fly all at the same time.
Phayu, who as of thirty minutes ago, finally kicked Rain to the curb.
Well sort of.
Phayu wouldn’t ever actually kick Rain out, he was far too nice for that even to people who deserved it.
But Rain had a lot of experience with knowing when he wasn’t wanted anymore.
And Phayu had made it pretty clear tonight that Rain wasn’t someone he could deal with any longer.
He was too messy.
Too forgetful.
He had too much energy.
He was too scatterbrained.
He wasn’t focused enough on important matters.
He was just too much .
Rain knew it all.
But still, he had allowed himself to hope.
Which, looking back, had been his first mistake.
Someone as great as Phayu could never be for someone like him.
Rain had known that from the start .
But he had still tried .
He tried to be good enough for his P’Phayu.
Really, he had.
Maybe not at first, but when Rain and Phayu were finally together he had tried to change himself into someone Phayu could be proud of.
He had made himself small, set several alarms to remember to message his boyfriend during the day.
He tried not to take up too much space at Phayu’s house and listened intently when Phayu complained about work or the garage.
And for a while, it seemed to be working.
But the thing about forcing yourself into a smaller mold was that you were destined to one day break out of it whether you wanted to or not.
He had gotten too comfortable.
Trusted too much in Phayu’s love for him.
But love was never enough when you were insufferable to be around.
By the time Rain made it to Sky’s dorm the sun had fully set, and he had to rely on the streetlights to see where he was going.
The second he stepped into the air-conditioned building he shivered, then winced as his wet shoes squished against the tile floor.
Feeling more than a little guilty for trailing water into the building and elevator, Rain was just glad he didn’t encounter anyone.
Before he knew it, he was in front of Sky’s dorm room and he knocked, praying Sky was home.
Thankfully he could hear someone approaching and Rain sighed in relief.
When the door opened, Rain raised his eyebrows in surprise for a second.
Prapai had opened the door and was staring wide eyed at him.
“Is Sky home?” Rain asked through his chattering teeth.
Pai just stared at him for a second before turning slightly to the side and calling for Sky.
The racer moved back a little and motioned for Rain to come in.
Then Pai closed and locked the door and walked down the hallway just as Sky came into view.
Sky looked just as shocked as Pai had to see a soaking wet Rain.
“Rain,” Sky breathed, moving to his side quickly. “What the hell are you doing here? I thought you were with P’Phayu this weekend.”
The mention of the man made Rain’s throat close up and he felt his tears begin again in earnest.
“Sky, he broke up with me.” Rain sobbed and Sky’s eyes widened even further.
A thump from deeper into the apartment drew Rain’s attention for a second before arms around him distracted him.
“Sky,” Rain protested weakly. “I’m going to get you wet,”
“I don’t care,” Sky huffed, but his voice was soft and gentle like it always was when Rain was upset.
Giving up on not getting water on his friend, Rain melted into the embrace and wept openly against his best friend's shoulder.
“What even happened?” Pai whispered harshly in the doorway to the living room.
“I don’t know.” Sky sighed just as quietly.
“Did he walk here from Phayu’s house? In the rain? ” Prapai demanded.
“I don’t know.” Sky repeated.
“That’s like a thirty-minute walk- even if Yu did break up with him surely, he wouldn’t kick him out in the rain.” Prapai sounded aghast at the thought, and that’s when Rain decided to speak up from his place on the couch.
He had showered and changed into a pair of clean pajamas that Sky had let him borrow and was feeling much calmer now, but the couple still kept sending him concerned glances.
“P’Phayu didn’t kick me out.” Rain explained, not liking the look on Sky’s face at the idea. “He would never do that.”
Both men turned to face him, a slightly guilty expression on their faces for talking about their guest right in front of said guest.
“Rain,” Sky frowned at him. “Then why did you walk here? In the rain? You should have called me to come pick you up.”
Honestly the idea hadn’t really occurred to him, and by the rolling of Sky’s eyes he knew that.
“I wasn’t exactly thinking clearly,” Rain insisted as he defended himself. “I was really upset, and P’Phayu just wanted me gone and I didn’t want to make him be around me anymore than he had to.”
Sky’s frown deepened and he moved to sit beside Rain on the sofa.
“What happened?”
Like every time he thought of what happened, Rain’s eyes pricked with tears, but he forced them back as he swallowed thickly.
“He broke up with me.”
“ Why? ” Sky pushed.
A bitter laugh escaped him.
“Because he finally figured out I'm not good enough for him Sky, why else would he break up with me?” Rain deadpanned. “He finally came to his senses and realized he could do better. He finally realized I'm not worth the effort.”
Sky’s expression dropped, one part sadness and the other part anger.
“You are good enough Rain. Phayu’s a fool if he thinks otherwise.” Sky scowled. “But what specifically happened today that triggered whatever argument you guys had?”
Realizing that giving vague answers wouldn’t be enough for Sky, Rain explained everything.
“Honestly, this is my fault.” Rain began. “You need to understand that before I tell you everything.”
“I make no promises. Now continue.”
“P’Phayu and I had planned to spend the weekend together, and we had already agreed that P’Phayu would come pick me up from class and then bring me back Monday morning. But P’Saifah ended up being the one to pick me up. He said P’Phayu was working late on an emergency work assignment, and he would be back later on in the night.” Rain continued, trying to be as emotionless as possible. “But it was getting really late. And I got hungry. So, I decided to cook. I didn’t know how late P’Phayu would be so I thought it would be nice if he had something home cooked to eat when he got back. But after I finished cooking, I got really tired, and I decided to go to bed.”
Rain swallowed hard against the wave of emotion that threatened to drown him.
“I forgot to clean up.” Rain whispered, wiping at his eyes softly. “Which was stupid and disrespectful because it wasn’t my house, and I know that, but I honestly just forgot. I swear I didn’t do it on purpose. I should have cleaned up during the day, but I kept getting distracted, I was doing that new project that was assigned yesterday. P’Phayu didn’t get home till just a few hours ago. And he got really mad when he saw the mess I made. He started yelling.”
Rain’s voice broke on the last work and Sky looked angrier now.
“Which I deserved!” Rain insisted when he saw the look on his best friend's face. “Really! He was working so hard, and I had made a mess of not only his kitchen but the living room too! I didn’t even think of how he would feel to come home to that. And then he started talking about how I take advantage of the things he does for me, and how he doesn’t think he should be dating someone so thoughtless of other people’s feelings. I tried to apologize but he didn’t want to hear it. He started to go upstairs, and I got up to follow him, but he said he needed time to decompress without me there.”
Rain winced as he remembered how those words had been like a knife to the heart.
A sharp exhale left Sky’s lips.
“P’Pai,” Sky gritted through his teeth, without looking at the racer. “I’m going to kill your best friend.”
But only silence followed, and when Rain looked up Pai was gone.
“Where did he go?” Rain frowned, and Sky looked back with a matching frown.
Then Sky’s phone buzzed, and they both looked at the message.
P’Pai
Gonna go beat the shit out of my bro, be home soon my Sky.
Rain’s eyes widened.
“He doesn’t mean-”
“Oh, I think that’s exactly what he means.” Sky looked pleased.