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April 29th, 2014.
A random Tuesday for the rest of everyone, but a certain someone’s locker was decorated in flowers, cards and confessions. He had cut his hair short to his ears over a modeling company requesting it. His lips pursed into a thin line as he opened the locker to find it stuffed with letters.
“I actually hate this-” He mumbled angrily, picking up the fallen letters.
“Well, you could tell a lot of people like you” I commented the bright side.
“Yeah, like I fucking want that” He rolled his eyes, stuffing the few in his backpack. “Hopefully there's some money in them for snacks later” He sighed, getting out his math book.
“I'm saving your present for this weekend” I smiled, “Hopefully you won't be pissed at it” I chuckled tilting my head.
“You guys I actually care about” He laughed, I stared at his smile a little too long for my own liking. We started walking to class together, Kida’ running up the Chuuya with cookies.
“I got your favorite!” He exclaimed, Chuuya grabbed the box with a smirk.
“Ginger snaps?” Chuuya shook his head, “Who told you these were my favorite?”
“Ranpo”
Both me and Chuuya busted up laughing. He hated ginger snaps. “I hate these-” He giggled.
“When I find that little sh-” Kida censored himself as he looked at the teacher. We all filed into the class. A few of Chuuya's admirers as I like to call them; were bombarding him with Happy Birthday's.
Math was pretty boring, along with the other classes we had. Over the day Chuuya's gifts increased to me holding them as well. They were expensive things from 8th grade Alphas who thought buying clothes was the way to go. Chanel shoes to Gucci shirts, and Chuuya didn't like a single gift he had gotten.
He hated the clothes he wore for clothing brands too. Chuuya on a normal day wore Hot Topic like it was his favorite person. He loved spiky belts and anime t-shirts. His favorite band at the time was My Chemical Romance and Fall out Boy. His new short hair suited that look way better.
Ranpo and Kida’ had already been picked up, and Chuuya's mom said I could come over. He had been complaining about each of the presents sitting next to me. His face was so cute when he was angry.
“I mean, I'd just take it all to donation, I'm sure some kid would love those clothes” I took out a Gucci shirt for example.
“I hate that none of them know me, I mean seriously, in what world would I wear this?!” He scoffed, “At least you, Ranpo, and Kida’ try”
“We're your best friend's though and also not trying to get in your pants” I chuckled in disgust.
“Truly” His teeth chuckled with fangs. Chuuya always had pointy teeth but this was a little new. How had I not noticed they had become so prominent?
“Chuu-” I mentioned, pointing to my mouth.
“Hmm?” He tilted his head, opening his mouth, “Do I got something in my teeth?” He pulled out his iPod to look.
“No it's not that” I shifted awkwardly.
“Chuuya! Dazai! 帰る時間だ！” Chuuya's mom yelled from her black SUV. We both got up in unison.
“行きます！” Chuuya called out, looking around to grab the bags. He stumbled coming up to the car.
“何これ？！” She exclaimed at the amount of presents surrounding us.
“Presents” Chuuya replied, putting them into the back of the car. I followed behind with the few I picked up, we both hopped into the seats in the rear.
“That's a lot of presents” Mrs. Nakahara replied, getting onto the gas. “How was school for both of you?” She questioned, Chuuya groaned at the thought.
“It was annoying” he replied in our native language. “I hate math”
“You have to learn, you can't just depend on looks alone” She turned her head to us in the back.
“Apparently Alphas will just buy me anything” Chuuya mumbled bratty under his breath.
“Chuuya” His mom said in a strict tone, “Being beautiful and smart is good”
Fuku was undeniably a beautiful woman who was smart. If anyone got their looks from her, it was Chuuya, Kōyō was also very gorgeous in the family as well. Although from my understanding unlike her mother she was an Alpha. That lady had learned English so fast and passed her proficiency test in less than a year. She also was working at a university teaching Japanese as well.
Chuuya huffed at her comment, laying on my shoulder in protest. “Fine, whatever” He waved off, “I don't wanna think about this stuff”
“Alright, what for dinner tonight? It is your birthday." She sighed.
“Can we go to that place with rice bowls?!” Chuuya shot up with excitement. “I love that place”
I smiled at Chuuya's request, he was so cute when he got excited. Fuku chuckled lightly at his reaction. “Sure, sure we’ll go” She confirmed. His eyes lit up in sparkles, with his recent modeling he had little carbs in his diet allowed. As harmful as that was, Chuuya ate whatever he wanted. With his high metabolism nothing really stuck to his sides at all. If anything he was already as twig as they came.
“Rice bowls…” He drooled at the thought of it.
We turned down my street, pulling into the end house’s driveway. Chuuya’s grandparents' house was a beautiful white surburban home with grey rocks on the trim. The inside was less homey, with lots of countryside modern design. When we got out of the car, Kōyō greeted us with a hug. Her and Mrs. Nakahara talking out the evening plans, me and Chuuya snuck past them. The living room had a white leather couch with a small pomeranian. The dog did not yip, just got up and excitedly licked our shins. “Pom POm-“ Chuuya chuckled, grabbing the dog up.
”Oh my grandson is finally a teenager!” Chuuya’s grandma scooped him up into a large hug, smothering him in kisses on his cheek. He groaned slightly at her actions, holding onto the dog for dear life. “Thirteen!” She gasped out with a smile, the dog finally free from squishing.
“I know, I can’t believe it” His mom came in, ruffling my hair and Chuuya’s hair.
Him and I slowly snuck our way out of the kitchen to the stairs, Pom Pom following behind. The adults were finally distracted from the evening’s plans, leaving us to finally make it to Chuu’s room. With the door closed, both of us sighed out in exhaustion; a huff escaping me as I placed down my backpack. Chuuya laughed following our escape, “Pom Pom barely even made it!” He giggled, the dog slightly barking to his name.
“I was scared for his life” I joked.
”Should be scared for mine-“ Chuuya pulled up his hair into an updo, his band bracelets jingling with every swish of his hand. He grabbed his ps4 remote, a smirk hitting his lips, “Wanna play?”
“You know I do-“ I grabbed the controller, landing on the bed with him. He pulled up Minecraft, both of us booting up the survival world together.
“Shit-“ He scoffed, “I think Kida’ had the diamonds last” He sighed out in annoyance.
“He did, it’s not in my inventory” I complained, “We can search for more” I notioned, grabbing a pickaxe.
“Yeah” His tone was monotone, with his jacket off, Chuuya had nothing but a loose band top. You could see every freckle that expanded over his shoulders, and with his hair up. I blushed at staring too long, you could see his neck. “Dude, you’re dying!” He exclaimed.
I jumped up, killing the skeleton, when did it become night? “Sorry, spaced out thinking about caves in the area”
“Well, get back to the base!” He laughed, I sped back, actually thinking about caves now.
“Dude… I think Kida’ raided all the caves nearby” I sighed, “We’re gonna have to go off-base”
“Alright, I’ll grab the coords” He pulled out his iPod to take a photo.
”I’ll grab the beds” I went to go mine them, my head suddenly became fuzzy, a weird tingly feeling.
”Alright, I made a boat” Chuuya sighed, I held my head in thought. What was I doing? I felt my skin become sensitive by the second. Was I about to have a meltdown? I know I wasn’t overwhelmed in the slightest, Minecraft was a healthy stimulant for me.
“Yeah, I’m-“ I felt my heartbeat pick up.
“Dazai? Are you okay?” He held the back of my head, I hadn’t even noticed I was laying back.
“I think it’s-“ My throat was so dry, my senses were so overwhelming, “A meltdown?” I knew I didn’t sound sure of myself. The room suddenly became so slow, the smell of ocean, tangerines, and amber assaulted my nose. “Do you smell that?”
”Smell what?” Chuuya asked, looking at me confused, I felt a wave of heat hit my body worse than I’ve ever felt in my life. I put my hand on his collarbone, grabbing onto his shirt. “Dazai?” He asked again, my hand went up to his neck, holding it there for a bit before pulling it back to my face.
I sniffed my hand again, the scent stronger, I lifted up as fast as I could. “I-“ The world shifted multiple times, my head becoming dizzy again, “I need to go home-“ I breathed, trying to keep my heartbeat down.
”Why are you trying to leave?” He pouted, the scent was even worse, intoxicating, “You can’t go on my birthday”
“Chuu, I’m afraid of myself right now-“ I held myself, my arms wrapped around me. “I don’t want to hurt you”
”Don’t leave Samu’” He started tearing up, the scent was getting progressively intense to the point of unbearable. “Please stay” He said the last line softly as a plea. “You still owe me your promise” His voice was above a whisper, but I heard every word.
“Chuuya I’m afraid-“ I felt him crawl on the bed, “I mean we’re too young-“ I interjected, “And I feel-“
His lips crashed into mine, I guess he was tired of waiting, my eyes blew wide, but my heart soared in an instant. His lips were so soft, hair too against my cheeks, his fangs lightly hit my lips. I pushed away gently, breathing softly while my head reeled over and over. “I love you” Chuuya bit his lip, “It’s not just like Samu’”
“I-“ More heat waves ran over my body, “Chuuya this is a very bad idea” I gulped my saliva in my mouth, why did my teeth hurt?
“For us to be together?” His eyebrows curved in anger.
”No I think-“ I looked to my left and right, “I’m in rut” I uttered out, like my last confession.
”And I’m in my first heat” Chuuya confirmed, “I want to keep kissing you” He grabbed my wrist, rubbing it on his neck. “I’ve been in pre for the last hour” His eyes glimmered with a certain luck, a certain emotion I could only describe as lust.
“We’re too young for-“ I gulped, looking down between us, “For that”
“Kissing, nothing else, I don’t want anything else yet” He promised, a pinky held out.
“Fine” I said, “No tongue, no grown up stuff-“ I nervously said.
”No grown up stuff” He clasped our fingers together, putting a kiss on my cheek.
“Okay” I confirmed, I still thought this was a very, very bad idea. The way Oda described how a Dominate Ruts went, it wasn’t for the weak. I didn’t feel normal, my vision going in and out as Chuuya grabbed my face again. His lips shifted lightly against mine, the room bursted with the smell of ocean. He was so pretty with his hair back, my fingers resting on his cheek, pinning back the ginger locks. My eyes opened on our actions, his red lashes still shut closed. Chuuya looked so beautiful under the dim light of the daytime. My heart was throbbing so loudly in my chest, his kisses ending with cheek pecks; his nose nuzzling into my neck. My senses got worse, the dizziness worsening, I felt myself black. I couldn’t see very much anymore, just the sounds of breathing. The feeling of skin, the small yips that escaped Chuuya, he seemed in distress, but I wasn’t aware of what was happening.
The taste of iron, like when I licked my self harm wounds back then.
Was it blood?
Did I? Hurt someone?
Was it my own blood, god I hope-
“Daz-”
”Daza-“
Somebody was calling me? Right?
”Okiro!”
Wake up? I was already awake.
“No! No please!” That was Chuuya’s voice. “It was my fault, I begged him-“
Distress, he’s in distress, I can smell it, almost taste it.
“Dazai, let go!” Pretty sure that was Koyo, “Somebody get Oda!” I smelled another Alpha, not as strong their smell was weak.
“Dazai, don’t go-“ Chuuya whispered, “You don’t have to listen to them” I was holding Chuuya, I could feel it, his clothes were still on.
Thank god.
”Chuuya, let go of him”
”Onee-San no-“ He begged, soft crying could be heard, “This is all I’ve ever wanted!” He screamed, the room got worse. She started dragging Chuuya away slowly, my fists swinging as another adult pulled me away.
“Let me go!” His screams were curdling, as I pushed my way through, trying to fight my way back to his side.
”Dazai yamate!” I heard Chuuya's mom yell. I felt myself growling, like some wild animal. I wasn’t thinking clearly at all when I was kicking, I swear my legs were just moving on their own, his mom holding me tighter.
”Let me go.” I felt an unfamiliar voice escape me, everyone started holding their ears and pinching their noses; finally breaking free I ran to get Chuuya out of Kōyō’s arms. I tried grabbing him past her restraint, but I couldn’t get past them.
Bite
Claw,
Hit-
“Shuji! Osamu Tsushima-“ His words hit like a thousand tons, “I’m very sorry I have to-“ The smell of rain, pine, and oak filled my entire being, the words-
Stop
Don’t continue,
Cease,
All of it made my body shake like a leaf, I kinda understand why this was banned in public. Fuku and Chuuya were shaking as well, but it was more out of fear than anger like I was. “Stop, please-“ Chuuya begged, “It hurts”
I felt myself get up to go to attack Oda, but I was more crawling at that point.
“Dazai, stop trying to fight everyone, Chuuya is safe” The room became clearer and so did my head at that point. “It’s just the pheromones, which you left me no choice but to use” He calmed down, Chuuya was crying silently.
”What happened?” I asked, the waves of heat still hitting over me. “I couldn’t see, or tell what I was doing” I mumbled out.
”Dominant switch, your first time witnessing it” Oda pointed out, “And mixed with a submissive, it’s pretty bad” He noted.
”Don’t take him away” Chuuya sniffled, “I need-“ He started sobbing.
”I have no choice young man” Oda noted, “When you get a clear mind, you’ll see it’s the heat talking” He snapped his fingers in gesture.
”Noo-“ Chuuya whined through tears.
”It’s already gonna be a lot to reverse that mark” Oda’s face curved upwards in worry. “Probably why you’re going crazy for this one to stay” He pointed down at me.
Mark?
I marked him?
I looked over at Chuuya, his neck was covered in bites. The taste of blood, that was when I must have- “I’m beyond sorry” I bowed immediately, my eyes looking at the tan carpet underneath me, fully bent over. What have I done? I know myself better than that, I know better.
“I wanted it” Chuuya mumbled, “It was my fault, I made you promise-“
”This is none of your fault!” Kōyō snapped, “It’s his-“ She gritted her teeth. “I bet he told you this was a good idea too, coerced you into it-“ Her eyes were like daggers. Oda stared at me with disappointment, a soft pouted sigh to his left.
”I did” I lied, Chuuya would get in so much trouble if he was the one-
“Oh you are grounded for a long time!” Oda snapped, “I’m debating if you should even get to go to his birthday or have-“
“Don’t lie!” Chuuya yelled, “Stop saving everyone from getting in trouble-“ His teeth showed as his bit into his words, “I convinced him, the whole time he said it was a bad idea!” Everyone stared over at Chuuya, in shock.
”Don’t lie to me right now Dazai” Oda bent down, I bit my lip over. “You know I hate it when people lie to me”
”I did it” I repeated.
Chuuya got up, pushing through Kōyō to grab my arm, “Stop it” More tears fell from his eyes, “You promised me, I made you promise-“
”Promise what?” His sister scoffed.
”Promise to kiss me” Chuuya admitted, “Almost a year ago I did, Dazai said we were too young, so I just-“ He threw his head into his hands, wiping tears, “And this time he said we shouldn’t-“ His eyes watered, “I told him I wanted to”
”This is no excuse for marking you” Oda’s mouth went into a line, “He knows better than to do something like this” His eyes peered over to me, as I looked away, “Good thing those aren’t permanent, and you can reject it”
“The scar might not be” Kōyō rolled her eyes.
Chuuya sniffed quietly, “I-“
“Did you beg for that too?!” Kōyō snapped.
”No, we both agreed-“
“I don’t even remember doing that” I felt myself cringe at that, looking down at my hands. Did I really do that? Mark him against his will? “I’m extremely sorry, I blacked out, I never meant to hurt-“
”I’m not hurt!” Chuuya defended, “We both said yes-“
”Neither of you legally said anything as you were under hormone influence” Oda corrected, “But I’ve taught Dazai better than that to be convinced to do something he knows could end this way” He sighed, annoyance reaching his face as he pinched his temples.
”I’m sorry again” I bowed, “I do know better, I should’ve gone home the moment symptoms started” I felt so humiliated, my first kiss and it ends in this?
I hate it here.
“I also apologize, If Chuuya needs any medical attention, I will take full responsibility” He switched to Japanese to tell his mom. “He is legally my child” He commented.
”No no!” Fuku lifted him up, shaking her head, “My son, it’s also his fault” She pleaded.
“No, it’s this little Alpha’s fault, I mean, are you seriously going to let him get away with this?!” Kōyō’s voice filled the room, “I mean in technicality what he did was illegal!”
“Kōyō, there’s no need, it was just an accident” His mom interjected, “They’re best friends”
“I understand your point of view, promise me Dazai will be grounded after this for a long time-“
”He can still come to my birthday right?” Chuuya blurted.
”I’m not even sure you will have a birthday considering your condition” Oda mentioned his current state. “But when you feel better, and Dazai feels better I’m sure you can come to his birthday”
“Come to his birthday?!” Kōyō snapped, “He shouldn’t even-“
”Sorry for Kōyō’s attitude” Fuku covered her mouth “She’s just passionate”
“Dazai, can you stand?” Oda asked me, I lifted off the floor slowly, my vision very blurry as putting those drunk glasses on in elementary school. “Good, we can walk home then” He turned quickly. I followed behind holding onto the walls.
”Wait!” Chuuya said from down the hall, I halted and leaned against myself. “Does he have to go?” His pout was paired by the most begging eyes I had ever seen.
“You al-“ I caught my breath, “You already know the answer to tha-“
Black
I think I was seeing black again.
I remember biting now, how the connection felt, how he sounded, I wish I had never done it. The yelling, him hitting at Kōyō, and I fighting his mom. How he felt underneath me, everything felt so right in that moment. He wasn't just beautiful, Chuuya was right, he was whole. Everything felt so apparent in that moment, so right.
His lips were so soft and slightly slippery. His waist was pretty, a cute belly button that sent my head spinning. The feeling of my fingers rested there, it was wrong, so wrong to want this at 13.
What were you thinking, Dazai?
I was being carried, like when I would fall asleep in the car. I could hear the puttering of rain in the background, his soft breathing. I heard the door opening with a creak. The smell of a thousand suns hit my nostrils. Sunflowers and honeysuckle; if a bee had a smell it would be this.
Who smells like that?
It wasn't Oda.
“We need to pick up some rut aids for this one” His deep voice said.
“Is Chuuya okay?”
“He'll be okay, just some rejecting-”
“Let me handle it” Amber whispered, my body transferred over to her. A feeling of calm surrounded my body, like little tingles.
“If you keep doing that-” Oda said with a smirk, “I might just lose my mind-”
“Oda!” She blushed, “This is for the baby-”
“I know” He cheekily grinned. “When's that ever-” Amber hit him, the soft sound of a thud against his belly.
“Enough of your shenanigans!” She snapped, my head finally coming to semi-normal. “He's waking up”
“Sorry” Oda winced.
“What happened?” I mumbled, “What was that?” I asked.
“Rut soother, usually the Omega of the house does this to calm a child's pheromones, only for the first few times though” She answered, her eyes filled with worry.
“Is it safe?” I mumbled. “Nothing-” I couldn't finish my sentence.
“Nothing sexual Dazai, Oda is being a menace!” She snapped at him, “It smells similar to what is released during a heat, but it's very different, it can help Omegas too during their cycles-” She winked.
“Ah-” I felt my body sway. I marked Chuuya, “Is Chuu okay-” I barely whispered. “I didn't mea-” I felt tears well up, my eyes blinking them away as much as I could.
“Chuuya will be okay, marks aren't permanent” Amber smiled, “Especially this young, these mistakes happen all the time with teenagers” She put a cold rag on my head, “There'd be a lot more teen pregnancies if that were the case”
“Okay” I didn't want to hurt him, it just happened.
“We're still talking about this and you're grounded young man” Oda folded his arms, seriousness in his tone. His footsteps heading towards the door. “Please take care of him Amber, it's going to be a long week” He sarcastically chuckled.
“You'll be okay, think you can walk to your room?” She helped me lift up. I wobbled lightly, but found my footing to stumble over to my bedroom. “It's okay” She smiled, hand around my waist for support. She set me down on the bed, putting covers over me.
“Amb-” I swallowed, cotton-mouthed, “Amber, does it hurt for you?” I asked, what I really meant is; will Chuuya suffer?
“What do you mean?” She adjusted my towel on my head.
“Heats, do they hurt?” I pondered.
“Not as much as Ruts, it's more of an ache” She answered, “Like something's missing but you know you can't have it”
“Slick must be… annoying” My voice came with a rasp, “Chuuya was leaking through” I mumbled.
Her eyebrows curved in worry, “Poor thing” She sighed, “He must've not had pads yet”
“Pads?” I coughed.
“Heats have a lot of liquids for Omega's, usually you wear a pad to soak it up” She confirmed.
“Ah” I nodded.
Chuuya-
Hopefully he gets some.
“Dazai?” Her voice was wearing out as my lids felt heavy. They were like weights on my eyes. I was drifting again, hopefully to sleep this time. Hopefully I will just sleep this off. Then I could go back to normal, pretend none of this happened.
Pretend like I didn't hurt Chuuya.
And we can be best friends right?
Right?