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    Shane is aware that he is an absolute mess, with hands trembling and shoulders shaking. His breaths are coming in short bursts, quicker than he is able to control them.

    The confession sits like an elephant between them, and yet, Ilya hasn’t moved, tracing soothing circles between Shane’s shoulder blades.

    “Sweetheart.” His husband’s voice is steady, soothing. “You need to breathe for me, okay? This isn’t good for you.”

    OR, after a night out with J.J. and Hayden, Shane wakes up, certain that he has cheated on Ilya. (Spoiler alert: he hasn’t)

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    05 Jun 2026

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    They lie in silence for a few moments, the only sound being the steady and slow beating of Shane’s heart on the monitor. He’s perfectly content to just bask in Ilya’s presence and form until the doctor comes back, but eventually, he can feel Ilya staring at him. So he opens his eyes and sees an expectant look on his husband’s face. 

    “What?” Shane questions.

    “Are we going to talk about it?”

    Shane’s brows draw down in confusion. “Talk about what?”

    A mischievous grin splits Ilya’s face. “That I am your emergency contact.”

    “Oh, my god,” Shane groans. “You are not going to make this a thing. It’s not a big deal.”

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    Or, hockey injuries are temporary. But having Ilya Rozanov as your emergency contact is forever.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov never hooked up at the CCM commercial.

    Now it's 2017. Yuna Hollander is concerned that Shane doesn't have many friends, so she signs him up on a buddy network website.
    Shane gets paired with someone else looking for a 'buddy', not knowing that it's his on-ice rival, Ilya Rozanov.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Hollander huffed and then, slowly, looked into Ilya’s eyes. “What if… what if we didn’t do it all the way?”

    “Yeah?” Ilya breathed. “Like?”

    “What if it’s just the tip.”

    Ilya’s jaw literally dropped. “Who the fuck taught you that?”

    Hollander shrugged, then his eyes locked onto Ilya. “Yes or no.”

    Fuck it.

    Or: episode 4 fuck-montage meets Just The Tip meets down-bad but doesn’t know it Ilya Rozanov meets barebacking

    OR: Ilya “just the tip” Rozanov and Shane “just fucking come in me” Hollander

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    04 Jun 2026

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    “I will get the next round. Shane, do you want anything?”
    Shane tilts his head up to smile at him.

    “Hey!” Wyatt crows, “Just Shane? What’s up with the favoritism?”

    Ilya squeezes Shane’s shoulder again when he tenses. “My beautiful husband is very neurotic and likes specific drinks. You all are, hm… basic bitches and drink only beer. It’s easy, I get you another pitcher and you are happy.”

    “Hey, you don’t know that! Maybe I want a cocktail.”

    Shane's first outing as a member of the Centaurs.

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    04 Jun 2026