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To the untrained eye, Neil Josten would seem entirely normal, albeit a little more tightly wound than usual.
Andrew Minyard's eye is not untrained.
Alternatively: Neil never thought he would live long enough to want a future and Andrew can't find the words to reassure him.
[Rated E for evental smut]
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- Part 3 of an exercise in growth
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09 Oct 2025
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I Quit Talking Again, I Know You're Still Listening by Hyalophagia
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
07 Jul 2024
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"Andrew didn’t know how to stop something from breaking; he’d nearly died trying. But Neil had taught him it was possible to put the broken pieces back together, and he was determined to return the favour."
Neil was only a freshman and a rookie when he made his deal with Ichirou. He hadn't stopped to consider how much pressure he was putting on himself; he'd lived in danger his entire life and was used to fighting to stay alive. He'd be fine. He'd always been fine and he always would be. Right?
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06 May 2024
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No Water Is Enough by Boomchick
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
06 Sep 2021
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[Book 5 Spoilers Within]
Once, the emperor of heaven saw that his troublesome successor had what he had always desired so dearly. To teach him a priceless lesson, he took it for himself.
Hua Cheng faithfully serves the god who saved him as a child— the one he has worshiped for 800 years— the one to whom he gifted his ashes: The Heavenly Emperor, Jun Wu.
Xie Lian just wants his beloved back, no matter what it costs him.
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04 Jan 2024
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They amble along the highway for what could be any amount of time. Neil reaches over to turn on the radio at some point, leaving it tuned in to Andrew’s usual station. He tries to focus on the faint beat of the music and not the way Neil is looking at him from the passenger seat, trying however successfully to read Andrew’s mind. These days, he might actually be good at it.
It’s an unsettling thought. It shouldn’t be. After all, isn’t that what Andrew has always wanted? To be known? Understood? Believed? Isn’t that why he spent countless parts of himself to belong to families that never really saw him?
Neil is here. Neil sees him.
So why does Andrew feel scraped raw?
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- Part 2 of Journey to Feeling (Andreil)
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08 Sep 2023
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5 times Neil thought that Andrew was pulling away, and 1 time Andrew realized that Neil is an idiot. Features Neil and Andrew learning to communicate.
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- Part 1 of Assumptions
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21 Aug 2023