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    “You haven’t done this before, right?” Chuuya whispered, breath warm against her throat.
    Dazai tried to mask the lump in her throat with a grin. “Funny, right? This dumb slug’s gonna be the first to touch me.”
    “Hmph. All mine to devour, then.”
    Dazai’s legs pressed together tighter at those words. Jesus. That was not fair. “There’s not much to devour anyway,” she mumbled, embarrassed.
    “I think there’s plenty. You’re a lanky bastard. That’s meters and meters of skin I get to explore."
    “Why do you sound so gross when you say it like that?”
    “It’s normal dirty talk, shut up,” Chuuya muttered.

    Or Dazai & Chuuya's first time. It's simple, basic but good. And Dazai's a little curious pookie.

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    There’s Atsushi, Dazai’s star pupil.
    There’s Fyodor, arguably Dazai’s soulmate, a single mind in two bodies.
    There’s Kunikida, Dazai’s partner.
    There’s Oda, the reason Dazai wants to live.
    And then there’s Chuuya.
    If he asked Dazai to define him, to name his purpose, Chuuya already knows what he would hear.
    Chuuya is his dog, Chuuya is a slug, Chuuya is a chibi.
    And sure, maybe he is. But none of that is enough.

     

    Or, Chuuya can’t figure out what he means to Dazai exactly, but if he would only listen, he would realize that Dazai has been telling him all along.

    art here <3

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    03 Oct 2025

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    This is the closest thing he’ll get, although his selfish human heart shrivels at the thought of it. But if he could continue to have Chuuya in his life, and even let himself pretend that Chuuya loved him a smidge more than what was true, to let himself believe that Chuuya wanted him the way he wanted Chuuya, then he would take being left on the sidelines.

     

    And now he was going to watch the person he loved more than anything be given away to some undeserving random who would never know how long Dazai had suffered in silence. They would never know how long Dazai had waited for Chuuya.

     

    And perhaps Dazai would keep waiting.

     

    He knows Chuuya isn’t selfish like he is, he knows Chuuya would never ask him to wait. But god, years down the line Chuuya will be happy with somebody else and Dazai still doesn’t think he’ll be ready to move on.

    [ or : dazai is in love with his lifelong best-friend. said best friend is about to receive the initials of his soulmate, and dazai's not quite ready to lose him. ]

    russian translation by shuji_samu : https://ficbook.net/readfic/12320200/31675234

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    16 May 2024

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    “Well, I have to warn you beforehand,” the white-haired man stammered as he nervously began to play with his fingers, “and I don't even really know how to explain this to you, because I have absolutely no explanation for... well... this - he was like this when I found him ...”

    Now Chuuya was a little worried, but before he really had the time to worry about what to do with this new, albeit vague, information, they stopped in front of one of the few tables in the bistro area.
    At first glance the Mafioso didn't notice anything unusual - a completely normal table with two plates, on one of them was a piece of melon pan, on the other he saw something that looked like anpan with a piece of strawberry cake. This combination made Chuuya raise an eyebrow a little, but he refrained from any commentary. For now. But what caught his eye made him pause.

    “You're kidding me, aren't you?”
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    When Dazai mysteriously gets turned into a child again, it's up to Chuuya to take care of him. Though, that's more difficult than he expected it to be.

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    09 May 2024

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    Something horrible in Dazai's past comes back to haunt him in the form of a brown envelope full of pictures.

    He expects to be abandoned and shunned, but for all his precision in foreseeing outcomes, he finds that he is not the best at predicting the emotional reactions of those that care about him.

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    Slowly, Dazai bends down and picks one of them up in a shaking hand.

    Kunikida has never seen him like this.

    "I don't understand..." Atsushi is saying, but he stays with Ranpo, Kyouka and Kenji where he is, "What are those pictures? What's going on?"

    Dazai is terrifyingly held together and calm and collected, his eyes half-lidded and hollow, when he gathers them up from the floor and straightens, when he moves towards the desk and sets them by tapping them against the top, and then carefully puts them back in the envelope.

    The silence that follows after is deafening and unbearably long as Dazai stands there with his back to the room, his head bowed, his eyes hidden by his hair.

    "I'm going to kill him," he whispers, so quietly it took Kunikida several seconds to make it out.

    In one swift motion, he turns with the envelope in hand and storms out of the office.

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    09 May 2024