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20 days by searchingformyremuslupin
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Apr 2026
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Ilya and Shane broke up. Shane left.
Ilya falls back into a depressive episode and is preparing for his self inflicted death. No one is able to help, no matter how hard they try.Or
What happens when Ilya decides to die on the same day as his mother did, will someone be able to stop him? Will anyone notice or is it going to be too late?
This story follows Ilya throughout his last 20 days, he is determined to die.
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- Part 1 of Willing and Able
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11 May 2026
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“Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”
Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.
Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.
“I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.
The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.
He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.
(shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)
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- 2/2
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Bookmarked by Lordloaf
11 May 2026
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To only ever know the cold by IbecomewhatIbelieve
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Apr 2026
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Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.
She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.
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Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.Series
- Part 1 of To know the sun
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- English
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- 12/12
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Bookmarked by Lordloaf
26 Apr 2026
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What if instead of walking in on Shane and Ilya making out, what if David came across Ilya alone at the Cottage?
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“I’m David. Hollander. Shane’s dad.”
Ilya genuinely couldn’t figure out what the fuck to do. He needed to send out an SOS, but he had set his phone down somewhere and had no idea if it was in the sunroom, bedroom, or bathroom, and wasn’t about to go dash around to hunt it down. And as hard as he wracked his brain, he couldn’t come up with a single plausible explanation for his presence in Shane’s summer home other than, “I’m in love with your son. We have been fucking since we were teenagers. We have a ten year plan.”
Instead, what he choked out was, “Sorry. No English.”
Bookmarked by Lordloaf
17 Feb 2026
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Duty of Care by boopboop
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
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- Part 3 of Duty of Care
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Bookmarked by Lordloaf
02 Feb 2026