Random angst with no particular order
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Things are tough after the battle at Mount Othrys. It's especially difficult since the old praetor is dead and has been replaced by Jason Grace.
Jason never wanted to be praetor. Especially not now. He doesn't know how to handle what happened. He watched his first friend in the legion die. It feels like it was his fault.
Reyna doesn't know what to do. She feels like the world just collapsed. Her former colleague is dead and she couldn't do anything about it. It feels like the spear was in her chest all along.
Neither of them know how to juggle their grief along with the responsibilities of being praetor.
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Rest eternally... will you take me home?
After what happened in Ithaca with his mother, Jason finds himself feeling destroyed. The stab wound is the least of his worries. The pain of the wound is nothing compared to what he saw. The last thing he needs is someone else to be worried about him, so of course, that's what he gets.
Frank, being worried, wants to talk to Jason, but doesn't make much progress in making him feel any better. Jason just ends up leaving. This continues to happen until they just stand in silence for the rest of the night.Title taken from the song "Eternal Dream" from Murder Drones.
Rated Teen and Up because of the topic of suicidal thoughts
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- Part 2 of Random angst with no particular order
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I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel by lemimari
Fandoms: The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan
15 Dec 2024
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I am all the things they might have said to you. Do you ever think of me and my two hands and wonder why they never soothed your fevers?
Beryl Grace has her regrets after leaving Jason to the wolves.
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- Part 3 of Random angst with no particular order
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I'm so proud of you by lemimari
Fandoms: The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan, The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan
28 Jun 2025
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Jason finds himself thinking about things, his memories flashing before his eyes and his self-doubt hitting him harder than a truck.
He begins to wonder if he is truly who he says he is
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- Part 4 of Random angst with no particular order
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i will die your daughter by lemimari
Fandoms: The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan, The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan
01 Oct 2025
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The moment Jason spoke, he could see Thalia's face twist in slight confusion as she took in his appearance. He must have said something wrong, or done something wrong. Maybe she was the wrong person. Maybe he'd simply make an inaccurate assumption.
Jason realizes that he wasn't always exactly who he thought he was. It leads him down a spiral of wondering if he ever was who he thinks he is.
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- Part 5 of Random angst with no particular order
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I adored you so by lemimari
Fandoms: The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan, The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan
13 Feb 2026
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Your smile was wonderful. Your voice was like heaven. Your laugh was divine.
After being brought back to life, Jason finds himself looking back on his past. He's alone again. He finds solace in drowning in his memories and wishes for things that would never happen.
At some point, he ends up thinking too hard about Leo. His mind ends up filled with nothing but Leo.
With nothing else to think about, he submerges himself in his sorrows related to his dear friend.
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- Part 6 of Random angst with no particular order
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One word from you, and I would jump off of this ledge I'm on, baby by lemimari
Fandoms: The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan
04 May 2026
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Tell me don't so I can crawl back in.
Leo awakes one night with an awful feeling, despite not dreaming of anything and nothing in the bunker seeming amiss. He sneaks out in the middle of the night to go check on his cabin and friends, just to alleviate his sudden nerves. When he tries to check on Jason, he finds something that makes his blood run cold.
Jason is tired. He regrets so much. He doesn't know why he did the things he's done, but that's all in the past now. The way he sees it, there's only one way to repent for his crimes and ensure that he'll never do such things to his friends. He almost hopes someone stops him before he can go through with it.
Rated Teen and Up for the topic of suicide and self-harm. Please read the tags and proceed with caution or ignore this work if you are sensitive to these topics.
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- Part 7 of Random angst with no particular order