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November 6th 1989
11pm
The ringing in Mike’s ears was violent and high pitched, and it seemed to be the only thing tethering him to consciousness in a world that had otherwise gone mute. It drowned out the thud of his own heartbeat, and the ugly noise of the town.
The only other sensation his brain could process was the taste of copper in his mouth. He felt the warm liquid pooling under his tongue.
But underneath all of that, he felt nothing.
He had just taken a work boot to the ribs and a heavy, brutal fist to the jaw, yet the cleansing pain he’d been so desperately chasing all night refused to come. Instead, there was only a hollowness expanding in his chest, threatening to erase whatever humanity he had left.
The night was pitch black, the air brittle and ice cold. It felt like the world had finally caught up to him.
Mike stumbled backward from the bar, one hand dragging along the brick wall to keep himself upright. The cold bit straight through his jacket, sharp enough to hurt, but even that felt distant. Like pain was something happening to a different body. Some other stupid kid standing in an alley with blood on his shirt and his knuckles split open.
He leaned his weight against the wall, turned his head, and spat a mouthful of blood onto the frosted concrete.
When he finally lifted his head, his vision swimming in a nauseating blur of double images, he locked eyes with the man who had just put him on the ground.
The guy was a few yards away. His face was twisted in an ugly rage as he screamed a string of obscenities and his nose was dripping with blood. He lunged forward, desperate to finish the job, but his friend had both arms wrapped tightly around his chest, heels digging into the asphalt, dragging him backward.
Mike didn’t flinch. Instead, a slow smile spread across his face. He tilted his chin up, letting the yellow streetlamp catch his features. His lips were slick with fresh blood, his teeth stained red. His dark eyes were vacant, staring straight through the man.
Mike’s smile wasn’t a taunt; it was a desperate, silent plea.
Come back and finish it.
He didn’t say it. Didn’t need to. It was there in the way he stood with his arms loose at his sides, body swaying slightly, head tilted like he was bored. Like the whole thing was funny. Like it didn’t matter if the guy came back swinging because Mike had already learned the worst thing that could happen to him, and it wasn’t getting hit.
But before the man could break loose, the low growl of an engine rolled through the alley. Mike heard the heavy crunch of thick tires as a vehicle pulled up. Twin beams of headlights washed over the scene, pinning Mike against the brick wall like a captured insect. The harsh glare illuminated the damage across his face, yellowish purple bruises from a week ago beneath the wet crimson dripping from his mouth tonight. His hair was matted to his forehead with sweat and sleet. His pupils blown too wide.
Mike squinted, throwing a forearm up to shield his eyes. He didn’t need to see the license plate to know who it was. He’d recognize the heavy idle of that engine anywhere.
The truck crawled forward and rolled to a stop just inches from his boots. The driver’s side window groaned as it rolled down, and Jim Hopper leaned forward. The lights revealed deep, exhausted lines across Hopper’s face.
He didn’t look shocked or angry. He just looked tired.
Hopper looked him over once.
The blood. The bruises. The way Mike was barely standing.
Then he looked past him at the guy still being held back.
Then back at Mike.
“Get in the truck.”
Mike wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. It came away red. He stared at it for a second, like he couldn’t quite remember how blood worked.
Then he looked up and grinned. “You always this romantic?”
Hopper didn’t blink. “Michael.”
The grin cracked. Just a little.
Mike hated that. Michael. Michael sounded like adults trying to find the boy they remembered under all the damage and getting scared when they couldn’t.
Nobody called him Michael unless they wanted something from him. A confession. An apology. A sign he was still in there.
Mike swallowed, and the blood in his mouth went with it.
Behind him, the guy shouted again. “Yeah, go on, Wheeler! Run home!”
Mike turned his head slowly.
Hopper’s voice cut through the cold. “Don’t.”
Mike laughed once. It came out flat. “I wasn’t going to.”
“You were thinking about it.”
“Didn’t know thoughts were illegal now.”
“They are when yours usually end with me scraping you off a sidewalk.”
Mike looked at him. For one second, something almost moved across his face. Something tired. Something young. And then it was gone. “Maybe stop scraping,” he said.
Hopper went still. The air changed.
Hopper spoke again, lower this time. “Get in the truck.”
Mike looked at him for a second, then back at the guy. His body wanted to move. That was the problem. Some part of him always wanted to move. Forward. Into pain. Into noise. Into someone else’s hands, someone else’s teeth, someone else’s anger. Anything that meant he didn’t have to stand still long enough to feel his own.
But Hopper was still watching him.
Mike spat blood again, then pushed himself off the wall.
His knees nearly buckled on the first step. He caught himself before Hopper could get out of the truck. “Don’t,” Mike snapped.
He dragged himself toward the truck, one hand pressed against his ribs. The ringing in his ears softened just enough for him to hear the bar door open. Someone laughed nervously. Someone else muttered his name.
Wheeler.
Like a warning. Like a joke. Like a curse.
He opened the passenger door and climbed in.
The truck smelled like coffee, cigarettes, old leather, and rain. Safe smells. Familiar smells. Things that belonged to other people’s lives.
Mike dropped into the seat too hard, his stomach lurching. For a second, black spots crawled across his vision. He blinked them away and fumbled for the door handle, missed it once, then slammed the door shut harder than he needed to.
He let his head tip back against the headrest and closed his eyes. He left the seatbelt hanging beside him. Blood dripped from his chin onto his jeans.
Hopper didn’t drive. He reached over and turned on the light. The weak yellow glow made everything look worse. He grabbed Mike’s chin, tilting his face toward the light the way he had the last time, and the time before that.
“Jesus, kid.”
Mike laughed once but it sounded like it hurt. Hopper’s hand dropped, then he reached over and dragged the seatbelt across Mike’s chest and clicked it in. He put the truck in drive.
He stared at Mike for a long moment. “When was the last time you ate something that wasn’t from a bottle?”
Mike just shrugged one shoulder weakly. He could feel Hopper’s eyes on the way his shirt hung off him, the way his cheekbones cut sharper now, the way his hands would not stop trembling.
The truck rolled through Hawkins in silence. Streetlights passed over them in pale flashes, there and gone, there and gone. Mike watched them move across the dashboard. Across Hopper’s hands. Across the blood drying in the creases of his own knuckles.
November looked the same every year.
Cold. Dark. Dead around the edges. Like the whole town had been holding its breath since 1986 and forgotten how to let go.
Mike pressed his tongue against the cut inside his cheek until it stung. Anything was better than thinking about the date.
“Joyce know you’re out?”
Mike closed his eyes. “Joyce knows everything.”
“That wasn’t my question.”
Mike opened his eyes again and stared through the windshield. The glass reflected him faintly. Split lip. Blood at his chin. Bruised eye. Hair falling into his face. He looked older than eighteen and younger than he ever wanted to feel. He barely looked like Mike Wheeler.
Good.
Mike Wheeler had been stupid. Mike Wheeler had believed things. Mike Wheeler had made promises like they meant anything.
“Then ask better questions,” he said.
Hopper let out a slow breath.
Mike watched out the window. There was nothing but road, trees and the thin white line of Hopper’s headlights taking him home.
Not to his house. Never to his house anymore.
The truck turned onto the street and slowed outside the house. Mike always hated this part. Getting home. He had nowhere to go. No school anymore. No plan. No future he could stand to picture. Just days that all ran together, cold and gray, and nights like this where he drank whatever he could find, took whatever was offered, and tried to pick a fight with anyone willing to hit him back hard enough to make him feel something else for five minutes.
Mike fumbled with the seat belt until it finally released, the metal buckle snapping back against the door with a sharp click. The sound went straight through his skull.
For a moment, he stayed where he was.
The truck had stopped moving, but his body hadn’t caught up. The truck seemed to tilt beneath him, first one way and then the other, Hopper’s dashboard stretching and bending whenever Mike tried to focus on it. His stomach rolled. Blood had dried tight across his bottom lip, and every breath pulled at something deep beneath his ribs.
He opened the door anyway.
Cold air rushed in, cutting through the heat trapped beneath his skin. It smelled like damp earth, woodsmoke, and the dead leaves collecting along the edge of the driveway. Familiar. Too familiar.
Mike climbed out carefully, one boot touching the ground before the other. He kept a hand wrapped around the open door as he stood, waiting for the world to settle.
It didn’t.
The Byers’ house swayed at the end of the driveway, its windows glowing softly against the dark. The porch light had been left on.
He let go of the door and immediately caught himself against the side of the truck. Cold metal pressed into his palm. He lowered his head, breathing through his nose, trying to convince his legs that they still belonged to him.
He could hear Hopper getting out on the other side. The driver’s door slammed. Heavy footsteps crunched over gravel as Hopper came around the front of the truck.
Mike straightened before he reached him. Or tried to. He managed one step before his ankle folded beneath him and the ground lurched violently upward. Hopper moved closer, one hand already lifting toward his arm.
“I’m fine,” Mike said quickly. The words came out slurred around the swelling in his lip.
Hopper stopped, but he didn’t lower his hand.
Mike hated that. The waiting. The way people had learned to hover just beyond touching distance because they knew he would pull away, but they also knew there was a good chance he would fall.
He took another step to prove he could. The driveway slid sideways beneath him.
Before Hopper could reach for him again, the front door opened.
Mike looked up.
Joyce stood beneath the porch light in an old cardigan pulled tightly around herself. Her hair was loose and tangled around her face, and one of her hands was pressed against the doorframe as though she’d been standing there for a while, listening for the sound of Hopper’s truck.
She didn’t look surprised. That hurt more than anger would have.
She stepped onto the porch and began walking toward them.
Mike wanted to tell her to go back inside. He wanted to climb into Hopper’s truck and make him drive anywhere else. Back to the bar. To the quarry. To the middle of the woods. It didn’t matter. Somewhere Joyce couldn’t look at him and see every ruined part he had worked so hard to hide beneath smoke, liquor, and somebody else’s blood.
But his body refused to move quickly enough.
They met halfway across the yard. Joyce stopped in front of him, and her face changed. Her mouth parted slightly. Her eyes moved over the bruising beneath his eye, the blood dried around his mouth, the swelling along his cheekbone.
“Oh, Mike.”
There was no disappointment in her voice. Only grief.
She lifted her hand toward his face. Mike flinched. The movement happened before he could stop it. He stepped backward sharply, his heel slipping against the wet grass. Hopper caught his elbow before he went down.
Mike pulled his arm free.
His throat closed.
He couldn’t stand Joyce looking at him like that. Like she cared. Like this still frightened her. Like there was something left inside him worth being afraid of losing.
Like he was a boy who had been hurt instead of something cursed that kept crawling home.
She looked at him as though he could still be gathered up. Cleaned, fed, and put to bed beneath warm blankets until the worst of it passed.
But the worst of it never passed.
It had settled into him. Worked its way beneath his skin, through his ribs, into every hollow place. He had spent years feeding it everything he had until there was almost nothing left.
A boy who had tried so desperately to become a man and had only managed to turn himself into a ghost.
“I’m fine,” he said again.
Joyce’s hand remained suspended between them for half a second. Then she lowered it. Mike saw the hurt cross her face before she hid it, and something inside him twisted viciously. He pressed his tongue against the split inside of his mouth again until he tasted fresh blood.
Hopper cleared his throat behind him. “Fight outside the bar.”
Joyce looked past Mike toward him. “Anyone else hurt?”
Hopper’s eyes settled on Mike. “Other guy.”
Mike shrugged. The movement sent pain slicing through his ribs, sharp enough to bleach the edges of his vision white. He swallowed it down and started toward the house before either of them noticed.
He could feel Joyce watching him.
Each step required more thought than it should have. Lift his foot. Put it down. Keep moving. Don’t fall. Don’t let them touch him. The porch seemed impossibly far away.
By the time he reached it, sweat had gathered beneath the collar of his jacket despite the cold. He grabbed the doorframe and stood there for a moment, fingers tightening around the wood as the house tilted violently to one side.
Behind him, Joyce spoke quietly. “Thanks, Hop.”
“Call me if he gets worse.”
Mike almost laughed.
Worse.
As though there was still somewhere lower to go.
Hopper’s footsteps moved away. The truck door opened and shut. The engine started behind him, then the headlights swept across the hallway wall before fading down the road.
Mike stepped inside. Warmth closed around him instantly, thick and suffocating. The house smelled like coffee that had been sitting too long, laundry detergent and the faint trace of cigarettes drifting in from somewhere. Home, technically.
He pressed his back against the wall and closed his eyes. The darkness behind his eyelids spun just as violently as the room had.
His breathing sounded too loud in the hallway. Somewhere nearby, a clock ticked with slow, deliberate cruelty. Each second landed inside his head like a hammer.
He let his head fall back against the wall.
For one moment, he allowed himself to stop holding everything upright.
“Bathroom.” Jonathan’s voice came from somewhere to his left.
Mike opened one eye. Jonathan stood at the end of the hallway in sweatpants and an old sweatshirt, his hair flattened on one side from sleep. He looked exhausted, but that was nothing new. Everyone in the house looked exhausted now.
His gaze moved over Mike once, taking in the blood, the bruises, the hand pressed unconsciously against his ribs.
He didn’t ask what had happened. That was how Mike knew this had become normal.
“Hello to you too,” Mike muttered.
“Bathroom.”
Mike exhaled and pushed himself away from the wall. Pain flared through his side so suddenly that his body folded around it. A broken sound escaped between his teeth before he could swallow it. The floor shifted.
Jonathan crossed the space between them immediately, one arm reaching toward his waist.
“I can walk,” Mike snapped.
Jonathan stopped just short of touching him.
The silence that followed was worse than if he had argued.
Mike straightened slowly, his ribs protesting with every breath, but he forced his hand away from them. “See?”
Jonathan looked at him for a long moment. “No,” he said quietly. “I don’t.”
He shuffled toward the bathroom, shoulder dragging against the wall for support. He told himself it was because the hallway was narrow. Because he was tired. Because the house wouldn’t stay still. Not because he needed something to hold him up.
Jonathan followed close behind without saying anything. Mike could feel him there, keeping pace, ready to catch him.
It should have made him angry. Instead, for one terrible second, it made him want to stop walking entirely. To let his knees give out. To let somebody else carry the weight for once.
The thought frightened him more than the fall would have.
So he kept moving.
Jonathan lowered the toilet lid with his foot and nodded toward it. “Sit.”
Mike dropped onto it harder than he meant to. The impact travelled straight through his ribs, hot and vicious, and for a second the room disappeared beneath a wash of white. He bent forward instinctively, forearms braced against his thighs, and waited for the pain to loosen its grip.
Jonathan opened the medicine cabinet above the sink. The hinges creaked. Bottles knocked softly against one another as he searched through them.
Mike stared at the floor between his boots.
There were tiny blue flowers painted around the edge of the tiles. Joyce had done them years ago, back when she still bothered trying to make the house look cheerful. Mike had seen them so many times he could have drawn every chipped petal from memory.
He wondered how much of his blood had been washed from this floor by now.
Jonathan came back with a washcloth dampened beneath the tap and crouched in front of him.
Mike sighed. “I’m not five.”
“Then stop making me treat you like you are.”
Mike didn’t answer.
Jonathan took his chin gently between his fingers and tilted his face toward the light. Mike let him, mostly because lifting his own head felt like too much work.
The washcloth touched his split lip. Pain flashed through him, sharp and immediate, and he flinched before he could stop himself.
Jonathan’s hand paused. Only for a second. Then he continued.
He didn’t tell Mike to hold still. He didn’t ask if it hurt. He didn’t make the mistake of pretending this was the worst thing either of them had survived.
Mike stared past him at the wall, jaw tight. He was annoyed at himself for flinching. Annoyed that his body still reacted as though pain mattered. Annoyed that beneath all the liquor and whatever else was moving sluggishly through his veins, there were nerves still firing, instincts still trying to protect him.
Some stubborn, pathetic part of him still believed he deserved to survive.
Jonathan wiped the blood from his mouth, then moved carefully across his chin and cheek. The water in the cloth turned pink. Then red.
Mike watched Jonathan’s face instead. The concentration in his eyes. The exhaustion beneath them.
Jonathan had gotten older in the last few years too. Not in the obvious ways. Not just longer hair or sharper bones. There was something permanently tired about him now, something quiet and heavy that had settled behind his eyes.
Mike wondered how much of it was his fault.
He looked away before the thought could finish forming.
Jonathan cleaned the dried blood from beneath his nose, then stopped. Mike felt his eyes linger. Not on the bruises. On his pupils.
He turned his head slightly.
“What did you take?” Jonathan asked.
Mike’s mouth pulled into something that almost resembled a smile. “You’ll have to narrow it down.”
Jonathan’s hand stopped. The cloth remained pressed against Mike’s cheek, slowly going cold.
For a moment, there was only the steady drip of the faucet and the tick of the hallway clock beyond the bathroom door.
“Does my mom know?”
“No.”
The answer came too quickly. Jonathan noticed. Mike could tell by the way his jaw tightened.
“You could’ve stayed home tonight.”
“Could’ve.”
“You knew she’d worry.”
“She worries anyway.”
“Today’s worse.”
Mike’s gaze dropped to the floor. The blue flowers blurred at their edges. He pressed his tongue against the wound inside his mouth again and welcomed the clean taste of blood.
Jonathan waited. Mike hated him for that too. For not filling the silence. For not letting Mike hide inside an argument. Jonathan had always been good at making silence feel like a question.
“It’s just a day,” Mike said eventually.
Jonathan’s eyes lifted to his. They both knew it was a lie.
Mike looked away first.
Jonathan rinsed the washcloth beneath the tap. Pink water swirled around the drain before disappearing.
“Jacket and shirt off.”
Mike glanced at him. “You not gonna buy me a drink first?”
“Mike.”
Mike reached for the zipper of his jacket. His fingers missed it once, then twice. They were shaking badly enough now that he couldn’t pretend it was only the cold.
Jonathan watched without offering to help. Mike knew he was waiting for permission that would never come.
On the third try, he caught the zipper and dragged it down. The sound seemed too loud in the small bathroom. He pulled one arm free, then the other, biting down when the movement dragged across his ribs. The jacket slipped from his hands and landed in a heap on the floor.
His shirt was worse. He grabbed the hem and tried to pull it upward. The fabric caught against his sides, and pain tore through him so violently that his arms dropped. His breath vanished. For a few seconds, he could do nothing but sit there with the shirt bunched around his waist, eyes squeezed shut, trying not to make a sound. The room seemed to narrow around him.
He could hear Jonathan breathing. Could feel him waiting.
Mike hated being watched while he hurt. Pain was easier when nobody witnessed it. It belonged to him then. He could swallow it, hide it, turn it into something ugly before anyone had the chance to call it suffering.
He inhaled slowly. The breath caught halfway down.
“Give me a second,” he muttered.
Jonathan didn’t say anything.
That almost made Mike laugh. As though either of them believed a second would fix anything.
He tried again, slower this time, peeling the shirt upward inch by inch. Every movement tugged at the swollen flesh beneath his ribs. By the time he managed to drag it over his head, sweat had broken across his forehead and his vision had gone grainy around the edges.
He let the shirt fall to the floor.
Jonathan went completely still. “Holy shit, Mike.”
Mike glanced down. His body looked worse beneath the bathroom light.
Old bruises spread yellow and sickly across his side, fading into purple at their edges. Newer ones had bloomed over them in black and blue, layers of damage stacked on top of one another because nothing ever had time to heal before he gave someone another reason to hit him. The skin over his ribs was red and swollen. Far too swollen.
Mike looked away.
Jonathan leaned closer, one hand braced lightly against Mike’s shoulder. With the other, he pressed carefully along his ribs.
The first touch hurt. The second was worse. By the third, pain exploded through Mike so fiercely that he recoiled, knocking his shoulder against the wall.
“Fuck.”
Jonathan pulled his hand back instantly.
Mike curled around his side, breath coming in short, useless bursts. “Are you trying to kill me?”
Jonathan looked at him for a long moment. His face had gone pale. “Are you trying to kill yourself?”
The question settled between them. Not shouted. Not dramatic. Quiet enough that Mike couldn’t pretend he hadn’t heard it.
He stared down at his hands. At the torn skin across his knuckles. The dried blood caught beneath his nails. The faint tremor he couldn’t stop.
He could have said no. The word should have been easy. It wasn’t. He wasn’t trying to die. Not exactly. He just kept standing too close to things that could kill him and waiting to see whether they would.
Mike shrugged, and even that hurt.
Jonathan closed his eyes briefly. When he opened them again, whatever he had hoped Mike might say was gone from his face.
“We should take you to the hospital.”
“No.”
“You could have broken ribs.”
“I’ve had broken ribs before.”
“That isn’t the argument you think it is.”
“I’m not going.”
Jonathan stared at him, then looked toward the door.
For half a second, Mike thought he might call Joyce. His stomach tightened. “Don’t.”
Jonathan looked back.
“Don’t tell her.”
“She’s going to see you.”
“She already saw me.”
“She saw your face.”
“I said don’t.”
Something flicked across Jonathan’s expression. Anger, maybe. Or fear. They looked similar on people who had spent too long caring about him.
“Fine,” Jonathan said at last. “But if you can’t breathe properly, if you feel dizzy, if the pain gets worse, you tell me.”
“I’m already dizzy.”
“That’s because you’re high.”
“Then I guess we solved it.”
Jonathan didn’t smile. He went back to the cabinet and pulled out bandages, antiseptic, and painkillers. Mike watched him work without helping.
Jonathan cleaned his knuckles first. The antiseptic burned. Mike barely reacted this time.
By then, he was too tired.
Jonathan wrapped the worst of the damage with careful, practiced movements. Not too tight. Never over bruised joints. He had done it enough times to know.
That knowledge sat heavily in Mike’s chest.
He wondered when Jonathan had learned how to clean blood from another person’s hands.
He wondered whether it had been because of him.
Probably.
Everything in the house seemed to lead back to him now.
Mike had become a problem everyone passed carefully between them, each person trying to keep him alive long enough for someone else to figure out what to do.
Jonathan finished taping the bandage in place, then stood.
He disappeared into the hallway and returned a moment later with one of Mike’s clean shirts folded over his arm.
Jonathan handed him the shirt. Mike pulled it over his head carefully, biting back another hiss when the fabric brushed his side.
Jonathan crouched to gather the bloodied clothes from the floor.
“She went out again,” he said.
Mike’s hands paused at the hem of his shirt. He stared at the wall. “I figured.”
“She waited for you.”
“That was stupid.”
The words came out colder than he intended.
Jonathan looked up. “She thought you’d come.”
Mike pulled the shirt down over his stomach.
For a moment, he couldn’t breathe. Not because of his ribs.
He saw Joyce beneath the porch light again. Her cardigan wrapped around her. The way she had looked at him without surprise.
He imagined her earlier in the day, sitting at the kitchen table. Listening for him to come in. Convincing herself that this year might be different.
That maybe he would put on his coat. Maybe he would pick up a flashlight. Maybe he would become the boy who used to search until his feet bled.
Mike stood too quickly. The bathroom tilted. He caught himself against the sink, fingers gripping porcelain until his bandaged knuckles throbbed.
Jonathan reached for him. Mike jerked away so violently that pain ripped across his ribs again.
“I said I’m fine.”
“And I didn’t believe you the first twelve times.”
“I don’t need you hovering over me.”
“No,” Jonathan said. “You just need me cleaning your blood off the floor.”
Mike stared at him. Jonathan’s voice hadn’t risen, but something in it had finally cracked. Not anger. Something sadder.
Mike looked away.
The mirror above the sink caught him anyway.
He looked terrible.
Bruised. Pale. Eyes too dark and too wide. Cleaned up, technically, but no less ruined. The blood was gone from his face, yet he somehow looked worse without it. At least the blood had given people something visible to blame.
Jonathan stood behind him in the reflection, holding Mike’s stained shirt in both hands.
“She keeps thinking you’ll come back,” he said quietly.
Mike’s fingers tightened around the sink.
He knew Jonathan meant the searches. But the words found somewhere deeper. Somewhere Mike had spent years sealing shut.
He looked at his reflection and tried to find the boy they were all waiting for.
There was nobody there.
“She should stop,” Mike said.
Jonathan’s eyes met his in the mirror. “You first.”
Mike left the bathroom before Jonathan could say anything else.
He moved through the hallway, one hand against it.
Joyce sat at the table, surrounded by maps. They covered almost every inch of the wood, their corners curled and softened from being folded and unfolded so many times. Routes had been marked in red ink. Places circled. Notes written in the margins. Another section of Hawkins carved apart by hope.
Her coat hung over the back of the chair beside her, its hem dark with mud. A flashlight lay near her elbow, along with a compass, an empty thermos and a stack of papers Mike refused to look at closely.
Two mugs sat on the table. One in front of Joyce, nearly empty. The other across from her, untouched. His.
Mike stopped in the doorway. Joyce lifted her head. Her eyes moved over his cleaned face, the swelling beneath his eye and the fresh bandage wrapped around his hand. Whatever she felt, she tried to hide it. She had become good at that.
“Did it help?” she asked.
Mike frowned. “What?”
“Tonight.”
He knew what she meant. The bar. The alcohol. The pills. The blood drying beneath his fingernails. The stranger’s fist colliding with his face and the brief, beautiful second afterward when the whole world had gone silent.
He looked down at the untouched mug. “No.”
The answer left him before he could dress it up as a joke.
Joyce nodded as though she had expected nothing else.
“Will you come with me tomorrow?”
His shoulders tightened. “No.”
“You don’t even know where I’m going.”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“It used to.”
Mike gave a quiet laugh, but there was nothing amused in it. “Yeah. Well.” He looked at the maps, at all those red circles bleeding across Hawkins. “A lot of things used to.”
He had expected her to argue. He almost wanted her to. Anger would have been easier. If she shouted, he could shout back. If she accused him of not caring, he could say something cruel enough to end the conversation and hate himself for it later.
But Joyce only looked at him. Not angry. Just sad. The way people looked at abandoned houses after the windows had broken and the roof had begun to cave in. Remembering what had once lived there.
“I never stopped,” she said quietly.
Mike’s throat tightened. “I did.”
The words barely made a sound.
Joyce’s face crumpled for half a second before she caught it. “I know.”
There was no accusation in it. That was what made it unbearable. She knew he had stopped searching. She knew he had stopped believing. Maybe she even knew that giving up had not saved him. It had only given him more ways to punish himself for still being alive.
Mike looked away.
He wanted to tell her he was sorry. For the coffee. For the maps. For leaving her to walk those woods alone. For coming home covered in blood when she had already spent the entire day looking for someone else she loved.
Instead, he turned back toward the hallway.
Mike pushed open the second door without turning on the light and closed it quietly behind him.
The room was lit only by the weak orange glow slipping through the curtains from the porch light. It caught on the mess scattered across the floor, his clothes tangled with things that had belonged there long before he did.
Mike emptied his pockets onto the desk. Keys. Cigarettes. Lighter. The objects landed with a sharp clatter, and he froze, listening. Joyce was still moving around. Of course she was.
He tried to undo his jeans, but his fingers shook against the button. It took three attempts before it finally came loose. When he bent to pull them down, pain tore through his ribs so violently that his breath vanished.
Mike groaned and dropped onto the edge of the bed. For a moment, he sat hunched over, one arm wrapped around his side, waiting for the room to stop darkening at the edges. Then he worked the jeans down slowly and kicked them from his legs. He left them where they fell.
There were already clothes scattered beside the bed. Shirts hanging from the chair. Boots abandoned near the dresser. His records stacked beside old tapes he never played.
Nothing about the room looked temporary anymore.
Mike crossed to the window and forced it open. Cold November air spilled inside, cutting through the warmth of the house. He welcomed it.
He went back for his cigarettes, but his eyes lifted before he could turn away.
A drawing hung above the desk.
Castle Byers.
The paper had yellowed, its corners curling away from the wall. The ink had faded with time, but Mike still knew every uneven line. At the bottom, written in black pen, was one name.
Will.
His chest tightened. Not where the bruises were. Somewhere deeper. Somewhere the alcohol and pills never quite reached.
For one disorientating second, he could almost see Will sitting at the desk, pencil between his fingers, listening while Mike talked too loudly about whatever stupid campaign he had been planning.
Then the room settled back into darkness.
The chair was empty.
Mike looked away.
He sat on the bed and reached beneath the pillow for the bottle of whiskey he had hidden there.
His fingers closed around plastic instead.
A bottle of water.
Jonathan.
Mike stared at it for a moment. He imagined Jonathan finding the bottle and replacing it with water like this was some kind of game they were both still pretending Jonathan might win.
He set the bottle back down and went over to the bookcase. He pulled out one of the old fantasy novels and reached behind it. His hand found glass.
Jonathan hadn’t found that one.
Mike twisted the cap free and drank. The whiskey burned through the cut in his lip and scraped down his throat. His stomach turned, but he swallowed again.
It didn’t help. It never helped.
He carried the bottle to the open window and lit a cigarette. The lighter clicked twice before the flame caught, his hand shaking too badly to hold it steady.
The porch light was still on.
Joyce claimed she left it on for him now, so he could find his way inside whenever Hopper brought him home.
Mike knew better.
It had been on long before he moved into the house.
It had always been waiting for someone else.
He leaned against the window frame and breathed smoke into the night.
Down the hallway, papers rustled. A drawer opened. Joyce preparing for tomorrow. Another map. Another place to search. Another morning spent calling into woods that had never answered her.
For one terrible moment, Mike wished he could still go with her.
He wished he could become the boy who had searched until his feet blistered, who had shouted himself hoarse, who had believed hard enough for the both of them.
But that boy was gone too.
Mike lifted the bottle again.
Hope had destroyed him.
Or maybe it was the day he finally lost it.
He no longer knew the difference.
The cigarette burned slowly between his fingers as he stared into the yard. He told himself he wasn’t waiting for anything.
The worst part was that, somewhere beneath all the ruin, he was still listening for footsteps coming home.
“Count again.”
Amy looked down at the names scratched across the back of the clipboard.
“I already counted twice,” she said.
“Then do it a third time.”
Amy’s mouth tightened.
She was thirty two, or at least she thought she was. Time had become an unreliable thing here. Her dark hair had once fallen past her shoulders, but she had hacked most of it off with kitchen scissors after something nested in it during her first month. Now it sat unevenly around her jaw, threaded with silver that had not been there when she arrived.
Amy turned toward the gym.
Will watched her lift one hand and begin pointing.
Bedrolls covered the floor beneath the rusted basketball hoops. Some were nothing more than coats spread over flattened cardboard. Others had been built into small nests using curtains torn from classrooms, old wrestling mats, and insulation pulled from walls. Blankets hung from ropes between overturned bleachers, creating thin partitions that offered the illusion of privacy. The illusion mattered. So did everything else.
A row of dented cans sat beneath the scoreboard, each one filled with rainwater strained through cloth and charcoal. The old equipment closet had become their food store. The nurse’s office held medicine, or what remained of it. Broken hockey sticks had been sharpened into spears. A fire ax leaned beside each set of doors.
Across the walls, thick black vines pushed through the cracked paint. They pulsed faintly. Slow. Sleeping. For now.
Spores drifted through the air like gray snow, catching in everyone’s hair and settling across the blankets. They gathered on shoulders, eyelashes, food tins, skin. No matter how often they swept, there were always more. This place shed itself over everything until nothing belonged completely to the people living here. Not even their own bodies.
Amy pointed.
One.
Jeremy sat closest to the old stage, his broad back hunched as he repaired a torn boot with fishing line. He had been a mechanic before he disappeared. His beard had grown almost to his chest, hiding most of his face except for a pair of deep set brown eyes that missed very little.
Two.
Jennifer slept beside him beneath a coat that had once belonged to someone else. She was six, small enough that her knees tucked beneath her chin when she curled up. One of her hands remained wrapped around the sleeve of Jeremy’s shirt even in sleep.
Three. Four.
Aaron and Sean sat shoulder to shoulder against the bleachers, identical except for the burn scar climbing Aaron’s neck. Neither of them could have been older than fourteen. They had fallen through together, which Will privately thought was the only reason either had survived.
Five.
Sadie stood near the western doors, sharpening a kitchen knife against a piece of stone. She was seventeen, narrow faced and wiry, with cropped blond hair and a red scarf tied tightly around her throat. The scarf was the only brightly colored thing left in the gym, though years of grime had darkened it almost brown.
She noticed Amy counting and stopped sharpening. Her gray eyes moved immediately to Will.
Six. Seven. Eight.
People looked up one by one.
The low conversations died.
A spoon stopped scraping against the bottom of a tin. Jeremy lowered the boot from his lap. Jennifer woke up at the sudden silence and sat up, blinking through the dimness.
Will counted with Amy.
He always counted with her.
It was impossible not to.
He knew where every person slept. Who breathed loudly. Who talked in their dreams. Who moved too slowly when they were hungry. Who pretended their wounds had stopped hurting because they did not want to cost the group more medicine.
He could find each of them in the dark by the sound of their footsteps alone.
Nine. Ten. Eleven.
Will already knew.
Before Amy reached the final bedroll, before her hand stalled in the air, he knew.
There was an empty space beside the western wall.
A thin green blanket lay half folded over a wrestling mat. A small backpack had been tucked beneath it, one strap repaired with copper wire. Beside the pillow sat a wooden knight George had carved from the broken leg of a chair.
No George.
Will’s stomach dropped.
“Twelve,” Amy said.
Nobody moved.
The gym seemed to hold its breath with them.
Beyond the barricaded doors, something scraped slowly along the corridor wall.
Once. Then again.
Will was already reaching for the ax. “There should be thirteen.”
His voice came out flat. Controlled. It had taken him a long time to learn how to make fear sound like an order.
Sadie pushed herself away from the doors. “I’ll come with you.”
“No.”
She stared at him. “Will.”
“Seal the doors behind me.”
Amy stepped into his path before he could reach the chain. Up close, she looked even more exhausted. Purple shadows bruised the skin beneath her eyes. A strip of cloth had been tied around her wrist where one of the vines had burned her two days earlier.
“You don’t go anywhere alone,” she said. “That’s your rule.”
“It’s my rule because I’m the one who has to bring people back when they break it.”
“That doesn’t make you bulletproof.”
Will tightened his grip around the ax handle. The wood had worn smooth beneath his palm. Not from age. From him. “Move.”
Amy did not. Neither did Sadie.
Behind them, the others had begun searching their own corners, lifting blankets and looking beneath the bleachers as though George might somehow have folded himself into the floor.
“He could be in the equipment closet,” Sean said.
“I checked it before lights out,” Aaron replied.
“The showers?” someone asked.
“He hates the showers.”
Jennifer’s small voice cut through them. “Maybe he heard his mom.”
Silence returned.
Will looked at her.
She had both hands clutched around Jeremy’s arm now, her face pale beneath the grime.
“What did you say?” Will asked.
Jennifer swallowed. “George said he heard his mom earlier.”
Cold moved through Will’s chest. “When?”
“I don’t know.”
“Jennifer.”
She flinched.
Will softened his voice immediately, though every second stretched his nerves tighter. “When did he tell you?”
She looked down at her hands. “Before Amy counted the food.”
That had been nearly an hour ago. Will glanced toward the western wall. Toward the corridor beyond it. The west side of the school was where the voices had started again.
They had been quiet for seventeen days. Long enough for some of them to relax. Long enough for George to forget why one of their oldest rules existed.
If you heard someone you loved, you did not answer.
If they called your name, you did not follow.
If they cried, begged, screamed, or promised they had found a way home, you covered your ears and waited for the voice to stop.
It always stopped eventually. Unless you went looking for it.
“Did he say where he heard her?” Will asked.
Jennifer shook her head.
Jeremy rested one hand over the back of her neck. “That’s enough.”
Will nodded. He turned toward the doors again.
Amy caught his arm. The contact made him look down.
Her grip was firm but careful, fingers circling his sleeve rather than his wrist. Nobody grabbed wrists here. Too many people had memories attached to it.
“You’re not going alone,” she said.
Will pulled free. “Every extra person means more noise.”
“And every person means another pair of eyes.”
“Or another person I have to bring back.”
Sadie slid the knife into the sheath at her hip. “You’re not bringing anyone back if something gets you first.”
Will looked at her.
Sadie had arrived around eight months ago with blood down her front and a broken bottle clenched in her fist. For the first three days, she had refused to speak. For the next month, she had challenged every decision Will made.
Now she stood beside him during patrols without being asked. He trusted her more than he liked admitting.
That did not mean he wanted her in the corridor tonight.
The air had changed. He could feel it pressing against the back of his neck.
This place was never silent. Even at its calmest, there was always the distant groan of buildings settling, the wet movement of vines, the low creature calls that traveled through streets without wind.
Tonight, beneath all of it, something was listening.
Will could always tell.
“George is twelve,” Sadie said quietly. “He’s scared, and he thinks his mother is out there.”
“I know.”
“So stop wasting time arguing.”
Will’s jaw tightened.
Amy released a long breath through her nose. “I’ll keep everyone inside,” she said. “Sadie goes with you.”
“No.”
“That wasn’t a suggestion.”
A couple years ago, Will would have shouted. He might have told them he was the one who knew this place best. He might have mistaken leadership for being the only person allowed to take risks.
The years had beaten most of that out of him.
Not all of it.
He looked past Amy at the people scattered across the gym. Frightened faces. People waiting to see what he would do.
He hated that look.
They did not see Will Byers when they looked at him anymore. They saw the person who knew which tunnels were safe, which creatures hunted by sound, which flowers released poison when disturbed. They saw the person who made the rules and enforced them.
They saw someone who always had an answer.
Will had learned how to give them one even when he didn’t.
“Fine,” he said. “Sadie comes.”
She grabbed a sharpened length of metal.
Will turned to Amy. “Seal the doors behind us. Do not open them unless you hear the signal.”
“Three knocks, pause, two knocks,” Amy said.
“If you hear anything else, you leave them shut.”
“Even if it sounds like you.”
“Especially if it sounds like me.”
Nobody spoke after that.
Amy unwound the chain from around the door handles. The metal scraped softly against the push bars. Will adjusted his grip on the ax and watched the narrow black line appear between the doors as they opened.
Cold air crept through first. Then the smell.
Rot. Wet earth. Something sweet enough to make his stomach turn.
The corridor beyond was almost completely dark. Red light flashed faintly through the windows at the far end, each distant pulse revealing the vines webbed across the lockers and ceiling.
For a moment, the hallway looked alive.
Then the light vanished.
Sadie stepped beside him. “You ready?” she whispered.
Will looked into the dark.
Somewhere beyond it, a boy was following his mother’s voice.
“No,” he said.
Then he walked through anyway.