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He’s in your arms, he’s spread out across your lap, nearly panting. No he doesn't pant, he doesn't show signs of weakness, or pain, not like this. This is the closest you've ever been to seeing him show an emotion other than anguish or mania. His soft brown skin can't decide whether it's flushing or going pale. His body, wet with blood, shudders as he looks a bit to the side, like he's concentrating on keeping it together. It's mostly your blood, gushing out of your right side as your back hits the rough bark of a fallen tree, the only thing propping you up.
The Master begins to slow down a bit, recovering from something you’ve never seen in him. He starts staring bullets at the creature that lacerated you both. It didn't really matter, it was already dead. You look at the master just breathing his labored breaths. God he’s beautiful, you both care so much but its not cool to care, its not in your line so those emotions build and build and build until you're flaying each other alive while fucking like the last star is going out. You are the ones blowing it up. You're trying really hard not to cry, not to draw attention to the fact that this upsets you. The fact that you are both dying. He will live but that's not consolation enough. You really didn't want death to matter to you, to scare you, why were you crying anyway? Because you miss your family, who you haven't seen in at Least five years? Because you’ll never see them again? Or the planet you forsook, damned, said you didn't give a shit about. You’ll never again see lilacs in bloom. You'll never see him again.
You reached out to play with his hair when he turned to face you, Rage in his eyes as he strained to screech at you
“What were you Thinking that was a- uaghh” he clutched at his wound and tried not to groan “that was a Category 5 Thessalian and you just- ug -Jumped in front of it” he took a breath of defeat “you never think”.
leaning your head back against the trunk you give out a breathy laugh
“you know me so well dear”
he shifted “dont “dear” me we’re -uug- Dying”
“what does it matter?” you look down to him, still smiling “you’re gonna regenerate anyway,”
well now your just trying to smile, trying to talk to him, look at him, distract yourself from all your regrets, all the infinite time you’ll never have. And you try to separate yourself, try to live for your own reasons and for your own personal goals but all you can think about is how you’ll never have that infinite time with Him. That's all you wanted. And now it's over, despite the drawbacks, you can't think of a better way to go.
“Will yo-” your cut off by a jolt of pain, he watches as you try again “Will y- auh”
“will i what bunny?” he only calls you that to piss you off, a smile growing on his face as irritation grows on yours. You can only grunt in annoyance as his eyes start to shine, like they tend to when he’s being a dickhead.
“Sorry bunny i can’t- cughugh” he starts to cough up a bit of blood, his voice a strained whisper “hear you”.
his eyes start to go glassy, you cant watch him die, you Cant watch him leave he Has to regenerate before the light leaves his deep, passionate, Crazy eyes, you cant watch him leave you. But he's leaving, and you are too, hopefully faster. Your hands shake as you try to cup his face but you end up roughly tracing his features. You don't have the strength to speak, neither of you do so you pray that he’s listening as your hands rest, your thumb caressing his cheek.
You think as loudly as you can as you start to give up on not showing emotion. “I love you, i love you so much my man, my little love, you are Me and my Heart and soul, you are everything I've ever craved and needed and you will go on, go on please go on i know, i know you wont care for me, i think i know you wont care for me or think of me or think of me fondly but you are my everything and you always will be, you- You always will be” you hope you were thinking loudly enough, you hope he was listening. You can't see him as tears fill your eyes and ice fills your lungs.
You wish you could, you wish you could see this planet for the last time, your last alien planet, where the grass is purple but it's not really grass and the sky pulses like a heartbeat. Where big game hunters take down Thessalians and abandon idiot tourists, especially if they have a reckless death wish.
You wish you never asked for wishes.
You bend down over the master, his stubble under your skin, his smile uncharacteristically weak until you look into his eyes, when he comes alive again. He cant move a finger, you cant move your heart. You smile at each other manically and pulse together, three heartbeats, two heartbeats.