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Chapter 1 – In the Light
The light filtered softly through the pale curtains, golden and apologetic, as if hesitant to intrude.
Harry opened his eyes slowly. The ceiling above him was a creamy white, streaked with the shifting shadow of leaves beyond the window. He lay there for a moment, unmoving, wrapped in the near-unreal stillness that filled the room.
The bedroom was spacious, quiet, far too tidy. A modest trunk sat in one corner, a sturdy oak desk already piled with a few scrolls of parchment, and against the wall, a worn leather armchair he hadn’t yet taken the time to try.
This was where they had placed him for the year. A private room, apart from the Gryffindor dormitory, on McGonagall’s orders, given the circumstances. The idea, supposedly, was to grant him a measure of peace, away from the noisy corridors and the ever-watching eyes.
He slowly pushed back the blanket, sat at the edge of the bed, and remained there a moment, bare feet resting on the warm floorboards, watching the light dance across his hands. Outside, the castle was waking. From below came the distant sound of a shutter being opened, a stifled laugh, the soft rustle of wings.
He dressed without hurry, pulled on his robes, and left, wand tucked at his belt. His footsteps echoed gently in the empty stairwells, tapping against the polished stone. He passed two portraits, still half-asleep, who greeted him with groggy nods.
The Great Hall was already alive with the cheerful bustle of morning. The benches rustled with animated conversation, laughter, and the clink of forks against plates. Overhead, the enchanted ceiling showed a clear sky streaked with pale clouds, and a mild breeze stirred the banners hanging between the arches.
“Harry!” Ginny waved to him from the Gryffindor table. She stood to meet him, a bright smile on her lips, and gave him a brief kiss before leading him towards an empty seat. “Sleep all right?” she asked as she sat back down, her eyes sparkling. “You’re going to love Defence this year—the new professor’s changed everything.”
He nodded without replying and sat beside her. The bench was warm from the sunlight streaming through the stained glass. Across from them, Ron and Hermione were already deep in conversation, hunched over a scroll of parchment.
“We’ve got an entire module on duelling tactics,” said Ron, his eyes gleaming with excitement. “Proper Auror stuff, not school-level shield charms.”
“And a field simulation in March,” added Hermione, unrolling a parchment. “Look, I’ve already sorted your timetable, Harry. Well, someone had to. Since you’re taking all your NEWTs, I chose the courses most compatible with the Auror track.” She handed him the document with a proud smile. The boxes were neatly filled in black ink, each line underlined with care.
Harry took the parchment without a word. Everything was there: Charms, Transfiguration, Advanced Potions, Defence Against the Dark Arts, even a weekend slot for Quidditch.
Hermione went on, “Kingsley said applications open at the end of April, so you might as well be as prepared as possible. You’ll see, it’ll all come back to us quickly.”
Ron raised his cup. “You and me in the Auror Office. Could be brilliant, that. Reckon we’d do all right.”
“Yeah,” said Harry with a faint smile. He set the parchment down and poured himself some pumpkin juice in silence. Around him, life carried on. Students laughed further down the table, an owl crossed the enchanted ceiling and dropped a parcel with a muffled thud. Ginny had turned to Hermione to discuss an upcoming Quidditch match. The world seemed to be doing just fine.
Charms was held in the vaulted classroom on the second floor, bathed in white light. The desks had been arranged in a wide arc, all facing a small platform on which Professor Flitwick was already bouncing lightly on the spot, aided by his enchanted heel-lifts. “Right, right! Settle down, my dear students! Today, we shall be refining a charm you all know… though not quite in this form! We’ll be working on Mutare Motus.”
The name of the spell stirred a ripple of excitement through the rows. It was a dynamic transposition charm, capable of moving an object already in motion to another location.
Flitwick clapped his hands. “This spell requires an advanced level. But you’re seasoned witches and wizards, and I’m confident you’ll be up to the challenge.”
Harry, seated in the front row beside Hermione and Ron, drew his wand without much thought. He knew this spell—he’d seen it used during the war. Ginny, sitting just behind him, brushed her fingertips lightly against the back of his shoulder. He turned; she gave him a conspiratorial wink.
“Mr Potter!” Flitwick called cheerfully. “Perhaps you’d care to give us a demonstration? I hear you’ve seen this charm in action, in the field.”
A few chuckles rippled through the class. Everyone knew what “the field” truly meant.
Harry simply nodded and stood. Flitwick conjured a metal sphere, which began to spin lazily in the air. Harry waited a second, raised his wand, “Mutare Motus.”
The sphere vanished with a sharp pop, reappearing neatly on the empty desk at the back of the classroom.
“Flawlessly done!” exclaimed Flitwick. “Such flow! Such precision! Ten points to Gryffindor!”
Harry returned to his seat. He was used to this sort of praise, and yet something in him stirred. It felt as though Flitwick had leaned a little too heavily into his admiration. As if the merit belonged not to the charm itself, but to the one who had cast it.
The lesson went on. Other students attempted the spell. Hermione succeeded on her first try, naturally, though Flitwick granted her only a mild, approving nod. Ron fumbled the incantation and sent his sphere skimming across to Ginny’s desk, prompting a burst of laughter.
“Well, at least it stayed in the classroom,” Ginny quipped with a grin.
Harry raised his hand again, almost without thinking. He didn’t particularly feel like speaking, but he’d had an idea to stabilise the movement. Flitwick called on him at once, even though three other hands had gone up just before his. No one objected. They simply looked at him.
By the end of the lesson, Hermione and Ron were chatting animatedly about the spell’s challenges, and Ginny was waiting for him near the door, beaming. Other students walked past, some nodding, some smiling, others meeting his gaze.
He felt like a flame at the centre of a candelabrum. Lighting the world around him. Drawing every gaze. Without ever having asked to.
Professor Harvey, the new Defence teacher, was already waiting for them when they entered the classroom. Upright, motionless, his hands resting atop a carved cane, he watched the students in silence as they took their seats. His tall frame, the midnight-blue coat fastened to the collar, and his steel-like gaze commanded immediate respect. Not a single word was spoken in the first few moments—as if everyone had instinctively sensed that this was no ordinary professor.
When he finally spoke, his deep voice sliced through the air like a blade. “Take your seats. This first lesson will be short, but demanding. I don’t believe in introductions. The course this year is titled ‘Strategic Application of Defensive Magic’, but you may translate that as: you are going to learn how to fight—properly.”
A murmur of excitement ran through the room. Ron couldn’t help himself. “Finally! Something other than Lumos and Expelliarmus…”
A few muffled laughs. Harvey raised an eyebrow, unsmiling. “I hope so, Mr Weasley. But for the record, I’ve seen duelists die for mishandling Expelliarmus. The simplicity of a spell does not make it weak—only the one who casts it carelessly.”
Ron swallowed whatever he’d been about to say. Hermione had already produced a notebook. Harry, seated towards the back, remained still, arms crossed.
Harvey paced a few slow steps to the side. “Some of you are heroes. Others, survivors. Witnesses. All marked by war, each in your own way. But in this room, I want no symbols. No legends. Only students ready to unlearn their habits.” He stopped in front of Harry. “You’ll no doubt be top of the class, Mr Potter. You’ve had more practical experience than most.”
All eyes turned towards him.
Harry said nothing. He stared at the professor, unmoved.
Harvey held his gaze. The silence grew heavy. Then, slowly, he nodded. “Just as I thought. Very well. Let me be clear: you will receive no special treatment here. No leniency. And those who think they already know what they’re doing are likely the ones most mistaken.” He struck the floor with his cane. The door shut on its own. “Up. In pairs. First lesson: observe before you strike.”
That evening, Harry closed the door to his room behind him, leaving the light off. The last glow from the corridor faded on its own. In the warm half-dark of the bedroom, the curtains hung in straight folds around the bed, and a faint silver glimmer slipped through the half-shut shutters.
He let himself fall into the armchair without even taking off his shoes. A moment of silence. A real one. The first in a long time.
Then, a gentle knock.
“It’s me,” said Ginny’s familiar voice.
He got up without replying and opened the door. She stepped in on tiptoe, closed it softly behind her, then turned to him with a soft smile. “Thought I’d check you weren’t brooding yourself into a state.” She was wearing a loose jumper with the sleeves pushed up, and her hair was tied in a messy bun, a few strands falling free. She smelled of rain and clean sheets.
Harry looked at her for a moment without speaking. She was beautiful. Truly beautiful. He’d always known it, but tonight, it felt more like a memory than a certainty.
She stepped closer, placed her hands on his chest. “Are you all right?” she murmured.
He nodded, then slowly drew her into an embrace. They kissed. The touch was gentle, tender, almost too quiet.
Harry closed his eyes. He focused on the warmth of the kiss, on Ginny’s breath against his cheek, on her hands moving up to the back of his neck.
She loved him. He knew that. And she believed she understood him. Perhaps that was enough.
They ended up lying beside one another, silent. Ginny’s head rested on his shoulder, her fingers tracing invisible circles on his chest. She spoke softly of things that didn’t matter—Quidditch schedules, the new Defence professor, the scent of rain. He listened. Or at least, he tried to.
His hand slid into her hair. He kissed her again.
The emptiness inside him hadn’t gone. But it was warm. A little less vast. Perhaps that was what love was.
The following days passed without him really being able to tell them apart. Lessons blurred together; Potions, Transfiguration, Charms, Defence Against the Dark Arts… A well-oiled routine, in which everyone already seemed to have found their place. The meals all felt the same. The corridors buzzed with the same conversations. Harry smiled when spoken to. He answered politely, sometimes even with humour. But he felt as though he were floating on the surface of his own life.
Ginny often came to his room in the evenings. They kissed, held hands, whispered softly.
That evening, the corridors seemed louder than usual. He’d left the study room early, head heavy. As he passed through the entrance hall, a group of young Ravenclaws stopped in their tracks at the sight of him.
“It’s Harry!”
“Do you think he’d sign my book?”
He didn’t reply. Just a glance, then another step forward.
He tried the library. Maybe there, he’d find some silence.
But he had barely sat down when a third-year student, clearly on a mission for his older brother, approached him timidly. “Excuse me, Harry… My brother said you fought Inferi, is that true? He… he wanted to know if they can really sense you if you breathe too loudly…”
Harry stared at him for a few seconds. He drew a breath, set his book down, and left the library without a word.
The Gryffindor common room offered little respite. No sooner had the Fat Lady’s portrait closed behind him than two students called out, all smiles.
“Fancy a game of chess? Ron’s up for it too!”
“And afterwards, we could try Patronuses again like in fifth year, remember?”
Harry left without replying. He didn’t think for long. In truth, he didn’t think at all.
A minute later, he was pulling on his coat and retrieving the Invisibility Cloak from the back of a drawer. He didn’t need it to leave the castle: he knew which staircases to avoid, which torches to brush past, which portraits to bypass. The night air bit at his neck as he stepped out into the grounds. He quickened his pace, heart pounding. He didn’t really know why he was going to Hogsmeade. But it was the only place he could go. Anywhere else, they’d come looking for him.
The path was dark. Washed out. The rain, fine, but insistent, pattered against his glasses. He didn’t wipe it away. At least it blurred the world a little. When he reached the first houses, he kept the hood of his coat pulled low. But no sooner had he passed the porch of Honeydukes than a voice called out behind him, “Harry Potter! Is that you?”
“Hey, wait—could we have a photo?”
He took a step back. Then another. A second group was approaching now: smiling teenagers, one holding up a magical camera. An older man came forward to shake his hand. “It’s an honour, truly. My nephew was at the battle, he saw you cast your Patronus…”
He muttered something. A “sorry”, or a “not now” he wasn’t sure. He turned sharply. The rain was coming down harder. In two quick steps, he pulled the Invisibility Cloak over his shoulders, heart racing.
Silence fell, heavy.
Invisible, he walked on. He passed a couple huddled beneath an umbrella, a shopkeeper shuttering her windows. He stopped in front of the Three Broomsticks, then stepped back. Too crowded. He tried the bookshop, but students were spilling out, laughing loudly. He didn’t stay long. Not a single shop. Not a single alleyway. Nowhere to stop. Nowhere to disappear. So he turned back, soaked through, invisible, fingers clenched around the damp fabric of his cloak.
On Saturday morning, sunlight filtered through the stained glass in warm, almost gentle hues. Ginny was already waiting in the entrance hall, wrapped in a thick Gryffindor scarf. She caught his hand at once and tugged him towards the doors, her face bright with purpose. “Don’t make that face,” she said. “I’m not dragging you into anything dreadful.”
Harry didn’t ask questions. He followed.
They walked in silence along the path to Hogsmeade, scattered with students’ shouts and windblown leaves. Ginny seemed lighter than he felt, almost hopeful, and for a moment he envied her that.
But the closer they came to the village, the more he felt that dull tension creeping up the back of his neck. A familiar, stubborn sensation. At first, he thought it was the cold, or tiredness. Then he heard the voices. Voices—many of them. And laughter. They turned onto a small square near the sweetshop, and then he understood. A crowd of thirty young witches and wizards, perhaps more—some in Hogwarts robes, some not—were already waiting. As soon as they saw him, a wave of excited cries broke out.
“It’s him!”
“It’s Harry Potter!”
“Merlin’s beard, look at that!”
“He’s even taller in real life!”
Some pulled out bits of parchment, others had quills ready, magical cameras began to click.
Harry stopped dead. “Ginny… what is this?”
She glanced at him, still smiling, though more carefully now. “Just a small gathering. I thought it might do you good.”
He opened his mouth, but no words came. Faces were already surrounding him. Hands reaching out. Voices pressing in. Boys slightly younger than him speaking with admiration, girls laughing nervously while asking for a photo. He was asked about the battle, about Voldemort, about his future plans.
At first, he answered. Out of politeness. Out of habit.
But after a few minutes, a pulse began to throb at his temples.
Someone touched his shoulder. Another hand brushed the scar on his forehead.
He stepped back.
A laugh. A flash. A question he didn’t catch.
Ginny stayed beside him, smiling easily, stepping in whenever he hesitated, as though helping him through it. She looked proud of him—and perhaps proud for him too—which somehow made it worse. Proud of what he represented. But he didn’t represent anything anymore. He was tired. Everything was blurred. A light nausea began to creep in.
A child, perhaps ten years old, approached timidly, holding out a drawing. A clumsy sketch of him, wand raised. Harry forced a smile and took the parchment. “Thank you… it’s… very kind.” The child beamed. The others took it as their cue to move closer. Harry felt sweat gather at the back of his neck, despite the breeze.
He looked for Ginny. She was waving him over to greet someone new. A former Ravenclaw, apparently. The boy wanted a photo. Harry agreed. But when he saw the flash, he closed his eyes. And kept them closed for a long time. When he opened them again, he murmured, “I’ve got a headache. I think I’m going to head back.”
Ginny turned to him, surprised. “Already?”
He said nothing.
Some of the brightness left her face. “Harry, I wasn’t trying to ambush you,” she said, lower now. “I just thought… after everything, it might feel good. That’s all.”
He looked at her then. She was staring somewhere over his shoulder, not quite able to meet his eyes.
He returned alone to his prefect’s room, not even bothering to stop by the Great Hall for dinner. He closed the door behind him, slowly.
The late afternoon light filtered through the slats of the half-shut shutters, casting pale stripes across the dark wooden floor. He slipped off his shoes without a sound, placed his wand on the desk, and stood for a moment in the centre of the room, listening to the silence.
No voices. No smiles. No eyes on him. Solitude eased him.
He let himself fall onto the bed without even taking off his coat, then sat up again at once. Too much restlessness in his limbs. Instead, he took a seat in the chair by the desk, elbows on knees, hands clasped.
On the desk lay his weekly timetable. His name was written at the top in clear, neat lettering:
Harry Potter — Gryffindor — Seventh Year
He stared at it for a long time, thoughtless. Then his brow furrowed.
What choices had he really made since the end of the war? Not the grand ones people credited him with: becoming an Auror, returning to Hogwarts, picking up a normal life. Real choices. His own. The kind no one suggested, expected, or quietly arranged for him. He couldn’t find any.
He had won. Everyone said so. He was the Survivor, the hero, the one who had saved the world. But he couldn’t remember when he had started to lose his own words.