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Lelouch’s amethyst eye narrowed. “ Suzaku. ”
The Japanese boy stood in front of him. Wearing the uniform of the knights of the round. Hate in those emerald eyes. It was to be expected. The black-haired rebel had been defeated and captured. Held in this jail. Taken to his homeland and waiting his father’s judgement of his life. Lelouch was certain it was to be execution. His father had no need for a disobedient child. One used and discarded years ago. The rebel had lost. His geass discovered. His army killed or waiting for their execution. And Suzaku… There was no use wishing his former love would intervene. The black-haired rebel had committed an act unable to be forgiven.
Black gloved hands became fists. “ Lelouch… ”
“ So father promoted you for my capture. Another victory you would not have earned without me. ”
“ I want answers. ”
“ Then leave. You already made your choice. I have nothing to say to you. ”
“ Why… ? Why did you order Euphie to do that ?! She was your sister ! ”
“ … ”
“ Why ?! ”
“ … ”
Black gloved hands gripped the restraining suit that tied Lelouch. One designed for omegas. Its straps holding him comfortable but tight. The same that CC had worn on first meeting. CC… Perhaps the only of us to get away… She would abandon me too ? As Kallen did ? … And Suzaku ? Lelouch could not fight back. And he would not have tried to. The black-haired rebel had committed an act unable to be forgiven.
“ So you will take your reason to your grave ?! Why ?! Of all things to… ”
A tired amethyst eye looked at his captor. Seeing that despair he had caused. The other eye blood filled and bruised shut where the Japanese knight had punched it. Already his former love had attacked in anger. The pain still felt. The leader of the rebellion a pathetic shell of what he was. Beaten in war and in physical form. It was less than what he deserved. The black-haired rebel had committed an act unable to be forgiven.
“ If you are not here to kill me with your own hands then go. I’m useless to you now. ”
But this caused confusion. “ What ?! ”
“ Don’t… Look at me like that. You made your choice. See it through to the end or leave. ”
Lelouch was slapped. Angered tears in emerald eyes. “ I made my choice ?! Don’t pretend that you are innocent in this ! I- I loved you ! When I fought on the battlefield it was for a dream of a future with you ! And… And you were my enemy all along ! Did my love mean nothing to you ?! You would ruin everything and kill Euphie for what ?! ”
His words made the rebel keen with despair. You fought for a future with me Suzaku ? How terrible. We were fighting for the same thing all along… Lelouch had thought of telling him the truth long before this. To let Suzaku know that horrible command was only an accident. That he shot the bewitched Euphie before she could kill Suzaku. But he kept his painful truth hidden. Not because he feared his former love would not believe him. The black-haired rebel had committed an act unable to be forgiven.
“ … Perhaps we are both fools. Of equal measure. ”
Angered tears appeared in emerald eyes. “ You- ! Why won’t you- ?! ”
“ Suzaku. You chose this cruel empire over me. You won. My army is defeated and my fate is torture and death. I… I hate you. If there is one thing in my power then it is to deny you that precious truth. Then I can die with some satisfaction. ”
“ You… Hate me ? ”
The amethyst eye looked away. Even now he was speaking lies. He could not hate the one he loved. He only wanted Suzaku to hate him. “ It is all I can do now. ”
Those gloved hands twitched again. The Japanese knight wanting to do what he so wished for. To get revenge for the bewitching and killing of Euphie. His precious princess who helped him achieve so much. The equality and fairness to the Japanese finally in his reach. A promise of a new life with his precious love. But Lelouch had taken it all away. Taken and burned it to the ground. Now Suzaku had nothing. And no confession to make him understand the madness behind it.
Soon Lelouch would be taken from here and given judgement. It was certain to be execution, public or private. Then the Japanese knight would have to fight for his people another way. None of it made sense. The black-haired rebel’s actions spoke of lies and treachery. He pretended to love Suzaku to be close to him. He pretended to care for the rights of the Japanese. That Lelouch never loved him… Used him for his evil ends. That was the only explanation for why he would do what he did.
But Suzaku could not stop loving Lelouch. After all the rebel did the anger and hate could not stop the love he felt. The Japanese knight shook with anger. Emerald eyes saw a single glazed amethyst. The British boy showing no fear or remorse. No sadness or pain. Even now… Lelouch felt nothing of the suffering he caused. So this is it ? He will die and I will suffer the pain of his betrayal alone ? He… He cannot have this last victory over me !
The black-haired rebel felt a change in the air. Suzaku’s scent of pine needles becoming less acid. More pleasing to his inner omega. Those gloved hands mapping the restraining suit. Trying to find something. What is he… ? Lelouch was pushed onto the floor. Gloved hands finding what they were looking for. A zip was pulled, exposing black panties to cold air. Those fingers pulling the fabric away to expose his pussy. That amethyst eye looked to Suzaku. Seeing a dark expression on those eyes. He’s… ? So I underestimated you again Suzaku.
That amethyst eye closed. Resigning himself to this new fate. Letting Suzaku prepare to take his revenge on his body. Mind trying to puzzle out his former love’s actions. One last taste of his body before it was quartered ? A final victory over Zero ? The black-haired rebel decided it was not worth finding out. If Suzaku was acting of cowardice or hate… The black-haired rebel had committed an act unable to be forgiven.
The jail was too quiet. Only the sound of clothes moving. Even Lelouch’s pussy made no sound of fingers delving into it. Dripping slick around gloved fingers. A thumb pushing too harsh against his clit. The black-haired rebel tried to control his scent. Unsure if to make it sweet to encourage Suzaku or to make it acidic to pretend he was scared. Not knowing which would break his former love out of this sudden madness or make it worse.
But halfway through the hands stop their preparation. Some light coming back to those broken emerald eyes. Suzaku retreats. Head shaking with despair. “ No… No. What am I… ? I-I can’t… ”
Lelouch squirmed away. Using the jail wall to pull up to sit. Amethyst eye watching Suzaku fall into despair again. His heart fluttered. Even after all he did… The Japanese knight was unable to bring himself to commit such an act. He still loves me… After all this… We truly are fools of equal measure.
“ L-Lelouch I… ”
“ You’re pathetic Suzaku. ”
“ … ”
“ You think yourself better than to do such evil ? Perhaps there is still a chance for you to join my side. ”
“ … Don’t say that. ”
“ Finish what you started or get out. You will not have another chance once father declares his judgment. ”
It was those words that pushed Suaku over the edge. His lost love held his head in two hands, lips pushed together again. An angry and desperate kiss. The hands around his head grip harder, as if to keep him pinned. Slicked gloved fingers pulling at hair. Suzaku’s kiss was like none given before. Too desperate. Too angry. As if he would die if their lips were not connected. As if the kiss would make Lelouch feel pain. The Japanese knight taking what he wanted. And what he wanted was…
The amethyst eyed boy gasped for breath when the kiss was finished. Unable to think from nearly being starved of precious air. That scent of pine needles so strong. Causing amethyst eye to fog. Pleasure to pulse between legs. Then such a sharp pain in his neck. Sharp teeth puncturing glands in the neck. Gloved hand held over mouth to stop him screaming. Lelouch became distant. Awareness of the world fading into white from the rush of hormones. Suzaku he… Bit me…
When awareness returned Lelouch felt so good. Pinned against the wall like a butterfly. The Japanese knight’s cock inside him. Thick and hot and heavy and too good. Just as it always was. Moving in and out at a steady pace. Filling him too well. Knot kissing clit with each thrust. A weak amethyst eye looked into those emerald ones. Again darkened with an emotion the rebel could not understand. The black-haired rebel said nothing, having no strength to. Only closing his eye and waiting for Suzaku to have his fill. Even now after everything that happened… Their love felt so good.
Back arched. Toes curled. With eyes closed it was almost as if they were back in Ashford. The Japanese knight taking his love in the corner of the gym. Between the mats and the wall where none could see them. The black-haired boy’s pussy fluttered around his love’s cock. Inner omega happy to milk that fat and perfect cock of the seed it deserved. Lelouch panted fogged breaths of pleasure. It was too good. It was almost as if they were there and not here.
But only almost. It was not the same as before. No moans or words of love spoken between them. No sweet kisses. Suzaku rutting in and out so silently. Not even trying to push the knot inside. As if he would be cursed if it locked them together. That amethyst eye fluttered open and shut. The black-haired boy breathing that scent of pine, Suzaku’s scent. It betraying emotions that the knight refused to share. How it made his body weak and eager. This was the scent of an alpha in love. Lelouch was better to control his scent. Refusing to show a hint of the love he still felt.
Suzaku came first. Pinning tight to Lelouch and keeping still. Pressed tight against swollen pussy but not tight enough. Letting cock pulse thick ribbons of cum inside. Knot pushed hard against clit. But no harder, keeping it outside. They stayed like that. The black-haired boy trying to keep shaking breaths calm and even. Close. He was too close. But did not dare to beg to cum too. Eventually the amethyst eyed rebel was pulled out and left to fall on the ground. Suzaku staring with such small eyes. Then he recoiled. Retreating and leaving like a scared fox.
Lelouch did not know how long he was left there. Exposed and dripping. Restraining suit red with the blood wept from his neck. Suzaku had bit him. Hard enough to leave a scar when it healed. But it was not binding. Neither had been in heat or rut. To the next person to arrive it would be too obvious what had happened. The guard laughing when he arrived to the cell. Then dragging him by the hair to a bathroom. Pulled out of his dirtied suit. Another thrown at him. Ordered to clean himself before audience with the emperor. The black-haired rebel thankful for that small kindness.
*** Ashford Academy : Student Council ***
Lelouch was organizing club paperwork in the filing cabinets. Normally a task for Rivalz or Shirley. But the black-haired student wanted to do something to distract his mind from thinking. Too many things had happened that day to ruin his mood. He had been eating alone at lunch when he overheard a conversation by the other students.
“ So which knight of the round is your favorite ? ”
“ Obviously it is Gino. So young and handsome~ If only I had a chance with him. ”
“ Bismark looks too good for his age. ”
“ So you like old men ? ”
“ Shut up ! ”
“ Better to like him than the new 11. To think the knights keep such a rabid dog in their ranks… ”
Lelouch stopped eating. 11 ? They mean Suzaku ? The thought of his former love brought sadness to the amethyst eyed student. A sickness in his stomach. That was right… Former love. Before the black rebellion they had been secret lovers. But since his promotion to the knights… Suzaku had stopped all contact with Lelouch. Ignoring the texts or the messages left on his voicemail. Messages left on read with no reply. At first the British student thought Suzaku was too busy with his new duties. But as months passed it became obvious. The new knight of the rounds wanted nothing to do with him anymore.
The students kept gossiping. “ They call him the white reaper. So violent they sent him to conquer the EU on his own ! ” “ I heard he burned schools and hospitals in the EU to the ground. He was not even ordered to but he did ! ” “ They were hiding soldiers in there obviously. ” “ Such dirty people. Better to send that animal to fight them then our own. ”
Lelouch had run to the bathroom to vomit. Washing his mouth of the horrible taste. Amethyst eyes watching the water go to the drain. Is that what you are doing Suzaku ? What happened to bringing better rights to the Japanese ? What happened to your goal of changing the system ? You would conquer other countries and share Britannia’s misery there ? Even now… The students still think such horrible things of you. The door opened. His little brother Rolo ran inside.
“ Nii-san… Are you ok ? ”
“ … I feel a little better with it out of me. ”
“ You threw up yesterday too. ”
“ Perhaps my stomach is being too delicate. ”
Later the black-haired student dared to search on the internet. Coach Villetta had made the school become stricter. Thinking the black rebellion was helped by allowing so much online information to leak into the school. Sometimes taking Lelouch for questioning if he searched about sensitive subjects. Perhaps this would cause another interrogation. But he wanted to know. Show me Suzaku. Show me what those students said was not true.
But the information was found too easily. The internet too happy to tell him that Suzaku was helping to conquer EU territories. That he truly was called the white reaper. Feared from being able to kill so many opponents without hesitation. Photographs of the destruction he had brought. Towns and villages reduced to dust. It left the former lover heartbroken. Is this why you stopped responding ? Because you knew I could not forgive your actions ? Eventually the student was questioned about his online searches. Lelouch admitting he wanted to see what his former friend was doing… Only his friend. It was too taboo to admit a relationship between a commoner and a knight… Or a citizen and an honorary.
“ This is the 4th time. You are becoming too bold with this. Detention for 2 weeks, ” coach Villetta said.
Lelouch sighed. Organizing the paperwork in the present time. What am I to do now ? These days… I have been feeling so lost. What good is studying or detention when there is no future ahead of me ? I once wanted a gentle world for Rolo and Suzaku. Rolo is now able to walk after his surgery. He has become so independent without me. Disappearing in the night to see someone special to him… And Suzaku… He is now…
“ Lelouch ? ”
Amethyst eyes saw his friend Milly. “ What ? Surprised that I am not being so lazy today ? ”
“ I heard coach Villetta gave you detention again. For only looking at the news ! She is too evil to you. I should talk to grandfather and have her fired ! ”
“ He won’t. She is too good at her job. For such little pay as well. ”
“ … Are you alright Lelouch ? You seem so tired these days. And… ” The blond-haired student paused. She sniffed the air. Blue eyes shivered with shock. “ Lelouch… Your scent is… ”
“ What ? ”
“ … It’s milky… ”
The amethyst eyed student’s heart froze. Milky ? But that means… That cannot be possible. When Suzaku and I… We used contraception. A hand went to that shoulder. When he woke in hospital and had no memory of how that bite scar came to be. The events of the black rebellion forgotten. Amnesia caused by stress. Is it possible ? Did Suzaku and I… ? Without protection ? I would have remembered such a thing would I not ? Unless…
There was a sick possibility. That it was a stranger that had taken advantage and given that bite. Perhaps that the cause of his amnesia. But the black-haired boy knew enough of biology. His inner omega was too quick to think of Suzaku. Instinct knowing better than memory. And he would not have ovulated if he was in terrible stress. At the mercy of a stranger his inner omega would have shut down to protect him. Then the answer must be…
“ So. Who was it with ? I did not think you were in a relationship with someone. ” Milly asked as if it was gossip.
“ … ”
The blond student saw the hesitance in his eyes. “ Lelouch ? ”
“ No… I don’t know who… It must be a mistake, ” he lied. But his inner omega thinking of Suzaku so strongly.
“ I could get a test for you from the medical room ? ”
“ Thank you. ”
When Milly left the black-haired student felt too weak to stand. Sitting in the nearest chair. Wrist taken to nose and inhaled. She was right. A scent of milk with his natural scent. The scent of a pregnant omega. I-I am sure we used contraception… Perhaps it failed or… ? Anxiety began to fill his heart. Suzaku… If I am pregnant with Suzaku’s child… He is a knight of the rounds now… The white reaper of Britannia…
“ Nii-san. What did Milly say to you ?! ”
“ R-Rolo ? How did you… ? ”
“ What did she say ?! ”
The sudden appearance of his little brother made the anxiety worse. I kept my relation with Suzaku a secret from him. If this is how I have to reveal it… “ She went to get something for me from the medical office. I… I might be sick. ”
“ You mean when you were in the bathroom ? What kind of test ? ”
Rolo how can you be so dense ? Did they not teach this to you ? “ Calm down Rolo. I don’t know until the test says it is positive. ”
Milly returned with the test. A small strip of paper. Looking so similar to those they used in chemistry class. “ Here. You… You know what to do with this. ”
Lelouch took the test with shaking hands. Ignoring Rolo as he walked to the closest bathroom. The younger brother so worried he refused to leave his side. Even when the test was used. Amethyst eyes shivered with shock. Seeing a second line appear.
“ … I’m pregnant. ” And Suzaku is the father… It could not be anyone else…