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Jimin was exhausted. He had been working his ass off the entire day. Working as a senior editor at a publishing house was not easy and it wasn't an easy path, not for an omega at least. But here he was, at 6pm in their conference room, waiting for whatever their boss was about to tell them.
Park Jimin was a 31 year old, beautiful and hardworking omega. And despite being at a well respected position at the organisation, most of the times he felt alone. He was born to parents who had hoped and prayed for an alpha son but had to settle with him instead. And they didn't hide their disappointment a bit. He grew up listening to his parents' complaints and somehow used those words as his armour. At 18, he left his home in Busan and arrived at Seoul for his graduation. It wasn't uncommon for omegas to pursue degrees but the society was still very much alpha dominated and Jimin hated it.
He hated how his ideas were dismissed often in his college just because he was an omega. He hated how people underestimated him. He hated how alphas only gravitated towards him because of his omega status. He hated it all. Maybe that was one of the many reasons why Jimin had given up on dating all together. It's not like he hadn't tried. He couldn't really dismiss his omega all the time. They wanted someone to lean on too. But all the alphas he'd met had made him more disappointed. Either they would stink up the entire place with their pheromones or try to subdue him because he was an omega. This would also explain why he didn't like working with alphas.
"You're being too critical" his omega friend from college who was now his colleague, Hoseok, had once commented.
"Yes, Min.. I get it that alphas are the best at many things.. I can agree to it but you cannot judge all the aphas on it.." Yoongi, Hoseok's beta boyfriend had added.
"I can only make my decisions based on my experiences. And thus far they have been horrible. So I am sorry but I am not sorry." Jimin had simply commented and that was that.
But why is he thinking about this particular incident now? Probably because he could sense a bomb being dropped on him in this meeting.
"As you all know, we are partnering up with the Seoul University Literature team and from this year on, they will be sending their best students here for 3 month internships.." Kim Seokjin, Jimin’s beta boss continues, "..and the first batch will be joining us all from tomorrow.. I have allotted one intern to each of the editors, so they can learn directly from you all.. I hope you all will work more efficiently. The allotments are listed on the notice board, feel free to check them out"
And so they did and Jimin was fine with this arrangement until he checked his name on the board followed by his intern's subgender - Alpha.
"Seokjin ssi.. You cannot possibly allot me an alpha.." Jimin barges into his boss' office.
Jin smiles brightly at him.
"Have a seat, Jimin"
Jimin does but continues his rant. "You know how I feel about them, please make some changes".
Jin sips tea from.his cup and smiles again.
"Allotments cannot be changed, Jimin.. This collaboration will be useful to us.. Not only would they get to learn but we would be able to get some work done for free.. And this alpha is the top of their class, and who better than you to guide him?"
"But Jin hyung.." Jimin whines
Jin gently holds Jimins hands in his. "Jimin, I want you to keep an open mind. Try working with him. If it bothers you too much, I'll change it. But this can be a good opportunity for you to be more free.. You're too boxed up right now.. So please.. Let's try our best, shall we?"
Jimin sighs but agrees. He heads out of the cabin and checks the notice board one last time before heading home.
JEON JUNGKOOK, ALPHA
Jimin sighs. It's been a long day. Might be longer tomorrow, his omega supplies. Damn.
******
"Go and talk to him", Hobi aka Hoseok nudges Jimin the next day when they're having coffee at the office cafeteria. The interns had all arrived. There were 3 of them. One alpha, 2 omegas. And Jimin wasn't surprised to notice all the omegas crowding up the only alpha’s space. The alpha in question, Jeon Jungkook, was tall and broad shouldered with brunette locks. Jimin would be lying if he said that he didn't find the alpha to be handsome. But Jimin knows better than to judge an alpha by their appearance.
The interns had been called into the conference room, and were asked to introduce themselves to everyone. While the two of the interns had used 3-4 minutes to introduce themselves, Jungkook had kept his intro short. Just his name, his degree and nothing more.
Does he think he's too good for everyone to introduce himself properly?
But that was an hour ago. Right now Jimin is in the office cafeteria with Hobi, judging the alpha pretty hard.
"Why will I go to him? He should come to me.."
"You have an ego that's bigger than your size, Min.."
"Shut up.." Jimin whines and soon both of them leave their spots to head back to their office.
Jimin does not spare him a glance but half an hour later, there's a knock on his door.
"May I come in?" A soft voice is heard. The alpha had kept the door ajar and kept looking at the ground. Jimin humms an affirmation.
"Take a seat, Jungkookssi" Jimin says and the alpha follows.
The entire ambience is awkward to say the least. But Jimin still tries to break the ice.
"So.. I have been told that you're the topper in your class.." Jimin says and waits for a cocky remark, but gets none.
"I tried my hardest.. And did my best.. I am sure there are many more talented people in my class.."
"Oh..So.. Why writing?"
"I have always had a thing for writing.. For books, for literature.. I am an avid reader so I wanted to work in an industry where I can invoke such excitement in other readers" the alpha says, the last words almost a whisper.
Jimin is kinda stumped. He hadn't expected such an answer. Jungkook cared about writing and was passionate about it, he was sure of it without even having read anything he has written. It was clear in his voice.
"Um.. So.. Why were you waiting so long outside..?"
"I.. I am a bit shy and awkward.. I am kind of an introvert-"
"Please look at me when youre talking.."
Jungkook lifts his face and Jimin, for the first time, notices the doe eyes, full of wonder and honesty.
"I..I am sorry"
"Never apologise for being yourself.. It's a lesson I have had to learn the hard way.."
"I will try not to."
"So.. Right now I am working on this piece on Impact of Covid on The Perfume Industry.. Do you want to take a look at it?"
And like an eager bunny, Jungkook nods his head. Jimin doesnt even realise how the next few hours fly by, with them working and exchanging ideas. It is only when he notices his phone does he realise that it was time to leave.
"That's it for the day.. You've done well, Jungkookssi.. Be here at 9am tomorrow.. We will finish the remaining portion.."
"Okay, Jiminssi.." He says and leaves soon after.
Jimin is kind of surprised to have spent an entire day with an alpha without being ridiculed or being made to feel small. But he was still skeptical. However, there was one thing for sure, he was looking forward to the next day.
******
"You seem to be getting along quite well with him" Hobi says, as he takes a big bite out of the sandwich he had been devouring.
It's been a week. One week already. And Jimin would be lying if he didn't agree with Hobi. Jungkook had been nothing like he had presumed. The initial attitude or elusiveness he had seen in the alpha was just him being an introvert. Jungkook was a hardworker. He didn't procrastinate and he would always try his best to work in tandem with Jimin.
Jimin leans back on his seat and sighs.
"I guess you could say that"
"So Kim Seokjin was right for once.." Hobi chuckles.
"Jin hyung would give you a hard time if he heard you say that.." Jimin laughs.
"Anyway.. But I am happy for you.. It's nice to see you all happy and giggly in the office.. It -"
"I am not happy or giggly.. What are you talking about?" Jimin interjects
"Oh come on.. Everyone sees it.. You're more happy these days.. Which is weird.. I thought You'd be annoyed with alpha scent and all but then again I don't know what Jungkookssi smells like.. Anyway.. My intern isn't bad either..-"
As Hobi continues telling him about his intern, a thought springs into his mind. He doesn't know what Jungkook smells like. And he doesnt mean to seem creepy but usually alphas tend to express their dominance through their scents but Jungkook? How does he control it? It's been a week.. Why hadn't I noticed it?
With this same thought, he heads back to his cabin after lunch to find Jungkook working on his laptop. Jimin takes his seat, mind still full of queries. This would be breaching a boundary. Scents are personal stuff, I shouldn't care .. Jimin tells himself and begins to work.. But half an hour later he gives in.
"Um..ahem.. Jungkookssi.. Ahem.."
"Huh?" Jungkook says, lifting those doe eyes to meet his.
"Why.. I mean.. How do you control your scent.. I don't remember ever detecting your scent in the office.."
Jungkook sits up right.
I shouldn't have asked that.
"I.. I use blockers?"
"What.. Why?"
"I don't want my scent to bother anyone.. I mean you use blockers too.. Workplaces are important spaces where we work with other people.." Jungkook fiddles with his shirt. "Scents.. We can’t usually control them..They give too much away and may make someone uncomfortable.. I didn't want anyone to feel that way.. So.. I use blockers when I am here...is.. Is there any problem with it?"
And once again.. Jimin is left speechless. "No.. No.. I just.. You confuse me.."
"What?"
"Nothing. Get back to work"
Jimin dismisses Jungkook and tries to get back to his own work but he cannot fully concentrate. Jungkook was younger than him, way younger and yet he had single handedly managed to shake the notion he has about alpha.. Has had about alphas for years.. How is this even possible?
******
It's been a month and Jimin thinks he is losing his mind. Last night he had dreamt about a certain doe eyed alpha holding him in his arms. He had woken up all hot and bothered. This can't be happening. Damn Jung Hoseok and Damn Min Yoongi. If his friends hadn't mentioned Jungkook and his closeness, he wouldn't be in this position today.
But Jimin knew it wasn't just Yoongi and Hobi’s encouragement. There were numerous instances which had left Jimin surprised and speechless.. One such incident was from a few days ago when Jimin had fallen sick and taken 2 days off. This was normal but what wasn't normal was seeing his intern at his doorstep with medicines for him.
Jungkook had rushed inside as soon as he had opened the door, leaving no room for any arguments.
"What's the temp now?"
"I dont know.."
"What do you mean? You should keep checking.. Wait lemme" Jungkook had grabbed the thermometer and checked the temperature.
"101.." Jungkook sighs. "You need to eat something and then rest.. Meds won't work on an empty stomach.. Did you cook anything?"
"I.. ordered takeout.."
"Takeout? Can't you cook anything?" Jungkook had said, voice a tad bit higher in volume, leaving Jimin feeling annoyed for the first time.
"Do you expect me to be a good cook and do the cleaning like a stereotypical omega? Is that why you're so exasperated?"
And suddenly Jungkook’s face had lost colour. "N..no.. Jiminssi that's not what I meant.. I.. Let me cook you something "
Jungkook didn't say anything but headed to the kitchen and half an hour later, emerged with a tray of home cooked food which smelled delicious.
He kept the tray in front of Jimin and slowly nudged him to eat, not looking him in the eye.
"I.. I didn't mean it that way.. Takeout isn't nice for the body.. especially when you're sick.." Jungkook stammered.
"I know now.. I misjudged.. I am sorry Jungkookssi.."
Jungkook hums and to erase the awkwardness Jimin grabs the spoon and a bowl and begins to eat.
"This is incredible.. How do you know how to cook so well.. I have never seen any alpha cook.."
Jungkook's face turns red, ears the shade of tomatoes.
"My mom taught me.. She taught me all the necessary household chores too.."
"She sounds like a wonderful mother.."
"She is.. But anyway.. Thank you Jiminssi for the compliment-"
"Jimin hyung.."
Jungkook stares at him.
"You've come here, taken care of me.. Cooked me a meal.. I think you should call me hyung.. Is that okay?"
Jungkook nodded, all enthusiastic. "If only you call me by my name.."
Jungkook says as he stares at Jimin, eyes shining bright. Jimin doesn't remember how long they stare at each other but at some point Jimin becomes aware of a scent of pines and that is when he comes to his senses. Jungkook does too. He straightens. "Shit. My blockers’ effect is depleting.. I.. I should leave.. Please finish the entire bowl and take the meds.. We need you back at work, all healthy.." Jungkook recites as he grabs his jacket and then takes his leave.
******
So yeah, that was a few days ago. Now, Jimin is pretty much screwed. As if Jungkook's demeanour and beautiful face weren't enough, he now had to live knowing how wonderful Jungkook smelled. Jimin’s omega loved the scent, it wasn't overbearing. It was soft but also rigid. Jimin wanted it more. To his shame, he had spent the entire time that evening trying to breathe in more of the scent after jungkook had left. Why am I behaving this way?
This can't be happening. He knew he needed to focus and work hard. It'll all be okay.. I just have to get my head in the game.. And get over this teenage crush like thingy.. It'll be easy..
It wasn't.
****
The following week passes by normally, with Jimin questioning himself, of course. It's Friday today, and almost everyone is excited at the office to get off work and have a nice weekend. It's 3pm when Jungkook suddenly barges into Jimin's office, looking disheveled.
"Hyung.. Jimin hyung.."
"What happened Jungkook, take a seat.." Jimin rises to his feet. The alpha seemed restless.
"I.. can I take the day off now.. I.. I can't reach my mother on the phone.. Please.. I just.."
"Calm down.. Yes you can.. Wait let me drive you.. You're in no position to go there alone" Jimin says decisively as he grabs his jacket and car keys.
"Let's go." He grabs Jungkook by his hands. The alpha was still restless, Jimin’s omega hated it.
The drive was mostly silent. Jungkook had simply given him his address and then fiddled in his seat throughout the journey. When they reached the destination, Jungkook had wasted no time rushing inside an apartment, Jimin following him.
It took Jimin a while to take in everything. The apartment was old but well maintained. Jimin headed inside Jungkook's apartment and found him scolding his mother. The old omega was on the bed, she looked pale.
"I told you to please keep your phone by your side all the time, eomma.. I got so scared.. You need to charge it from time to time else it'll turn off, like it did today.. I.. Eomma, please never ever make me feel this way again.."
"My boy.. I am sorry.. I forgot and then fell asleep.. Forgive eomma.. She’ll do better.." The omega said softly holding Jungkook and Jungkook hugged her tight.
The scene was too personal. Jimin felt like he was intruding and cleared his throat, making Jungkook aware of his presence.
"Oh.. Eomma, This is Jimin hyung.. My senior at the-"
"I know.. You have talked about him so much" his eomma says. Jungkook's ears go red.
"Good things, I hope.." Jimin whispers.
"Good things indeed, Jiminssi.. Please take a seat.. Let me make you some tea -"
"No.. Please.. Rest.. I am fine.."
But Jungkook's eomma admonishes him and asks Jungkook to make some tea instead. Jungkook obliges, leaving the two omegas alone in the room.
"You have raised a really good alpha.." Jimin says.
"He talks a lot about you, Jiminssi.."
Jimin feels shy for some reason.
"He didn't have an easy childhood.. And he has been so closed off.. But I think working with you has been a wonderful thing.. My child seems happy these days.."
"He is a hardworker, ma’am.. You should be proud of him. "
"I am.. But I also feel like I have bound him here.. I know he dreams of going abroad or achieving his goals.. I feel like I have become a barrier-"
"Please don't feel that way.. Parents are not just our responsibility.. I am sure he is extremely happy and feels comforted to look after you. He gets his strength from you.."
"You're a wonderful person.. I can see why he is smitten with you.."
"What?"
The conversation is interrupted by the alpha, who brings a tray laden with tea and cookies. The topic gets buried but not in Jimin's mind. Jimin’s brain is working overtime.
They leave Jungkook's place an hour later. Jungkook had politely asked Jimin to accompany him to the park nearby.
They sit at the bench. There is silence but not an uncomfortable one.
"My appa passed away when I was a child.. And my eomma has been working ever since, raising me.."
"Jungkook you don't need to say anything.."
"I want to.."Jungkook says and Jimin nods.
"I don't get to talk about it with anyone.. Eomma had been working too much and it took a toll on her health.. She became sick a year ago. Doctors say it's just weakness.. She needs to be taken care of.. I try my best but sometimes I feel like I am not doing enough-"
"I just had a talk with your eomma.. She is proud of you,Jungkook.. You have a living parent, who dotes on you.. To dote on.. It makes me respect you more.. "
"You respect me?"
"Yes.. People are respected for their deeds and their behaviour.. Respect doesn't depend on age.. I hope you know that.."
"I do.. Which is also why I respect you a lot.." Both of them smile at each other.
"My.. Parents never wanted me.. They wanted an alpha son.." Jimin whispers.
"It's their loss, hyung.. They missed out on having an amazing and capable son to boast about."
Jimin smiles at him. Maybe he is hallucinating but Jimin can smell soft pines, and he is pretty sure Jungkook can smell his cherry vanilla scent. To his mortification, his omega isn't even trying to hide his scent. But Jimin knows there's a boundary he must not cross. So he breaks the eye contact and gets up from the bench.
"I should get going.. Have a wonderful weekend Jungkook.."
"Jimin hyung.." Jungkook starts but then doesn't say anything else.
"Have a nice evening.." Jimin says as he walks towards his car.
The ride home was uncomfortable. Jimin felt uncomfortable with himself. Because now Jimin knew that he liked Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook has been a revelation to him and he didn't know if he could continue feeling this way about him. He needed help.
********
Jimin doesn't know how time flew by. Only 2 more weeks were left in the internship. And the past 2.5 months had left him feeling things he never thought he would feel.
After his visit to Jungkook's house, Jimin had found it harder to ignore his omega. Sometimes he would find himself staring at the alpha during their working hours. This one time, Jimin had been rushing down the stairs and had tripped. He thought he would fall flat on his face but instead, he was held by firm hands, plastered to a firm chest. For once in his life, Jimin loved the feeling of being held this way. He felt small, but he didn't mind it. Jungkook had wasted no time to inspect if Jimin had hurt himself somehow. Only after he was satisfied, did he let go of Jimin. Jimin missed the warmth immediately.
This other time Jimin had found Jungkook reluctant to go home on a friday. I have no plans . The alpha had stated. So Jimin had invited him to his little gathering with his friends, which included Hobi, Yoongi and even Jin. Jungkook was hesitant at first but he agreed. He watched the alpha smile and laugh freely that night. Jungkook had to grow up too soon, he had responsibilities. Jimin felt sad knowing how the alpha probably spent his teenage years working away. Just like him.
Their reasons were different but they had this one thing in common. Both of them were hard workers.
Then a few days ago, Jungkook shyly invited Jimin to join his friends for lunch at the office cafeteria. Jimin couldn't decline.
His friends were a mated couple. An alpha, Kim Namjoon and his omega mate Kim Taehyung. And the entire lunch was lovely. The Kims were welcoming and it seemed that they cared about Jungkook too. He had good friends. When the two friends left, Jimin and Jungkook returned back to their cabin.
"I grew up with them. Namjoon hyung is a few years older than me, he lived next door. And I introduced him to Taehyung hyung when I was in college. They are amazing together.. Oh to find someone like that so early.." Jungkook muses and then suddenly becomes aware.
"I mean.. I mean people can find it at any age.. I didn't mean-"
"It's okay Jungkook.. You're being too critical. I get what you are saying.. But yes, some people never find “ it "". Which is fine too.."
Jungkook’s eyebrows crease, a big frown on his face.
"What?"
"Sometimes it takes a little time to find it, because the person is too special and deserves an extremely special person.." He says, earnestly, leaving Jimin in awe.
"Um.. Anyway.. Let's finish up with the article.." Jimin had tried to divert the topic and he had succeeded but these words and Jungkook's intense expression did not leave his mind. He just couldn't focus anymore.
*****
Which brings us to now.
A celebratory dinner planned by Seokjin for the completion of the internship program. It was a small get together in their local pub, where all the interns were invited along with their seniors. There would be food and drinks and hopefully they'd have a good time.
And they did. The internship program was about to end in a few days, so Jimin knew his time with Jungkook was limited. But it didn't stop him from having a good time. The drinks kept coming, and he didn't decline. At one point he even earned a judgmental eye from Hobi, but he didnt care. He got wasted. So when it was time to leave, Jimin couldn't even stand up straight. And yet somehow he found himself in front of his apartment, being held tightly, the scent of pines comforting.
He squinted and watched Jungkook looking at him with those sparkly eyes.
"Je-jeon Jungkook.. You have such big eyes.." He slurred.
"Do I?" Jungkook smiles, helping Jimin head towards his apartment door.
"Yes.. And and.. You're so tall.. Why are you so tall?"
Jungkook smiles. They have arrived at the apartment, and Jungkook is busy looking for the spare key Jimin had once mentioned. He finds it and unlocks the door.
"And those lips.. I could kiss them"
Everything stops. Jungkook turns into a statue.
"Wha"
But Jimin doesn't stop. He acts on his instincts. He gently holds Jungkook’s face trying his best not to fall.. They're staring at each other one moment and in the next, Jimin places a soft kiss on Jungkook's lips. Maybe it was the kiss itself or something else but Jimin comes to his senses. His eyes go wide. He steps back hurriedly but is pulled back by firm hands on his back. Soft lips touch his again, coaxing them. He is being kissed. Jungkook was kissing him!
It felt like ages but it probably lasted only a few seconds. But they pull back, and in Jungkook's eyes, Jimin finds wonder, softness but also guilt.
"I.. I should go"
The alpha says and leaves hurriedly. And Jimin? He stumbles inside his apartment, falls face flat on the couch, sleep taking him away.
****
Jimin wakes up the next day with a massive headache and memories which leave him embarrassed.
I threw myself at him.
"I threw myself at him," he tells Hobi and Yoongi. They're in a restaurant having lunch.
It’s Sunday, so there's no worry of facing Jungkook. Although he was hoping for a few texts or something, he received none.
"It’s okay"
"Did you not hear about the part where I threw myself at him?"
"Did he push you away?" Yoongi asks.
"N..no.. He kissed me back.. But that's not the point"
"Then what is.. Jimin, so far from what I have seen these last few weeks, it's clear to me that you two like each other.."
"But.."
"But what? He is not like any alpha you've met before. You've said it yourself.." Yoongi adds.
"But.. I don't know.. He.. He left quite hurriedly too.."
"Yeah.. Because he had just kissed his boss.." Hobi says.
"Maybe he regrets it."
"Do you?"
Jimin takes a moment but then shakes his head, signaling a no.
"The internship ends in 2 days.. You should tell him how you feel.. I want to see you happy, Min.. He makes you happy.." Yoongi says.
"I.. I think I will tell him.. Tomorrow.."
"Good.."
Jimin isn't shy or a coward. For the first time in his life he felt cherished and respected. He wished and hoped Jungkook would reciprocate his feelings. He was gonna come clean. It'll all be okay, he kept telling himself.
But it never is.
Jimin heads to the office the next day, all determined and nervous. I'm gonna do it . Jungkook has not arrived at the office yet and he hadn't heard from him since that kiss. Which is another reason why he was so nervous. He had no idea about Jungkook's feelings regarding that incident. So he sits and waits, but then is called upon by Jin.
Jin is sitting at his desk, a smile on his face as he notices Jimin enter.
"Morning, Jinssi.."
"Jimin, you can call me hyung.. I think I have told you this before.."
Jimin smiles and nods.
"So.. Why am I being summoned here today?"
"What do you feel about Jungkook?"
"What -" Jimin erupts in a coughing fit, almost spilling the water from the glass he was holding to drink.
"Calm down.." Jin consoles.
It takes a few minutes for Jimin to calm his nerves.
"You're okay?"
"Hmm.. I.. Don't understand-"
"I was just asking since you always detested working with alphas.. I wanted your opinion on it.. Did you change your mind?"
"Oh.." Jimin relaxes.
"So?"
"I.. Yes I guess.. He is an extremely hard worker and easily grasps concepts.."
"I thought so too.." Jin humms. "Which is why I thought I should let you know that the company has decided to offer him a job-"
"What? That's wonderful!"
"In the US office."
Jimin's smile disappears. "Oh.."
"Since tomorrow would be his last day.. I will be handing him the offer letter tomorrow.. I wanted you to know about it first.. This might be one of the best opportunities for him.."
Jimin can only nod and listen. No words come out of his mouth. His omega is crying inside. But his logical mind knows what's the right thing to do.
Suddenly he remembers Jungkook's mothers words. Jungkook has great potential. And Jungkook might not even feel anything for him. He is being emotional for nothing.
He heads back to his office, finding the doe eyed man at his seat.
"Jimin hyung.." Jungkook rises, there's hesitation as well as restlessness.
"I need the corporal file done by EOD" Jimin says, heading to his desk, avoiding his eyes.
Jungkook looks like he wants to protest but decides against it.
At 6pm, Jimin just wants to head home and cry. He almost succeeds in avoiding Jungkook but then he is stopped by the alpha at the office parking lot.
"Hyung.. I need to talk to you"
"It's late, Jungkook. Go home.."
Jimin tries to steer clear but is stopped again.
"Hyung.. Tomorrow is my last day here.. I need to talk to you"
"I.."
"Please.. That night.. About the kiss"
"It's okay.. I am sorry, I was completely inebriated. I am sorry I threw myself at you, very unprofessional of me.." Jimin says in a hurry.
"Hyung.. Don't apologise.. Did.. Did you not see that I didn't let you go either.. Hyung.. I..I have feelings for you.. from the very first day -"
"Stop. Jungkook you have no idea what youre talking about"
"Don't invalidate my opinions or feelings.."
Jimin turns around, unable to face Jungkook. He is quite sure his omega is out of control, his scent blocker won't work.
"I.. I am not.. Jungkook you're barely 22-23.. You don't know what you want. You haven't even been exposed to the outside world. What you feel for me is infatuation. Nothing else. And I.. I had a lapse of judgement.. I am sorry. But you can't be serious about this, "Jimin says, his heart breaking.
"Dont.. Dont just reduce me to a young alpha who only thinks with his knot.. I am more than that, Jimin hyung.. I.. I thought you felt the same.. Why are you doing this?"
"Well, you thought wrong.. You are a hardworking alpha.. You did well as an intern.. Please do not confuse my adoration as anything else.." Jimin says, finality in his voice.
Jimin cannot bring himself to stand straight without crying. He can actually smell Jungkook's pine scent getting bitter. He made the alpha cry.
Jimin doesn't wait. He walks towards his car, without sparing a look behind him. He cannot bring himself to do it. His omega keeps howling inside. I'll be okay.. Some omegas are just meant to be by themselves.. He tells himself as he drives home, before falling to his bed and crying his heart out.
Maybe Jimin is a masochist. Why else would he attend the mini farewell arranged for the interns? It had been a hard day. He just didn't have the heart or the mind to be there but he had to be there. He didn't have to avoid the alpha. Jungkook was doing it himself. Actively avoiding him. And he figured that it was justified. Jimin had taken his feelings and crumpled them just a day ago. He probably realised how mean and bad Jimin is.
Jimin watched the entire event from afar. All the interns were handed certificates of completion. A cake was brought in. It was a frivolous affair, for most anyway. And then somewhere in the midst of it all Jimin watched Jin take Jungkook aside and hand him a letter, the offer letter. He watches Jungkook's previous morose expression turn into one of wonder, eyes sparkling, a smile creeping up on his face. And that sight alone is enough to console Jimin. He had made the right decision after all. Jungkook has great potential, working in the US would be great for him. He doesn't stay there for long. He takes one last look at the doe eyed alpha who had utterly changed Jimin's views on alphas, and then leaves the premises.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
******
Jimin wasn't fine. In fact he was in a terrible state. Apparently his omega couldn't accept his behaviour. He was fighting his own omega. He took two days off from work. Hobi and Yoongi had shown up at his apartment and he told them everything that happened.
"Jiminah.. Why would you do this.. You.. You should have told him.." Hobi tells him, holding Jimin close.
"I agree with Hoba here.. You should have told him and he could have then made his decision.. You decided on his behalf.. It wasn't right at all"
"He.. He has so much potential hyung.. He needs the job to look after his mother.." Jimin says despite crying.
"So you thought he would reject the offer if you'd come clean? You didn't want to hinder him?" Hobi asks, concern dripping from his tone.
Is Hobi right? Is that it? It should be right. But it wasn't. Jimin slowly shakes his head.
He lets go of Hobi and sits back straight, rubbing the tears from his eyes.
"A.. A part of me feared.. That if I confessed and then he was offered the job..he.. He would reject me and take up the offer.. I couldn't bear the thought of rejection, hyung" tears spring back in his eyes again.
"Jiminah.. You've seen the guy for 3 months.. I don't think he would ever do that to you.. Why do you think of the worst outcomes.."
"I just don't think anyone would love me.. Why would they? Even my parents didn't. "
"We love you, Jimin.." Yoongi and Hobi say.
"I know.. I know.. I am a messed up person I guess", Jimin smiles despite the tears.
"We just want you to be happy, Minah.."
"I know.. But I am happy to know he is happy.. I saw the sparkle in his eyes when he was offered the job.. So I guess it's okay.. It will take time, hyung.. But I.. I will be okay, right?"
"You will be.. And we will be here to make sure you are.."
The two of them left soon after. Jimin felt a little happy. Happy to know that he had people who cared about him, happy to know that Jungkook would be happy too. He can be happy too.. He will be.. It just would take a little time.
******
Jimin went back to work after 3 days. On the outside, everything was fine. Just how it was before, but he missed the doe eyed alpha dearly. Jungkook had become a major presence in his life, one he couldn't and didn't want to let go of. At around 2pm, after lunch, Jimin received a call from Jin to meet the latter in his office, and Jimin obliged.
"How are you now, Jiminah.." Jin asks, a gentle smile on his face.
"Better now.."
"Well.. I called you here for a specific reason.. I have something of yours.." Jin says as he brings out a box from one of his cupboards.
"This is yours, Jimin.."
"What is this..." Jimin stares at the box in wonder.
"You left that day in a hurry.. Jungkook left this for you.."
"Oh.." Jimin could only sigh
"I don't know what went on between you two but I hope you can resolve it.. The boy looked very much disturbed that day when he couldn't find you.. I think he wanted to talk to you.. I don't wanna intrude.. So.. Anyway... Take this with you, I am sure you will love it.."
Jimin only smiles and takes the box with him back to his cabin.
With unsteady hands he unwraps the box, to find a motivational quote framed, perfect for his desk. The quote says " You are Uniquely You .." And there's a letter with it.
Jimin doesnt even realise he's crying until the tears stream down his face. With shaky hands he unfolds the paper and reads the letter.
"Hyung..
I am not really good with words.. To be honest, I don't even know what to write.. I have a thousand things to say to you but I can't bring myself to jot them down.. But I have to start somewhere..
Life has never been easy for me.. But with you it seemed easier. I wish I could tell you how much you've motivated me to perform better.. How much you've inspired me to be better. Your dedication to work and hardworking nature is something to be in awe of...
But those are things I think you've heard from many others too.. But would they know how much you hate black coffee, or how chocolate covered strawberries make you smile? Do they know how you get scared of thunder and lightning and how much you love dogs, while being allergic to them? These are small things I noticed.. Because everything you did was important to me.. I know you don't feel the same way.. You've made it quite clear the other day.. So please don't think I am trying to force my hand.. I just.. I don't know..
I saw this frame the other day.. And it reminded me of you.. You're unique, hyung.. So unique and wonderful, and deserving of the best.. I hope you derive strength from it.. Have a wonderful life ahead, hyung.. I am here if you ever need me.. Only one call away.."
It took everything in Jimin to not break down and to not text Jungkook that day. He is in a new and better place, I have to let him go. He kept telling himself. It will take time, I will be okay.
And to be fair, it does get better. It has been 3 weeks since he had that almost breakdown in his cabin. He still misses Jungkook but he has come to accept the fact that Jungkook is gone, and sometimes we don't always get what we want. His omega is still restless. But he has been trying his best to convince his omega to calm down too. Maybe it'll work someday.
The following evening, Jimin finds himself in a banquet room, attending a gala hosted by one of the major publishing firms. Jin, Hobi and Yoongi are there too, so he feels less awkward. There aren't many omegas nearby, and the many alpha and beta scents sometimes overwhelm him. The dinner passes by normally. The hall is huge and there are scores of people attending this event. He often finds himself being pulled by Jin, introducing him to other officials and senior management people. Jin boasts of Jimin, which makes him proud but also embarrassed. Jin can be like an overprotective hen sometimes.
And Jimin knows why Jin does this. It's not easy to be in an industry which is filled with orthodox alpha people, who only see omegas as a breeding machine. But times were changing and Jimin was glad that he had not come across any bitter comment throughout the evening. So it was all well and good, in a few moments he would take his leave and head home. That is what he thought. And we don't always get to do what we think.
Because right in front of him, he finds a tall doe eyed alpha with the sweet scent of pines, laughing at something being said to him by a beta by his side. It's Jungkook. And he isn't alone. He is surrounded by people, all looking at him with awe but he seems unphased. Jungkook seems to command their attention, completely oblivious of how his presence alone here has titled Jimin's entire world on its axis.
Why is he here?
How is he here?
Jimin’s omega wants to run to him. But he's afraid. He remembers the last encounter too well. But there are questions he needs answers to. And maybe it was his scent or something else, in the next moment he finds the doe eyes staring at him. Jungkook was staring at him, but in those eyes he didn't find any anger, any shock or any unpleasant feeling. He finds wonder and serenity. This was all too much. Jimin stands in awe as he watches Jungkook excuse himself and walk towards him.
"Hyun-"
"What are you doing here?" Jimin winces at how harsh the words come out.
"I.. I was invited."
Jimin can feel himself shake slowly, his eyes getting glazed. I need to go. But I also need answers.
"You're supposed to be in the US.. Jin hyung offered you the job, didn't he?"
"Oh.. Yes, he did. But I declined it.. I can't leave my mother here.. I also can't take her there with me.. I don't wanna leave the country.. I.. Don't wanna leave the people here.." Jungkook says, the last sentence in a whisper, looking at Jimin.
"Oh.." Is all Jimin can manage, he is scared that he will begin to sob anytime.
"I got offered a job by Morgan Jones publishing. They are your company's sister firm. I accepted it. I wanted to tell you about it.. But you left that day, I couldn't even give you that gift -"
"I have to go." Jimin says as he turns around, rubbing his eyes and running towards the exit door.
Once he reaches outside, the cold air almost acts like a blanket to him. He feels too many things, he can't name them. He feels happy forJungkook, he got a good job. He feels foolish to have made so many assumptions. And he feels embarrassed. Even after so many weeks of him trying, he cannot bring himself to not like Jungkook. He has to go home.
He takes a step forward when he hears his name being called. He knows it's Jungkook but he cannot turn around. He is already a crying mess.
"Hyung.. stop.." Jungkook comes running and stops before the omega. The tear stained face has him at a loss for words.
"Hyung.. Why..why are you crying.. Hyung.."
"It's.. Nothing.."
"Did I do something.. Did I make you uncomfortable? I shouldn't have reached out to you.. I.. I know how you feel about me.. About us.. I am sorry-"
"Stop.. Jungkook.. You have no idea.. I.. You have nothing to apologise for.. I.. I am sorry.. I.."
"Why are you sorry.. When it was me who had feelings for you.. Look at me.. So clingy, still trying to cling onto you, knowing how it will end.. Knowing how you don't feel the same way.."
"You know nothing-"
"What do I not know then?"
"I should go.." Jimin tries to move away but is held by Jungkook.
"Tell me, hyung.. You at least owe me this much.. The truth.."
Jimin breaks down completely.
"I.. I have feelings for you Jungkook. I like you, a lot.. I have had a very difficult time trying to get over you.. There! Are you happy now?" Jimin tries to get out of Jungkook's hold but fails.
"What.. You.. Why.. But then why didn't you say anything when I was laying my heart open for you?"
"I was about to confess but I learnt about the job Jin was gonna offer you.. I didn’t wanna hold you back-"
"So you made a decision for me without even asking me what I wanted?" There's accusation in Jungkook's voice, Jimin cannot even take offense to it.
"Youre.. You’re young and have great potential.." Jimin hiccups, the reasons all sound weak.
"So? So what? You just assumed and broke my heart, hyung? Did I ever treat you badly or in any manner to make you think that I would hurt you intentionally.. My potential and age had nothing to do with what I felt for you.. I cannot believe this.." Jungkook lets go of Jimin, and to Jimin's dismay, he misses the warmth and strength.. He knows he doesn't deserve Jungkook, now more so than ever. He had let his own insecurities cloud his judgements and had ruined the one good thing he had in his life. It's too late now.
"I.. I am sorry.." Jimin says, before running away, with a tear stained face and a broken heart. He doesn't even hear Jungkook calling for him. He didn't think he could bear to have his heart broken any more. So he heads home, and he tries his best to keep his sobs down. But both him and his omega cry for hours. He is glad the following day is Sunday, else he would have to miss work again. So he spends the weekend crying. He didn't deserve a love so beautiful. He wasn't worthy of it.
He just knew.
****
On Monday morning Jimin headed to work with a bad headache and a heavy heart. He had already told Yoongi and Hobi about what had happened. Instead of the dreaded "I told you so", both the friends had gently held Jimin and comforted him. It was times like this which made Jimin realise how blessed he was. So what if his love and feelings would remain unrequited, at least he got to experience it. He was blessed to have felt it. He consoled himself.
But on Monday morning, his rationality failed. He found himself feeling dejected again. He had just left Jin's office and was on his way back to his cabin, lost about what Jin had told him. His boss had informed him about Jungkook joining their sister firm.
"He said he liked Seoul.. And someone.. And he wasn't ready to give up on either"
This was what Jungkook had told Jin. But all that was in the past, before he realised how selfish Jimin was, Jimin thought dejectedly.
He was still lost in his thoughts, failing to notice the big bouquet of flowers placed on his desk and accidentally colliding with it, almost dropping it. Jimin felt confused. It wasn't his birthday.
Did someone send it by mistake?
He found a little note tucked inside the bouquet of tulips. With shaking hands he unfolded it to find a neatly written message.
"I hope these flowers brighten your day.. If it's not too big a bother.. Can we meet tonight? I'll be waiting at Paper Lantern at 7pm.. -JK"
Jimin almost dropped the note.
Why would Jungkook want to meet him? Why would he send a bouquet? Jimin didn't even realise when the first tears sprung into his eyes.. Did he want to scold more? Did he pity me?
Jimin didn't wanna meet Jungkook. He didn't think he had the heart to face him. But he also needed closure, and he needed to properly apologise to the alpha. Which is why at 6.30pm sharp he left the office and headed towards the restaurant.
He was shown towards a table by a lady and then he began to wait. And wait. It was already past 7pm and Jimin began to feel queasy. A sort of dread in his heart. Did he play me? By 7.30pm, Jimin had given up hope. No messages or texts either. This was a joke. He was the joke. He quickly got up to leave, before the waterworks could begin. And just as he was about to leave, he came face to face with Jungkook, all disheveled, panting.
"Hyung.. Hyung.. We.. Were you leaving? "
Jimin nodded.
"Please.. Stay" The alpha gently took Jimin back to their seat. He was still panting hard, Jimin offered him a glass of water which the alpha took easily.
"I.. I couldn't find my phone.. And couldn't book a cab. I probably left it at work.." Jungkook says, still in a sense of panic.
"Did.. Did you run all the way here?"
"Not all the way.. But partly.. I.. I was late and I didn't want you to think that I was standing you up.."
"Jungkook.. I should be the one apologising.."
"Hyu-"
"You opened up to me.. Were truthful and honest.. And I was not.. And it doesn't matter that I had your best interest at heart" Jimin takes a breath.
"Hyu"
"I still undermined you.. And I.. I know I am not deserving of any forgiveness.. But I am truly sorry Jungkook.."
"Hyung.. Why do you think I called you to meet me?"
"I.. I don't know.. Probably for an apology.. For closure.."
"You shouldn't apologise, hyung.. I.. I can't believe this.. That's not why I called you"
"Why else would you still want to talk to me? "
"I still like you hyung.. My feelings aren't fleeting.. They're strong and firm.. I.. I was angry and I said hurtful things.. And I was mad.. Believe me.. I was angry.. Because.. Because.. For you to make a decision for both of us, it made me think that you see me as a child.."
"Jung-"
"No.. Listen to me first.. I.. I wanted to stay angry.. But I can't just stop having feelings for you.. I don't want to stop having feelings for you.. You.. You're amazing, hyung.. And I can be stupid at times.. My hyungs said I should have talked it out with you.. Instead I yelled and made you cry.. It broke me.." Jungkook held Jimins hands softly.
"Jungkookah your anger was justified.. I.. I have trust issues.. But mostly I have issues when it comes to relationships.. My entire notion about alphas was something else, before I met you.. You made me feel wanted, cherished.. You made me feel safe.. I just.. All my life I've seen alphas have the upper edge.. I thought I was doing the right thing.. I am 30.. You haven't seen the world.."
"Are we back to this again? I thought-"
"Listen to me.. I.. I like you Jungkook.. And I am terrified.. You're not just the only alpha I've liked but also an alpha that's younger than me. Way younger.. I.. I am petrified.. But I have learnt my lesson.. I.. Won't be imposing my thoughts on you and I won't live in fear."
Jimin says, sighing, looking at the floor.
"So if I court you.. Will you accept?"
Jimins head snaps up.
"What?"
Jungkook takes out a box and places it on Jimin's hand. With trembling hands, Jimin unboxes it to find a bracelet.
"Is.. Is this a courting gift?" Jimin's eyes tear up, staring at the alpha who nods.
"But.. Even after all this.. Why.."
"Because I love you, hyung.. You were kind and wonderful to me.. You are kind and wonderful.. And I want to be in your life.. Want you to be in mine.. So if.. If you're okay with it.. I'd like to court you.. Take you on dates.. Get to know each other better..if.. If that's okay with you" Jungkook says, words gentle and sweet.
He looks up to find Jimin's tear stained face.
Jimin gets up taking Jungkook by surprise, who thinks Jimin’s about to bolt. But instead, Jimin stands in front of him, leans down and gently presses a kiss on Jungkook's lips.
"I accept."