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Starshine

Summary:

Felix has spent his whole life being a toy, something for others to dictate, to be perfect in their eyes. But when his abuser of eight years is finally gone for good...he is given his first choice...he is given another chance. But...he deals with the aftermath of his poor decisions; living hell was one thing...healing is a whole other journey he is finally prepared for.

Notes:

She's BACKKKKK!!!!
Hi, howdy Besties! Strap into Rollercoaster Starshine for an extended trip around the park! This will be a less bumpy ride. But hold onto the safety bars just in case hehe.

Some notes:

Chan- Alpha- Vanilla Almond
Changbin- Alpha- Tonka bean
Minho- Omega- Latte
Hyunjin- Omega- Frosting and roses
Han- Omega- Spiced Apples; glamor scent- spiced jasmine
Felix- Omega- (right now strawberries) Sugar Cookie, Sunflower, Sea Salt
Seungmin- Beta- Rain-scented Linen
Jeongin- Beta- Blackberry

Felix is 4'9 (Yes he grew an inch) and Felix will come out as Apagender after some research, using pronouns interchangeably, (She/Her He/Him mainly) but he is Apathetic about his Gender, meaning he doesn't mind, and views himself as all potential genders!

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: Nesie!

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Felix hummed,   “Here Eunji, I'll hold her, just relax okay?”   Eunji was a mess. She was terrified like all the other women, not of the Strays, just of the ominous future…but they were being talked to by…Seungmin and another lady, they were trying to find any family, and or organizing where they could live…setting up jobs and so many other things. He picked little Sunhee up and bounced her,   “You're like my lil stress ball”   He whispered and nuzzled her cheek, she giggled and weakly grabbed his hair, and he giggled and swayed…just nosing her chubby neck and being soothed by her very soft lemon scent. But jumped a bit as his legs got clung to, he giggled and looked down,   “Well hello pups.”   “B-Bokie ‘m scawed”   Felix sighed and crouched slowly,   “There is nothing to be scared of babies, the Strays are so so nice, your Mommy's are only getting talked to, so you all can be taken care of!”   The pups, surrounding him now as a lot of their moms had to leave for a few minutes, pouted at him in unison,   “W-We trus’ you Ongie…”   “Thank you pup, I know how hard that is…how about I go bug someone for some soft blankies and you can all nest hm?”   “Nesie!”   “Yes!”   Felix smiled and nodded,   “Okay let me go find someone cuties.”   He stood and went to walk…but all of the little ones also walked with him. A literal crowd of tiny people behind him…all smiling politely…he broke into a laugh and looked around, Char nodding to him, he hummed and walked. They were in basically a large, but cozy waiting room, a small bar with snacks and drinks, and a bathroom, but these pups need action. He held Sunhee in his left arm and walked down the hall, he stopped as Changbin came out of a room holding a clipboard. They made eye contact and he faltered,    “ ‘m sorry t-to bother…b-but I was wondering…i-if we could have some stuff. ..for the little ones…to ne-”   “Nesie!!”   he flinched and giggled, dropping a hand to pet their head as they hugged his leg, Changbin’s eyes flared a dark gold and he took a minute to respond…   “U-Uh yes of course! let me go ask…for a nest?”   “Yes please…”    “Okay, I'll go down to the daycare here and get some toys okay?”   Felix smiled and looked over him,   “Thank you Binnie…”   Changbin halted…   “Course Pixie…”   Felix felt his heart ache…his cheeks flush…thank goodness the pups all tugged at him…snapping them out of their staring… 


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Changbin dropped all he could carry, which was a lot, in the waiting room. Watching Felix holding a cute baby like it was natural, little kids crowding him and calling him cute names…Felix looked…different but…for some reason something in his heart was telling him…it wasn't all negative. His Alpha felt a punch to the heart when they locked eyes…and he knew he was fucked. He fucking imprinted on him. He gulped, feeling his Alpha grow restless at the distance between them…Felix giggled softly as a pup flopped into his lap, whining and bunching his dress up…Changbin blinked and averted his eyes as he saw a glimpse of panties…Felix leaned and kissed the pup's nose,   “You're a big boy, go get a juice baby.”   Felix said and ushered the pup up, who pouted and whined,   “B-Bu’ Ongie…”   “No tears! Bin-Changbin?”   “Yes!...uh…Yeah?”   Felix looked at him with a smile,   “You're scaring them~ can you go get some juice pouches?”   “Of course I can.”   He barely thought and got up, doing as he asked fast…his Alpha was ready to take a bullet at Felix's word…he can not describe how much he had absolutely, wholeheartedly, missed that little Omega…he still has that beautiful smile…he came back and sat on his knees outside the very messy nest the little ones made,   “I brought juice cuties.”     He watched as they all brightened but cowered from him, shuffling to their knees and…bowing,   “Oh pups…you don't have to do that loves…Sorry Bin…”   Changbin blinked,   “It's alright, Puppies…”   he shuffled back more after placing the juices in their nest, and he bowed to them, hearing small gasps, he got up and smiled. Jumping as they all sat up more and borderline jumped him, Felix chuckled,   “See he's a super nice Alpha.”   Changbin felt that in his gut…blushing but letting the pups pull him into the nest…he was supposed to be working…but screw that.

 

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Minho squinted, biting his nail and shaking his leg,   “Kitty?”   He stared off at the projector, photos… lots of photos of Felix…Felix posing in some, looking extremely cute and smiling, while others were straight from a nightmare. Nude ones…seemingly from the beginning, and just explicit ones of him…performing acts on people…   “Pudding?”   He cannot believe he let his fucking baby get hurt again, he's a fucking fail-   “Minho!”   he jumped and looked over,   “Huh? What?”   “I was talking and you zoned out Pudding…”   Chan sighed and carded through his hair, Minho whined and leaned in,   “I’m sorry…My Omega’s just…only thinking…concerned about him…W-We need to have a pack meeting…”   Chan sighed and leaned down to him, kissing his nose,   “We will when Minnie finishes up okay?”   Minho nodded and shifted uncomfortably…his skin was crawling…   “Min baby…? Do you need anything?”   Minho whined again…he felt…unstable…   “S-Scruff?”   Chan blinked at him with wider eyes,   “I-I know I don’t ask for that…b-but I don't feel great…Jin can pull me out of it when we need to meet, I ju-just-”   “Pudding, take a breath with me okay?”   Chan cupped his cheek and breathed, Minho followed and exhaled…Chan crouched and pulled his waist. Pulling him off the chair and holding him up,   “Let's go to the couch okay pup?”  

 Minho whimpered…oh…okay…he settled into his neck and closed his eyes. Forcing his brain to shut off… Chan sat and kissed his neck, massaging into his mark,   “Take three deep breaths pup.”   Minho whined and did so… in his last inhale he jolted as Chan slowly gripped the back of his neck, he keened and arched his back away from him,   “Exhale kitty, you're safe with me.”   Minho squirmed…but felt his mind fuzz over. He breathed out and let himself slump down more, curling his arms up into their chests and nuzzling down as he squeezed harder.   “Doing so well kitty, I’ll keep you safe okay?”   “Mm…Alpha…”   he closed his eyes and floated…

 

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Hyunjin finished up healing all the wounded, making his way to the waiting room just to check up on anyone who maybe was hurt there, he passed by a stressed-looking Jeongin and paused,   “Innie?”   Jeongin jumped and looked up from his tablet he was aggressively typing on,   “Hi…you taking enough breaks?”   Jeongin asked, squinting at him, Hyunjin smiled and nodded,   “Yeah, I just ate something…what's wrong? You seem…unsettled?”   Jeongin bit his lip and cleared his throat,   “I uh…may have done a bad thing…by accident though!”   Hyunjin rose a brow,   “And that was?”   Jeongin awkwardly shifted off the wall he was leaning on,   “I uh…imprinted. On Lix…”   Hyunjin took a sharp breath in. That was it. That was what he was feeling was wrong with three of his mates…   “Oh Innie…”   “I know…I know…I’m forcing my Beta to lie dormant…so we can work…”   Jeongin explained and picked his phone up from the window seal as a call came through,    “Okay my love, but not for too long okay? I can help you three work through it…”   “Three?”   “Yes. Three of you imprinted…take the call and take a break.”   Jeongin blinked but nodded, picking up the phone, Hyunjin sighed and continued walking down the hall to the waiting room…  



He blinked at…them…in the corner. On the floor in a…what he assumes is a nest, Binnie holding two kids and Felix bouncing and bottle feeding a baby…He smiled and made his way to the front corner, bowing to the small group of women,   “Hi, I’m Hyunjin a healer…I wanted to check up on all of you here, if you have any injuries, aches, or pains, the little ones need anything…?”    The middle-aged woman from the group stood,   “Hi…I’m Char and um…we do have some…but it’s mainly bruises and things…”    “That is totally fine, I am an ability healer, and I’d love to heal away anything you all may be suffering with.”   the cutest squeak sounded out and they all looked over to see a little one attacking Felix with kisses, Felix laughing loudly and balancing the four he was holding, he smiled…feeling his heartache.   “I can go ask them, um…the little boy Yongbok is holding, he was beat this morning…can you please?”   “Oh…of course…I’m so sorry you all had to go through this…”   Char smiled,   “It was bearable…with Yongbok protecting us, it was never as bad as before.”   Hyunjin tilted his head and nodded…Felix really…grew huh…he walked over and crouched to not tower over them,  

 

 “Hi.”   He started with, smiling softly as the pups gasped and hid from him,   “Lix? Do you think you could explain to them how I can heal?”   Felix timidly blinked and nodded,  

“Puppies~ See this pretty Omega? He’s pretty but also super magical! And can poof away all your pain-”   Kira, a cute little boy stepped up and placed his little hands on Felix's knees,   “A boy Omega?”   oh dear… Felix chuckled awkwardly,   “Yeah honey, there are boy Omegas! They are just like some of your Mommy's.”   

 Hyunjin tilted his head… Felix was a boy Omega…why are they acting like that…Changbin noticed as well…  “Lix…you're a boy Omeg-”   He said without even thinking maybe it was a secret-   “Nu-uh…Ongies a giwl…jus’ gots deep voice…wight Ongie?”   the little boy said, not really…sounding disgusted or anything, Felix looked deeply uncomfortable…   “I-I um…I was a boy Omega hun…Alpha Dohyun just liked-asked me to introduce…myself like that…”   Hyunjin sucked a breath in…   “But Bokie don't you have a lady pa-”   “Okay Puppies! How about one by one you go up to Mister Hyune and ask politely to be healed hmm?”   Felix quickly said and shooed the pups to him….what was that little girl going to say…?




Hyunjin smiled wide as he finally healed the last timid boy, Najun he learned. Who had far too many bruises for a sweet bean…    “W-Wah….feew goods…y-yous awe magi…”   Hyunjin giggled,   “Of course sweet boy…”   Najun squeaked and ran from him giggling, attacking Felix's side,   “Boki! Feew good!”   Felix smiled and kissed his small nose,   “I'm so glad!”   Hyunjin relaxed more…Felix looked honestly…well…hurt, but he looked better…   “Lix give me your hand, hm?”   Hyunjin outstretched his hand but Felix flinched away,   “I'm okay…thank you.”   “Felix love..”   “O-Ongie said no!”   two pups said loudly, standing, almost protecting Felix… Hyunjin sighed,   “I respect that, I'm sorry I meant no harm.”   the pups stood firm until Felix patted their tushes,   “Thank you puppies… sorry Hyu…they've had to see..a lot.”   Hyunjin felt his heart skip a beat…but then saddened fast,   “Of course baby…I have to steal Binnie away…we have a few more things to finish and we can all go home.”   Felix tensed at the words…but nodded,   “Right…thank you”   Hyunjin hummed and dragged Changbin away.


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Felix sighed…fuck that was close…he watched the pups finally playfully fight…rid of their pain from punishments… Najun was sitting next to him though, cuddling into his leg, Sunhee who was napping but was now wide awake and fussy, kneading at his chest…   “Let's go get your mommy baby, Najunnie~ I have to give Sunnie back.”   Najun gasped and sleepily got up,   “B-Back soon…”   “I will baby”   He smiled and stood, going over to Eunji,   “Hey dear, are you okay?”   Eunji jolted and looked up,   “Yes I am…these people are so…amazing.”   Felix giggled,   “Yes they are, so is everything being taken care of?”   Eunji smiled sadly, putting her paperwork to the side and taking Sunhee, Felix reached in her packed bag for a bottle,   “I um…decided to keep away from…the outside life? Seungmin said I was young and it would be hard for me to re-enter life….so I'm going to follow you all back to Korea…which is so scary…”   Felix smiled,   “It's not scary at all hun! You'll be so safe, and so happy… um, they have nice apartments, really fun jobs…and a very nice daycare, oh and English-speaking people.”    Eunji brightened,   “You're going to be there as well?”   Felix blinked…  

“Um…I don't know…”   Eunji tilted her head,   “How do you mean?”   Felix put on a smile…   “I don't know where I'll be going, that's not my decision hun, now Najun is glaring I have to get back.”   Felix left fast…He was terrified, he had no idea what his future held…he was settling perfectly with Dohyun…surely his old mates wouldn't want him back…hell..they probably don't even have his mark on them anymore. He sat back down and Najun curled into his lap finally,   “Bokie? Y-Youwe a boy ‘mega?”   Felix smiled and caressed his cheek…he didn't wanna assume…but he was guessing Najun would be an Omega, his scent was incredibly sweet…   “I used to be, there's nothing weird, or bad about being a boy Omega…they are actually super cool…you may be able to meet two more.”   Najun sleepily nodded, cuddling into his stomach,   “Goodnight bub, I'll wake you up when it's time to go puppy.”   “Mm…tank you…”   Najun’s cheeks squished as he laid down even more,   “ mommy… ”   Felix's eyes blew wide as the lil pup whispered and kneaded into his stomach…his heart sank but… soared…



Felix leaned back and shushed when some would get too loud, he had about five all laying around him, napping and softly chirping as they cuddled down. He couldn't keep his eyes open though. He took a breath, his lungs filling with all the pups' scents, and closed his eyes…


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“This is fucking ridiculous.”   Han growled, throwing a tablet down and sitting heavily in a chair. Chan sighed and pet Minho’s head as he was slowly being eased out of subspace, Jeongin sat on the large wood meeting table and tossed his tablet too,   “Absolutely fucking absurd. He won't look at me, won't even-”   “Alright alright, everyone take three deep full breaths…”   Hyunjin stood, still gently holding Minho’s hand, but as the anger lingered…he squinted,   “You all better sit down and fucking breathe. Collect yourselves and release all of that negative energy.”   Hyunjin sternly commanded and waited for them to all sit down, and made them breathe…which always helped…Chan hummed and sat down at the head of the table as Changbin and Seungmin filed in,   “Okay…so um…this is bad.”   He started off, pushing back in his chair and opening his arms for Minho to sit. Minho straddled him and dove into his neck, he still wasn't ready…which was fine. He can take the reins for now. Hyunjin sat and sighed,  

“First of all, he’s clearly weird. We have absolutely no idea how he was really treated, new rules, new everything. He was made to be a ‘perfect’ wife…so…and the pups treat him…like their guardian.”   “Uh more like their Mom, which granted he was babying but being really stern with them…he is amazing with them…so cute…and-”   Chan rose a brow,   “Binnie…take a breath. So…how should we go about this?”   Changbin whined and sighed, Seungmin cleared his throat,   “Well for starters. By giving him a choice. Felix has never in his life, had a choice. We already discussed this…and we all agree we fucked up the first time…we sheltered him, we didn't seek his mental health fast enough. So we learn from our mistakes. Give him choices. I was going to sit him down and give him all the choices I can. Our bond is still here…he is still our mate…and he feels that…but something in his mind is telling himself…we don't want him. So…”    “We show we need him…you have all of that handled baby?”   Chan asked, rubbing Minho’s back as he whined softly, lightly crying into his shirt, Seungmin hummed,   “Of course, I have all of the women's homing situations dealt with, I’m just working on the two kids with no parents…which is upsetting. But we will be taking about half of them with us? I found a lot of their families but then again the other half…their families are not fitting.”   Chan hummed,     “You're doing amazing puppy, and the two kids, how old?”  

“Najun, around 2 years old and…Emmy, 11 years old.”   Hyunjin perked,   “That Najun kid…very attached to Lix.”   Chan tilted his head…   “So…maybe we include in his choices that…he can care for them? With help of course? He just seems extremely protective over all of the women and children.”   Hyunjin nodded and sifted through papers,   “Extremely.”   “I’ll add it…”    Chan nodded and bounced Minho a bit,    “Kitty? Did you wanna add anything?”   He whispered softly and Minho peeked at him,   “I-I just wanna tal-k to him…”   Chan hummed in his ear,   “We can try Kitty, let's wait for Minnie to talk to him okay?”   Minho pouted and turned away from him, Chan sighed and held him tighter,   “Han.”   “I have nothing but curse words to say.”    Chan swayed in his chair,   “Let us hear it honey.”   Han cleared his throat, leaning back,  

“Well for one fucking thing. He’s being a fucking little shit. Which makes sense, it seems like he’s trying to make us fucking hate him. Then. He looks cute, I get it. But what the fucking shit is up with his appearance? Some things off, no?”   “Uh yeah. He has tits-”   “Jeongin please.”   “It’s true!”   Chan rubbed his temples…   “I think it’s his freckles being covered, his super long hair…and the mark…it’s massive…intrusive….and his chest.”   Changbin said with a heavy sigh. The mark. The mark was unsettling. It was the largest mark all of them had ever seen…they had no idea how Hyunjin will get it off… Hyunjin looked over,   “A group healing because I cannot do that alone.”   Chan nodded,   “Only if…he wants to…”   They all sighed and sat back in their chairs in defeat, it's like…they still don't have him back