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It was almost painfull how boring the psychward is. Honestly you prefer being stuck in the same old loop more than being stuck with people that are mostly worst than you.
After a rough manic episode that lasted probably about a week or so, you ended up here.
First of all, Fuck life, It was shitty how it was originally, so why did god suddenly decided to fuck it up more? Thanks to your little episode you ended up losing more weight than expected, it wasn't like you didn't do it on purpose but food made you feel heavy, Also, Seems like you gave yourself new little tattoos that will last years ( probably decades too ) thanks to that, you're now here.
seeing your messed up reflection everytime you wake up makes you wanna die more, fuck, they didn't even let you shower without someone watching over you, so sadly, you smell bad, also. you look like shit too, and these lame clothes they gave you make you look like a little poor orphan. this little jail full of psychos makes you realize about something...you're kind of a crybaby for literally doing such scene for something so little, everyone has their dark past, like this one guy who killed his mom, this girl who's dad accidentally killed her kittens and saw them agonize, that type of shit that makes you think about your past and compare it to them, y'know?
but there was someone who was special in this hellhole, someone who you've started to find yourself captivated with.
As far as you know his name is Simon, He's been here for a while now, He doesn't have friends and is kind of rude with the nurses, but that's alright with you, they are assholes.
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Carefully fixing your appereance in the mirror, you left fastly your room, it was time for a break.
You were happy today, you had earned your privilege to go out to the garden that the psychward had, the best part of this? you could see your dear friend, Simon.
Your friendship with Simon was somewhat complicated, he didn't really appreciate your good will, in fact, he called you annoying from time to time, but you understand him, it must be frustrating to spend so many years in a place where you don't know anyone and in addition to That you depend on some stupid nurses.
You and Simon had a big age difference, he is in his 30s while you are only 19 years old, maybe he was just a grumpy old man but you know perfectly well that he is not really like that. He used to tell you about his teenage years, so little that he really let you know in detail, he was never someone with a lot of encouragement, in reality, his whole life was a misery, this was what made you really fall in love with Simon, From time to time you usually admire him and tell him that he is very strong, he only responds with a groan and a roll of his eyes.
As you walked through the wide hallways, your mind was filled with Simon and those small talks that the two of you had, usually they were complaints from him towards one of the nurses or his room neighbor who seemed to be more active at night, despite that, You always listened to him attentively, just hearing his tired and worn voice calmed you down. in your opinion? The best thing about the day was being able to exist next to him.
When you arrived at the garden, a bright clear sky welcomed you and the sun gave you a warm hug, the garden is full of different colorful flowers and the grass couldn't be greener. You quickly looked for Simon with your eyes, you began to walk through the garden, ignoring the greetings of some nurses and other patients in honor of seeing your only friend, Simon.
yeah, maybe you were a little bit obsessed with him, but who cares anyway?
Your eyes caught a wheel from behind a bush, surrounding it, there you saw Simon, he was looking towards the sky, it was a little strange to see him so calm, this made you smile and admire him for a few seconds until you decided to slowly approach him from behind.
You suddenly jumped in front of him while laughing, a big smile on your face. Simon didn't seem to laugh, he had a hand on his heart as he breathed heavily.
"You almost gave me a heart attack!" He yells at you, rolling his eyes with a huff, he doesn't seem to be less moody, which was kind of sad..you wish you could see him smile more.
"Sorry sorry! i just couldn't resist! How's your day going, friend?" You gently smile at him, sitting on the grass next to him, looking at him with fake innocence, he perfectly knows the act you're playing, anyway. Simon sighs and looks down at you with his normal tired face, jesus, does this guy even sleeps?!
"Fine..i guess, I'm glad the weather is nice today, it feels like i haven't seen the sky in decades..."
"True! I already needed to touch grass..and smelling something that isn't puke or rotting food makes me happy."
Simon really didn't answer, he just nodded his head and sighed.
"You just won't give up, right?"
Confused, you looked at Simon with a raised eyebrow. "What do you mean?"
"You just won't give up on trying to be my friend.." Simon sighed again, laughing crudely and then looking down at the green grass.
"I don't understand why a young lady like you wants to be friends with someone who is half her age.." He mumbles to himself. You almost wanted to say that it was because you loved him, because you treasured him, he was your will to life at this point.
"Because you're funny!" You giggle and give him the most gentle smile you can muster, he stares at you with amusement.
"I'm not."
"Yes you are!"
"No."
"Yes!"
Simon groans in annoyance and rolls his eyes, you just giggle again and you stand up, strenching your sore limbs.
"So, my deary best friend, why don't we go to take a nice stroll around?"
"It's really difficult to take a 'stroll' on grass when you're on a wheelchair."
"Ah well...What about me carrying you?"
Simon just looks at you silently, you innocently smile at him while he just...stares at you with a clear 'what the fuck is your problem' gaze.
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Simon doesn't know why he trusted you, he doesn't even know why he let you carry him bridal style.
You were clearly struggling, Damn, what did they even feed this guy with? he was heavy as fuck, but you could keep up.
carefully, you sat Simon under a tree. The sky was now starting to turn orange as the heat of the day leaves and the cold of the night starts to appear. you knew that you only had some minutes before the nurses called both of you back inside, so you quickly sat down next to Simon.
"I love watching the sunset.." You mumbled smiling. "But you know what i love the most?" You look back at Simon with a grin.
he just tilts his head and looks at you curiously. "No. What is it?"
"Watching the sunset with you!" You quickly pull your arm around his shoulder while giggling Simon can't help it but to giggle and then groan at the lame comment.
"God you suck." Simon mumbles.
A small moment of silence passes through both of you, The silence is comforting, you sigh as you gain the courage to tell Simon something you've been meaning to tell him since a lot of time.
You were clearly inlove with Simon, despite his efforts to keep you away from him, you didn't budge at all, instead, you seemed more and more determinated to be his friend. every small whisper he said inbetween your regular conversations, every small laugh or huff in annoyance, every stare he gave you made you just realize how much you loved him. in your mind, he was perfect, no matter the age difference or how different you were from eachother, you loved him.
you wished you could get out from this place with him and live together, hell, maybe even marrying him.
"Simon, can i tell you something?" You look at him with a soft smile, the same you always give him everyday at everytime.
"Sure." As always, he gives you short answers.
You take a deep breath, and gently grabbing his hand, you mumble.
"I love you Simon, I really really love you depise everything." you squeeze his hand and giggle, inside of you, you were dying to know what he thinks of your emotions,
Simon opened his mouth to answer, but just about when his voice was going to come out, a loud yell was heard from other part of the garden.
"EVERYONE INSIDE! BREAK IS OVER!"
Fuck this place.