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Jimin breathed in the frigid, cold air, a scarf wrapped snuggly around his neck. Winter had always been his favorite time of year, silently hoping for a bit of snow, just so he could sit next to the window overlooking the city. Work had held Jimin back a bit longer than he had intended, so he was mildly worried that he might have missed Jeongguk for dinner. It’s not like the alpha really joined the eager omega on those lonely nights, but still, Jimin could hope.
Knuckles were already turning pink from the cold, holding on tightly to a grocery bag, having decided to stop by and pick something up to take back to the apartment. Using his free hand, Jimin reached into his coat pocket and pulled out his cellphone, browsing for Jeongguk’s number.
He glanced up in time to dodge some passerby, before he finally pressed the phone to his ear. Surely Jeongguk was out of work now, there really shouldn’t be much reason for him to go home late.
Anticipation gnawed at Jimin’s insides, before he gasped out happily upon Jeongguk’s answer.
As always, Jeongguk’s voice was distant and unwelcoming, as if he was forced to deal with an annoyance by the name of Park Jimin. The omega had to fight back sickening feeling in the pit of his stomach, swallowing thickly. After four months of marriage, Jimin had the undying hope that the alpha would warm up to him and see him in a new light.
Even if their marriage was an arrangement between their families, Jimin went in rather enthused and full of eagerness; happy to have been given a chance to find a companion to share his life with. After twenty-six years and with a record of failed relationships, Jimin could not believe his luck when he met his potential mate.
Despite the small age difference, Jeongguk’s posture and aura screamed male; dominate and ready to fulfill. It had been enough to send Jimin’s omega’s reeling with satisfaction and determined to submit and please his mate. He had witnessed a few friends who have long been married and mated, starting their new life and placing several steps towards their future.
Sometimes, Jimin’s career appeared enough for the omega to take his mind off things, but he was typically lonely. When he was young, he always had the fantasy that he would meet that loving prince, an alpha to love and be mated to so that he could live the rest of his life in happiness. Childish dreams always seemed possible at the time, but nowadays, Jimin had to face the reality that his chances were far better in an arranged situation, then letting something naturally flowed.
Would Jimin had preferred meeting someone on his own accord? Absolutely.
But Jeongguk…
There was just something about the alpha that Jimin simply couldn’t let go of, accepting the marriage proposal that Jeongguk also had agreed on.
“What is it?” Jeongguk’s icy tone had Jimin shivering a bit more than he already was.
Breathing out gently, the omega replied, “Are you home? I’m a bit late myself, but if you’re hungry, I can make something for us?” The omega tried not to let his quivering voice betray him, holding his breath.
The alpha did not hesitate to respond. “I have a lot of work here. New client. Don’t wait up for me.”
A sharp click soon followed, before Jimin deflated slightly.
Jeongguk didn’t love him, Jimin knew. Most arranged marriages didn’t even consist of love, Jimin’s parents could attest to that, but that didn’t mean the omega couldn’t dream about something more that just signatures on a paper.
The alpha had a stable career, working for a company that worked in photo-shooting, filmmaking, and whatnot. He was making a name for himself, his creativity catching the eyes of many rivaling companies. It was only natural for the alpha to take a mate, to marry and expand his social circle in order to continue his climb. That’s why Jimin had been the perfect candidate, someone who had made his own name in interior design.
Even though Jimin had a long way to go before getting assigned his own project, the omega was proud to admit that he had worked under immense talent, and all he could do was keep moving forward. It wasn’t an uncommon thing for omegas to set off and start careers, but the public norm did require them to embrace their true role.
It something he and his parents always bickered over, especially when Jimin refused to be a stay-at-home omega that simply cooked, cleaned, and bore children for his alpha. As much as he would love to start a family with Jeongguk one day, it was simply impossible to completely leave a career Jimin worked so hard for. He loved his job and the people he worked with.
But even so, there was a storm that raged inside of Jimin’s heart as his eyes gazed at his phone.
Jeongguk treated their relationship as if were nothing more than some work contract.
They were married, but not mated; Jeongguk had yet to claim Jimin as his omega, and after four months of nothing but snippets of conversation and sleeping in separate bedrooms, Jimin was starting to think that he would never be able to experience anything intimate with his husband. Jeongguk and his alpha didn’t want him, and Jimin was on the verge of beating himself up over it.
Too humiliated to confide in his friends and family, Jimin sadly accepted such conditions, despite a couple of situations where Jimin was a little too hopeful.
A quiet sigh left his cold lips, dropping his phone back in his pocket as he decided to walk back to the apartment. Jimin had only gone a few steps, before doubling back, hand still clutching the grocery bag tightly.
Jeongguk said he would be late, but that didn’t mean Jimin could drop off some food at his office, after all, the alpha’s workplace was just a few blocks away. Besides, he wouldn’t mind getting to see where Jeongguk worked and maybe peek at some of the projects he was working on. Then again, Jeongguk had never bee warm and welcoming to Jimin; he will most likely berate the omega for interrupting him.
But damn, Jimin had it bad, and he couldn’t contain the need to please his alpha, even just a little. The omega wanted the alpha to see that he could be quite reliable, only wanting the best for the other. His friends would call him foolish, falling for an alpha that had no interest in him. Still, Jimin was always the kind to have a bit more faith than most people.
So, Jimin lightly jogged down the sidewalk, his heart swelling at the thought of seeing Jeongguk. Home didn’t feel at home with the alpha’s constant absence, and every time Jeongguk returned to the apartment, he would always simply shower and retire to his bedroom. He hardly glanced at Jimin or even asked the omega about his day.
But things would be different this time. They just had to be.
“Finally.” Jimin caught sight of the large building, his eyes growing wide with mirth. There were still a few lights on, so he was sure Jeongguk was in one of those offices. Securing the bag, he paused on the other side of the street, waiting for a chance to cross in order to reach the entrance.
A tall figure, however, captured Jimin’s attention, and the omega perked up slightly when he recognized who it was.
Jeongguk!
Immediately, Jimin raised a hand, watching as his husband stood on near the curb, attention elsewhere. Odd. Jeongguk said he was staying late, was he already on his way home? Even better, that meant that Jimin could probably catch a ride with the alpha.
“Jeongguk!” There was an eagerness in Jimin’s voice, but the omega didn’t care to disguise it, his eyes resting solely on the twenty-four-year-old alpha. Even from across the street, Jimin still made out the perfect, little details of Jeongguk’s handsome face, seeming a bit at ease and relaxed; a side that Jimin hardly ever sees.
Just as the omega was about to rush across the street in order to greet him, his shifted towards another person approaching the alpha.
She was beautiful, slender, and took grace-like steps towards Jeongguk. Her body was covered in a gorgeous, white coat, the sleekness of her black locks cascading over her shoulders rather perfectly. It was an omega, no doubt, and when she pulled a hand from of her pocket to reach for Jeongguk, Jimin felt himself grow tense.
The alpha gazed at the strange omega rather expectedly, before he accepted her outstretched hand. Fluidly, Jeongguk pulled her closer to him, before he allowed on of his hands to caress her back rather slowly, until finally securing an arm around her waist. The omega seemed pleased and Jimin felt gutted, dropping the grocery bag at his feet.
Staring in disbelief, he couldn’t tear his eyes away from the sight, as Jeongguk hailed for a cab. A lump had appeared within Jimin’s throat as the pair slipped into the back of a vehicle, but not before Jimin took in Jeongguk’s playful smirk as he watched the woman disappear into the back seat.
Jeongguk…
He had lied to Jimin in order to meet up with a woman.
Jeongguk didn’t love him; their marriage was arranged. However, it still hurt Jimin like nothing before.
One Month Later
People say that work was the best distraction, and Jimin took it all in like a drug. Call it desperation, but ever since he found out that Jeongguk was cheating on him, it was all Jimin could do in order to keep himself from falling apart completely. Naturally, most would probably confront the issue at hand and even demand a divorce, but it was a lot harder than Jimin had anticipated.
More than once, he had been on the brink of facing the alpha; wanting to tear the answers to his questions from his very throat.
But it wasn’t as easy as the movies made it seem. Jeongguk was in the wrong and a part of Jimin couldn’t bring himself to forgive the alpha even if he did go along with exposing the truth. Just once, he wanted to see the look on Jeongguk’s face if Jimin ever pointed out his disgusting affair.
God, how it took all Jimin’s willpower that night to not pack up all his belongings and storm out of his apartment. Jeongguk had humiliated and hurt the omega in the worst possible way. It was one thing to not have any sort of affection towards Jimin and his omega because of circumstance, but he always thought the alpha had the decency enough to stay loyal to their marriage. Now everything felt like a farce, a big, fat joke that life was throwing at him.
Since his marriage, people would often compliment Jeongguk; that he was so successful, so handsome. That Jimin was fortunate to have found someone immensely respectful.
Ha!
Jeongguk was the perfect example of shattered dreams, and Jimin’s heart still thundered painfully against his chest every time he thought back on that night, and every night after that. Every time Jeongguk would inform Jimin that he would be home late, the omega felt the words hit his chest like hot acid, because he was painfully aware of what Jeongguk was really doing. There were some occasions that Jeongguk would return smelling faintly of the omega, and it was enough to make Jimin nearly snap.
So why didn’t he?
Jimin immediately shook his head, blinking blearily at his portfolio, and shoving those thoughts away before he made himself sick.
Just as the omega was about to settle back down with an idea he was going to draw out, he noticed a shadow cast over the template he was working on. Glancing up, he gazed at Eun rather expectedly.
“Jimin, your eleven o’clock is here, don’t tell me you forgot?” She seemed exasperated and Jimin was already jumping to his feet with a yelp.
Shit! Shit!
Eun quickly aided Jimin in gathering his notes, shuffling it into a folder. It was all Jeongguk’s fault; the omega was usually on top of things regarding meetings and appointments, but everything has been all jumbled up for him as of late, that it slips his mind. The client he was supposed to meet with, was rumored to be very important, and had wanted to meet with Jimin personally.
The omega wasn’t sure on whether to feel unnerved or excited.
If all went well, it could be his very first solo project, and not even Jeongguk’s shitty affair would be enough to wash away the feeling of elation that would accompany such an opportunity.
“How do I look, Eun?” Jimin’s words were rushed as he brushed back his dark brown locks. Pinching her lips together, Eun reached forward to fix Jimin’s shirt, before nodding.
“You always look good, Jimin. Don’t stress, you’re amazing at what you do.” Word of encouragement were always welcomed, and a warmth blossomed within Jimin’s chest as he nodded. Exchanging a friendly smile, Jimin finally grabbed his folder, and briskly made his way to one of the main meeting rooms on his floor.
Jimin couldn’t afford to mess up career opportunities; even if his marriage is a failure, the omega was determined to succeed in his job. Maybe one day, he’ll gather enough confidence to confront Jeongguk and perhaps leave him. One thing that he was tremendously disappointed about, however, was the fact that his wolf still begged for some meager chance in working something out. Not know the full extent of the affair and for how long it’s been going on, Jimin couldn’t help but be filled with questions.
“Not now. Not now.” Cursing at himself, Jimin forced the thoughts away as he approached two large, black doors. The meeting room was always spacious, and it was the second largest one of the building, the executive room being the biggest, and Jimin only visited it once.
Quickly, he fixed his dress shirt, tossed around a few strands of hair here and there, before finally making his way inside.
“Sorry I’m late, had to gather a few things.” Jimin was quick to call out, feeling a bit flustered, but not at all incapable of handling the situation. Curious eyes quickly took in the figures in the room. Namjoon, his superior, didn’t seem at all put off by Jimin’s tardiness, welcoming the young omega with a smile.
Jimin was grateful to the alpha, giving him many chances throughout the extent of his career. Nimbly, the omega placed his folder on the table, orbs connecting with a soft pair of hues. Judging by the sweet, floral scent, the male was an omega. Any other day, Jimin would have gushed over the other’s adorable features, seeming so kind and innocent. However, he didn’t even have a moment to call out a greeting, when another body was suddenly colliding with his own.
A surprised cry left his lips as he felt his body getting crushed by someone he couldn’t quite make out, since his face was getting squished into someone’s chest. Naturally, Jimin would probably freak out at the sudden action, but it was the stranger’s scent that sort of had Jimin perking up in curiosity more than anything else.
Feeling as if he had been punched in the gut, Jimin snapped his head back, eyes wide as he took in a certain alpha’s handsome face.
It was as if the omega found himself falling back into a pool of time, images and memories flashing across his mind as he took in the chocolate colored eyes that were always so full of warmth and innocence. Honestly, the omega never thought he’d ever come across such a loving gaze again, now at a loss of words as he took in every detail about the alpha before him.
“Jimin-ssi! You’re here, just as they said!” The alpha barked out a happy laugh, before dragging Jimin back into a bone-crushing hug.
“H-Hyung! Let him go, he’s probably in a bit of a shock!” Jimin could hear the other omega’s voice, sounding a bit strained as the alpha refused to let Jimin go.
It was then, that Jimin gasped out, pulling back slightly, “Taehyung! What on earth?” It was all he could manage, before the alpha released Jimin from his grip.
Just like many times before in their teenage days, Taehyung always had a habit of making Jimin’s heart soar, thinking back on everything. Jimin was certainly ill prepared for the encounter, since he didn’t think he would ever cross paths with Taehyung again, since that faithful day.
Yet, there he was.
Taehyung…
“I had no idea you two knew each other.” Finally, Namjoon cleared his throat, standing up in order to shuffle towards the pair.
Always the quick one to respond, Taehyung released Jimin from the hug, but confidentially wrapped an arm around the omega’s shoulders. “Jimin-ssi and I go way back; he’s the one that got away.”
Namjoon blinked in mild surprise, the heavy meaning of the words leaving behind a thick air of awkwardness. Even after years of not seeing each other, Jimin wasn’t sure about how he felt that Taehyung was still as open and as shameless as ever.
Wanting to clear the air, since he could sense the other omega becoming quite uncomfortable, Jimin quickly maneuvered himself away from Taehyung’s happy hold. “We dated back in school, but that was almost ten years ago, before he started off his career as an idol.”
Jimin had always thought he and Taehyung would live the rest of their lives together; the omega was head over heels for his first, honest love. Back then, it was easy to plan a future with a person he once considered his soulmate, especially after growing up together before either of them even presented into their respective roles.
Loving and being with Taehyung was such a natural bliss, so one could only imagine Jimin’s heartbreak at the news that Taehyung had been accepted to be a trainee for a small company. Sure, at first Jimin encouraged Taehyung to follow his dreams; he had the talent to be successful. But it didn’t take long for the alpha to be swamped by school and training, cutting deeply into their relationship.
Jimin didn’t have the strength to watch it bleed out.
Thinking back on it now, Jimin couldn’t help but faintly wonder if breaking up with Taehyung had been the best idea. However, thinking about the enormous success he’s had, the concerts, the fandom, and the awards; Jimin reassured himself that it was probably the best decision he had made at the time.
Taehyung had accepted Jimin’s decision with a heavy heart, and soon after school was finished, they both went their separate ways. Communication between the two had died out in the first year of their separation, and Jimin only caught glimpses of Taehyung on the television or heard his sweet, beautiful voice on the radio.
Their relationship almost felt like a dream and Jimin almost succeeded in convincing himself that it hadn’t been real, but…
“What are you doing here? I’m sure this isn’t some casual visit, considering the time and place.” Jimin could feel a heat settle in his cheeks as Taehyung looked over at the omega with a fondness that almost made Jimin cry. It had been so long.
“Well, yes, we’re here on business.” Suddenly, the other omega moved in, his eyes trained on Jimin as he spoke. “I’m a partner of sorts, and Hyung and I were looking to get some help with some interior design for a bar we are opening up here in Seoul.”
Soon after, the omega politely bowed. “I am Park Jihoon, it’s a pleasure to meet you.”
Throughout the exchange, Jimin could feel Taehyung’s eyes burning deep holes into him, and even after retreating the safety of his own chair next to Namjoon, Jimin’s wolf still felt mildly restless at the attention.
“They asked for you specifically so I think it would be appropriate for you to take the reigns on this one, Jimin.” Namjoon encouragingly nodded as Jimin shifted through his folder of information and few preview pieces he had come up with after reading a few profile details. He almost felt stupid for not catching on the name before, but then again, he had been wrestling with the Jeongguk fiasco for the past month now.
“We’ve seen some of your work, Jimin, when we were researching for our own establishment. The company you work for really comes up with amazing designs worthy of envy, and when Hyung realized you worked here, well…” Jihoon sheepishly stated as Taehyung grinned.
“I was over the moon.”
Taehyung always had this power to embarrass someone with his childlike innocence, and Jimin was incredibly happy that the alpha hadn’t lost such a beautiful quality.
Namjoon sat in humble silence, not at all bothered with the conversation was soon taking place, and Jimin was a bit more reassured by having his superior there. It’s not like Namjoon didn’t trust Jimin, but the higher ups probably had him sit in for the sake of the meeting itself, since Taehyung wasn’t just any client.
“Well, we’re honored that you decided to give us a chance to work with you on this project, and I hope we are able to satisfy your qualifications.” Jimin felt a bit more confident now, a surge of professionalism hitting him as he secured a few items from the folder. Taking out some samples, he spread out a few penciled-out details that he figured would align well with what Taehyung and Jihoon were going for.
However, before the omega could continue, Taehyung was leaning forward slightly. “So, you are married? When mom told me, I wasn’t too sure if you went through with it, since I didn’t hear much about it.”
The sudden turn of topic had Jimin fumbling slightly, and Jihoon was shooting Taehyung a desperate look. “Was it recent?”
Feeling Namjoon shift a bit in his own chair, Jimin swallowed thickly as his stomach began to churn uneasily. “Yes, I’ve been married a few months now.” Jimin tried to clear out the dryness of his throat as Taehyung regarded him with a regretful stare.
He wasn’t sure why Jimin felt a bit guilty at having revealed such a personal piece of information, but he had been completely off guard when Taehyung had asked. “Does your husband work here with you?”
Jihoon was quick to interject, helping Jimin save face, “Hyung, I don’t think right now is a good time. We’re here to discuss things about the bar, maybe catching up with an old friend could be done at another time?” The young omega didn’t seem at all sharp or rude, gifting Jimin an apologetic glance.
Taehyung said nothing, but Jimin didn’t miss the way his eyes scanned over the bareness of Jimin’s neck, evidently noting the fact that Jimin had not been claimed despite his status. It was something that Jimin always felt humiliated about; it was clear to people what his marriage to Jeongguk meant; that love wasn’t involved, except for the sole purpose of establishing social footing. Maybe that’s why Jihoon had decided to spare Jimin further embarrassment, especially when he knew there was no hiding from Taehyung scrutinizing gaze.
The alpha wasn’t stupid, after all.
Jeongguk silently laced his shoes back up, sitting on the edge of the bed as he felt Soo-Min stretching luxuriously. From beyond the window, the alpha was able to tell just how late it was, but he was in no hurry to leave, really. By this time, Jimin expected late, seemingly having accepted the continuous excuse that Jeongguk worked late.
“You never stay longer with me.” The omega whined as Jeongguk finally stood up, not even glancing at the woman he had taken to bed earlier, and like most nights after he was finished with the workday.
Jeongguk’s response was clipped and to the point. “There’s no need to. We’re physically compatible, that’s the only thing keeping us together. We both agreed that this would only be just sex.” As he slipped on his shirt, he was quick to add, “You should be happy I decided to keep this up even after you and I married our selected partners.”
“Yes, but you could maybe put a little more effort in being somewhat affectionate. It wouldn’t kill you.” Soo-Min’s tone had changed from her earlier, sultry coated words, the ones that always knew how to work up his alpha.
But that was all it was. Pure, carnal desire. Jeongguk wouldn’t hide the fact that he was only in it for the hook-ups, it’s not like he kept it secret from his longtime lover. Every time Soo-Min hinted at something more than just a lustful getaway in the sheets, Jeongguk was quick in shooting it all down. Being with Soo-Min didn’t really benefit him in any way, simply enjoying the thrill that came with having an affair.
He’d bed her, but he wouldn’t wed her.
“I don’t understand why you still return to him, especially when it’s me you lust for.” A coyness settled over her words, but Jeongguk didn’t take the bait. She soon added. “Don’t you remember your wedding night? You left him in order to fuck me.”
A scoff left Jeongguk’s lips as he buttoned up his shirt. “You were the one that came searching for me. Or are you offended at the fact that I had no interest in looking for you at yours?”
That one hit its mark, and Jeongguk listed with satisfaction as Soo-Min hissed angrily at him.
It just didn’t matter if both she and Jeongguk met up for their occasional fling, marrying Jimin was not a regret, and he would gain a lot more from being with the omega than he would getting it on with the wife of one of his superiors.
“I already told you this many a times before, Soo-Min. I’m not leaving Jimin for you. It’s not worth it and if you can’t accept that, then I supposed things are better ended now.” Jeongguk was serious; as much as he enjoyed sex with the beautiful omega, he was not going to lose Jimin or the benefits of his family over some tasteless affair.
Soo-Min called out sharply, “I don’t want us to break up!”
“Then be smarter about this. I need to go.” The alpha turned to face the wounded omega, watching as she thickened the scent of her pheromones as if to try and entice him to stay. Maybe any other, typical alpha would fall for it, but Jeongguk was spent, and he never really found a second round with Soo-Min at all tempting or appealing.
Without another word and ignoring the omega’s pitiful whimpers, Jeongguk was already out the door, but not before grabbing his coat upon his exit.
Each time, he thought he would anger Soo-Min enough to have her not seek him out again, but time and time again, he was proven wrong. And time and time again, he would take her to bed at the nearest hotel, without a single care in the world for the omega waiting for him at home.
“Go home.”
Startled, Jimin jumped in his seat as he whirled around to see Namjoon all packed up and ready to head out for the evening. Much like him, Namjoon often stayed behind late in order to finish up with work, but Jimin currently held the record for the employee with the most after hours. It’s not like he was doing so against his will, but lately, work was his only saving grace, and each night he dreaded going home to lonely apartment he shared with an indifferent alpha.
“I will, as soon as I finish up with some of these last prints from last week’s photograph sets. I’m close to sealing this deal with one of our clients, so better now than later.” Jimin breathlessly stated, pulling up one of the final pieces to a café he had been helping with for the past two months now.
“No, Jimin. Now.” Namjoon was one to really snap and berate his employees, so no one ever got used to the seriousness of his tone when he was trying to get a message across. “You’ve been working yourself to the bone for the past couple of weeks, taking on more work when you don’t need to. Go home.”
“But…”
“Or I’ll reassign some of your current projects to other teams.” The alpha never made empty threats, and considering he was doing so for Jimin’s benefit, was enough for the omega to relent, his shoulders sagging. A sigh fluttered into the air around them as Namjoon patted his shoulder. “You’re an incredible worker, Jimin, and your designs stand out. I’d hate for you to burn yourself out. Go home and come back early tomorrow.”
A tired smile danced across Jimin’s lips, before he leaned back with a small groan. “It’s been a long day, you’re right, I should take it easy for a bit.” Jimin wasn’t too happy about the idea, but Namjoon seemed satisfied with it.
“Actually.” Namjoon paused as he set down his briefcase in order to fish for something from one of his coat pockets. Jimin watched curiously as the alpha took out his wallet, opening it hastily in order to further seek out what he was looking for. “As you know, my husband owns a production company and one of his clients gifted him with tickets to some popular musical here in Seoul.”
“Oh, right, Jeongguk works there.” Jimin found himself saying, probably another reason as to why Jeongguk probably married the omega in the first place. Namjoon was married and mated to the CEO of the company Jeongguk currently worked for. And even now, Namjoon was a prime example of what Jeongguk once said about ‘reaping the benefits.’
“Which is why I thought it would be nice if you joined Seokjin and I next weekend to the showing. I know my husband has been dying to go out with another couple for a while; everyone has been stressing over work.” As Namjoon offered the tickets, Jimin swallowed thickly as he graciously accepted them.
This was huge and it would help Jeongguk immensely on his way to the top, but at the same time, Jimin didn’t own the alpha any favors.
“You don’t have to go, but Seokjin trusts my circle of friends more than his own. Since you’ve been working a lot, a weekend getaway wouldn’t be so bad. If not, just let me know before hand and I can offer them to someone else. Talk with your husband about it; you have my number.” Namjoon beamed at him as he took hold of his briefcase once more, and it took all that was Jimin’s willpower to not cry to the alpha right then and there.
Because things were not good with Jeongguk at all, and Jimin simply couldn’t find anyone to confide in. Namjoon was such a kind soul, and Jimin couldn’t help but think that this was a silent invitation for Jimin to speak up about what was troubling him.
Why couldn’t he have married someone as kind as Namjoon?
“Wow, thank you. This is probably what I need. I’m sure Jeongguk will appreciate the offer and accept, but if anything comes up, I’ll let you know for sure.” Jimin regretted the words that slipped from his mouth, since he didn’t have the energy to tag along and keep up some façade for the sake of Jeongguk’s career.
But Namjoon has done so much for him already, and Jimin learned plenty from him since he first started working with the elder. The least he could do was suck it up and take the alpha up on his offer; besides, it wouldn’t just be him and Jeongguk, the omega would be able to distract himself with the other couple if need be.
The alpha waited for Jimin to gather up his things for the night, making sure his computer was well shut off. Taking some work home was something Jimin always did, so he figured he would stay up a bit later; it’s not like he would be able to sleep anyway. So, once everything was secured, Namjoon accompanied him towards the elevator, and it wasn’t until the doors were closing that Jimin realized how tired he really was.
A humble silence fell over the two of them as they made their way across the lobby soon after. Breathing in the cold air, Jimin then shivered as they were met with an icy gush of wind. “I heard it might start snowing, would be nice; snow always makes things look even more beautiful this time of year.” The alpha sighed in contentment as Jimin nodded in agreement.
“Well, let me know what the final decision is, I look forward to your answer.” Namjoon was quick to offer a wave as Jimin did the same, before he reached up to fix his scarf.
“I will. Have a nice night!” After parting ways, Jimin began his trek back home, hoping not to run into Jeongguk that evening.
Work, Taehyung, and now a looming opportunity to mingle with some well-known figures; Jimin just didn’t have the energy to really deal with anything else that night.
Jimin was starting to think that wishing for stuff got him the opposite of what he asked for, because he found the alpha lounging in the kitchen when Jimin finally walked through the door. Jeongguk glanced up from some papers he was looking over, hair wet from a shower as he settled for a large tee and loose sweats.
“This is the latest I’ve seen you get home.” He spoke up as Jimin sighed, setting all his stuff down on the coffee table in their living room. Dropping his bag next to the couch, Jimin began to peel off his outer layer of clothing, groaning slightly as his limbs cried out in pain. Maybe he was outdoing himself, his muscles felt so pained and his eyes were dreadfully heavy.
“I got a new client today, and it’s a big account so I’m putting in extra hours to make sure it all goes smoothly.” Jimin’s voice was guarded and just as indifferent as Jeongguk’s. It’s honestly all they really talked about; work, work, and more work. Conversations were never about themselves unless work was involved in some way; Jimin had learned in the first, few days of their marriage that Jeongguk wasn’t a bit interested in getting to know Jimin on such a deep, personal level.
“Is it your own project?” Jeongguk continued to question, and Jimin curtly nodded, pulling his shirt out from where he had it tucked in. At the silent response, the alpha then added, “They’re finally recognizing your talents.”
Now this was something Jimin had not expected at all; Jeongguk hardly ever complimented him on anything, and whenever he came home late from work, or from messing around with his mistress, they merely exchanged a few words before he retired to his room. The omega didn’t want to seem pleased, but it was rather difficult to resist the urge to do so, when he still craved for the alpha’s attention.
Despite all the disappointments.
Feeling idiotic for even giving in to a possibility of breaking the ice they were both on, Jimin made his way towards Jeongguk, eyes idly glancing around the pages of his current project. Even if he didn’t respect their marriage, at least he took his job seriously. Sensing his proximity, Jeongguk looked up in time to see Jimin holding out the tickets Namjoon had given him.
“What’s that?”
“My boss, Namjoon, and his husband Seokjin, invited us to a weekend getaway. I don’t know the exact details, but it wouldn’t hurt to go.” While speaking, Jeongguk was already taking the tickets from his hands, raising his brows slightly as if impressed. Of course, the news would make the alpha happy, this would be a good opportunity for him to get closer to Seokjin, and thus, opening several doors for him.
Nodding, Jeongguk set the tickets down, rubbing his knee as he did so. “This is a golden window for us, Jimin, we’d be stupid to pass something like this up.”
Jimin couldn’t help but bristle at that, frowning deeply at the insinuation that all Jimin ever care for, was getting to the top. “Namjoon is a friend, Jeongguk, I would love for us to actually enjoy spending time with them without ulterior motives in mind.”
“Without ulterior motives? Why do you think I married you for?” Jeongguk briskly replied, and Jimin recoiled at the sudden knife that had lodged itself into his heart.
Stupid.
The omega was as stupid as he thought. To think he could at least get something in return from the alpha, some sort of inkling that Jimin was more than just ticket to higher, social circles. Because when Jimin agreed to marry, he had done so because he wanted a partner, a companion; to attempt a normal life.
But all of that was just wishful thinking, and Jimin couldn’t help but feel the shame and embarrassment wash over him, as his omega retreated. He felt his scent turn sour, the distress that covered his omega like a second skin, had Jimin on the verge of spitting out all the venom he had held back the past month.
Maybe it was the way his eyes stung with unshed tears, or the way his omega cried out in heartbroken rejection, but he noticed the way the alpha suddenly seemed off put and restless. He shouldn’t feel proud at that kind of reaction, but it was the most Jimin had ever gotten in the past several months they have been together.
“This was more than just some business transaction to me, Jeongguk.” Jimin’s words were a whisper, before he finally turned on his heel. Stupid. He was so stupid. Not a word was uttered after that, and the omega was quick to take his things and flee to his room, without even sparing his dear ‘husband’ a glance.
Working with Taehyung was proving to be nearly impossible, especially when the alpha was always a little too eager around him. To be quite honest, Jimin had to give himself kudos for not falling victim to the man’s charms, even when he was doing his best to win Jimin over on several occasions. It’s not like it was the only thing Taehyung ever did, there were a couple of times when the pair would revisit old, childhood memories.
Their friendship was something Jimin would love to restore and judging by how easy it was to be himself around Taehyung, the omega knew it would only be a matter of time before both eased up fully.
But Jimin wasn’t blind to Taehyung’s advances, and he almost felt sorry at the way Jihoon would regard both with a troubled, pensive expression. Maybe back then, Jimin would have been all the happier to rekindle a relationship that only served to bring the omega nothing but genuine joy.
However, Jimin was married now, and even though his husband was anything but caring and loving, the omega couldn’t bring himself to stoop down to the alpha’s level. And much to his everlasting frustration, Jimin simply could not shake off the feelings he held for Jeongguk, despite the deeply rooted pain within his aching heart.
He couldn’t love Taehyung, not the way the alpha wanted him to. Not like before.
“I love this color.” Once both Jimin and Taehyung were settled in the meeting room the following week, Jimin had breathed out in relief at the approval in the alpha’s voice. “Well, I’ll have to check with Jihoon, but I’m sure he’ll agree.”
Jihoon…
Watching the quiet omega was something Jimin often did, trying to figure out what his relationship with Taehyung truly was. At first, Jimin naturally assumed the two were together, but upon better inspection, he realized that Taehyung never regarded Jihoon as more than a friend and partner.
Not blind to Jihoon’s evident affection, Jimin could not escape the immense guilt he felt whenever Taehyung treated him with an old, smoldering love that had yet to fizzle out. Jimin liked to think that Taehyung acted the way he did because of their sudden reunion, praying that he alpha wouldn’t try to take things farther.
Any married wolf would highlight the fact that they are taken and not at all available, but that wasn’t something Jimin was able to go with, since both he and Taehyung knew all too well that Jimin and his husband were not emotionally tied down by mutual feelings.
Still, he connected with Jihoon so easily and the young omega was so nice to talk to, the least Jimin could do was hint to the other that he was not at all interested in Taehyung in that way and hope that Jihoon would catch on.
Jimin was no stranger to unrequited love.
“I’m working with your husband.” Taehyung suddenly spoke up, and it was enough to make Jimin suddenly choke on air.
It was just the two of them in the meeting room; Jihoon had gone to grab some coffee with Namjoon, so Jimin would have to hold the fort down for a while. At first, everything was going was going extremely well, both alpha and omega focusing on the job at hand.
“Ah, small world.” Jimin sheepishly chuckled, trying to put on a smile, but failing rather miserably, so instead, he returned to the files.
“Yeah, we’re doing a production thing for my next comeback, so he’s overseeing a lot of stuff. Doesn’t talk much, pretty stiff.” Jimin wanted to snort at the words, picturing Jeongguk’s person rather perfectly. That was just like him, honestly, but at the same time, he couldn’t help but wonder if Taehyung mentioned anything about their past love life.
“There’s a meeting with him today, I’ll be heading over there after we’re finished here.” The air was getting extremely awkward, and Jimin struggled to hold down the need to panic. This was dangerous territory; even if he knew that others were aware of his situation with his husband, Jimin wouldn’t be able to survive such a topic.
“You’re not happy, are you?”
And there it was.
“Can we not?” Jimin’s words were a little too sharp, and Taehyung pursed his lips together, forming a very tight line. “That’s my personal life, Taehyung, I would appreciate it if you didn’t nose around in it.”
Jimin was already walking on the edge, feeling himself cutting close to breaking down fully, and at work. The omega always took pride in separating his work life from his private one, but when Taehyung was able to see through him, and on top of that, point it out, well, Jimin wasn’t sure what to feel.
Judging by the meek silence, Jimin wasn’t sure if the rest of the meeting was going to go well, and he could already feel the shift in his scent as he was starting to get uncomfortable with it all. As he took cover in the quietness, Jimin swallowed thickly, shoving the papers together, trying to find something to.
Not long after, he noticed Taehyung’s hand inch towards him, before he finally took hold of one of Jimin’s hands completely.
“I’m sorry, Jimin-ssi. I can’t help but worry. I stepped over the line.” There was a small pause, before the alpha opened his lips once more. “I think I started on the wrong foot here, with you. How about we go out for coffee sometime? Catch up?”
Jimin couldn’t ignore the warmth of the alpha’s touch, the way his pheromones tried to calm his now restless wolf.
It was hard, there was no denying it. Jimin wanted nothing more than to come home after a long day and spend an evening with his mate; to be comforted and be treated like he mattered. That his value was not just on his career, but as himself, as Jimin.
Jeongguk has done nothing to really make Jimin feel like he was important, even more so now that Jimin discovered the alpha’s infidelity. He had almost forgotten what it felt like to be cared about by a significant other. Finding comfort in the other’s touch, Jimin allowed himself to ease the tension in his shoulders, but his mood didn’t improve.
“That would be nice, Taehyung. Just…” Jimin sighed as he finally pulled his hand away from the alpha. “Our time together is something I will never forget, but that was years ago. Things are not the same anymore, and they never will be.”
Taehyung visibly swallowed, before he forced a smile. “I know. I guess seeing you again just, made me revisit the past, especially at how it all ended.”
“I’m sorry, Taehyung, that one is on me.”
The alpha was already shaking his head, as if rejecting such an idea. “I’ve never held that against you, Jimin, I understand why you did it. Look, let’s not touch on that now; how about coffee, like I said?”
Taehyung had this charm that just tugged at a person’s heartstrings, and it was difficult to resist such a kind soul. Smiling genuinely, Jimin finally nodded. “Fine; coffee will be nice.”
It was probably what Jimin needed right now, a friend. Taehyung had always been that kind of friend to him, and even though life had gotten in the way, Jimin knew that the alpha would provide what he needed. True companionship.
Jimin had friends; he’s made plenty at work and some remained in touch even after uni. But no one was as close to the omega as he would have liked. That’s why talking to Taehyung seemed so easy; they were friends first before they were a couple, and to this day, Jimin didn’t think he would ever find someone who knew him as much as Tae did.
“I feel like the colors should be darker; it doesn’t set well with the current backdrop. Maybe try a different pallet.” Jeongguk suggested as he glanced over some of the concept photos. Nothing was final, so he still had some room to play around with a few things here and there.
“Mind if we all go take a break and grab some snacks or something? I could use something in my stomach right about now.” One of Jeongguk’s co-workers called out as he stretched fully. The alpha couldn’t blame them, everyone has been working nonstop for a good portion of the day, so he nodded.
Setting aside the photographs, Jeongguk rolled his shoulders a bit, before following two others away from their current work area.
Their break room was spacious, so Jeongguk didn’t feel the need to mingle much with the others as they settled for some drinks and snacks already on the table. The alpha made his way to grab a water, catching some movement from the corner of his eye.
“Ah! Hey, Jeongguk~!” A rather deep, but joyous voice rang out towards him. He didn’t really need to look up to know who it was that was currently calling out his name. Unfastening the bottle cap, Jeongguk took a swing from his bottle, before turning to face Taehyung.
It was a bit much, all things considered; the guy was a well-known idol, but that didn’t stop the alpha from getting a little too friendly with him. He was direct, and his way of thinking was a little uncommon when compared to others. Still, that didn’t mean the alpha wasn’t clever in his own way.
Why else would Taehyung be giving Jeongguk a look that his wolf standing on guard. The other wasn’t throwing anything malicious at Jeongguk, but the way his eyes glinted with a knowing flash, had the alpha growing a bit tense.
Words weren’t exchanged at first, as Taehyung munched on what appeared to be some grapes. Jeongguk wasn’t really a fan of the unsettling silence that mingled between them, so he made the first move. “I didn’t see you on set much of this morning; working on other things, is my guess?”
For a moment, Taehyung regarded the young alpha with a mild, condescending look, enough to make Jeongguk bristle, before the older male beamed. “Oh, some personal stuff. I hired Jimin to work on my bar, I’m sure you’ve heard of what my friend and I have been wanting to do.”
Jeongguk didn’t forget; he had overheard talk about the young idol, seeming quite eager to get things started on some of the interior work. The alpha had been too busy with work, it hadn’t dawned on him that Taehyung most likely sought out the works of Jimin’s company.
“Jimin is wonderful to work with.”
The alpha wasn’t sure why Taehyung meant it as a jab, furrowing his brows slightly, but careful to not betray much emotion. “My husband did mention he was working on something new; I didn’t imagine it would be with you.”
He made a direct point to remind the other alpha that Jimin was married, though, a part of him wondered why he even needed to establish that with Taehyung. Maybe it was the way the other alpha was treating him with a sudden coolness that left Jeongguk feeling a bit annoyed.
“I asked for him. Jimin and I go way back.” Popping another grape in his mouth, the idol offered a smile that Jeongguk didn’t read as sincere. “We shared a lot of things together.”
Jeongguk contributed to the conversation with a frown, so Taehyung took it upon himself to clarify what he meant, exactly. “As in, I was his first in a lot of things. I love to refer to Jimin as the one that got away.”
The young alpha didn’t need more than that in order to understand what it was that Taehyung was getting at, and for a splitting second of unbound emotion, Jeongguk added in a clipped tone. “Is that right?”
“Yeah, of course. I invited him out to some coffee and to catch up; hope you don’t mind my stealing your husband for an afternoon.” Taehyung let out a laugh, masking the tension that soon took its place between both alphas.
“No, not at all.” Jeongguk added rather tersely, “Jimin is free to do what he wants with friends.”
Lifting a hand, the other wolf lightly pushed Jeongguk’s shoulder, making the alpha grow tense at the sudden contact. Taehyung seemed satisfied with the outcome, before he added with enthusiasm. “Glad we see eye to eye.”
With a wink, Taehyung finished what he had been eating, grabbing a bottle of water for himself. “Don’t worry, I’ll take care of him.”
Jeongguk noticed the way the other scoffed under his breath, before finally stepping away, leaving a rather unhappy alpha behind.
‘Are we not meeting tonight?’
It was Soo-Min.
Jeongguk glanced down at his phone, bitterly. The thought of meeting with Soo-Min only served to annoy him more, growing a bit frustrated as he allowed his mind to run back to Taehyung’s earlier comments.
He didn’t appreciate the way the other alpha crossed the line a bit, making it explicitly clear that he and Jimin had a history, and that he, by no means, had forgotten about the omega. Shifting uncomfortably in the cab, Jeongguk watched the buildings fly by as the vehicle continued down the street.
Taehyung was no one to worry about, and Jeongguk had no reason to feel threatened.
The idol had simply stepped out of line and the young alpha reacted towards it, that was all.
That’s all it was.
So why was his alpha feeling particularly restless to the point that Jeongguk had to tackle down the feeling of needing to get back to the apartment. Jimin had been coming home later than usual, an excuse he often used whenever he decided to meet up with Soo-Min for the evening.
And it all started around the same time that Taehyung returned to the city for promotional and comeback work. If Taehyung and Jimin were indeed lovers sometime in the past, who’s to say they wouldn’t want to rekindle something?
Jeongguk was acting hypocritical, but there was no fighting the nature of his alpha, and the wolf inside him was not too happy with the shady encounter that transpired between himself and Taehyung.
Would Jimin be home even now?
Jeongguk knew what he was. What he did. He knew he was unfaithful to Jimin, but he didn’t think the omega would be the type to do the same. It never even crossed his mind that the omega would go as far as do the same to him; Jimin just didn’t seem the type. He was, after all, the better of the two.
The alpha knew of his faults, yet, still acted on them. At least Jimin seemed to be the moral compass of their marriage, but it’s not like Jeongguk really offered more for the arrangement, anyway.
He’s never been in love, nor did he think he was capable of such a thing. A firm believer that marriages were nothing more than some social contract, he thought he was doing the right thing in following his father’s footsteps. Any other omega would have been perfect for such a case, but Jimin had been different.
Accepting Jimin as his marriage partner, had also been based on…
“Here.” The cab driver’s dull voice pulled Jeongguk deep from his thoughts, finally realizing that they were at the front of his apartment building. “Thank you.”
After paying his fee and making his way inside, Jeongguk found himself pushing the door open and being greeted by the warm lights of the living room lamp.
Everything was turned off, and for a moment, Jeongguk thought he was only one at the apartment and that they had forgotten to turn off the lamp. However, as he stepped closer to the sofa after taking his shoes off at the door, he was able to take in Jimin’s working form.
Deep in his work, the omega didn’t even glance up or verbally welcome Jeongguk home, murmuring to himself as he took notes.
Jeongguk vaguely wondered if Jimin was getting stuff done for his project involving Taehyung’s bar. Thinking back on it all, left a bitter taste in the alpha’s mouth, as he proceeded to shrug off his coat and loosening the buttons of his shirt. In his pocket, the vibrations were loud enough to be heard in the quiet atmosphere.
“You’re home early; don’t you usually have somewhere to be?” It was Jimin’s voice that drifted into the air soon after, and Jeongguk couldn’t help but glance over his shoulder, an uneasiness settling within his stomach.
The omega was giving him a look that was like that of Taehyung’s from earlier in the day, only this time, Jimin seemed a bit more indifferent than usual, as if expecting a reply to a question he already knew the answer to.
Something cold slithered its way down his spine, feeling a bit unhinged as he fully faced the omega. At first, nothing was said, but Jeongguk played it off coolly. “I didn’t have much work today.”
Jimin’s scent was anything but sweet and pleasant, and Jeongguk wanted to assume that it was the stress of work that was affecting Jimin in a certain way.
The alpha didn’t want to think of much else, nor did he want to explore the idea that Jimin might know a lot more than he led on. Did he know about the affair? But then again, the two of them haven’t been on good terms for the past couple of weeks, as if Jimin’s initial faith and enthusiasm about their marriage had taken a hit.
“Mhm.” It was all that Jimin voiced out, before returning to his work, leaving Jeongguk to fend off whatever confusion he was suddenly dealing with, and he wasn’t sure if it was because of Jimin, Taehyung, or both.