Even if it ruins me

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Listing Series

• Honestly, maybe by mrnwdw

  Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Work in Progress

  22 Jan 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter
  • Draco Malfoy
  • Harry Potter
  • Pansy Parkinson
  • Hermione Granger
  • Ron Weasley
  • Severus Snape
  • Sirius Black
  • Narcissa Black Malfoy
  • Malfoy Family (Harry Potter)
  • Alternate Universe - Modern Setting
  • Slow Burn
  • Angst
  • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
  • Psychological Trauma
  • Unreliable Narrator
  • Not Canon Compliant
  • Nonlinear Emotions
  • Introspective Narrative
  • I Wrote This Instead of Preparing for College
  • english is not my first language
  • POV: The Author Is Indecisive
  • yes there is angst
  • this is a love story I swear
  • Feelings Were Suppressed
  • Oops
  • Feelings Are No Longer Suppressed
  • no one is okay in this fic
  • Classical Music
  • Violinist Draco Malfoy
  • Internal Conflict
  • Internal Monologue
  • Self-Worth Issues
  • Dissociation
  • Everyone Needs a Hug
  • Slow Burn Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter
  • Character Study
  • Idiots in Love
  • Healing
  • This Fic Is About Feelings Unfortunately
  • I Promised Myself I’d Be Normal
  • i'm not
  • i had no business writing this
  • This Is About Art and It Hurts
  • author is projecting
  • I’m sorry in advance

  Summary

  Creation leaves a residue.
  In the silence after music fades and words are left unwritten, something lingers — unclaimed, unfinished, aching to be touched again.

  Let it rot. Let it fester beneath the skin, press against bone, swell in the hollow spaces where desire was buried alive.

  Series

  • Part 1 of Even if it ruins me

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  916

  Chapters:

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