You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

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• Take my hand, look at the other, then release a sigh between your lips by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  07 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • 5pyder/Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • 5pyder & Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • 5pyder & Schpood (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • 5pyder (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Schpood (Video Blogging RPF)
  • RemmyTheRat
  • Character Death
  • Implied/Referenced Character Death
  • schpood is a good...friend?
  • Depressed Saparata
  • Out of Character
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • Rarepair
  • oh yeah baby
  • im on fire
  • pls dont execute me
  • they're going to make me fight in the colosseum help
  • i love minecraft rarepairs
  • When i was born i was curse to only being able to write rarepairs
  • Falling In Love but not realizing it until youre dying
  • when you go on a ''date'' with the man that shares room AND bed with your emperor
  • lol it happened to me tomorrow
  • Awkward Dates
  • join me into the rarepairs
  • i cant be the only one writing ts
  • what would be the name of this ship?
  • 5P
  • 5pyrata
  • 5pysaps
  • ? - Freeform
  • idk - Freeform
  • no beta we die like 5pyder
  • i risked my grades by writing this
  • They didn't interact in canon but I don't care
  • Song: Segundo Tema (Enjambre)

  Summary

  5pyder takes Saparata through Westhelm

  Series

  • Part 1 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,482

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  13

  Kudos:

  102

  Bookmarks:

  8

  Hits:

  848

• It only exists in the precise, without yesterday, tomorrow, only today by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  16 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Saparata/Schpood (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Schpood (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Post-Canon
  • Out of Character
  • mentioned 5pyder
  • Sharing a Bed
  • caresses
  • I just made some BULLLLLLSHITTTTT!!!!!!
  • idk what i just wrote tbh
  • i fell asleep writing ts and woke up disoriented
  • Anyways
  • whats the name of this ship?? ive seen many
  • schparata
  • schpoodarata
  • schsaps
  • this is how i cope about 2.7
  • wth was that bro.... im spechless
  • I wrote this instead of doing my homework
  • kms
  • Possessive Behavior
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • Drunkenness
  • No beta we die like owo6 and 5pyder
  • Song: Almohada (Jose Jose)

  Summary

  Saparata visits Westhelm after a long time, Schpood can't help remembering

  Series

  • Part 2 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,144

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  6

  Kudos:

  166

  Bookmarks:

  9

  Hits:

  1,602

• The usual and dreaming, in your day I confuse them by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • General Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  21 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • AFreakinTurkey/Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • AFreakinTurkey (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Post-Canon
  • Dancing
  • that escene when everyone is having a party in saps house
  • i'm going to die of embarrassment
  • i dont know why i wrote this oh my god...
  • Rarepair
  • Minecraft yaoi
  • i haven't moved on from 2.5
  • Out of Character
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • no beta we die like Turkey in 2.0
  • Song: En tu dia (Enjambre)

  Summary

  Saparata was sinking into bad memories, and Turkey knew how to get him out of there even for a moment

  Series

  • Part 3 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  441

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  44

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  485

• There is nothing to reproach, It was impossible to avoid by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  27 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Saparata/Turntapp (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Turntapp (Video Blogging RPF)
  • mentioned zynn
  • Mentioned Schpood
  • Character Death
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • First Kiss
  • Falling In Love
  • Out of Character
  • Turnsaps
  • doomed minecraft yaoi
  • im back babyy
  • Im locking in
  • the saps tower in the snow doesn't exist bc he was in the covenant
  • im so sorry saps tower lovers
  • i really dont like this fic but wathever vro
  • no beta we die like turntapp
  • this isnt a rarepair im so sorry i failed you
  • he wants that cookie so effing bad
  • Song: Y la esperanza (Enjambre)

  Summary

  Turntapp suffered because he loved Saparata

  Series

  • Part 4 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,793

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  114

  Bookmarks:

  6

  Hits:

  832

• I always followed the perverse suggestion by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  29 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Saparata/Thomas5200 (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Thomas5200 (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Force-Feeding
  • Unresolved Tension
  • oh god what did i just write?
  • KMS RN
  • complicated feelings
  • they are stupid and weird as hell
  • Out of Character
  • Weird Plot Shit
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • You find your enemy dying on the beach what do you do?
  • A) kill him
  • B) Have a homosexual moment with him
  • Two fics are enough to be thomsaps CEO????
  • Minecraft yaoi rarepair
  • This could be more gay but not for now sorryy
  • no beta we die like Thomas5200
  • Rarepair
  • Fun fact:
  • The full title of the fic is “I always followed the perverse suggestion to keep my friends close to me but you closer”
  • Song: Enemigo (Enjambre)

  Summary

  Thomas needed to find Saparata.

  Series

  • Part 5 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)
  • Part 2 of The fuckass ship that I hate

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,202

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  5

  Kudos:

  113

  Bookmarks:

  6

  Hits:

  930

• Your heart I saw, you can't deceive me anymore by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  04 Oct 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Ish13c/Saparata
  • Alex Kisiel | ish
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Other(s)
  • idk what I just wrote
  • God in love with a Mortal
  • i guess
  • uhhh idk what to tag exactly
  • Out of Character
  • saps has a harem but he is doomed
  • Rarepair
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • im so tired to tag ts correctly ill do it tomorrow
  • I saw two post on tumblr about this ship and i knew i had to write about it
  • no beta we die like saps in 1.5 1.7 2.0 and 2.7
  • damn he is really doomed
  • Song: Manía cardiaca (Enjambre)

  Summary

  Ish had been observing Saparata for a long time.

  Series

  • Part 6 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,981

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  9

  Kudos:

  117

  Bookmarks:

  10

  Hits:

  931

• Haven't you realized that you can't go back in this world of few turns? by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  26 Oct 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Saparata/SitzKrieg0 (Video Blogging RPF)
  • SitzKrieg0 (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Minor Characters
  • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
  • Out of Character
  • Rarepair
  • Character Death
  • Minor Character Death
  • complicated feelings
  • yes i have read the spreadsheet
  • yes this is possible chat believe me
  • i'll tag later im really late for something rn
  • Song: Volver a caer (Enjambre)

  Summary

  It was too late for Sitzkrieg to offer an apology to Saparata

  Series

  • Part 7 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,069

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  3

  Kudos:

  47

  Bookmarks:

  2

  Hits:

  427

• It was always you, it will always be you by Medea_Sinclair (Pathetic_Maarih)

  Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  01 Jan 2026

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Fluixon/Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Fluixon (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
  • Background & Cameo Characters
  • State SMP Season 1.5
  • State SMP Season 1.7
  • State SMP Season 2.0
  • State SMP Season 2.5
  • and just a little bit of state smp season 2.7
  • Past and Present
  • Canonical Character Death
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • Bad English
  • Out of Character
  • description of corpses
  • first and last fluxarata fic hopefully
  • I wrote this with hatred I hope it's not too noticeable
  • i finished writing and posted this while being drunk asf
  • im sorry for being an alcoholic chud
  • i dont know what im writing i dont know what im traslating i just know that i miss someone and that im thirsty asf and need to get another drink
  • Song: Siempre Tú (Enjambre)
  • That one image of the flavorless chicken

  Summary

  Fluixon and the weight of the existence and death of Saparata

  Series

  • Part 8 of You who healed my heart, then devoured it (Rays of light)

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  2,617

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  1

  Kudos:

  81

  Bookmarks:

  2

  Hits:

  631