bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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at least in this lifetime (we're sticking together) by arwasmeowing
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
29 Mar 2024
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Dazai leveled him with a look. “Look, we can talk about this later. You obviously need some time. I’ll come back later, we can talk, and I’ll drop off a burner, but I need to go.” He turned around and began walking to the door when a hand grabbed his wrist.
Fuck.
“You’re not leaving.” Chuuya pulled him closer so that they were facing each other and grabbed Dazai’s other hand to hold in one of his before pulling Dazai down so they were at eye level.
“Chuu-”
“No. Shut the fuck up. You’re not leaving. Everyone I know has fucking left but this?” Chuuya looked nearly hysterical as he pointed to the bite mark on his neck. “This means you can’t.”
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In which Dazai is leaving and it does not go over well with Chuuya.
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- Part 1 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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you are alive and i mourn you anyway by arwasmeowing
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
27 Dec 2024
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“Dazai, what the fuck is this?”
Brown eyes, still cloudy, peered up at him as if the words hadn’t even been comprehended in Dazai’s mind. His head cocked to the side in a silent question and Chuuya moved to push Dazai’s leg up a bit further, bringing it into the light so they could both see properly.
The near entirety of the skin was marred, of course, self-inflicted scars crisscrossing each other, old enough to have turned a faded white, but that wasn’t what he was focused on.
The issue lay in a series of fresh ones. They were scarily recent, probably only a few days old at best, and scabbed over. None looked bad enough to have needed stitches but they were pretty damn close.
Those hadn’t been there the last time they’d done this. In fact, nothing of the sort had been there any of the times they’d fucked since before Dazai left the Port Mafia.
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In which Chuuya and Dazai have been having casual sex for years and all of that is fine until Dazai relapses for the first time since leaving the Port Mafia.
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- Part 2 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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“That’s the best you could negotiate it down to?” Ranpo asked once Fukuzawa was done explaining the contract, a slight edge to his voice and Dazai already knew exactly what he was thinking of: the contract was pretty much foolproof on Mori’s end. When someone went in, they might as well be stuck.
“Mori’s initial plan involved multiple rounds of physical and psychological torture to manufacture loyalty to the Mafia,” Dazai added in, feeling a bit of pity for Fukuzawa.
“And how do you know that if this is the first we’re all hearing about this?” Yosano asks and Dazai’s smile turns bitter.
“Mori, I’ll give you the pleasure of answering that.”
“Thank you,” He says smoothly before standing up. “I’ve decided the best course of action is to take Dazai Osamu back to his home in the Port Mafia.”
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In which Dazai has planned to return to the Port Mafia, but he doesn't plan on making it much further after that.
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- Part 3 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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we both know what happened to you (why you're out on your own) by arwasmeowing
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
12 Apr 2025
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“You don’t get it,” Dazai said, interrupting him mid-apology. “That’s never happened to me. That doesn’t happen to me. There has to be some other explanation because I’m not like that.” Kunikida pauses and looks at him with something like pity.
“Not like what?” And Dazai loathes the way that Kunikida says those words, all soft around the edges like he’s talking to some traumatized civilian who got caught up in something they weren’t supposed to.
“You know what I mean,” Dazai insists, pushing himself up to stand at his full height. “I’m not like that.”
Not human. Not built so softly that he was traumatized by his upbringing. Not made of glass or porcelain. Not a thing to be handled delicately. Not someone who was undeserving of what came upon him.
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5+1 of Dazai learning that growing up in the mafia does in fact have some adverse effects and no, supressing your trauma does not make it go away.
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- Part 4 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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"You’ll what?”
“You heard what I said, shitty Dazai. He doesn’t want you. Not a single one of them does, but I do. So you’re going to fucking stay here, because you don’t get to leave me again.”
“I’m not participating in this weird ass fantasy where we spend the rest of our lives together. I’m not him and you know it,” Dazai bites out, renewing his efforts to get out of his bindings.
Nakahara’s hand shoots out to pin him against the couch and stop his movements. “I know. Of course, I know that. But he owed me, and now he's fucking dead so you’re the one that’s going to pay on that debt. So, I am going to fucking keep you and when the times comes, I’m going to be the one kill you. You don’t have anything waiting for you out there, and you know it.”
Finally, Dazai stills. He tries to formulate a response, but he's not stupid, and there's no denying the truth. Slowly, he nods, and from above him, Nakahara grins.
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toxic skk situationship breakup + ada distancing themselves + beast chuuya being pulled in from his world = dazai, desperate for some sort of affection, and finding it in the absolute worst way possible
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- Part 5 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3
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“You can sleep in here,” Chuuya calls out, back facing him as he exits the room. “You know where the blankets and shit are but I better see your ass gone in the morning, got it?” Dazai feels a bit of liquid falling into his lap and stiffens a bit in shock. He hadn’t even realized he was crying. “Dazai?”
This time, Chuuya takes a glance back and Dazai doesn’t have time to hide himself before Chuuya’s already seen him and frozen.
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skk hatesex turns into subdrop...based off a tweet of mine
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- Part 6 of bsd fics that r between me, god, and ao3