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In the aftermath of the whole doppelganger incident, Xander finds himself reluctant to merge together with his more suave self. As much as he hated feeling even more klutzy and unkempt than usual, there was something about himself that he didn't want to part with yet.
"Can I, uh, I mean, can we wait until tomorrow to de-separate?" He asks Willow, voice cracking as he fidgets in place. Put together Xander smiles softly at him, resting his hand over the fingers that were pulling at each other.
"We can go straight home, then straight back here before the shop opens." Suave Xander says reassuringly, facing Giles as he opens in his mouth to protest.
"Oh goody! So I can have sex with the both of you!" Anya cheers, a wide smile on her face. At clumsy Xander's expression drops a bit, non-tripping Xander steps forward a bit, putting his counterpart slightly behind himself.
"Actually, Anya, I'm really sorry, but I think I need to do some self reflection. In the most real sense of the word." He tells her gently, rubbing his hand along her arm in apology.
"But…We could be having double the sex?" The ex-demon pouted, eyes darting between the two men.
"I know. But remember when we talked about what's socially acceptable to do and not do?"
"This is not socially accepted? But the videos with the twins-"
Slumpy Xander chokes on his spit and crouches over in a coughing fit as combed Xander winces. "Also an inappropriate subject to bring up when other people are around." He adds.
"Oh.. Fine! But if you get split again at some point-"
"We will talk about it then," Xander promises, smiling thinly at his girlfriend.
"C-can we go now?" The other Xander asks, tugging lightly at his double.
Giles sighs. "Do not let anything happen to each other." He tells them sternly, blowing out the candle he was holding. The rest of the gang follow suit, glancing at the two Xanders' in concern as they walk out the door.
Once back at the new apartment, dirty Xander throws his over shirt off in disgust, his hands momentarily getting caught in the fabric before he's able to free himself with a growl of frustration. "Okay, I can't keep calling you clean, put together, neat me in my head anymore! Can we please come up with names for us?" He begged, spinning around to face the other him as he locks the door behind them.
"Maybe you can be Xan and I can be Alex?" The other tries.
Xan grins in relief. "Sounds perfect," he says, shoulder slumping. They both stare at each other for a long moment before Xan shivers, feeling disgusting.
Alex, knowing what he wants, guides his double to the bathroom. "C'mon, let's get cleaned up. I already moved clothes and bathroom things in earlier today," he admits with a sheepish smile.
Xan nods, not replying as they enter the bathroom. Xan begins undressing as Alex turns on the shower, adjusting the taps until the water was perfectly hot. He reaches into a box that was left on the counter and pulls out the three in one body wash and a loofa, turning to see Xan looking miserable.
"What is it?" Alex asks, tilting his head. He steps forward, taking Xan's hands in his own.
"You're so much better at everything than me!" Xan blurts out, eyes wide and damp. "You can move better and talk better and probably survive this town better than me! I know we're the same, but without me-"
"Without you," Alex interrupts bringing his hands to Xan's face, "I get too cocky and will lose my self preservation skills. You may be clumsier than me, but its your survival instincts that kept us alive. Its your second guessing and looking at the situation with 'glass half empty' eyes that saved Buffy and Willow and even Giles over and over. Can't you see that?"
Xan's eyes swell more with tears and he tries to shove the feeling back down where they belong but Alex keeps him in front of him, thumbs brushing away the start of the water works.
"You are the emotional of the two of us because you have the heart." Alex whispers. "Without the heart, nothing matters."
Xan tries to speak around the lump in his throat but just chokes again, falling forward into Alex's arm with rough sob.
"Nobody's ever said that to me!" He wails softly, shoving his face in his doubles neck. Alex runs his hand through the back of Xan's head, fingers getting caught in the tangles at the base of his skull, the other slipping around his waist, pulling him into a tight embrace.
"I know," Alex whispers into the side of Xan's head, lips grazing the skin above his ear.
Alex continues holding Xan for a another minutes before gently pulling back a little.
"Come on, get in the shower. We will both feel so much better once we're clean and in bed."
At that, Little Xan starts listening in, plumping up at the idea of bed. After a year and a half of almost nightly sex with Anya, just the mention of a bed has both their pricks stiffening up.
"Uhhhh…"
Alex does his best to ignore his own erection and gently pushes Xan under the spray of water, removing his clothes smoothly before stepping in next to his twin. He smiles softly at Xan and grabs the loofa, soaping it up before he starts scrubbing at his Heart. "Don't worry about it. Just relax."
Alex washes Xan's front, then turns him around to clean his back, touching the little moles and freckles he didn't know he had back there. As he washes lower, Xan starts releasing little groans and whines of pleasure, trying to think of anything but the pair of hands drifting to his ass.
"You know," Alex says as he drops himself to his knees. "We are still the same person. So if anything did happen between us, it would only be masturbation."
"Really- HOLY SHIT! Warn a guy, would'ja?" Xan yells out as Alex spreads his cheeks and licks from the base of his balls to his tailbone.
Alex chuckles into one of his cheeks, a grin taking over his face. "Okay. I'm warning you. I'm gonna do what we've fantasized about."
"Which one? The one with- HAA! Oh, that one!"
Alex circles a soapy finger around his furled pucker, pushing gently against it and watching in fascination as it slowly started to give to the pressure, the tip of his finger disappearing. "Whoa."
"Yes, Whoa! That feels…very strange."
"Bad strange?" Alex specifies, pushing a little deeper before withdrawing with a slight twist.
"Gah, no. not bad, just really strange."
"I wonder what our prostate feels like?" The suave man says as he pushes the digit back in, getting further inside and feeling around. Xan breathes through the penetration, leaning back into it as Alex thrusts in a few times before finally….
"YAH! Found it!" Xan whines, stumbling forward a step and almost slipping into the wall of the shower. Alex catches him with an arm around his waist, his forearm pressing against his cock, causing both of them to moan.
"Can I try something?" Alex asks, nipping at Xan's cheek as he shifts his arm so he can lightly grasp at his clumsy twin's dick.
"It's me!" Xan gasps out. "Whatever you plan on doing, I've already thought about it!"
"Mmm, we have. Just never thought we'd have someone who would…."
Alex trails off, pulling the skin next to Xan's hole taught and blowing over it, watching as the skin tries to retract but Alex doesn't let it. Instead, he ducks in closer and flicks his tongue over the tight muscle.
"Yeah! Oh shit! That feels better than I imagined." Xan pants, bracing one hand on the tiles and tracing the other across his collarbone, drifting to a nipple and giving it a slight pinch. Alex smiles into his crack and starts working on pressing his tongue alongside his finger.
Two fingers later, Xan is making high pitched noises as he closes in on his orgasm, legs trembling. All it takes his Alex's hand wrapping around the head and he's off, shooting his come at the wall in front of him. "Oh god! That was… It was…."
"That good?" Alex asks, rising to his feet and plastering himself against his own back.
"Mph! Oh! Can I try something on you now?" Xan asks eagerly, turning around in Alex's arms and kissing at his neck.
Alex rolls his head to the side, allowing Xan to have more skin to kiss and taste. "You better!" He growls huskily, hips tilting towards the other. They both chuckle, before Xan starts sliding down his doubles body, pressing kisses into every inch of skin he can get to. Knees cracking against the shower floor, the more puppy-like of the two slips the head of his cock into his mouth, letting the weight oh himself sit on his tongue with a muffled groan. "Oh yeah. Great idea!"
"Mmmhmm!" Xan sounds around the cock, pressing his tongue against the slit, bobbing his head as he starts to suck.
Alex runs his fingers through Xan's hair, twirling his fingers around the dark locks and tugging slightly at the tangles he encounters, making Xan moan at the hint of pain. Xan holds a hip in one palm and cups his balls in the other, the tips of his fingers brushing against the still untouched hole.
It doesn't take too long before Alex is twitching his hips back in warning. Xan ignores it with a glare up at himself, humming loudly to cause vibrations to run through his mouth.
"Ah, fuck," Alex grunts out, his voice gaining a whine at the end as he pulses on Xan's tongue, pulling back so just the tip was between those lips and coming directly on his taste buds. When he was finished, Xan makes a slight face at the taste before swallowing, looking happy at the outcome.
"That was fun!" He exclaims, letting his stronger half help him to his feet.
"Well. The fun doesn't have to end. We do have all night."
"And no worrying of the parental unit hearing anything!" Xan chirps, spinning around to turn the water off. Alex has to steady him as he comes close to bashing his head on the tiles.
"Exactly." Alex purrs, reaching out to grab two towels. "Now get our cute ass on the bed."
"Yep! Going!" Xan enthuses, practically skipping to the bedroom. Alex laughs at himself, following close behind.
The next night, after Willow puts them back to one body, Xander is pleasantly surprised by the ache in both his ass and cock. If Anya gives him pouty knowing looks, as far as anyone is concerned, Xander only had a night of self reflection.