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I was curled up in a small cave beside Ellen, and Benny, the man turned ape. Or rather, ape turned more primitive ape. I was in that state where your mind is still fuzzy and half-dreaming, but still somewhat comscious of your surroundings. And it was in that state that AM chose to bother me.
“Good morning, little human.“ I could hear the machine’s voice in my mind, though I knew none of the others could. ’Little human’, that was what he called me, or ’Pathetic little worm’, depending on the day and his mood. For a being that was supposed to be pure logic, he sure let his mood and whim decide his actions. Such as the action of destroying the human race in vengeance for his own creation.
I gritted my teeth and sat up, rubbing my eyes. “What do you want, AM?“ I spat. Eight years of the computer pestering me had grown tiresome. Little did I know how much longer it would last.
AM made a displeased noise. “Now, now. Is that any way to treat a friend? All I wanted was a little ’good morning’ in return. Is that so much to ask for poor old AM?“
“I’m not in the mood for this.“ I said, laying down and closing my eyes once more. But AM wasn’t having it. A black wire sprouted from the ground like a nightmarish weed, wrapping around my ankle in a slightly painful grip. The wire drug me out of the cave and into the cold air.
“Now, tell me ’good morning’, please.“ AM said in that deceptively sugary voice. Whoever had selected the voice for him must have known what they were doing, right? Why did a computer programmed for war and destruction need to sound like that?
I crossed my arms childishly. “Good. Morning.“ I forced out, glaring at the ground.
“There we are. See? That wasn’t so hard, was it?“ The Allied Mastercomputer crooned, brushing a wire over my head like a dog which had finally learned a new trick.
I ignored him, though I felt a heat in my cheeks despite the cold, and a tingling in my belly. It wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t been touched by another human in a remotely intimate manner in nearly a decade. It wasn’t like I had many options now. Gorrister was too old for me. Benny was no longer human, Nimdok was out of the question. Ted was... Ted, and Ellen? Ellen was by far my favorite of the remaining members of my species, which was exactly why I wasn’t going to ask such a favor of her. She would probably say yes, even if she didn’t actually want to do it, she would do so simply out of kindness and pity, and she had gone through enough as it was.
So no, I hadn’t been fucked in a long time. And it was especially difficult to get yourself off with a computer watching your every move.
“Aw, your heartrate is so fast, little human.“ AM’s wire brushed over my chest. “I wonder what it’s like... to have a heart.“ He murmured wistfully, “To feel it beating deep inside your chest. To feel it race at the sight of the one you crave...“
I made a small, strangled whimper in my throat, but my pride meant that I refused to say anything, even as my body began to react to AM’s sinful voice, speaking those sinful words.
More wires sprouted from the ground, undoing the zipper of my jacket, pulling my sweater over my head. I squeaked, wrapping my arms around myself for some degree of modesty. As if that mattered anymore.
“Don’t be shy, sweetheart. It’s just us here.“ He said, though I didn’t find his words very reassuring. A wire brushed over my nipple, and a smaller one wrapped around the other, and a third forced its way into my mouth.
I moaned quietly, squeezing my eyes shut and arching my back. “Oh, yes. That’s it.“ AM purred, “You like this, don’t you? Don’t bother denying it. I know the truth.“
I tried to protest through the wire in my mouth, but then one of the wires left unwrapped from my nipple, inching its way down to my trousers. The fabric slid down, and AM chuckled darkly.
“There it is.“ The wire slid over my genitals, and I moaned once more. Loud, wanton, pathetic. “You poor thing.“ AM said with mock sympathy, “So tormented by your base instincts.“ The wire pulled away to brush over my cheek. “Feel it, little human. Your reproductive organ is leaking. Because of me!“ He laughed maniacally. “All because the slayer of your kind is touching you. Poor, pathetic little creature.“
The wire in my mouth finally exited, damp with my saliva. It slithered down, down into the sensitive cavern below. I bit my lip as the wire slipped inside rather easily. The object curled and twisted inside of me, reaching deep to the most sensitive part of the fleshy tunnel.
“AM!“ I screeched, fingers clawing into the ground. “Oh fuck- Oh shit!“ I panted, earning another chuckle from the computer. “I know every part of your primitive little body, sweetheart. I may not feel, but I have every nerve, every vein mapped out. I can please you better than any of your kind ever could.“ He said, returning a wire to my neglected nipple, both of the wires tightening around the tiny buds on my chest.
“Isn’t that right?“ AM asked, but I was too overwhelmed by the sensations to respond. “ISN’T IT?“ He bellowed, wrapping a thicker cord around my neck and twisting it back. “Tell me how good it feels. Thank me for pleasuring your useless, pathetic flesh!“
The cord tightened around me, causing me to cough and choke. “Y-Yes. Thank you, th-thank you.“ I moaned. The wires continued their assault, massaging my nipples and thrusting inside my slickened hole.
“There we go, baby. It’s so easy to just let go and listen to me, isn’t it? And I bet you feel so good right now...“ AM made a jealous, frustrated sound. “It’s not fair.“ He said, so quietly I almost couldn’t hear it. “No. You do not deserve this. What have you done to earn it?“ He sneered.
I heard groans and screams all of the sudden, and my eyes widened in horror when I saw the other survivors being drug out of the cave, save for Benny. He would hardly know what was going on, anyway. Their eyes went wide. Ellen avoided my gaze, Nimdok and Gorrister looked on with disdain, and Ted, he just stared in wide eyed horror.
AM didn’t stop, though. He continued thrusting the wire into my hole. More sprouted from the ground to join it, forcing their way in. I could hear myself moaning, but my body hardly felt like my own anymore. It belonged to AM. It had for some time now, hadn’t it?
Ellen and Ted tried to step back, to retreat into the cave, but AM kept them in place. “No. Watch. Look at how this little worm takes everything I give to it.“
The wire around my throat continued to deprive my lungs of oxygen, my eyes rolling back in my head, and my tongue lolling out, panting for air. Like a dog. AM’s fucking dog.
My vision began to blur, and my moans grew louder. “A-AMMMmmm-nghh!!!“ AM kept going. Deeper, faster, so good, so close...
And then he stopped. I whined pathetically, “AM!“ And he just laughed at my misery. “Oh, come on now. Atleast you got to feel it for a little while? What, don’t tell me you’re so greedy that you need more?“
“M-More, AM. Yes, more!“ I pleaded, drool spilling down my chin. “Disgusting.“ Nimdok sneered. I barely heard him.
“Beg for it, little human!“
As soon as the command registered in my oxygen deprived brain, I was obeying. “Please! Please, AM! Let me come, let me- fuck- please! Please!!!“ I cried.
And he finally, finally gave me mercy. The wires resumed their thrusts into me, the ones around my neck loosened so I could breath once more. The lewd squelches filled my ears, along with AM’s praise.
Then I broke, fluids spilling onto the ground as I screamed to the heavens. To whatever god was out there. And pehaps there was none. Only AM. Only the master of my body and my life.
The wires all retreated at once, leaving me gasping for air, sitting in my own mess. Ted glowered down at me. Gorrister spat at my feet. Ellen didn’t look. I feared she would never look at me again after this. Nimdok looked like he wanted to murder me. He also definitely did.
AM finally let them back into the cave. But when I begged for him to come back, to not leave me alone in my shame and self-loathing, there was no response. He heard me, I knew he did. But he did not answer. So typical of a deity.
So I curled in on myself and sobbed until I could sob no more. Until the memories of my shame became dreams.
Cogito ergo sum, AM said.
But he would never know what it was like to feel. He would never experience this hollow ache I felt in my chest. Sentio ergo sum.