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There's a sound Thee will never forget.
Not the gunshot. He's heard gunshots before. He's heard them since he was a kid, since he was taught what a trigger felt like under his finger, since their world became one where safety was never guaranteed and never free.
No. The sound he will never forget is the one Mok makes when the bullet meant for Thee's chest finds Mok's instead.
It isn't a scream. It's smaller than that. A single, punched-out breath. The kind of sound a body makes when it understands, faster than the mind does, that something has gone terribly wrong.
"Mok?"
Thee's voice doesn't sound like his own.
Mok is still standing. That's the worst part, he's still standing, swaying, one hand pressed flat over the center of his chest like he can hold himself together if he just presses hard enough. Red is already blooming between his fingers, spreading too fast, too dark.
"Khun Thee," Mok says. He sounds almost apologetic. "I got in the way."
Then his knees give out.
Thee catches him before he hits the ground. He doesn't remember deciding to move. His body just does it, the way it's always moved for Mok, the way it moved when they were seven and seventeen and every age in between. Mok's blood is warm against Thee's palms. It shouldn't be warm. Blood shouldn't feel like anything except wrong.
"No. No, no, no …."
Somewhere behind him, a second shot cracks the air, and then Rome's voice, low and murderous, cutting through the chaos. Thee doesn't turn to look. He can't look away from Mok's face, from the way his best friend's eyes are already starting to lose their focus.
"Stay with me," Thee begs. "Mok. Stay with me."
Mok's mouth curves, faint and familiar, the same smile he's worn since they were children playing at the shooting range, since the secret deal, since always, always.
"Trying," he whispers.
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The hospital hallway is too white. Too bright. Thee has spent his whole life in rooms like this, sterile, clinical, controlled and he has never hated a room more.
Rome hasn't stopped pacing. He's covered in blood that isn't his, and his hands won't stop shaking, and Thee has never once, in all the years he's known him, seen Rome look afraid. Rome doesn't get afraid. Rome is the thing other people are afraid of.
Until now.
The doctor comes out too soon. That's how they always know, when the door opens too fast, when the doctor's face is already arranged into the shape of bad news before a single word leaves his mouth.
"We did everything we could," the doctor says. "The bullet, there was too much internal damage. I'm sorry. There's nothing more we can do."
The words don't land right away. They hover somewhere above Thee's head, refusing to sink in, refusing to become real.
Rome is the one who breaks first.
He pushes past the doctor into the room before anyone can stop him, and Thee follows, and what he sees will be carved into him forever: Rome, on his knees at Mok's bedside, gripping Mok's limp hand in both of his like he can pour his own life into it through sheer force of will.
"Don't you dare," Rome says. His voice cracks down the middle. "Don't you dare leave me. Mok, I love you. I've loved you since we were kids and that day when I said those cruel words it wasn’t what I wanted to say Mok. I can never stop loving you. You are my entire life, please don’t leave me Mok."
Mok's eyes flutter open.
It's barely anything. A sliver of consciousness fighting its way back through the dark. But it's enough. His fingers twitch weakly around Rome's.
"Idiot," Mok breathes. Even now, even like this, there's warmth in it. "Took you long enough."
"Mok,"
"I love you too." A small, tired laugh, more breath than sound. "I've loved you since childhood, since the time I knew I wasn’t allowed to fall in love with you. Since forever. I was just too much of a coward to say it."
Rome makes a sound like something inside him has splintered.
Mok's gaze slides, slow and heavy, to Thee standing frozen in the doorway.
"Hey," he says. "Don't look like that."
"Mok, I'm sorry." The words tear out of Thee raw. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this should have been me, you shouldn't have , why did you do that, why would you,"
"Because that's the deal." Mok's smile doesn't waver, even as his voice grows fainter, even as his eyes grow heavier. "Remember? I always had to lose. Every game, every bet, since we were kids."
"This isn't a game."
"I know." A beat. "I knew this day would come, Thee. I think some part of me has known for years. I was prepared for it. To always be the one who saves you. That's , that's just who I am to you. Who I've always been."
"Don't say that like it's okay."
"It is okay." Mok's hand finds Thee's, cold now, so cold. "You've got Peach. Rome's got , Rome. Go live. Both of you. That's all I want."
"Mok,"
But Mok is already looking past him, at something none of them can see, and his hand goes slack in Thee's, and the monitor beside the bed lets out one long, unbroken tone that fills the entire room.
Rome's scream is the sound of a man being torn in half.
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Three days after Mok dies, Thee is sitting alone in his office at eleven at night, and the building is silent, and the silence is unbearable.
There's a photograph on his desk. Mok, maybe nine years old, grinning like he owns the world, one skinny arm slung around a nine years old Thee who is very clearly trying not to smile back.
Mok always had to lose. Thee remembers making that deal on this exact kind of night , dark, quiet, the two of them hiding from a world too big and too loud, promising each other something stupid and childish that somehow became the truest thing either of them ever said. I'll always protect you, Mok had told him.
Even if it means I have to lose.
He didn't mean it like that. He couldn't have meant it like that.
Thee picks up the photograph. His hands are steady. That's strange, he thinks distantly , they should be shaking. Everything else in him is shaking.
"I don't know how to do this," he says out loud, to no one, to the photograph, to the ghost of a boy who isn't there to answer. "I don't know how to be in a world where you're not in it."
Silence.
"I keep thinking if I turn the corner fast enough, you'll be there. Doing the paperwork. Complaining about the coffee. You hated the coffee here. You told me every single day."
His voice breaks on the last word.
"You died because of me. Because you jumped in front of a bullet that was never meant for you, and I let you, because I wasn't fast enough, because I've never once in my life been fast enough to save the people who save me."
He presses the photograph to his chest the way Rome had pressed his hand over Mok's wound, like pressure alone could undo what's already been done.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Mok. Sorry doesn't , it doesn't even come close, does it. There isn't a word big enough."
Outside his office, Bangkok hums on, indifferent, alive. Inside, Thee sits with a dead boy's photograph and lets himself, for the first time since the hospital, truly break.
Everything has changed. He knows that now, with a certainty that settles into his bones like cold water. Rome, gentle underneath all his violence, is becoming something else entirely , colder, sharper, a blade with nothing left to sheath it. Peach tries to hold the family together with both hands and it isn't enough, it will never be enough, because grief doesn't care how hard you hold on.
And Thee ,
Thee thinks of Mok's smile in that hospital bed. I was prepared for it. To always be the one who saves you.
Mok was the reason I was alive at all, he thinks. Every day since we were children. Every single day.
How is he supposed to keep living in the days that are left, when the one who kept him living in all the days before is gone.
He doesn't have an answer.
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The next morning, Peach finds him.
He knows before he opens the office door. He knows from the silence, wrong and total, from the way the building seems to be holding its breath. He knows, and he still isn't ready, and nothing could have ever made him ready.
Peach's scream brings the whole building running.
They bury Thee beside Mok five days later, under a sky the exact grey of the day it all began, and Rome stands at the grave without moving, without speaking, without anything at all behind his eyes.
Something in him has already started to die too. It will just take two more years to finish.
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Grief does strange things to a person. In Rome, it becomes a war.
He hunts down every enemy Arseni ever made. Every contact, every rival, every name on every list that once threatened the family he has left. He does it methodically, mercilessly, without a single flicker of hesitation , the coldest, most dangerous leader Arseni has ever known, and everyone who once whispered his name in fear now says it like a prayer against their own death.
Mira tries to stop him, in the beginning. She's the only one who still tries.
"This isn't what Khun Mok would have wanted," she tells him, more than once, standing in doorways he's about to walk through toward violence.
"Mok isn't here to want anything," Rome says, and walks past her anyway.
He isn't unstoppable because he's strong. He's unstoppable because he has nothing left to lose, and a man with nothing left to lose is the most dangerous thing in the world.
But every night, without fail, he comes home to two small children , Mork, six years old and endlessly curious, and Marn, four. Rome tucks them in himself. Reads to them himself. His voice, capable of freezing a man's blood at forty paces, goes soft and careful over bedtime stories, and it's the only softness left in him.
Peach becomes something else too. A shell wearing a familiar face.
He cannot live without Thee , some days the thought alone nearly drowns him , but he has no choice, because Mork and Marn need someone steady, because Lookplub needs her older brother, because grief is a debt you don't get to stop paying just because you're tired.
He cries every night. Quietly, in the dark, where no one can see. And every morning he wipes his face and puts on the version of himself that can make breakfast and sign school forms and smile, however faintly, at two children who lost three people in the same terrible year.
Plub tries to console him. She holds him some nights until the shaking stops. She never tells him it will be okay, because she's stopped believing that's a promise anyone can keep.
For two years, this is the shape of their lives. Rome, hunting. Peach, surviving. The children, growing, unaware that their entire family is quietly bleeding out around them, one day at a time.
And then, finally, it ends.
The last enemy falls. The last debt is paid. There is no one left for Rome to hunt, no threat left to justify the war he's been fighting since the hospital room, since the sound of the monitor going flat, since he held Mok's cooling hand and swore , silently, to no one , that he would burn the world down before he let this go unanswered.
He has burned it down.
There's nothing left to do now but stand in the ashes.
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Rome visits the cemetery alone, the way he always does.
Two graves, side by side, weathered now by two years of rain and sun. THEERAKIT KIAN LEE. And beside it, smaller, quieter: MOK.
Rome sits down in the grass between them. He hasn't done that before , always stood, always kept some distance, as if sitting would mean admitting they were really gone. But today he sits, back against Thee's headstone, one hand resting flat against the grass over Mok's grave like he could still, somehow, hold onto him.
"I finished it," he says quietly. "Everyone who ever threatened us. Everyone who could have hurt them. It's done."
The wind moves through the grass. Nothing answers him. Nothing ever does.
"I don't know what to do now," he admits. "I don't know how to be a person who isn't fighting for something. You were the reason I fought, Mok. And when I couldn't fight for you anymore, I fought for the world you'd have wanted to protect. But that's over now too."
He looks at Thee's grave.
"You'd tell me to keep going. For the kids. I know that. I've kept going for two years because of them, and I'll be grateful for that until the day I die." A pause.
"Which is today."
He's already made the arrangements. Everything , every asset, every property, every scrap of what's left of Arseni's empire , signed over to Mork and Marn, held in trust until they're old enough to choose what kind of life they want to build from the ruins. He's severed every tie to Arseni's name. He's even, quietly, removed Peach's name from the company entirely, protecting him from a legacy of blood he never should have been part of in the first place.
"Take care of them, P’Peach," Rome murmurs, though Peach can't hear him. "I know you will. You always have."
He takes one last look at the sky. Grey, the same grey as the day they buried Thee.
"I'm coming," he says softly, to Mok, to Thee, to the only two people who ever made him believe he could be more than what his father made him. "Wait for me."
The sound this time is quieter than the one that started it all. Just one shot, small against the wide Bangkok sky, and then silence, complete and total, settling over three graves instead of two.
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Peach faints at the sight of him.
He wakes in a hospital bed with Plub's arms around him, her face wet against his shoulder, and for one long, terrible moment he doesn't remember why.
Then he does.
The days that follow blur together. Reading through Rome's will with lawyers he barely registers. Learning what Rome did , every asset gone to the children, every tie to Arseni cut, Peach's own name quietly, deliberately erased from a legacy that could have followed him and the kids forever. Even from the grave, Rome was still protecting them.
Peach doesn't know whether to be grateful or to scream.
He does both, in the end. Alone, in the dark, the way he's done every night for two years.
Mira and Plub hold what's left of the family together in the aftermath, the way they always have. And Peach , Peach keeps going, the way Thee would have wanted, the way Mok would have wanted, the way Rome, in his last quiet act of love, made sure he'd be able to.
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Years pass the way they always do , quietly, relentlessly, whether you're ready or not.
The day Mork turns twenty, Peach hosts a small dinner. Just family. Mira. Plub, who has grown into someone steady and warm, nothing like the frightened girl she once was. Marn, taller than Peach now, teasing her older brother across the table. And Mork, bright-eyed, endlessly talking about the photography internship he just landed, about all the places he wants to see.
Peach watches him and sees Thee's steadiness. Watches Marn and sees Mok's warmth. He sees the four of them , Thee, Mok, Rome, and the boy he used to be , somewhere in the shape of these two young men who never truly knew the people who loved them enough to die for their future.
They eat together. They laugh. For one evening, the house feels almost whole again.
Peach kisses both the kids goodnight, the same way he has every night for years, and tells them he loves them, and means it with everything he has left.
Then he goes to his room, and closes the door, and finally, finally lets himself stop holding on.
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The album is old now, its cover soft at the corners from years of handling. Peach opens it slowly.
Thee, laughing at something off-camera, rare and unguarded. Mok, missing a tooth in one photo and beaming anyway. Rome, arm slung around Mok's shoulders, a ghost of a smile on a face that so rarely allowed itself one.
He touches each face like he can feel them through the photograph.
"I miss you," he whispers. "All of you. Every single day."
The tears come easily now. They always do, this late, this alone.
He opens the drawer beside his bed. Thee's gun has sat there, untouched, for years , kept, he told himself, for the children's safety, though some deeper part of him always knew that wasn't the whole truth.
He looks at the photographs one more time. People who loved each other more than they ever knew how to say out loud, until it was almost too late, until some of them said it only once, only when it no longer mattered whether the world was listening.
"I'm tired," Peach says softly, to no one, to everyone. "I did what you asked. I raised them. I kept going. I don't think I have anything left to keep going with."
He closes his eyes.
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When he opens them again, the light is different. Soft, gold, endless, nothing like Bangkok at midnight.
Thee is standing a few feet away, exactly as Peach remembers him , the same steady eyes, the same small, private smile he only ever wore for Peach.
"You waited," Peach breathes.
"Of course I did." Thee crosses the distance between them in three steps and pulls him in, and Peach breaks against him, sobbing, twenty years of grief finally, finally let go.
"I missed you P'Kian," Peach chokes out. "I missed you so much."
"I know." Thee holds him tighter. "I'm sorry it took so long."
In the distance, two more figures are walking toward them across the gold-lit field , one broad-shouldered and unhurried, the other smaller, quicker, already laughing at something the first one said. Rome and Mok, hand in hand, exactly the way they should have had the chance to be for so much longer than they were given.
Mok waves, bright as ever, like no time has passed at all.
Peach laughs , wet, disbelieving, achingly happy , and holds on to Thee, and waits for the rest of his family to finally come home.