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Hi, as promised my june long ass one shot is here with Anthony and pen again couldn't resist. 

Hope you enjoy! PART 1

This story is loosely inspired by Greek mythology and takes significant creative liberties with the gods, their domains, and various myths. Familiar names and concepts may appear, but this is very much a Bridgerton fantasy AU rather than a faithful retelling.

As always, thank you for reading. I hope you enjoy this tale of meddling gods, one very stubborn mortal, and an arrow that revealed more truth than anyone intended

~The Arrow Intended for Truth~

The problem with covering for one's younger brother, Anthony Bridgerton reflected as he surveyed Lady Danbury's garden party with barely concealed irritation, was that said brother's duties inevitably became one's own burden to bear.

Colin was somewhere in Greece. Or perhaps Turkey. The last letter had been characteristically vague, full of poetic descriptions of sunsets and local cuisine and absolutely nothing useful about when he might return to England and resume his responsibilities. Which left Anthony, eldest son and most reluctant participant in the social season, to manage the family's matchmaking obligations.

"Lord Bridgerton." Lady Danbury's voice cut through his thoughts like a blade through silk. "How delightful to see you gracing us with your presence. I had begun to think you'd forgotten how to attend afternoon entertainments."

Anthony turned and offered his most diplomatic smile. Lady Danbury was one of the few mortals in London society whose sharp wit he genuinely respected, even when it was directed at him. "Lady Danbury. Your garden looks magnificent, as always."

"Flattery." She tapped her cane against the cut-together lawn. "You're here because your mother insisted, and because Colin has abandoned his post to go gallivanting across the Mediterranean."

There was no point in denying it. "My brother has always had a romantic view of travel."

"Your brother has always had a romantic view of avoiding responsibility." Lady Danbury's eyes gleamed with amusement. "But you, Lord Bridgerton, have never been able to escape duty, have you?"

The observation struck closer to truth than she could possibly know. Anthony had been managing duty for far longer than anyone at this garden party could imagine. Centuries longer, in fact, though that particular detail was not something he advertised to London society.

Being immortal had certain advantages. It also had considerable drawbacks, chief among them the necessity of maintaining elaborate pretenses about one's age, origins, and the rather inconvenient fact that one did not actually age. The Bridgerton family had perfected the art of strategic absence and carefully timed "deaths" followed by the introduction of conveniently similar-looking heirs. It was exhausting.

"Duty," Anthony said carefully, "is something I take seriously."

"Too seriously, some might say." Lady Danbury gestured toward the lawn where various activities had been arranged for the guests' entertainment. "Which is why I've set up archery. You look like you need to shoot something."

Anthony followed her gaze to where several targets had been positioned at the far end of the garden. A few young gentlemen were already testing their aim, showing off for clusters of young ladies who watched with varying degrees of interest.

"Archery," he repeated.

"Unless you'd prefer the poetry reading." Lady Danbury's expression suggested she knew exactly how he'd respond to that alternative. "Lord Fife is preparing to recite his latest composition. Something about daffodils and the eternal nature of spring."

Anthony was already walking toward the archery range.

Behind him, he heard Lady Danbury's satisfied chuckle. The woman was diabolical. She was also correct that he needed to do something other than stand around making stilted conversation about the weather and the season's prospects.

The archery equipment was well-maintained, he noted with approval. Good English longbows, properly strung, with straight arrows fletched in grey goose feathers. Anthony selected a bow and tested its draw weight. Adequate. Not what he was accustomed to, but adequate for an afternoon entertainment.

"Lord Bridgerton!" A young gentleman Anthony vaguely recognized as someone's third son hurried over. "Are you joining us? I must warn you, Petersham has been boasting about his aim all afternoon."

"Has he." Anthony knocked an arrow and sighted down the range. The target was perhaps sixty yards distant. An easy shot, even with an unfamiliar bow.

"Hit the center three times in a row," the young man continued. "The ladies were quite impressed."

Anthony released his first arrow. It struck the outer ring of the target, a respectable shot but nothing remarkable. He frowned. His aim was usually better than that.

"Bad luck," his companion offered. "The wind perhaps."

There was no wind. The afternoon was perfectly still, warm with the promise of summer, the air heavy with the scent of roses and freshly cut grass. Anthony nocked another arrow, adjusted his stance, and tried again.

This shot went wide entirely, missing the target and burying itself in the grass beyond.

"Oh dear," the young gentleman said.

Anthony stared at the distant patch of grass where his arrow had landed. That should not have happened. He had been shooting arrows since before this boy's great-great-great-grandfather was born. He did not miss targets at sixty yards.

"Perhaps you're out of practice," someone suggested helpfully.

Anthony ignored them. He selected another arrow, this one examining it more carefully. The shaft was straight, the fletching intact, the point properly secured. Nothing wrong with the equipment. Which meant the problem was with him.

Unacceptable.

He raised the bow again, drew back the string, focused every bit of his considerable concentration on the center of that target. He could feel the familiar tension in his shoulders, the steady rhythm of his breathing, the perfect moment of stillness before release.

He loosed the arrow.

For one brief, satisfying moment, he watched it fly true. Straight toward the target, exactly as intended. Then, impossibly, the arrow seemed to shudder in mid-flight. It curved, twisted, and came hurtling back toward him.

Anthony had approximately half a second to register the absolute absurdity of an arrow reversing direction before it struck him directly in the chest.

There was no pain. That was the first strange thing. The second strange thing was that the arrow didn't actually pierce his skin. It simply touched his chest, directly over his heart, and dissolved into golden light that sank into him like water into parched earth.

The third strange thing was that nobody else seemed to have noticed.

"Bad luck again," the young gentleman beside him said cheerfully. "Shall I retrieve your arrows?"

Anthony couldn't speak. His chest felt warm, then hot, then burning. Not painful, but intense, as though someone had lit a fire beneath his ribs. His vision blurred at the edges. The garden party sounds faded to a distant murmur.

And then he saw her.

She was standing near the rose bushes, partially hidden by a trellis covered in climbing flowers. A woman in a yellow dress that should have been unflattering but somehow wasn't. She was speaking to someone, her hands moving expressively as she talked, and even from this distance Anthony could see she was smiling.

He didn't know her. He was certain he didn't know her. And yet the moment his eyes found her, something in his chest clenched with recognition so fierce it nearly drove him to his knees.

The burning sensation intensified. His vision swam. And suddenly he was somewhere else, seeing something else.

A hat flying through the air. Ridiculous thing, knitted in shades of orange and pink that clashed spectacularly. Blue sky above. A horse galloping past. And laughter, bright and unrestrained, the kind of laughter that suggested its owner had never learned to be self-conscious about joy.

Then he was back in Lady Danbury's garden, staring at the woman in yellow, his heart hammering against his ribs like it was trying to escape his chest.

"Lord Bridgerton? Are you quite well?"

Anthony forced himself to focus on the young gentleman beside him. "Fine. I'm fine."

He was not fine. He was the opposite of fine. Something had just happened, something impossible, and he needed to leave immediately before anyone noticed that the eldest Bridgerton son was having what could only be described as a crisis in the middle of a garden party.

"I should..." Anthony gestured vaguely toward the house. "Excuse me."

He walked away from the archery range with as much dignity as he could muster, which was considerably less than usual given that his hands were shaking and his chest still felt like it contained a small sun. He made it approximately twenty feet before Benedict appeared at his elbow.

"Brother." Benedict's tone was far too amused for Anthony's current state of mind. "You look unwell. Should I fetch Mother?"

"No." Anthony kept walking. "I'm perfectly fine."

"You just missed three shots in a row and then fled the archery range like it was on fire." Benedict matched his pace easily. "That is not the behavior of someone who is perfectly fine."

Anthony stopped walking and turned to face his brother. Benedict was grinning, which meant he'd witnessed the entire debacle and was preparing to make Anthony's life miserable about it. Under normal circumstances, Anthony would have had a cutting remark ready. Under current circumstances, he could barely string two thoughts together.

"I need you to tell me something," Anthony said quietly. "And I need you to be honest."

Benedict's grin faded slightly. "Of course."

"Did you see anything strange just now? During the archery?"

"Strange how?"

"Did you see..." Anthony paused, trying to find words for something that made no sense. "Did you see my arrow come back?"

Benedict frowned. "Come back?"

"The third shot. Did you see where it went?"

"Into the grass, I assumed. You missed the target entirely." Benedict studied his face with growing concern. "Anthony, what's wrong?"

What was wrong was that Anthony had just been struck by one of his own brother's arrows. What was wrong was that Colin, in his capacity as a minor god of matchmaking and romantic mischief, had apparently left one of his enchanted arrows lying around where anyone could pick it up. What was wrong was that Anthony could still feel the magic burning in his chest, and he knew exactly what it meant.

He'd been hit by a love arrow.

Him. Anthony Bridgerton, who had spent centuries carefully avoiding romantic entanglements precisely because he knew how they ended. Who had watched his Goddess mother fall in love with his mortal father, for the time being became a mortal herself, and his father was too late to come into immortality to be with her from his timely human death. Anthony had sworn he would never be that foolish, never let emotion override sense, never allow himself to be vulnerable in that particular way.

And now he'd been struck by a love arrow, and somewhere in this garden was the woman it had bound him to.

The woman in the yellow dress.

"I need to go," Anthony said abruptly.

"Go where?"

"Home. Away. Anywhere but here."

Benedict caught his arm. "You're not making sense. What happened?"

Anthony looked at his brother, at Benedict's concerned expression, and felt a wave of something that might have been panic if he allowed himself to panic, which he did not. He was Anthony Bridgerton. He did not panic. He solved problems.

This was simply a problem that needed solving.

"I'm fine," he said again, more firmly this time. "I just need some air."

"You're standing in a garden. There's nothing but air."

"Different air. Air that isn't..." Anthony gestured helplessly at the garden party, at the clusters of people laughing and talking, at the woman in yellow who was still by the roses, still smiling, still completely unaware that she'd just become the center of his entire world.

That was the worst part. She didn't know. She was simply standing there, existing, while Anthony's carefully constructed life crumbled around him.

"I'm going home," he announced. "Tell Mother I had urgent business."

"What urgent business?"

"The urgent business of not being here."

Benedict opened his mouth to argue, then seemed to think better of it. "Fine. But you're going to explain this later."

"There's nothing to explain."

"Anthony."

"I missed some shots at archery. It's not a tragedy." Anthony started walking again, faster this time, putting distance between himself and the rose bushes and the woman in yellow. "I'm simply not in the mood for socializing."

"You're never in the mood for socializing."

"Then this should not surprise you."

He made it to the edge of the garden before he made the mistake of looking back. Just one glance, just to confirm that he'd imagined the entire thing, that the burning in his chest was indigestion and the vision was a trick of the light and everything was perfectly normal.

She was laughing at something her companion had said. Her whole face transformed with it, bright and unguarded, and Anthony felt the burning sensation flare so intensely he had to stop walking.

This was a disaster.

This was a catastrophe.

This was, he realized with growing horror, exactly what Colin had been dealing with for centuries. The arrows, the magic, the irresistible pull toward another person. Except Colin enjoyed it. Colin thought love was beautiful and romantic and worth all the chaos it caused.

Anthony thought love was terrifying.

He thought love was the thing that made his father wait too long for immortality. His human death fatal from just a bee sting. He thought love was the reason his mother still wore black some days, decades after Edmund's passing, and would live forever with that loss.

He thought love was the worst thing that could happen to someone who'd already lived too long and seen too much and knew exactly how every story ended.

And now, apparently, love had happened to him anyway.

"Wonderful," Anthony muttered to himself as he finally escaped Lady Danbury's garden and headed for his horse. "Absolutely wonderful."

The burning in his chest had settled into a steady ache, warm and insistent, like a compass pointing him back toward the garden. Back toward her. He could feel it even now, the pull, the need to turn around and go back and find out who she was.

He kept walking.

He would not go back. He would not give in to whatever magic Colin's arrow had inflicted on him. He would go home, he would research counter-curses, and he would fix this before it became a problem.

Before he did something foolish.

Before he became his father.

Anthony mounted his horse and rode away from Lady Danbury's estate without looking back again. But the image of the woman in yellow stayed with him, burned into his mind as clearly as the memory of that ridiculous flying hat.

And the ache in his chest did not fade.

XAPX

The problem with curses, Anthony discovered over the following days, was that they did not respond to logic or research or any of the usual methods one employed to solve problems.

He spent the first night after Lady Danbury's garden party in his study, surrounded by books on magical afflictions. Greek texts, Roman treatises, even some questionable volumes from the Far East that Benedict had collected during his travels. Nothing mentioned arrows that reversed direction. Nothing described the specific burning sensation in his chest or the way his thoughts kept circling back to yellow dresses and hidden smiles.

By the second day, he'd moved on to more direct research. Which was how he found himself lurking behind a potted palm at Lady Cowper's afternoon tea, watching the woman in question converse with an elderly matron about the weather.

"This is absurd," he muttered to himself.

The potted palm did not respond, which was probably for the best.

The woman (he still didn't know her name, which was its own source of frustration) was wearing green today. A soft sage color that should have been unremarkable but somehow made her eyes look brighter. She was listening to the elderly matron with what appeared to be genuine interest, nodding at appropriate intervals, asking questions that made the older woman's face light up with pleasure.

Anthony watched her smile at something the matron said, and the ache in his chest intensified.

He needed information. Facts. A name would be an excellent starting point.

"Lord Bridgerton." Lady Cowper appeared at his elbow with the predatory smile of a hostess who'd spotted an eligible bachelor attempting to hide. "How delightful to see you. I wasn't aware you'd accepted my invitation."

"I was in the neighborhood," Anthony lied smoothly.

"Behind my palm tree?"

"Admiring your... botanical arrangements."

Lady Cowper's expression suggested she did not believe him for a moment, but years of social training prevented her from saying so directly. "How kind. You must allow me to introduce you to some of our guests. There are several young ladies who would be delighted to make your acquaintance."

"Actually," Anthony said, seizing the opportunity, "I was hoping you might tell me about that woman there. The one in green, speaking with Mrs. Harrington."

Lady Cowper followed his gaze, and something flickered across her face. Surprise, perhaps, or calculation. "Miss Featherington? An unusual choice, Lord Bridgerton."

"Miss Featherington," Anthony repeated, committing the name to memory. The ache in his chest seemed to pulse in recognition. "I don't believe we've been introduced."

"No, I imagine you haven't been." Lady Cowper's tone had gone carefully neutral. "Penelope Featherington. The youngest Featherington daughter. She's been out for... oh, it must be nine seasons now."

Nine seasons. Anthony did the mathematics quickly. That would make her approximately twenty-seven years old. Well past the age when most young women either married or resigned themselves to spinsterhood.

"She's unmarried?" he asked, trying to sound merely curious rather than intensely, irrationally interested.

"Quite unmarried. No prospects, I'm afraid. Though her sister Phillipa has been very kind, offering her a home in the country." Lady Cowper leaned closer, lowering her voice. "Between you and me, Lord Bridgerton, I believe this is Miss Featherington's final season. She's made no secret of her intention to leave London society."

The information should not have bothered him. It was simply a fact, no different from learning someone's age or family connections. And yet Anthony felt something twist uncomfortably in his chest at the thought of Penelope Featherington leaving London.

Leaving where he could see her.

"I see," he managed.

"If you're looking for an introduction, I'm happy to facilitate," Lady Cowper offered, though her tone suggested she thought it would be a waste of his time. "Though I must warn you, Miss Featherington is not... that is, she's a perfectly pleasant girl, but she's not the sort who typically attracts attention from gentlemen of your standing."

Anthony looked across the room at Penelope Featherington, who was now laughing at something Mrs. Harrington had said. Her whole face transformed with it, open and genuine, and he felt the now-familiar burning sensation flare in his chest.

"No introduction necessary," he said abruptly. "Thank you, Lady Cowper."

He left before she could respond, before he could do something foolish like march across the room and demand to know why Penelope Featherington was planning to leave London and whether she'd considered that some people might object to that plan.

Some people who had been cursed by rogue arrows and couldn't stop thinking about her.

The investigation continued.

Anthony told himself he was simply gathering information. Understanding the curse required understanding its target. It was logical. Methodical. Not at all obsessive.

He learned that Penelope Featherington lived with her mother in a modest townhouse in a respectable but not fashionable part of London. That she had two older sisters, both married. That she was often seen visiting her sister Phillipa, who had married Lord Finch and produced an alarming number of children in rapid succession.

He learned that she attended social events regularly but rarely danced. That she had a habit of positioning herself near walls or in corners where she could observe without being observed. That she had a small circle of friends but seemed content with her own company.

He learned all of this without speaking to her directly, which was its own form of torture.

By the end of the first week, Anthony had compiled a mental catalog of Penelope Featherington's habits and preferences. She preferred tea to lemonade. She had a fondness for lemon cakes but would only take one, even when offered more. She was kind to servants, remembering their names and asking after their families. She read voraciously, often carrying a book in her reticule.

By the end of the second week, he'd progressed to following her on her daily walks.

This was, he acknowledged, crossing a line from information gathering into something that could reasonably be called stalking. But the alternative was giving in to the curse entirely and actually approaching her, and he wasn't ready for that. Not yet. Not until he understood what was happening to him.

It was during one of these walks that he discovered she visited the Finch household three times a week.

Anthony watched from across the street as Penelope was admitted to the townhouse. He waited, feeling ridiculous, until she emerged two hours later with a small child clinging to each hand. A little girl of perhaps six and a boy who couldn't be more than four.

They walked to the park.

Anthony followed at a discreet distance, which was becoming easier with practice. He'd gotten quite good at lurking behind trees and pretending to read newspapers while actually watching Penelope Featherington live her life.

In the park, she settled on a bench and pulled a book from her bag. Not for herself, he realized, but for the children. She read to them, doing different voices for different characters, making the little girl giggle and the boy lean forward with rapt attention.

Anthony found himself leaning forward too, straining to hear the story. Something about a princess and a dragon, though Penelope's version seemed to involve the princess befriending the dragon rather than slaying it.

"And so Princess Margaret and the dragon became the best of friends," Penelope read, her voice warm with affection. "And anyone who tried to harm the kingdom had to answer to both of them."

"I want a dragon friend," the little girl announced.

"Perhaps you'll find one someday," Penelope said seriously, as though dragon friendship was a perfectly reasonable aspiration. "But until then, you have your brother, and that's almost as good."

The boy looked skeptical about this comparison, but he didn't argue.

Anthony watched Penelope close the book and produce a small bag of sweets from her reticule, distributing them with careful fairness. She wiped the little girl's sticky fingers with a handkerchief. She listened patiently while the boy explained something complicated about soldiers and battles. She was gentle and attentive and completely unselfconscious in her affection for these children.

Something in Anthony's chest clenched painfully.

He thought of his own siblings. Of Daphne and Eloise and Francesca and Hyacinth when they were small. Of the way he'd read to them, played with them, protected them. Of the weight of responsibility he'd carried as the eldest, the one who had to be strong and steady and reliable.

Penelope Featherington protected people too, he realized. Just differently. Quietly. Without anyone noticing or giving her credit for it.

The ache in his chest had become a constant companion, but in that moment, watching her with the Finch children, it transformed into something else. Something that felt less like a curse and more like recognition.

He left the park before she could notice him, but the image stayed with him. Penelope Featherington, patient and kind, giving her time and attention to children who weren't even hers. Building a life of purpose and meaning outside the narrow confines of what society expected from unmarried women.

The third week of his investigation brought an unexpected discovery.

Anthony had taken to reading the scandal sheets, which was something he'd never done before and would deny if anyone asked. But Penelope seemed to find them amusing, often hiding a smile behind her hand when other ladies discussed the latest edition of Lady Whistledown's Society Papers.

Lady Whistledown was a mystery that had plagued London society for years. No one knew her identity. She wrote with wit and insight about the ton's activities, exposing hypocrisies and celebrating genuine affection in equal measure. She was beloved and feared in equal parts.

Anthony was reading the latest edition over breakfast when he noticed something odd.

The writing style was familiar.

He couldn't place it at first. But there was something about the rhythm of the sentences, the particular way certain phrases were constructed, that nagged at him. He'd read something similar recently. Something that had made him smile despite himself.

It took him three days to make the connection.

He was lurking in the lending library (his new favorite location for accidental encounters that were absolutely not planned) when he saw Penelope return a book. The librarian greeted her warmly, and they chatted for a moment about the volume.

"Your review was spot on, Miss Featherington," the librarian said. "I recommended it to three other patrons based on your description."

"I'm so glad," Penelope replied. "The author has such a clever way with dialogue. Very natural, not at all stilted like some writers."

Anthony waited until she'd left before approaching the librarian. "Excuse me. Did Miss Featherington write a review?"

"Oh yes, she often does. Leaves them here for other readers." The librarian gestured to a small box near the desk. "Very helpful, her opinions. She has excellent taste."

Anthony opened the box and found several cards in neat handwriting. He recognized it immediately. The same hand that addressed the Featherington correspondence he'd seen delivered to their townhouse.

He read one of the reviews. Then another. The voice was unmistakable once you knew to listen for it. Clever, observant, with a particular dry humor that made even criticism feel affectionate.

The same voice as Lady Whistledown.

"Good God," Anthony muttered.

Penelope Featherington was Lady Whistledown.

He should have been scandalized. Should have been concerned about the impropriety, the risk, the sheer audacity of a young unmarried woman writing gossip about the ton under a pseudonym.

Instead, he was impressed.

More than impressed. He was fascinated.

Penelope Featherington had been operating under everyone's noses for years, writing about society with insight and wit, earning income from her work, building independence and security for herself. She'd fooled everyone. Including him, and he was a god who'd lived for centuries and prided himself on his ability to read people.

She was brilliant.

The realization should not have made the ache in his chest intensify, but it did.

Anthony left the library in a daze. He walked without direction, his mind racing. Penelope Featherington wasn't simply a spinster resigned to her fate. She was a woman who'd built an entire secret life, who'd created purpose and meaning and financial independence for herself. She didn't need rescue. She didn't need society's approval.

She didn't need him.

That thought bothered him more than it should have.

By the fourth week, Anthony had to acknowledge that his investigation had become something else entirely. He wasn't gathering information to break a curse anymore. He was learning about Penelope Featherington because he wanted to know her. Because every detail he discovered made him want to know more.

He knew she took her tea with two sugars and a splash of milk. He knew she had a habit of biting her lower lip when she was thinking. He knew she was unfailingly kind to people society overlooked...servants, wallflowers, elderly matrons who'd been forgotten by more fashionable company.

He knew she laughed at things that weren't supposed to be funny, hiding her amusement behind her hand. He knew she had opinions about everything but rarely shared them unless directly asked. He knew she noticed things other people missed, storing away details and observations that later appeared in Lady Whistledown's columns.

He knew she was planning to leave London at the end of the season, and the thought made him irrationally angry.

Anthony was standing outside the Featherington townhouse for perhaps the dozenth time that week when Benedict found him.

"This is pathetic," his brother announced without preamble.

Anthony didn't bother denying it. "How did you find me?"

"You've been disappearing at odd hours for weeks. I followed you." Benedict leaned against the lamppost beside him. "So. Are you going to tell me what's happening, or do I have to guess?"

"There's nothing to tell."

"You're lurking outside a townhouse in an unfashionable neighborhood, staring at windows like a lovesick puppy. That's not nothing."

Anthony glared at him. "I am not lovesick."

"No? What would you call it?"

"Cursed."

Benedict's eyebrows rose. "Cursed."

"Colin's arrow. At Lady Danbury's garden party. It hit me."

For a long moment, Benedict just stared at him. Then he started laughing. Great, gasping laughs that doubled him over and made several passersby turn to stare.

"It's not funny," Anthony said through gritted teeth.

"It's hilarious. You've spent centuries avoiding romantic entanglements, and now you've been hit by a love arrow. The irony is exquisite."

"It's not love. It's a curse."

"Anthony." Benedict's laughter faded into something more serious. "Those arrows don't create feelings. They reveal them. You know that."

"That's not possible. I'd never even seen her before that day."

"Her?" Benedict looked at the townhouse with new interest. "Who lives here?"

Anthony shouldn't answer. Shouldn't give Benedict more ammunition for mockery. But the words came out anyway. "Penelope Featherington."

"The Featherington girl? The one who's been out for years?"

"Nine seasons," Anthony said, and hated that he knew that. Hated that he knew everything about her. Hated that he couldn't stop learning more.

Benedict studied his face for a long moment. "You're in trouble, brother."

"I'm aware."

"No, I don't think you are." Benedict's voice had gone gentle, which was somehow worse than the mockery. "You're not cursed, Anthony. You're in love."

"That's the same thing."

"It's really not."

Anthony looked up at the townhouse windows, at the warm light glowing behind curtains. Penelope was in there somewhere, probably reading or writing her next Whistledown column or doing any of the hundred small things that made up her life. A life she'd built for herself. A life that didn't include him.

"She's leaving London," he said quietly. "At the end of the season. She's going to live with her sister in the country."

"Then you should probably talk to her before she goes."

"And say what? That I've been following her for weeks? That I know everything about her daily routine? That I can't stop thinking about her even though we've never had a single conversation?"

"You could start with hello."

Anthony shook his head. "She doesn't need me, Benedict. She has plans. A life. She's not waiting for some man to rescue her from spinsterhood."

"Maybe she doesn't need rescuing," Benedict said. "Maybe she just needs someone who sees her."

The words hit harder than they should have. Because that was exactly what Anthony had been doing for weeks. Seeing Penelope Featherington. Really seeing her, in a way he suspected most people didn't.

And the more he saw, the more he wanted to see.

"This is a disaster," Anthony muttered.

"Yes," Benedict agreed cheerfully. "But at least it's an interesting disaster."

Anthony didn't respond. He was too busy watching a shadow move across one of the upstairs windows, wondering if it was her, wondering what she was doing, wondering if she ever looked out at the street and thought about the future she was building.

A future that didn't include him.

The ache in his chest had become so familiar he barely noticed it anymore. It was simply part of him now, this constant awareness of Penelope Featherington. This need to know where she was, what she was doing, whether she was happy.

Benedict was right. He was in trouble.

He was in love.

And he had absolutely no idea what to do about it.

XOX

The problem with having a younger brother who fancied himself an expert on human nature, Anthony discovered, was that said brother would not let the matter rest.

"You cannot simply lurk outside her house forever," Benedict announced over breakfast three days later. "Eventually someone will notice and have you arrested."

Anthony did not look up from his newspaper. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Anthony. You've been following Miss Featherington around London like a lost puppy for a month. It's time to actually speak to her."

"I've spoken to her."

"Saying 'good afternoon' while she walks past you in the park does not count as conversation."

Anthony finally lowered his newspaper. "What would you have me do? March up to her and announce that I've been struck by a love arrow and now I'm obsessed with her?"

"That would certainly be memorable," Benedict said thoughtfully. "Though perhaps start with something more conventional. Call on her. Bring flowers. Use your words like a normal person."

"I am not normal."

"No, you're a god having a crisis about a mortal woman. But she doesn't know that, so you'll have to court her the traditional way." Benedict grinned. "Unless you'd prefer to continue your current strategy of hiding behind shrubbery and hoping she spontaneously falls in love with you."

Anthony glared at him. But the irritating truth was that Benedict had a point. Weeks of observation had taught him everything about Penelope Featherington except the one thing that mattered: whether she might possibly feel even a fraction of what he felt.

And there was only one way to find that out.

"Fine," Anthony said. "I'll call on her."

"Excellent. Try not to be terrifying."

"I am not terrifying."

Benedict's expression suggested otherwise, but he wisely said nothing.

Anthony arrived at the Featherington townhouse the following afternoon armed with flowers, rehearsed compliments, and what he hoped was an appropriately charming smile. He'd spent the morning preparing, which was ridiculous. He'd negotiated with gods and monsters. He'd lived for centuries. He could certainly manage one conversation with one woman.

The fact that his hands were shaking slightly as he knocked on the door was irrelevant.

A maid answered and showed him to the drawing room, where Penelope sat with her mother. Lady Featherington's eyes widened with obvious surprise at seeing a viscount in her drawing room, but she recovered quickly.

"Lord Bridgerton! What an unexpected pleasure."

"Lady Featherington." Anthony bowed. "Miss Featherington. I hope I'm not intruding."

Penelope looked up from her book, and for a moment their eyes met. Anthony felt the now-familiar burning sensation in his chest intensify. She looked surprised, but not displeased. That had to be a good sign.

"Not at all," Lady Featherington said, though her tone suggested she was already calculating the social implications of a viscount calling on her spinster daughter. "Please, sit. Penelope, put that book away."

"It's quite all right," Anthony said quickly. "I don't wish to interrupt Miss Featherington's reading."

"You're not interrupting," Penelope said, closing the book. Her voice was softer than he'd expected, but there was something in her eyes that suggested she was assessing him. "Though I confess I'm surprised to see you here, Lord Bridgerton. I wasn't aware we were acquainted."

"We've been at several of the same events this season," Anthony said, which was true, even if he'd spent those events watching her from across rooms rather than actually speaking to her. "I realized I'd been remiss in not making a proper introduction."

He held out the flowers. "For you, Miss Featherington."

Penelope took them, and Anthony felt absurdly pleased when her fingers brushed his. Then she looked down at the bouquet and laughed...actually laughed...a bright, genuine sound that made her mother stiffen.

"Roses," she said, holding them at arm's length as though examining a particularly amusing specimen. "How extraordinarily predictable. Did your footman select these, or did you consult a manual titled 'Flowers for Impressing Spinsters'?"

Lady Featherington made a strangled noise. "Penelope!"

"What? They're lovely roses, truly. Very red. Very... rose-like." Penelope set them on the side table with deliberate casualness. "Though I do wonder if you've ever considered that perhaps not every woman in England dreams of receiving the same arrangement that appears in every drawing room from Mayfair to Cheapside."

Anthony found himself completely wrong-footed. "I thought..."

"You thought you'd employ the standard courtship protocol. Flowers, compliments, meaningful glances." Penelope tilted her head, studying him with frank amusement. "Tell me, Lord Bridgerton, do you practice that expression in the mirror, or does it come naturally after centuries of practice?"

"Penelope!" her mother gasped.

"I'm being honest, Mother. Surely that's preferable to pretending to be delighted by a gesture that required no actual thought whatsoever." She turned back to Anthony, her eyes bright with challenge. "So let me ask you directly: are you here because you've developed a genuine interest in my company, or are you here because you've decided I'm a suitable project for your charitable impulses?"

Anthony opened his mouth. Closed it. Opened it again.

"That's what I thought," Penelope said, not unkindly. "You haven't the faintest idea. You saw a spinster at a garden party and decided it would be noble to call on her. How very magnanimous."

"That's not..." Anthony began.

"Not what? Not true?" Penelope leaned back in her chair, perfectly composed. "Then tell me what you know about me, Lord Bridgerton. Not what you've observed from across ballrooms, but what you actually know."

Anthony's jaw tightened. "I know you read voraciously. I know you're kind to children. I know you like gardens."

"And yet you brought me roses," Penelope said. "The flowers of romance and grand gestures. The flowers that say 'I wish to court you,' not 'I've noticed you're an interesting person.' If you'd actually been paying attention, you'd know I prefer wildflowers. Anything that grows without requiring a gardener's careful cultivation."

Lady Featherington looked as though she might faint.

"I'll remember that," Anthony said quietly, and something in his voice made Penelope pause. "For next time."

"Next time?" Lady Featherington's voice had gone slightly shrill with hope.

Anthony realized his mistake too late. He'd implied there would be a next time, which suggested intentions, which would now give Lady Featherington expectations. But when he looked at Penelope, she was watching him with something that might have been amusement.

"If Miss Featherington would permit it," he said carefully.

"I suppose that depends on what you wish to discuss," Penelope said. "You mentioned we've been at the same events. Were you hoping to compare notes on the season's entertainments? Because I should warn you, I have rather strong opinions about Lord Fife's poetry."

Anthony felt himself smile despite his nervousness. "I heard him recite at Lady Danbury's garden party. Something about daffodils."

"And the eternal nature of spring," Penelope finished. "Which would have been more convincing if he hadn't rhymed 'flower' with 'power' three times in the same stanza."

"I counted four times."

"The fourth instance was 'bower,' which is technically different."

"Barely."

Penelope's lips twitched. "You were counting Lord Fife's rhymes?"

"I was very bored."

"That," Penelope said, "is the most honest thing anyone has said to me all season."

Lady Featherington looked between them with visible confusion, but Anthony felt something in his chest ease. This was better. This was actual conversation, not the stilted formality he'd been dreading.

"I find most social events rather tedious," he admitted. "Present company excluded, of course."

"Of course," Penelope echoed, and there was definitely amusement in her eyes now. "That was very smoothly done, Lord Bridgerton. Did you rehearse that?"

Anthony felt heat creep up his neck. "I... what?"

"The compliment. 'Present company excluded.' It's a classic deflection. Insult the general company while implying the specific person is special." Penelope tilted her head. "It's effective, I suppose, but rather transparent once you recognize the pattern."

Lady Featherington made a strangled sound.

Anthony stared at Penelope Featherington, who had just called out his carefully rehearsed compliment as rehearsed, and felt something that was half mortification and half admiration. She was right. He had rehearsed it. And she'd seen through him immediately.

"You're correct," he said. "That was rehearsed. Would you prefer I be more direct?"

"I would prefer you be honest."

"Very well. I think most social events are tedious because they're full of people saying things they don't mean to people who don't care. But I've noticed that you actually listen when people speak to you. You remember details. You ask questions that suggest you're genuinely interested rather than simply being polite." Anthony met her eyes. "That's rare. And I find it fascinating."

Penelope blinked. For a moment she looked genuinely surprised, and Anthony felt a small surge of satisfaction. He'd caught her off guard.

"That," she said slowly, "was better."

"I'm glad you approve."

"I didn't say I approved. I said it was better." But she was smiling now, just slightly, and Anthony felt the ache in his chest transform into something warmer.

Lady Featherington cleared her throat. "Perhaps you'd like some tea, Lord Bridgerton?"

"That would be lovely, thank you."

The tea arrived, and the conversation continued. Anthony asked about Penelope's reading, and she told him about the novel she'd been absorbed in when he arrived. He asked if she enjoyed the lending library, and she admitted she visited three times a week. He mentioned seeing her in the park, and she said she walked there regularly with her sister's children.

"You're close with your sister?" Anthony asked.

"Extremely close. Phillipa is the only person in my family who's ever treated me as though my thoughts and opinions matter." Penelope's voice was firm, unapologetic. "She's offered me a position as governess and companion to her children. I'll have my own income, my own home, and meaningful work. I'm leaving London after this season."

Anthony's hand tightened on his teacup. "You're leaving London?"

"I am. Deliberately and with great satisfaction." Penelope met his eyes directly. "There's nothing for me here. London society exists to marry off women or dismiss them. I've chosen the third option...to build a life of my own design. Phillipa's children need education and care. I'm excellent at both. It's a far better use of my time than sitting in drawing rooms waiting for a man to notice me."

"The children are fortunate to have you," he said instead.

Penelope looked at him with something that might have been surprising. "You think so?"

"I know so. I've seen you with them in the park. You're patient and kind, and you make them laugh. That's a gift."

"You've seen me in the park?" Penelope's tone had gone carefully neutral again.

Anthony realized his mistake. He'd revealed too much, admitted to watching her. "I... yes. I walk there sometimes."

"How coincidental."

"Miss Featherington..."

"It's quite all right, Lord Bridgerton." Penelope set down her teacup. "I'm not offended. Merely curious about why a viscount would take such interest in a spinster's daily routine."

The word spinster was delivered without self-pity, but Anthony hated hearing her describe herself that way. As though she'd been discarded, deemed unworthy, when the truth was that everyone else had simply failed to see what was directly in front of them.

"I don't think of you as a spinster," he said.

"No? What do you think of me as?"

Anthony looked at her, at Penelope Featherington with her sharp eyes and sharper wit, and knew he couldn't tell her the truth. That he thought of her constantly. That she'd become the center of his world without even trying. That he was terrified and fascinated in equal measure.

"I think of you as someone I'd like to know better," he said finally.

Penelope studied his face for a long moment. "That was honest."

"You said you preferred honesty."

"I did." She smiled, and it was a real smile this time, not the polite social smile she'd been wearing earlier. "Very well, Lord Bridgerton. You may call again, if you wish."

"I wish," Anthony said, and meant it with an intensity that should have alarmed him.

Lady Featherington looked like she might faint from joy.

XOX

Anthony called again two days later, this time with wildflowers. Penelope accepted them with obvious pleasure, which made the effort of finding them worthwhile. They talked about books and music and the absurdity of certain social conventions. Penelope made him laugh with her observations about the ton, and Anthony found himself relaxing in a way he rarely did around other people.

He called again three days after that. And then again. Each visit felt easier than the last, the conversation flowing more naturally. Penelope challenged him constantly, questioned his assumptions, called him out when he was being pompous. It was exhilarating.

It was also, Anthony realized after the fifth visit, not enough.

He wanted more than drawing room conversations with Lady Featherington hovering nearby. He wanted to see Penelope in other contexts, to understand more of her life. So when he encountered her in the park one afternoon, he seized the opportunity.

"Miss Featherington. What a pleasant surprise."

Penelope looked up from where she was sitting on a bench, a book in her lap. "Lord Bridgerton. How extraordinary. Here you are. Again. In the exact park where I mentioned I walk. What are the odds?"

"I'm taking a walk. In a public park. That's perfectly reasonable."

"Is it?" Penelope closed her book with deliberate slowness. "Because I've been coming to this park for three years, and I've never seen you once. And now, suddenly, you're here every afternoon at precisely the time I arrive. That's not a coincidence, my lord. That's reconnaissance."

"I enjoy the park."

"You enjoy following me." Penelope's eyes glinted with amusement. "Which is either flattering or deeply concerning, and I haven't yet decided which. Tell me...did you ask my sister where I walk, or did you simply lurk about until you spotted me?"

Anthony felt heat creep up his neck. "I may have asked a few questions."

"You may have?" Penelope laughed, a bright, delighted sound. "You absolutely did. You interrogated my family about my habits like some sort of lovesick fool. How mortifying for you."

"I'm not..."

"A lovesick fool? You're standing in front of me in a park you've never visited before, having clearly orchestrated this 'chance' encounter, and you're trying to convince me you're not obsessed. That's either the most transparent lie I've ever heard, or you genuinely believe I'm stupid enough to fall for it."

"I don't think you're stupid."

"No, you think I'm so flattered by your attention that I won't notice you've been stalking me like some sort of romantic hero in a penny dreadful." Penelope tilted her head, studying him with frank amusement. "Here's the thing, Lord Bridgerton...I'm twenty-seven years old. I've spent my entire life watching men perform courtship like it's a theatrical production. And you're performing it very badly. You're too intense. Too focused. Too obviously desperate."

"I'm not desperate."

"You absolutely are. You're standing here, trying to convince me that you just happened to be in this exact park at this exact time, when we both know you've been tracking my movements like I'm a fox and you're the hunt." She stood, brushing off her skirts. "So here's what's going to happen. You're going to stop pretending this is coincidence. You're going to stop following me around London like some sort of lovesick shadow. And you're going to tell me the truth about why you're so interested in a twenty-seven-year-old spinster who has absolutely nothing to offer you."

"That's not true."

"Which part? That you've been following me, or that I have nothing to offer?"

"Both. Neither." Anthony ran a hand through his hair in frustration. "I haven't been following you. I've been... I've been trying to understand you."

"By stalking me through London?"

"By spending time near you, yes."

"That's stalking, my lord. That's literally the definition of stalking." But her voice had softened slightly. "Though I suppose it's marginally less creepy than some alternatives. At least you're not hiding in the bushes."

"I would never..."

"Yet. You would never hide in the bushes yet. Give it time." Penelope's lips twitched. "So what is it? What could possibly be so fascinating about me that you've decided to abandon all pretense of subtlety?"

Anthony couldn't help but smile. "You're brilliant."

"I know that."

"You're kind."

"Also aware."

"You're leaving London."

Penelope's expression shifted. "You mentioned it. You're going to live with Phillipa. You're going to teach her children. You're building a life that has nothing to do with marriage or society or any of the things women are supposed to want."

"And my departure interests you because?"

"Because it's extraordinary. Because you're extraordinary. Because most women would accept the first proposal that came along, and you're choosing to walk away from all of it."

Penelope was quiet for a moment. "You're very persistent, Lord Bridgerton."

"I prefer determined."

"Most men would have given up by now. I'm not exactly a prize catch."

Anthony felt a flash of anger at whoever had made her believe that. "Then most men are fools."

"Or perhaps they simply have better options."

"There are no better options."

The words came out more intensely than he'd intended. Penelope stared at him, and Anthony realized he'd revealed too much again. But he couldn't seem to help himself around her. All his careful control, centuries of practiced restraint, seemed to evaporate whenever Penelope Featherington was near.

"That was..." Penelope paused. "That sounded rehearsed again."

"It wasn't. I promise you, that was entirely spontaneous."

"Then you're either very charming or very dangerous."

"Can't I be both?"

Penelope laughed, and the sound made Anthony's chest ache in the best possible way. "I suppose you can. Though I'm not sure which possibility concerns me more."

A horse whinnied nearby, and Anthony turned to see his mount had wandered over from where he'd tied it. The animal was supposed to be secured to a tree, but apparently it had worked itself free. Again.

"Traitor," Anthony muttered as the horse trotted directly past him and went straight to Penelope.

The horse nuzzled Penelope's shoulder, nearly knocking her book from her lap. She laughed and reached up to stroke its nose. "Hello there. Aren't you beautiful?"

"That's my horse," Anthony said, somewhat unnecessarily.

"Is it? How lovely." Penelope continued petting the animal, who was now making contented sounds and leaning into her touch. "What's its name?"

"Odysseus."

"Of course it is." Penelope smiled up at the horse. "Are you on a long journey, Odysseus? Trying to find your way home?"

The horse whickered and pressed closer to her.

Anthony stared at his horse, who had never shown this much affection to anyone, including him. "He doesn't usually like strangers."

"Perhaps I'm not a stranger." Penelope reached into her reticule and produced something wrapped in paper. "Perhaps I've been bringing treats when I see him in the park."

"You've been feeding my horse?"

"He looked hungry."

"He's a horse. He always looks hungry."

Penelope unwrapped the paper to reveal apple slices. Odysseus immediately perked up, taking the offered treat with surprising delicacy. "There's a good boy. Yes, you're very handsome. Much better behaved than your owner."

"I'm standing right here," Anthony said.

"I know. That's why I said it." Penelope fed Odysseus another apple slice. "You should be nicer to him. He's clearly a very sensitive creature."

"He's a horse."

"He's a horse with feelings. Aren't you, darling?" Penelope scratched behind Odysseus's ears, and the animal made a sound that could only be described as blissful.

Anthony felt a completely irrational surge of jealousy toward his own horse. "You've been bribing him."

"I've been making friends with him. There's a difference."

"He's supposed to be loyal to me."

"Perhaps you should try bringing him treats."

"I'm his owner. I don't need to bribe him for loyalty."

Penelope looked up at him, and there was something in her expression that made Anthony's breath catch. "Loyalty that's earned is worth more than loyalty that's demanded, don't you think?"

She wasn't talking about the horse anymore. Anthony knew that with sudden certainty. She was talking about them, about whatever was forming between them, about the fact that he couldn't simply expect her to fall in line with his wishes.

"You're right," he said quietly. "I apologize."

"To me or to Odysseus?"

"Both."

Penelope smiled and fed the horse another apple slice. "Apology accepted. On behalf of both of us."

Anthony sat down on the bench beside her, and Odysseus immediately positioned himself between them, his large head resting on Penelope's shoulder. The horse was clearly smitten. Anthony couldn't blame him.

"He really does like you," Anthony said.

"Animals are good judges of character."

"Is that your way of saying I should trust his judgment?"

"I'm saying you should trust your own judgment." Penelope looked at him, and her expression had gone serious. "Why are you doing this, Lord Bridgerton?"

"Doing what?"

"Calling on me. Seeking me out. Bringing flowers and making conversation." She gestured between them. "This. Why are you doing this?"

Anthony could have deflected. Could have made a joke or offered some light comment that would diffuse the tension. But Penelope had asked for honesty, and he found he wanted to give it to her.

"Because I can't seem to help myself," he said. "Because I think about you constantly. Because every conversation we have makes me want another one. Because you're brilliant and funny and kind, and being near you makes me feel..." He paused, searching for words. "It makes me feel like myself. The self I'd forgotten I could be."

Penelope's eyes had gone wide. "That's..."

"Too much?" Anthony asked. "Too honest?"

"No. It's..." She took a breath. "It's terrifying, actually."

"Terrifying?"

"Because I don't know what you want from me. I don't know what this is." Penelope's voice had gone soft. "I'm leaving London at the end of the season, Lord Bridgerton. I have plans. A life I'm building. And I can't afford to be distracted by someone who's going to disappear the moment something more interesting comes along."

"I'm not going to disappear."

"Everyone disappears eventually."

There was something in her voice, some old hurt, that made Anthony want to find whoever had made her believe that and make them regret it. But that wasn't what she needed right now. What she needed was reassurance. Proof that he was different.

"I'm not everyone," he said. "And I'm not going anywhere."

"You say that now."

"I mean it."

Penelope studied his face for a long moment. "I want to believe you."

"Then believe me."

"It's not that simple."

"Why not?"

"Because I've spent nine seasons watching people make promises they don't keep. Because I've learned not to trust pretty words and grand gestures. Because..." She paused, and when she spoke again, her voice was barely above a whisper. "Because I'm afraid."

Anthony felt something crack open in his chest. "Of me?"

"Of this. Of wanting something I can't have."

"You can have it," Anthony said. "You can have me. If you want me."

"That's the problem," Penelope said. "I'm starting to think I do."

The admission hung between them, fragile and precious. Anthony wanted to reach for her, to pull her close and promise her everything would be all right. But he sensed that would be too much, too fast. Penelope needed time. Space to decide what she wanted.

So instead, he simply sat beside her while Odysseus dozed between them, and they watched the park in comfortable silence.

XOX

The courtship continued, though Anthony had stopped thinking of it as courtship and started thinking of it as simply spending time with Penelope. They fell into a rhythm. He called on her twice a week. They encountered each other in the park with increasing frequency. They attended the same social events and found excuses to talk.

Anthony learned that Penelope adored her sister Phillipa with a fierceness that made his chest ache. That she visited the Finch children every Tuesday and Thursday, reading to them and teaching them letters. That she had strong opinions about literature and wasn't afraid to share them. That she noticed everything and forgot nothing.

He learned that she was kind to people society overlooked. That she remembered servants' names and asked after their families. That she had a gift for making people feel seen and valued. That she gave more of herself than anyone realized.

He watched her with the Finch children one afternoon and saw the way she knelt down to their level, patient and gentle as she helped the youngest sound out words in a primer. The little girl struggled with a particularly difficult word, and Penelope simply waited, offering encouragement without judgment.

"You're doing wonderfully," Penelope said. "Try again. Sound it out slowly."

The girl tried again, and this time got it right. Her face lit up with pride, and Penelope's answering smile was so full of genuine joy that Anthony felt his throat tighten.

This was what she would do in the country. This was the life she was building. Teaching children, being useful, finding purpose outside the narrow confines of what society expected from unmarried women.

It was a good life. A meaningful life.

And Anthony wanted desperately to be part of it.

Penelope, for her part, was learning about him too. She asked questions that no one else thought to ask. About his family, his responsibilities, what he did when he wasn't attending social events. Anthony found himself telling her things he'd never told anyone. About the weight of being the eldest. About the loneliness of always having to be strong. About the fear of failing the people who depended on him.

"That sounds exhausting," Penelope said one afternoon as they walked through the park.

"It's simply what's expected."

"That doesn't make it less exhausting."

Anthony looked at her, at Penelope who understood burden and duty in her own way, and felt something shift in his chest. "No one's ever said that to me before."

"Then no one's been paying attention."

"You pay attention."

"Someone has to." Penelope smiled up at him. "You're very good at appearing invincible, Lord Bridgerton. But I suspect you're not nearly as invincible as you pretend to be."

"Is that your way of saying I'm weak?"

"It's my way of saying you're human." She paused. "Or at least, you act human. Which is close enough."

If only she knew how wrong she was. But Anthony couldn't tell her that. Not yet. Maybe not ever.

"You're very perceptive," he said instead.

"I've had a lot of practice observing people. It's amazing what you notice when no one's paying attention to you."

The casual way she said it made Anthony's chest ache. "People should pay attention to you."

"Why? I'm not particularly interesting."

"That," Anthony said firmly, "is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard."

Penelope laughed. "You haven't heard very many ridiculous things, then."

"I'm serious. You're one of the most interesting people I've ever met."

"Now you're just being kind."

"I'm being honest. You asked me to be honest, remember?"

Penelope's smile faded into something more serious. "I remember."

They walked in silence for a moment, and Anthony found himself acutely aware of how close she was. Close enough that he could smell the faint scent of her perfume, something light and floral. Close enough that their hands occasionally brushed as they walked.

He wanted to take her hand. Wanted to pull her close and kiss her until she understood exactly how interesting he found her. But that would be too much. Too fast. Penelope was skittish, and he couldn't blame her. She'd been overlooked for so long that genuine attention probably felt suspicious.

So he kept his hands to himself and simply enjoyed being near her.

Odysseus, who had been following them at a discreet distance, chose that moment to trot up and nudge Penelope's shoulder. She laughed and reached up to pet him.

"Hello, darling. Did you miss me?"

The horse whickered and pressed closer.

"Traitor," Anthony muttered.

"He's not a traitor. He simply has excellent taste." Penelope produced an apple slice from her reticule. "Don't you, Odysseus?"

"You're carrying apple slices now?"

"I like to be prepared."

"For my horse?"

"For any horse I might encounter." Penelope fed Odysseus the treat. "It's not my fault yours is the most persistent."

"He learned it from me."

Penelope looked at him, and there was something in her eyes that made Anthony's breath catch. "Yes," she said softly. "I suppose he did."

XOX

Six weeks into their courtship, Anthony realized he'd stopped thinking about the curse entirely.

The burning in his chest was still there, but it had transformed into something else. Something that felt less like magic and more like choice. He wanted to be near Penelope. Wanted to hear her laugh, see her smile, listen to her observations about the world. Not because an arrow compelled him, but because she made him happy.

The realization should have been comforting. Instead, it was terrifying.

Because if this wasn't the curse, if this was real, then he was in far more trouble than he'd thought.

He was standing outside the Featherington townhouse again...some habits died hard...when Penelope emerged with a basket over her arm. She saw him and stopped, a smile playing at her lips.

"Lord Bridgerton. Are you lost?"

"No. I was..." Anthony paused. He could lie, make up some excuse about being in the neighborhood. Or he could be honest. "I was hoping to see you."

"Were you planning to knock on the door, or simply stand out here indefinitely?"

"I hadn't decided yet."

Penelope's smile widened. "Well, since you're here, you might as well make yourself useful. I'm taking supplies to the Finch household. You can carry the basket."

It wasn't a request. Anthony found himself taking the basket without argument, falling into step beside her as she started walking.

"What's in here?" he asked. "It's quite heavy."

"Books, mostly. And some sweets for the children. And a new shawl for Phillipa. She's been complaining about the drafts."

"You're very thoughtful."

"I'm practical. Phillipa has been kind to me. The least I can do is ensure she's comfortable."

They walked in companionable silence for a few minutes. Anthony found himself studying Penelope's profile, the way sunlight caught in her hair, the determined set of her jaw. She was beautiful, he realized. Not in the conventional way society valued, but in a way that was uniquely hers. Beautiful in her kindness, her intelligence, her quiet strength.

"You're staring," Penelope said without looking at him.

"I'm admiring."

"That's the same thing."

"Not at all. Staring is rude. Admiring is appreciative."

"And which are you doing?"

"Admiring," Anthony said. "Definitely admiring."

Penelope glanced at him, and there was color in her cheeks. "You're very persistent with your compliments."

"You told me to be honest."

"I'm starting to regret that."

"No, you're not."

Penelope laughed. "No, I'm not."

They arrived at the Finch household, and Anthony watched as Penelope was immediately swarmed by children. Three of them, ranging from perhaps three to seven years old, all talking at once and vying for her attention. She handled them with practiced ease, distributing hugs and sweets in equal measure.

"Aunt Penelope, will you read to us?"

"Aunt Penelope, look what I drew!"

"Aunt Penelope, Thomas said I couldn't have a dragon but you said I could!"

Penelope laughed and knelt down to their level. "One at a time, darlings. Yes, I'll read to you. Your drawing is beautiful, Margaret. And Thomas, we discussed this. Everyone can have a dragon in their imagination."

Anthony stood back and watched, the basket still in his hands, and felt something in his chest expand painfully. This was Penelope in her element. This was the life she'd built for herself, full of love and purpose and meaning.

And he wanted to be part of it so badly it hurt.

Phillipa appeared in the doorway, a baby on her hip. "Penelope! Oh, and Lord Bridgerton. What a surprise."

"I hope we're not intruding," Anthony said.

"Not at all. Any friend of Penelope's is welcome." Phillipa's eyes were sharp with curiosity. "Though I must say, I wasn't aware my sister had such distinguished friends."

"Lord Bridgerton was kind enough to help me carry the basket," Penelope said quickly.

"How gallant." Phillipa's smile suggested she didn't believe that was the only reason. "Well, come in, both of you. I've just made tea."

They spent the afternoon at the Finch household. Anthony found himself roped into playing soldiers with the eldest boy while Penelope read to the girls. He caught her watching him at one point, something soft in her expression, and felt his heart stutter.

When they finally left, the sun was beginning to set. Anthony walked Penelope home, neither of them speaking, both lost in their own thoughts.

"Thank you," Penelope said as they reached her door. "For today. For carrying the basket and playing with the children and..." She paused. "For being kind."

"I didn't do anything special."

"You did, though. You made them feel important. That matters."

Anthony looked at her, at Penelope Featherington who noticed everything and valued kindness above all else, and knew he was completely, irrevocably lost.

"Penelope," he said softly.

"Yes?"

"I..." He paused, searching for words. "I'm very glad I met you."

It wasn't what he wanted to say. What he wanted to say was that she'd become essential to him. That he couldn't imagine his life without her in it. That he was falling in love with her, curse or no curse, and it terrified him.

But that was too much. Too soon.

So he simply said, "I'm glad I met you," and hoped she understood everything he couldn't say.

Penelope smiled, and it was the softest, sweetest smile he'd ever seen. "I'm glad I met you too, Lord Bridgerton."

She went inside, and Anthony stood on the street for a long moment, his chest aching with feelings he couldn't name.

Behind him, Odysseus whickered softly.

"I know," Anthony told his horse. "I'm in trouble."

Odysseus nudged his shoulder sympathetically.

"She's leaving at the end of the season," Anthony continued. "And I have no idea how to make her stay."

The horse had no answers. But as Anthony mounted and rode home through the darkening streets, he couldn't stop thinking about Penelope's smile. About the way she'd looked at him when he played with the children. About the possibility that maybe, just maybe, she was starting to feel something too.

He was in love with her. He knew that now with absolute certainty. The curse had nothing to do with it. This was real and terrifying and wonderful all at once.

And he had no idea what to do about it.

XOX

The invitation came to Anthony in a moment of desperation.

He was in his study, staring at correspondence he couldn't focus on, when the realization struck him with the force of a physical blow. Three weeks. Penelope had three weeks left in London before she departed for the country, and he had done nothing to change her mind. Had made no real declaration, offered no compelling reason for her to stay.

Because what could he offer? The truth? That he was immortal and she was not? That loving him meant choosing between a mortal life without him or an immortal one that would change everything she was?

The thought made his chest ache.

But there was one thing he could give her. One night that might show her what he couldn't say. One chance to let her see his world, to understand what he was, and to choose for herself whether any of it mattered.

The Flower Ball.

It happened once a year at Aubrey Hall, when the veil between the mortal and immortal worlds grew thin enough for both to mingle freely. It was the night his mother had met his father. The night Aphrodite had looked at a mortal man and chosen love over eternity.

Until she hadn't. Until Edmund had finally chosen immortality with her instead, but it was too late from the fatal bee sting.

Anthony pushed that thought away. This was different. He wasn't asking Penelope to choose anything. He was simply inviting her to a ball.

He found her in the park the next afternoon, reading on her usual bench while the Finch children played nearby. She looked up as he approached, and her smile made his heart stutter.

"Lord Bridgerton. This is becoming a habit."

"A pleasant one, I hope."

"That depends on whether you're here to carry baskets or make conversation." But her eyes were warm, teasing.

Anthony sat beside her, suddenly nervous in a way he hadn't been since he was young and foolish and still believed in happy endings. "Actually, I came to ask you something."

Penelope closed her book, giving him her full attention. "That sounds serious."

"It's an invitation. To Aubrey Hall." He paused, choosing his words carefully. "My family hosts a ball there every year. The Flower Ball. It's at the end of summer, just before..." He trailed off, not wanting to say before you leave.

"Before the season ends," Penelope finished softly.

"Yes. It's a rather special event. My mother is quite particular about it. Flowers everywhere, music, dancing. It's meant to celebrate the end of summer and the beginning of autumn." He was talking too much, explaining too much. "I would very much like you to attend. As my guest."

Penelope's eyes had gone wide. "Your guest?"

"If you're willing."

"I..." She looked down at her hands. "Lord Bridgerton, I'm not sure that's wise."

"Why not?"

"Because I don't know what this is." She gestured between them. "What we're doing. What you want from me."

Anthony felt something twist in his chest. "What do you think I want?"

"I don't know. That's the problem." Penelope's voice had gone quiet. "You're a viscount. I'm a spinster with no prospects. You could have anyone, and yet you spend your time with me. You call on me, you walk with me, you play with my sister's children. And I don't understand why."

"Because I enjoy your company."

"That's not enough of a reason."

"Why not?"

"Because people don't do things without reason. Especially not people like you." Penelope looked up at him, and there was something vulnerable in her expression. "So I'm asking you directly, Lord Bridgerton. Why do you want me at this ball?"

Anthony could have deflected. Could have made some light comment about needing a partner who wouldn't bore him. But Penelope had asked for honesty, and he found he couldn't give her anything less.

"Because I want you to see something," he said quietly. "Something important. Something that might help you understand why I..." He paused, searching for words. "Why I can't seem to stay away from you."

Penelope studied his face for a long moment. "That's not really an answer."

"I know. But it's the best I can offer right now."

"Why?"

"Because some things need to be seen to be believed."

It was cryptic and probably frustrating, but Penelope didn't press. Instead, she looked down at her book, then back up at him. "If I agree to attend this ball, will you promise me something?"

"Anything."

"Promise me you'll be honest with me. Whatever this is, whatever you want to show me, promise me you'll tell me the truth."

Anthony felt his throat tighten. "I promise."

Penelope nodded slowly. "Then yes. I'll attend your ball."

The relief that flooded through him was almost painful. "Thank you."

"Don't thank me yet. I might hate it."

"You won't."

"You seem very certain of that."

"I am." Anthony smiled. "You're going to love it, Penelope. I promise you that."

She smiled back, but there was something uncertain in her eyes. Something that suggested she knew this ball was more than just a ball, even if she didn't understand why.

Anthony left the park feeling both elated and terrified. He'd done it. He'd invited her. Now he just had to survive the next three weeks without losing his nerve.

XOx

He made it approximately six hours before Benedict found him in his study, staring at nothing.

"You look like someone died," Benedict announced, dropping into the chair across from Anthony's desk. "Should I be concerned?"

"No."

"That's not convincing." Benedict studied him. "What happened?"

"I invited Miss Featherington to the Flower Ball."

Benedict's eyebrows rose. "You did what?"

"You heard me."

"Anthony." Benedict leaned forward. "Do you understand what you've done?"

"I've invited a woman to a ball. It's not that complicated."

"It's the Flower Ball. It's incredibly complicated." Benedict's voice had gone serious. "You're bringing a mortal woman to a gathering of gods. You're showing her our world. That's not a casual invitation, brother. That's a declaration."

Anthony's hands tightened on his desk. "I know."

"Do you? Because once she sees what we are, there's no going back. She'll know the truth. She'll have to choose."

"I'm not asking her to choose anything."

"You're asking her to see you. Really see you. That's the same thing." Benedict paused. "Does she know? About the curse?"

"No."

"Are you going to tell her?"

"I don't know." Anthony looked up at his brother. "What would you do?"

"I would tell her the truth. All of it. The curse, the immortality, everything." Benedict's expression was unusually serious. "She deserves to know what she's walking into."

"And if it scares her away?"

"Then at least she made an informed choice."

Anthony knew Benedict was right. But the thought of telling Penelope everything, of watching her face change when she realized what he was, made his chest ache with something that felt like grief.

"I can't lose her," he said quietly.

"Then you have to trust her." Benedict stood. "Tell her the truth, Anthony. Before the ball. Give her the choice."

After Benedict left, Anthony sat in his study for a long time, thinking about choices and truth and the way Penelope's face had looked when she'd asked him to be honest.

He would tell her. He had to.

He just had to figure out how.

XPX

The problem with having a large family, Anthony discovered, was that secrets were impossible to keep.

He arrived at Aubrey Hall two days before the ball to help with preparations, and within an hour, his mother had cornered him in the drawing room.

"So," Violet said, settling onto the sofa with the air of someone preparing for a long conversation. "You've invited Miss Featherington."

Anthony should have known better than to think he could keep anything from his mother. "Yes."

"To the Flower Ball."

"Yes."

"As your guest."

"Mother, if you have something to say, please just say it."

Violet smiled. "I like her."

Anthony blinked. "You've never met her."

"I've seen her. At various events. She's clever and kind, and she doesn't simper." Violet's smile widened. "And she's made you absolutely miserable, which I find delightful."

"I'm not miserable."

"Darling, you've been moping around London for weeks, following that poor girl like a lost puppy. You're the definition of miserable." Violet reached over and patted his hand. "But it's a good miserable. The kind that means something."

"It means I've been cursed."

"It means you're in love."

Anthony looked at his mother, at Violet who was the legendary Aprhodite. She had loved a mortal man enough to be mortal herself, then watch him die, and then loved him enough to restore her immortality afterward so she could carry that love forever and watch over her God's children.

 "How did you do it?" he asked quietly. "How did you survive losing him?"

Violet's expression softened. "Oh, my darling. I didn't lose him. He's still with me. Every day. In you and your siblings, in the memories we made, in the choice we both made to love each other despite knowing how it would end." She squeezed his hand. "Love isn't about avoiding loss, Anthony. It's about deciding that the time you have together is worth the pain of losing it."

"But you took the potion. You chose back your immortality."

"I chose to honor his memory by living. By being here for our children and their children and all the generations to come." Violet's eyes were bright with unshed tears. "Edmund gave me that gift. The choice to keep living, to keep loving. And I will be grateful for it every day of my eternal life."

Anthony felt his throat tighten. "I'm afraid."

"I know. But fear is not a reason to avoid love. It's a reason to cherish it more."

"What if she doesn't choose me?"

"Then you'll survive. You're a Bridgerton. We're remarkably resilient." Violet smiled. "But I don't think you need to worry about that. I've seen the way she looks at you when she thinks no one is watching."

"How does she look at me?"

"Like you're the answer to a question she's been asking for a very long time."

Anthony wanted to believe that. Wanted to believe that Penelope felt even a fraction of what he felt. But the fear remained, cold and insistent in his chest.

"Bring her to the ball," Violet said gently. "Show her who you are. Trust her to make her own choice. And whatever happens, know that I'm proud of you for being brave enough to try."

XOX

Eloise found him that evening in the garden, where he'd gone to escape the chaos of ball preparations.

"So you're bringing Penelope Featherington to the Flower Ball," she said without preamble.

Anthony didn't bother asking how she knew. Eloise knew everything. "Yes."

"Why?"

"Because I want her here."

"That's not an answer." Eloise sat beside him on the garden bench. "You've been struck by one of Colin's arrows, haven't you?"

Anthony's head snapped toward her. "How did you..."

"Please. You've been acting like a lovesick fool for weeks. It wasn't difficult to figure out." Eloise's expression was unusually serious. "Does she know?"

"No."

"Are you going to tell her?"

"Eventually."

"Before or after you break her heart?"

The words hit like a physical blow. "I'm not going to break her heart."

"Aren't you?" Eloise turned to face him fully. "You're bringing her into our world, showing her magic and immortality and everything she can't have unless she gives up her mortality. You're making her fall in love with you, if she hasn't already. And then what, Anthony? What happens when the season ends and she's supposed to leave for the country? What happens when she has to choose between the life she's built and a future with you?"

"I don't know."

"That's not good enough." Eloise's voice had gone hard. "Penelope Featherington is a good person. She's kind and clever and she deserves better than to be someone's experiment in overcoming a curse."

"It's not like that."

"Then what is it like?"

Anthony looked at his sister, at Eloise who had always been able to see through him, and felt something crack open in his chest. "I love her," he said quietly. "It's not the curse. It's not magic. I love her, and I don't know what to do about it."

Eloise's expression softened slightly. "Then tell her that. Tell her the truth. All of it. And let her decide what she wants."

"What if she doesn't want me?"

"Then you'll survive. But at least she'll have made an informed choice." Eloise stood. "I like Penelope. I think she's exactly the kind of person who could handle our family's particular brand of chaos. But if you hurt her, Anthony, if you break her heart because you're too afraid to be honest, I will make you regret it. Do you understand?"

Anthony looked up at his sister and felt a chill run down his spine. Eloise was terrifying when she wanted to be. "I understand."

"Good." Eloise's expression softened into something almost affectionate. "Now stop moping in the garden and go make sure the ballroom is properly decorated. Mother is having opinions about the flower arrangements."

After Eloise left, Anthony sat in the garden for a long time, thinking about truth and choice and the way Penelope's eyes had looked when she'd agreed to attend the ball.

He would tell her. Before the ball, he would tell her everything.

He just hoped she wouldn't run.

XOx

Penelope stood in front of her mirror and tried not to panic.

The dress was beautiful. Phillipa had insisted on paying for it, had taken Penelope to the modiste and refused to hear any arguments about expense or practicality. It was a soft blue-green, the color of the sea in summer, with delicate embroidery along the bodice and sleeves. It made her eyes look brighter, her skin look luminous.

It made her look like someone who belonged at a viscount's ball.

"You look beautiful," Phillipa said from the doorway.

Penelope turned. "I look terrified."

"That too." Phillipa came into the room and took Penelope's hands. "But mostly beautiful. Pen, what's wrong?"

"I don't know what I'm doing." Penelope's voice came out smaller than she'd intended. "Lord Bridgerton invited me to this ball, and I said yes, but I don't understand why he wants me there. I don't understand any of this."

"Do you want to be there?"

"Yes. That's the problem." Penelope looked at her sister. "I want to go. I want to see him. I want..." She paused, trying to find words for feelings she'd been trying to ignore. "I want things I shouldn't want."

"Why shouldn't you want them?"

"Because I'm leaving, Phillipa. In three weeks, I'm coming to live with you in the country. I have plans. A life. I can't afford to want things that don't fit into those plans."

Phillipa squeezed her hands. "What if your plans changed?"

"They can't change."

"Why not?"

"Because I'm twenty-seven years old. I'm a spinster. I've accepted that. I've built a life around that acceptance. I can't just..." Penelope pulled her hands away, wrapping her arms around herself. "I can't just start hoping again. It hurts too much when nothing comes of it."

"Pen." Phillipa's voice was gentle. "What if something does come of it?"

"It won't."

"You don't know that."

"I do. Men like Lord Bridgerton don't marry women like me. They marry beautiful, accomplished women with dowries and connections. They don't marry spinsters who write gossip columns and have no prospects."

Phillipa was quiet for a moment. "Does he know? About Lady Whistledown?"

"No. And he can't. Ever."

"Why not?"

"Because it would ruin everything. He'd be horrified. Or worse, he'd pity me." Penelope looked at her sister. "I can't bear his pity, Phillipa. I'd rather have nothing than that."

"I don't think Lord Bridgerton pities you. From what you've told me, I think he admires you."

"He doesn't know me well enough to admire me."

"Then perhaps this ball is his way of getting to know you better." Phillipa smiled. "Go, Pen. Enjoy yourself. Dance with him. Talk to him. Let yourself have one perfect night before you come to the country. You deserve that much."

Penelope wanted to argue. Wanted to say that one perfect night would only make leaving harder. But the truth was, she wanted that night. Wanted it desperately. Wanted to see Anthony in his own home, to dance with him, to pretend for a few hours that she was the kind of woman who could have a future with a man like him.

"One night," she said quietly.

"One night," Phillipa agreed. "And then we'll see what happens."

XPX

Aubrey Hall was more beautiful than Penelope had imagined.

The carriage ride had taken most of the afternoon, and by the time they arrived, the sun was beginning to set, painting the sky in shades of gold and pink. The house itself was magnificent, all honey-colored stone and tall windows that glowed with warm light. But it was the gardens that took her breath away.

Flowers everywhere. Roses and peonies and delphiniums, hollyhocks and foxgloves and sweet peas. They spilled from beds and climbed up trellises and hung in baskets from every available surface. The air was thick with their scent, sweet and heady and almost overwhelming.

And the lights. Lanterns hung from trees and posts, casting everything in a soft, golden glow. As the sun set and darkness fell, they seemed to multiply, until the entire garden looked like something from a fairy tale.

"Miss Featherington." Anthony appeared at her side as she stood staring at the gardens. "You came."

"You invited me." Penelope turned to look at him and felt her breath catch. He was dressed formally, all dark coat and crisp cravat, but there was something different about him here. Something more relaxed, more himself. "Your home is beautiful."

"Thank you. Though I can't take credit for the gardens. That's all my mother's doing." Anthony offered his arm. "May I show you around before the other guests arrive?"

Penelope took his arm, acutely aware of the warmth of him beside her. "I'd like that."

They walked through the gardens, Anthony pointing out various flowers and telling her stories about the estate. But Penelope found herself watching him more than the scenery. There was something different about him here, something lighter. As though being at Aubrey Hall had lifted some weight she hadn't realized he was carrying.

"You love it here," she said.

Anthony looked at her in surprise. "How did you know?"

"The way you talk about it. The way you look at everything." Penelope smiled. "It's your home. Really your home, not just a place you live."

"Yes." Anthony's voice had gone soft. "This is where I feel most myself. Where I can be..." He paused. "Where I can be honest."

"Honest about what?"

Anthony stopped walking. They were in a small clearing surrounded by roses, the lantern light casting shadows across his face. "About who I am. What I am." He took a breath. "Penelope, there's something I need to tell you."

Penelope's heart began to race. "That sounds serious."

"It is. And I should have told you before now, but I was afraid." Anthony turned to face her fully. "I'm not what you think I am."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean I'm not entirely human. My family, we're..." He paused, clearly struggling with the words. "We're gods. Minor gods, but gods nonetheless. Immortal. We've been alive for centuries, and we'll continue to be alive for centuries more."

Penelope stared at him. She should have been shocked. Should have laughed or called him mad or run away. But instead, she found herself thinking about all the small things that had never quite made sense. The way he sometimes seemed older than his years. The way his family spoke about time differently. The strange, otherworldly quality to Aubrey Hall itself.

"Gods," she repeated.

"Yes."

"And you're immortal."

"Yes."

"And this ball..." Penelope looked around at the gardens, at the lights that seemed too bright to be natural, at the flowers that bloomed in combinations that shouldn't exist in nature. "This is where mortals and gods meet."

Anthony's eyes widened. "How did you..."

"I'm observant, remember?" Penelope's mind was racing. "And I've been to enough balls to know when something is different. This place feels different. Magical." She looked back at him. "Is that why you invited me? To show me this?"

"Partly. But mostly because I wanted you here. Because I wanted you to see me. Really see me." Anthony's voice had gone rough. "And because I needed you to know the truth before I told you the rest of it."

"The rest of what?"

"That you matter to me." The words came out quieter than he'd intended. "More than anyone has in a very long time. I know I have no right to tell you this, I know you're leaving and you have plans and I'm asking you to consider something impossible, but I couldn't let you go without telling you the truth."

Penelope couldn't breathe. Couldn't think. Anthony Bridgerton, Viscount and apparently a god, was standing in front of her saying she mattered. It was impossible. It was terrifying.

It was everything she'd wanted and been too afraid to hope for.

"You're in love with me," she said faintly.

"Yes."

"With me. Penelope Featherington. Spinster and wallflower and..."

"The most extraordinary woman I've ever met." Anthony stepped closer. "I know this is a lot. I know I'm asking you to believe something impossible. But I needed you to know. Before the ball, before anything else, I needed you to know the truth."

Penelope looked at him, at Anthony who had spent weeks courting her and making her laugh and showing her kindness she'd never expected. Anthony who was apparently immortal and in love with her and looking at her like she was the answer to every question he'd ever asked.

"I don't know what to say," she whispered.

"You don't have to say anything. Not yet." Anthony's hand came up to cup her cheek, his touch gentle. "Just stay. Dance with me tonight. Let me show you what this could be. And then, when the ball is over, you can decide what you want."

"What if I don't know what I want?"

"Then I'll wait until you do."

Penelope leaned into his touch, her eyes closing briefly. "You're asking me to believe in fairy tales."

"I'm asking you to believe in us."

When she opened her eyes, Anthony was watching her with such intensity it made her chest ache. "One night," she said. "Show me your world. And then we'll see."

Anthony's smile was like the sun breaking through clouds. "One night," he agreed. "I promise you, Penelope, it will be a night you'll never forget."

XPX

The ball was magic made manifest.

Penelope had attended dozens of balls over her nine seasons, but nothing had prepared her for this. The ballroom at Aubrey Hall had been transformed into something from a dream. Flowers cascaded from every surface, their petals seeming to glow in the candlelight. The music was unlike anything she'd heard before, played by musicians she couldn't quite see clearly, as though they existed slightly out of phase with reality.

And the guests. Oh, the guests.

They were beautiful in a way that was almost painful to look at. Men and women who moved with impossible grace, whose laughter sounded like bells, whose very presence seemed to make the air shimmer. Penelope recognized some of them from London society, but here they looked different. More themselves. More real.

"They're gods," she whispered to Anthony as they stood at the edge of the ballroom.

"Some of them. Others are mortals who've taken the immortality potion. And some are simply mortals who've been invited to witness." Anthony's hand was warm on her back. "You're not afraid?"

"I should be. But I'm not." Penelope looked up at him. "I feel like I've been waiting my whole life to see something real. And this is real, isn't it? All of it."

"Yes." Anthony's eyes were soft. "This is real."

The music swelled, and Anthony offered his hand. "Dance with me?"

Penelope took his hand and let him lead her onto the floor. She'd never been a particularly graceful dancer, had spent most balls standing against walls watching others. But with Anthony, it was different. He led her through the steps with easy confidence, and she found herself following without thinking, her body responding to his as though they'd danced together a thousand times before.

"You're beautiful," Anthony said quietly.

Penelope felt heat rise in her cheeks. "You don't have to say that."

"I'm not saying it because I have to. I'm saying it because it's true." Anthony's hand tightened on her waist. "You're beautiful, Penelope. You've always been beautiful. I'm sorry no one ever told you that before."

"People have told me I'm clever. Or kind. Or useful." Penelope's voice was barely above a whisper. "But no one's ever called me beautiful."

"Then everyone else is blind."

They danced in silence for a moment, and Penelope let herself simply feel. The warmth of Anthony's hand in hers. The solid strength of him as he guided her through the steps. The way he looked at her like she was the only person in the room.

"What are you thinking?" Anthony asked.

"That this feels like a dream. That I'm afraid I'll wake up and none of it will be real."

"It's real. I promise you, this is real."

"But what happens when the ball ends? When I have to go back to being ordinary Penelope Featherington?"

"You're not ordinary. You've never been ordinary." Anthony pulled her slightly closer. "And when the ball ends, we'll figure out what comes next. Together."

"You make it sound simple."

"It is simple. I want you. You..." He paused, his voice dropping lower. "I hope you might want me too. Everything else is just details."

Penelope's heart was racing. "It's not that simple. You're immortal. I'm not. You're a viscount. I'm a spinster. You're..."

"I'm a man who wants you more than I've ever wanted anything. That's all that matters."

"Anthony." His name came out like a plea.

"Yes?"

"I'm afraid."

"So am I." Anthony's voice was rough. "I'm terrified. But I'd rather be terrified with you than safe without you."

The music ended, and they stood in the middle of the ballroom, surrounded by gods and mortals and magic, and Penelope felt something shift in her chest. A decision forming, fragile and precious and terrifying.

"Show me," she whispered.

"Show you what?"

"Everything. Your world. What it means to be what you are." Penelope looked up at him. "I want to understand."

Anthony's eyes darkened. "Are you sure?"

"No. But I want to be."

Anthony took her hand and led her from the ballroom, through corridors lit by impossible light, out into the gardens where the night air was warm and sweet with the scent of flowers. They walked in silence until they reached a gazebo covered in climbing roses, hidden from the house by tall hedges.

"This is where my mother and father met," Anthony said quietly. "At a Flower Ball,  centuries ago. She was a goddess. He was a mortal man. And they fell in love despite knowing it was impossible."

"What happened?"

"He chose her. She chose to give up her immortality. She took the mortality potion and they had years together before..." Anthony's voice caught. "Before he was killed by  a bee stung during a hunt accident."

"He died?"

"Human’s die easily. That's the thing about mortality, Penelope. It's a choice. You can live forever, but you can also choose to remain mortal like my father.” Anthony turned to face her. "My father didn’t live a long, full life. He didn’t see all his children grow up, saw his grandchildren born. And my mother chose to bring back her immortality. To keep living. To honor his memory by being here for all of us."

Penelope felt tears prick her eyes. "That's beautiful. And heartbreaking."

"Yes." Anthony's hand came up to cup her face. "That's what love is. Beautiful and heartbreaking and worth every moment of pain."

"Is that what you're offering me? A beautiful, heartbreaking love?"

"I'm offering you a choice. To see what this could be. To decide for yourself if it's worth the risk." Anthony's thumb brushed across her cheekbone. "I won't pressure you. I won't ask you to give up your life or your plans. I just want you to know that if you want this, if you want me, I'm yours. For as long as you'll have me."

Penelope looked at him, at Anthony who had been patient and kind and honest even when it terrified him. Anthony who loved her. Who saw her. Who made her feel like she was worth something more than usefulness and practicality.

"I want you," she whispered. "I've wanted you since the first time you called on me and brought the wrong flowers. Since you let your horse betray you for apple slices. Since you played with Phillipa's children and looked at me like I was something precious." She took a shaky breath. "I'm terrified. But I want you anyway."

Anthony's expression transformed, joy and relief and something that looked like wonder. "Penelope."

"Kiss me," she said. "Please. Before I lose my nerve."

Anthony kissed her.

It was soft at first, tentative, as though he was afraid she might break. But Penelope pressed closer, her hands coming up to grip his coat, and the kiss deepened. Anthony's arms came around her, pulling her against him, and Penelope felt something in her chest crack open.

This was what she'd been missing. This connection, this feeling of being wanted and seen and cherished. This sense that she was exactly where she was meant to be.

When they finally broke apart, both breathing hard, Anthony rested his forehead against hers. "I love you," he said again. "I need you to know that. This isn't just desire or attraction. I love you, Penelope Featherington. All of you."

"I love you too," Penelope whispered, and felt the truth of it settle into her bones. "I think I've loved you for weeks. I was just too afraid to admit it."

"You're not afraid now?"

"I'm terrified. But I'm here anyway."

Anthony smiled and kissed her again, slower this time, deeper. His hands moved to her waist, then up her back, and Penelope felt heat pool low in her belly. She'd never been touched like this. Never been wanted like this. It was intoxicating.

"Penelope," Anthony said against her mouth. "We should stop."

"Why?"

"Because if we don't stop now, I won't be able to stop at all."

Penelope pulled back enough to look at him. His eyes were dark, his breathing uneven, and she could feel the tension in his body. He wanted her. The knowledge was heady and powerful and terrifying.

"What if I don't want you to stop?" she asked quietly.

Anthony's hands tightened on her waist. "You don't know what you're asking."

"I think I do."

"Penelope." Her name was a warning and a plea. "If we do this, everything changes. There's no going back."

"I know." Penelope reached up to touch his face. "I'm choosing this. I'm choosing you. For tonight, for however long we have, I'm choosing this."

Anthony searched her face for a long moment. Then he kissed her again, and this time there was no hesitation. His hands moved over her body, learning her shape through the layers of her dress. Penelope gasped against his mouth, her own hands exploring the solid strength of his shoulders, his back, the nape of his neck.

"Inside," Anthony said roughly. "There's a room. Private. If you're sure."

"I'm sure."

He took her hand and led her into the gazebo, where a door she hadn't noticed before opened into a small room. It was simply furnished, just a bed and a few chairs, but it was clean and private and perfect.

Anthony closed the door behind them and turned to face her. "Last chance to change your mind."

"I'm not changing my mind." Penelope's hands were shaking, but her voice was steady. "I want this. I want you."

Anthony crossed the room in two strides and kissed her again, and this time there was no holding back. His hands found the fastenings of her dress, working them open with surprising dexterity. Penelope's own hands fumbled with his coat, his cravat, the buttons of his shirt. They undressed each other slowly, punctuating each revealed bit of skin with kisses and touches and whispered words.

When they were finally bare, Anthony lifted her and carried her to the bed. He laid her down gently, his eyes moving over her body with something like reverence.

"You're perfect," he said.

Penelope felt heat rise in her cheeks. "I'm not."

"You are to me." Anthony settled beside her, his hand tracing patterns on her skin. "Every part of you is perfect to me."

He kissed her again, and Penelope lost herself in the sensation. His mouth moved from her lips to her jaw, her neck, her collarbone. His hands explored her body, learning what made her gasp, what made her arch into his touch. When his mouth closed over her breast, Penelope cried out, her hands fisting in his hair.

"Anthony," she gasped.

"Tell me what you want," he said against her skin.

"You. I want you."

Anthony's hand moved lower, between her thighs, and Penelope's hips lifted off the bed. She'd touched herself before, in the privacy of her room, but this was different. This was Anthony touching her, learning her, making her feel things she'd never felt before.

"So responsive," Anthony murmured. "So perfect."

His fingers moved in slow circles, building pressure and heat until Penelope thought she might shatter. She was making sounds she'd never made before, saying things she didn't quite understand, and Anthony was watching her with such intensity it made her feel powerful and vulnerable all at once.

"Please," she gasped. "Anthony, please."

"Please what?"

"I need... I don't know. More. Something."

Anthony's smile was tender. "I know what you need."

He shifted, settling between her thighs, and Penelope felt the hard length of him against her. "This might hurt," he said quietly. "Tell me if you want me to stop."

"Don't stop," Penelope said. "Please don't stop."

Anthony kissed her as he pressed forward, slowly, carefully. There was pressure, then a sharp sting that made Penelope gasp. Anthony stilled immediately.

"Are you all right?"

"Yes. Don't stop."

He moved again, deeper this time, and the sting faded into something else. Something that felt like fullness and connection and rightness. When he was fully seated inside her, they both stilled, breathing hard.

"Penelope," Anthony said, his voice rough. "You feel..."

"So do you."

He started to move, slow and careful, watching her face for any sign of discomfort. But Penelope felt only pleasure, building with each thrust, each slide of skin against skin. She wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, and Anthony groaned.

"You're going to undo me," he said.

"Good."

They moved together, finding a rhythm that felt natural and right. Anthony's hand slipped between them, touching her where they were joined, and Penelope felt something building inside her. Something huge and terrifying and wonderful.

"Let go," Anthony said against her ear. "I've got you. Let go."

Penelope shattered. Pleasure crashed over her in waves, making her cry out, making her cling to Anthony like he was the only solid thing in a spinning world. She felt him follow her over the edge, felt him pulse inside her as he groaned her name.

They collapsed together, breathing hard, skin slick with sweat. Anthony rolled to the side, pulling her with him so she was tucked against his chest. His hand moved in slow circles on her back, soothing and gentle.

"Are you all right?" he asked after a moment.

"I'm perfect." Penelope pressed a kiss to his chest. "That was perfect."

"Yes, it was." Anthony's arms tightened around her. "I love you."

"I love you too."

They lay in silence for a long time, listening to each other breathe. Penelope felt something settle in her chest, something that felt like peace. Like coming home. Like finding something she hadn't known she was looking for.

"What happens now?" she asked quietly.

"Now we figure out the rest together." Anthony kissed the top of her head. "But for tonight, just stay here with me. Let me hold you. Let me pretend that this moment can last forever."

Penelope closed her eyes and let herself believe it. Just for tonight, she would believe in fairy tales and happy endings and love that conquered all obstacles.

Tomorrow would come soon enough. But tonight, she was exactly where she wanted to be.

XPX

Penelope woke to cold sheets and pale grey light filtering through the curtains.

For a moment, she didn't remember where she was. Then it came back in a rush: the ball, the confession, Anthony's hands on her skin, the way he'd looked at her like she was something precious. The way he'd said he loved her, over and over, like a prayer.

She reached across the bed, but Anthony's side was empty. Not just empty...cold, as though he'd been gone for some time.

Penelope sat up, pulling the sheet around herself. The room was quiet. Too quiet. She could hear the house settling around her, the distant sounds of servants beginning their morning routines. But no Anthony.

Perhaps he'd simply gone to get them breakfast. Perhaps he was being considerate, letting her sleep. Perhaps there was a perfectly reasonable explanation for why he'd left their bed before dawn without waking her.

But something in Penelope's chest tightened with unease.

She rose and dressed quickly, her fingers fumbling with the fastenings of her dress. The fabric felt different against her skin now, as though the night had changed something fundamental about her body. She was no longer the woman who'd arrived at this ball. She was someone else now. Someone who'd been loved and seen and chosen.

Someone who was beginning to suspect that love might not be enough.

Penelope opened the door carefully, listening. The house was still mostly asleep, but she could hear voices coming from somewhere below. Male voices, low and urgent. One of them was Anthony.

She shouldn't eavesdrop. She knew that. But her feet carried her forward anyway, down the corridor toward the sound. She found herself in a small sitting room directly above what must be a study, and the voices were clearer here. Clear enough that she could make out words.

"You're being a fool." That was Benedict's voice, sharp with frustration.

"I'm being realistic." Anthony sounded tired. Defeated in a way Penelope had never heard before. "I made a terrible mistake, Benedict. I let myself believe this could work."

Penelope's hand went to her mouth. She should leave. Should go back to her room and pretend she hadn't heard. But she couldn't move.

"A mistake?" A third voice, one she didn't recognize but that carried the same cadence as Anthony's. Colin, she realized. He must have returned early. "You're calling what happened between you and Miss Featherington a mistake?"

"I'm calling my selfishness a mistake." Anthony's voice was rough. "I knew better. I've always known better. And I did it anyway."

"Did what?" Benedict demanded. "Fell in love? That's not a crime, Anthony."

"It is when you're immortal and she's not." The words came out like broken glass. "She will die, Benedict. In fifty years, sixty if she's fortunate, she will die. And I will remain. I will remain for centuries, carrying the memory of her, and I cannot survive that. I cannot."

Penelope felt the world tilt beneath her feet. She gripped the windowsill to steady herself, her breath coming in short, painful gasps.

"So what's your plan?" Colin asked, and there was something dangerous in his voice. "Break her heart? Pretend last night didn't happen?"

"I have to end this. Before it gets worse. Before I'm in so deep that losing her destroys me completely." Anthony paused. "The curse should fade now that we've... now that the bond has been consummated. I can let her go. I can release her from whatever magic bound us together."

"You're an idiot." Colin's voice had gone cold. "An absolute idiot."

"Colin..."

"No. You don't get to do this. You don't get to blame this on the curse or the arrows or anything else." There was a sound of movement, footsteps. "This is your fault, Anthony! Because you were too busy complaining about covering for me, you shot yourself. And now you're tortured, and you want to blame me for it?"

"I'm not blaming you..."

"Yes, you are. You're blaming the curse, blaming the magic, blaming everything except your own cowardice." Colin's voice rose. "You love her. You told her you love her. And now you're going to throw that away because you're afraid?"

"I'm afraid of losing her!" Anthony's shout echoed through the house. "I'm afraid of watching her age and die while I remain unchanged. I'm afraid of becoming like Mother, so desperate to escape the pain of loss that I choose numbness throughout eternity. I'm afraid of loving her so much that losing her breaks something in me that can never be repaired."

Silence fell. Penelope pressed her hand harder against her mouth, trying to hold back the sob building in her throat.

"So you'll break her heart now instead," Benedict said quietly. "You'll hurt her deliberately, to save yourself pain later."

"I'm trying to save us both pain."

"By causing pain now? That's not mercy, Anthony. That's cruelty."

"It's necessary."

"It's cowardice." Colin again, and then there was a sound of impact, a grunt of pain. "That's for being a fool. And this..." Another impact. "...is for breaking that woman's heart when she's done nothing but love you."

"Colin, stop..." Benedict's voice.

"No. He needs to hear this. He needs to understand what he's throwing away." Colin's breathing was heavy. "You think Mother was weak for choosing mortality for Father? She was brave. Father loved Mother enough since mother wanted to be a mortal. Father was ready to accept the immortal potion, but Mother wanted to wait. He faced it with grace and respected her wishes because he wanted to give Mother a mortal family life. He didn't run from love because he was afraid of loss. He embraced it and let Mother be Violet instead of Aphrodite. He saw the real her."

"And yet, a preventable accident left Mother to grieve for decades," Anthony said, but his voice had lost its certainty.

"Mother chose to restore her immortality with the potion. She chose to keep living, to honor his memory by being here for us. That was her choice, Anthony. Just like this is yours." Colin paused. "But you're not choosing love. You're choosing fear. And that makes you a coward."

Penelope couldn't listen anymore. She turned and fled back to her room, her vision blurred with tears. She closed the door carefully, quietly, and leaned against it, trying to breathe through the pain in her chest.

He was going to leave her. He was going to end this, to walk away, because he was afraid of losing her someday. Because loving her meant eventual pain, and he couldn't bear it.

She understood. God help her, she understood. She'd heard the anguish in his voice, the genuine terror at the thought of watching her die. He loved her. She knew that. But he loved her in a way that was tangled up with fear and loss and centuries of watching people he cared about disappear.

And she couldn't fix that. She couldn't promise him she wouldn't die. She couldn't make herself immortal just to ease his fears.

Well. She could. That was the thing, wasn't it? There was a potion. A choice. She could become like him, could live forever, could spare him the pain of losing her.

But was that what she wanted? To give up her mortality, her humanity, everything that made her who she was, just to keep a man who was too afraid to love her as she was?

Penelope moved to the writing desk and sat down heavily. Her hands were shaking as she pulled out a piece of paper. She needed to think. Needed to decide what to do.

She could stay. Could confront Anthony, could argue with him, could try to convince him that love was worth the risk of loss. Could fight for what they'd found together.

But what would that accomplish? He'd made his position clear. He couldn't survive losing her. And if she stayed, if she convinced him to try, she'd be condemning them both to a future where every moment of happiness was shadowed by the knowledge of her eventual death. Where every year that passed would bring them closer to the end he dreaded.

That wasn't love. That was torture.

Or she could leave. Could make the choice for him, spare him the pain of having to end things himself. Could walk away now, while the memories were still beautiful, before fear and grief could poison what they'd shared.

It would hurt. God, it would hurt. But it would be clean. Final. She could go to Phillipa's, could build the life she'd already planned, could carry the memory of one perfect night without the weight of watching Anthony slowly destroy himself with fear.

Penelope picked up the pen. Her hand was steadier now, though tears still blurred her vision.

My dearest Anthony,

No. Too intimate. Too painful.

She crumpled the paper and started again.

Lord Bridgerton,

Thank you for the most beautiful night of my life. Thank you for seeing me, for loving me, for giving me a memory I will treasure always.

I heard you this morning. I did not mean to eavesdrop, but I heard you speaking with your brothers. I heard your fear. I heard your pain.

I understand. I do. You are afraid of losing me, and that fear is born of love. I know that. But I cannot stay and watch that fear consume you. I cannot be the source of your torment.

You said the curse would fade now. You said you could release me. Consider me released. Consider yourself free.

I am going to my sister's home in the country, as I always planned. I will build the life I intended to build. And I will remember you, always, with love and gratitude.

You gave me a gift last night. You made me feel seen and valued and cherished. No one has ever done that before. No one may ever do it again. But I will carry that gift with me for the rest of my life.

Do not come after me. Do not try to change my mind. This is my choice, freely made. I am choosing to let you go, because I love you too much to watch you suffer.

Be well, my god. Be happy. Find someone who can give you forever without fear.

Yours in memory,

Penelope

She read it over once, then folded it carefully and sealed it with wax. Her hands were steady now. Her decision was made.

Penelope packed quickly, taking only what she'd brought with her. The beautiful dress from last night she left hanging in the wardrobe. She couldn't bear to take it, couldn't bear to have that reminder of what she was leaving behind.

She dressed in her traveling clothes, pinned her hat in place, and picked up her small bag. The letter she left on the pillow where Anthony's head had rested just hours ago.

The house was still quiet as she made her way downstairs. A servant looked at her in surprise, but Penelope simply smiled and said she had an early departure planned. Could someone arrange for a carriage to take her to the coaching inn?

The servant hurried off to comply, and Penelope stood in the entrance hall of Aubrey Hall, looking around one last time. This was where she'd danced with Anthony. Where he'd told her he loved her. Where she'd believed, for a few precious hours, that fairy tales could come true.

But fairy tales were for children. And she was a woman who'd learned long ago that happy endings were rare and precious and not meant for people like her.

The carriage arrived. Penelope climbed in without looking back. As they pulled away from Aubrey Hall, she allowed herself one moment of weakness. One moment to press her hand against the window and whisper goodbye to the man she loved.

Then she turned her face forward and did not look back again.

XOX

The conversation with Benedict and Colin had not gone well. Colin had punched him. Twice. And called him a coward. And been absolutely right about everything.

Anthony had stood there, his jaw aching, and realized with sudden, terrible clarity that he'd been a fool. That fear was no reason to throw away love. That his father had been brave, not weak. That choosing to love someone despite knowing you'd lose them was the most courageous thing a person could do.

He'd been planning to come back to Penelope, to wake her with kisses, to tell her he'd been an idiot but he was done being afraid. To ask her to stay, to give them a chance, to build something real together despite the obstacles.

But the bed was empty.

Anthony left the room and nearly collided with a maid in the hallway. "Excuse me. Have you seen Miss Featherington this morning?"

The maid bobbed a curtsy. "Oh yes, my lord. She left about an hour ago. Took a carriage to the coaching inn."

The world seemed to tilt beneath Anthony's feet. "She left?"

"Yes, my lord. Said she had an early departure planned."

Anthony didn't wait to hear more. He ran back to the room, looking for some sign, some explanation. And there, on the pillow, was a folded piece of paper with his name written in Penelope's neat hand.

His hands shook as he opened it.

He read it once. Then again. Then a third time, because surely he was misunderstanding. Surely she hadn't just walked away. Surely she hadn't heard him talking to his brothers, hadn't heard him say he needed to end things, hadn't heard every stupid, fearful word that had come out of his mouth.

But she had. She'd heard everything. And she'd made her choice.

She'd left him.

Anthony sank onto the bed, the letter crumpling in his fist. She'd left him. She'd heard him planning to end things, and she'd left first. She'd spared him the pain of having to break her heart by breaking her own instead.

Consider me released. Consider yourself free.

Free. She thought she was setting him free. She thought she was doing him a kindness.

She had no idea she'd just destroyed him.

"Anthony?" Benedict's voice from the doorway. "What's wrong?"

Anthony couldn't speak. He simply held out the letter.

Benedict read it, his expression growing more grim with each line. "Oh, brother."

"She heard us." Anthony's voice came out broken. "She heard me say I needed to end things. She heard me being a coward. And she left."

"Then go after her."

"She asked me not to. She said it was her choice."

"And you're going to respect that? You're going to let her walk away?" Benedict's voice was sharp. "After everything you just realized? After Colin beat sense into you? You're going to let fear win anyway?"

"It's not fear. It's respect for her wishes."

"It's cowardice dressed up as respect." Benedict grabbed his shoulders. "She loves you, you idiot. She left because she loves you. Because she heard you say you couldn't survive losing her, and she decided to spare you that pain. She's sacrificing her own happiness for yours."

"I know." Anthony's throat was tight. "I know what she's doing."

"Then don't let her. Don't let her throw away what you have together because you were too afraid to fight for it." Benedict shook him slightly. "Go after her. Tell her the truth. Tell her you were wrong, that you were afraid, but that you're done running. Tell her you want to try, consequences be damned."

"What if she won't listen?"

"Then you'll have tried. But at least you'll have tried." Benedict's expression softened. "Don't make the same mistake twice, Anthony. Don't let fear steal your chance at happiness."

Anthony looked down at the letter in his hand. At Penelope's careful words, her generous heart, her willingness to sacrifice everything for his peace of mind.

She loved him. She loved him enough to walk away. Loved him enough to spare him pain, even at the cost of her own happiness.

And he loved her. Loved her enough to be terrified of losing her. But maybe, just maybe, he could love her enough to be brave instead.

"I need a horse," Anthony said, standing abruptly. "Now."

Benedict grinned. "That's my brother."

Anthony ran from the room, the letter still clutched in his hand. He would find her. He would tell her the truth. He would beg if he had to, grovel if necessary, do whatever it took to make her understand that he'd been a fool but he was done being foolish.

He loved her. And he was going to fight for her.

Even if it terrified him.

Especially because it terrified him.

Because Penelope Featherington was worth being brave for.

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