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There's a certain thrill in being the best. The raw, humming power of it—students skittering past her in the corridors like mice scenting a viper, their footsteps going rigid with terror when the match board pairs them against her for sparring. The privilege that fear buys her: a sprawling suite on the academy’s top floor, heavy with carved teak furniture that she navigates by memory and vibration alone. Any dish she desires, summoned by her private chef—spiced sea-prawns from Kyoshi, dragon-duck from the Fire Nation colonies, things she craved as a child and now barely taste. A bathhouse all her own, mineral springs piped directly from the hot springs beneath the mountain. And men, plenty of them, handsome and eager and boring, willing to entertain her in whatever capacity she demands.
But none of it really mattered.
Toph hasn't felt alive since she was sixteen. Since she was with her family—her chosen family—every single day, their vibrations a constant familiar symphony around her. Aang's light, almost floating step. Katara's fluid, deliberate gait. Sokka's heavy, confident tromp. Even Zuko's—the careful, controlled stride of someone who had learned to move like a weapon.
Now they only see each other on special occasions. A slow, almost imperceptible drift, like continents separating. Letters that took longer to write back. She told herself it was natural. People grow up. Move on. Build their own lives.
But what was she meant to do? Find a new family? That's not how it worked. You don't just replace people. You don't just decide to stop being half of a whole.
It's not like she could tell anyone how lonely she was. Well, she could, but she wouldn't. Not ever. Too mortifying. Too vulnerable. Too not her. Especially when everyone else was thriving. Aang and Katara had built Republic City from nothing, a testament to their shared vision and stubborn optimism. Sokka and Suki were constantly traveling between the Water Tribes, connecting the poles through innovation and sheer force of personality, inventing things that changed the world. Zuko was the Fire Lord, for spirits' sake, carrying a nation on his scarred shoulders and somehow making it look like he was born to do it.
What did she have? A school. A very good school, granted—she'd trained some of the finest earthbenders of the new generation, students who understood that earthbending wasn't just about strength but about listening. But she was at a standstill. Teaching the same forms, correcting the same mistakes, feeling the same vibrations day after day after day. She was afraid—spirits, she was afraid—that she had already peaked at sixteen. That the girl who'd invented metalbending, who'd stood against kings and armies and comets, had reached her zenith and was now just... coasting. Waiting.
Toph was lounging in her private bathhouse, sunk neck-deep in water hot enough to turn her skin pink, a cool towel draped over her useless eyes. A man—she'd forgotten his name, something with a 'K'—knelt at the tub's edge, thumbs working into the arches of her feet with practiced, impersonal precision. The steam smelled of jasmine and sulfur. Somewhere, water dripped into a basin with a rhythmic plink, plink, plink that usually soothed her.
Usually.
There was a knock at the door—three sharp raps, polite but insistent.
One of her workers. Yinu. Toph could tell by the way she stepped: light, familiar, soft-soled slippers muffling her approach. Toph didn't see people, not in the way others did. She saw them through their vibrations in the earth and stone and wood, each person a unique pattern of weight and movement and intent.
"Come in," Toph called, not bothering to lift the towel.
The door slid open on well oiled tracks. Yinu entered, her footsteps faltering slightly as they always did in the bathhouse's humidity—sound traveled differently here, and Toph knew it disoriented people who relied on their eyes.
"Master Toph," Yinu said, clearing her throat. "There's a letter for you."
"Well?" Toph waved a damp hand, water droplets scattering. "Read it." Did she have to remind everyone, every single day, that she was blind?
"Of course." Paper rustled. Yinu cleared her throat again. "It's a—it's a wedding invitation. The Avatar is getting married!" Her voice jumped an octave on the last word, vibrating with barely contained excitement.
Toph's lips curved into a smirk, her head lolling back against the tub's porcelain rim. A laugh, rusty from disuse, escaped her.
"So Twinkle Toes is finally getting hitched? What else does it say?"
She remembered the conversation vividly—two years ago, Aang had found her in the school's training courtyard late at night, the moon high and his footsteps hesitant. He'd been circling the topic for an hour, talking about commitment and forever and what if she says no, until Toph had finally snapped and told him to stop being such a wuss and do it already. "The world's not gonna wait for you to feel ready, Twinkles. None of us are. Just ask her."
Guess he finally took her advice.
"They are inviting you to the wedding," Yinu continued, her voice steadier now, "which will take place in a private location in the old southern Air Temples. They ask if you'd be willing to stay for three and a half weeks, and that they've invited the rest of the..." Yinu paused, reading carefully, "'Crew.' Like old times."
Toph's smirk softened. Just slightly. Just enough that the man massaging her feet might have noticed, if he'd been paying attention to anything beyond his task.
Three and a half weeks. The old Air Temples, suspended between earth and sky, stone and cloud. Her family, all in one place, for longer than a passing afternoon.
"I guess," Toph said, her voice carefully casual, deliberately flippant, "I could leave the school for a month."
But her heart was already racing, a frantic, hopeful rhythm that had nothing to do with the hot water and everything to do with the sudden, terrifying possibility of feeling alive again.
—
The journey to the Air Temples took six days by airship.
It was her preferred way to travel. The vessel was a marvel of Fire Nation engineering, built entirely of metal and iron—steel hull plates, brass fittings, iron rivets the size of her fist. Everything she could feel and map out beneath her, a three-dimensional blueprint rendered in vibration. She knew the exact location of every crew member by the rhythm of their steps, could tell when the engine's pistons were running hot by the change in their hum, could feel the airship's massive belly cutting through wind currents like a knife through silk.
Unlike a boat made of wood and sails, which felt alive and unpredictable beneath her, groaning and flexing with every wave. Or a flying bison, whose fur and flesh and breathing created a chaotic vibration she could never fully parse. She hadn't ridden on Appa in years.
She definitely wouldn't admit there was a nervous coil in her stomach. A tight, writhing thing that had been there since she'd packed her bags, since Yinu had helped her choose which tunics to bring, since she'd stood on the academy steps and felt the airship's propellers begin to turn.
She wouldn't think about it, either. That was the rule. If she pretended it wasn't there, it would go away. If she acted like she was the same Toph Beifong who'd faced down armies and kings and comets, then she would be. Fake it until you make it. Or in her case, fake it until you bury it so deep even you forget where you put it.
Nobody would know. They wouldn't see. She was an expert at lying. At pretending not to be vulnerable. Matter of fact, vulnerability was scared of her. She'd beaten it into submission years ago, left it bleeding in a ditch somewhere outside Gaoling.
Liar, whispered a voice that sounded uncomfortably like her mother's.
She stomped on that voice. Metaphorically. And then, for good measure, literally—her heel striking the airship's metal deck hard enough to send a warning tremor through the corridor. A passing crewman yelped and stumbled. Toph smirked. There. That was better. That was her.
Landing at the Air Temples, nestled deep in the mountains where the air grew thin and the stone grew ancient, Toph had to suppress a grin.
Aang and Katara had spent years rebuilding the wreckage. She remembered this place from the war—ruined towers, scorched courtyards, the hollow ache of genocide still vibrating in the stone. Now... now it was different. The towers stood tall again, their spires reaching toward clouds that drifted close enough to touch. She could feel them through the mountain's bones—massive structures of restored stone and new timber, bridges spanning impossible chasms, gardens terraced into cliffsides.
And life. So much life. Flying bisons soared overhead, their massive bodies creating pressure waves in the air that she felt as distant, rhythmic pulses. Somewhere below, a waterfall crashed into a pool with a continuous roar that sang through the bedrock. Birds—thousands of them, species she couldn't name—nested in the temple's high reaches, their tiny heartbeats a fluttering tapestry above her.
She wondered what Aang and Katara's plan was. If they were going to somehow bring back the Air Nomads, rebuild a culture from ash and memory. They'd probably tell her. Eventually. Or maybe they'd just assumed she knew, the way they used to assume things about each other without asking.
She stretched as she disembarked, rolling her shoulders, drinking in the familiar-yet-strange vibration of the temple grounds—ancient stone worn smooth by centuries of wind and feet, the distant rush of that waterfall, the hum of life in the trees clinging to the mountain's edge. The air was thinner here, colder, smelling of pine and mist and something clean that she associated only with high places.
And footsteps. Rushing toward her. Light, almost floating, but with a new weight. A new solidity.
"Toph!"
Aang. She'd know that step anywhere. Still buoyant, still touched by airbender grace, but grounded now in a way he hadn't been at sixteen. Responsibility had added density to his frame, had thickened his vibration from a boy's reedy hum to a man's resonant chord. He'd filled out in the last few years—she could tell from the heavier footfall, the broader vibration he cast into the earth, the way his center of gravity had lowered.
She turned toward him just as he threw his arms around her, lifting her clean off the ground in a hug that squeezed the air from her lungs and sent her feet dangling.
"Put me down, Twinkle Toes," she wheezed, but she was grinning, her face buried in the rough fabric of his tunic. "I'm not a sack of rice."
"Sorry, sorry!" He set her down, but his hands lingered on her shoulders, warm and calloused. "I'm just—it's so good to see you. Really see you."
"Feel you, you mean," she corrected, but there was no bite in it. Not this time. She reached up, found his face with her palms, tracing the familiar features—still smooth, still young, but with new lines at the corners of his eyes that hadn't been there before, a new scar on his chin she didn't recognize. A shaving accident, maybe. Or something else. With Aang, you never knew. "You got taller. Again. How is that fair?"
"Airbender secrets," he laughed, and the sound of it—genuine, unguarded, Aang—hit her like a wave. She hadn't realized how much she'd missed it until right now, how the vibration of his laughter used to be the background music of her life. "Come on, everyone's already here. Katara's been cooking all morning. She wouldn't let anyone help."
"Some things never change," Toph muttered, letting him guide her by the elbow. She'd normally swat his hand away—she didn't need help, she was the greatest earthbender in the world, she could navigate a battlefield blindfolded—but the temple's unfamiliar layout, its bridges and floating platforms and sheer drops, made her grudgingly accept the assistance.
They emerged into a courtyard open to the sky, and Toph's senses exploded with information.
Too many vibrations. Too many familiar patterns all at once, converging on her like a tidal wave of home. Her breath caught. Her chest tightened. She hadn't prepared for this. Hadn't prepared for the overwhelming, crushing rightness of being surrounded by them again.
"Toph!"
Katara's voice, and then her arms, strong and sure and smelling of spices and sea salt and steam and something uniquely, indefinably her. The waterbender's embrace was fierce, almost desperate, like she'd been holding it in for years.
"You're too thin," Katara scolded, pulling back but keeping her hands on Toph's arms. "Have you been eating? Don't lie, I can feel your ribs."
"I've been eating," Toph lied. "I've got a chef. A fancy one."
"Doesn't count if you're not actually consuming the food," Katara said, but she was smiling. Toph could hear it in her voice.
Then Sokka, his hug rougher, accompanied by a noogie that she absolutely did not deserve and would be avenging later. He smelled of leather and oil and something mechanical, like he'd been tinkering with something right up until the moment she arrived. "The Blind Bandit! Still short, I see!"
"Still alive, I see," she shot back, elbowing him in the stomach with precision. He oofed satisfactorily.
Suki next, her touch lighter, a warrior's restraint even in greeting, but with an undercurrent of genuine warmth. "It's good to have you back, Toph."
Even Momo, the lemur's tiny paws scrambling up her shoulder to chirp in her ear, his heartbeat a rapid, frantic flutter against her neck, his wings stirring the air in patterns she could almost read.
But there was one vibration missing.
One she hadn't let herself consciously look for during the entire six-day journey, one she'd refused to map in her mind's eye, one she'd told herself she didn't care about. But her body had been seeking it since the moment she stepped off the ship. Her feet had been scanning the stone, her senses reaching out like fingers grasping in the dark, and finding only absence.
"Where's—" she started, then stopped herself. Casual. She was being casual. She was Toph Beifong, and Toph Beifong did not care where the Fire Lord was. Toph Beifong did not notice his absence. Toph Beifong did not—
"Zuko?" Aang answered, oblivious. "He got here yesterday. He's checking the perimeter with some of his guards. Fire Nation security protocol, apparently. He'll be back for dinner."
Toph nodded, keeping her face neutral. Keeping it still. "Great. Can't wait to hear about all the exciting paperwork he's been signing."
Hopefully nobody noticed the slight tremor in her voice. The way her hands had curled into fists at her sides. The way her heart had done something complicated and unwelcome in her chest—something that felt like relief and disappointment and anticipation all twisted together.
They were all too busy talking over each other, catching up, filling the air with noise and warmth and the chaotic, beautiful vibration of family. Sokka was already launching into a story about some invention that had exploded. Katara was trying to herd everyone toward the kitchens. Aang was floating—literally floating, she could feel his feet leave the ground—beside her, chattering about the temple's history.
She let herself be swept into it. Let herself laugh at Sokka's terrible jokes, let Katara fuss over her, let Aang drag her around the temple to show her the "absolutely amazing" meditation gardens he'd discovered. She felt like herself for the first time in years. The Toph who'd traveled the world, who'd saved it, who'd been part of something bigger than a school and an empty suite and a bathhouse full of strangers.
But underneath it all, a vibration she couldn't ignore.
Footsteps approaching from the eastern path. Controlled. Deliberate. Someone who walked with the weight of a nation on his shoulders but still managed to sound light on his feet.
Toph turned toward the sound before anyone else noticed, her body orienting like a flower seeking sunlight, her heart doing that complicated, unwelcome thing again.
"Zuko's back," she said, and was proud of how steady her voice sounded. Proud, and a little terrified.
The footsteps stopped.
She felt him pause in the courtyard entrance, felt the shift in the air as the others turned to greet him, felt the moment his own vibration oriented toward hers like a compass needle finding north. Like a flame finding oxygen. Like two pieces of a broken thing recognizing each other across a room.
"Toph," he said, and her name in his voice—deeper now, rougher, still carrying that faint Fire Nation accent that turned the single syllable into something that lingered—sent something cold and hot racing down her spine. Something that made her glad she was blind, because she didn't think she could have hidden her reaction if she'd had to meet his eyes.
"Sparky," she replied, her smirk automatic, her defenses snapping into place like iron bars slamming shut. "Still walking like you've got a stick up your—"
"Toph!" Katara interrupted, scandalized.
"What? I was going to say 'royal posture.' Get your mind out of the gutter, Sweetness."
Zuko laughed, and the sound of it hit her harder than his footsteps ever could. Richer than she remembered. Rarer. She hadn't heard him laugh—not really, not like this—since—
No. Don't think about that. Don't think about the last time. Don't think about his mouth or his hands or the way he said her name when it was just the two of them and the world was burning down around them.
"Good to see you, Toph."
"You too," she said, and the words felt insufficient.
She felt him step closer. Close enough that she could smell the smoke and jasmine that always seemed to cling to him.
She tilted her head up toward him—she'd forgotten how tall he'd gotten, how broad his shoulders had become, how the heat of him seemed to radiate even without firebending, even from three feet away. It wasn't fair. Everyone else got tall but she remained exactly the same, a permanent five-foot-nothing in a world of giants. Even Katara was half a foot taller than her now, and Zuko... Zuko was a wall of heat and vibration and presence that loomed over her in ways that made her feel small and seen and furious all at once.
"How's the Fire Lord business?" she asked, aiming for teasing, landing somewhere near breathless.
"Tedious," he said, and there was a smile in his voice. She could hear it. She could feel it in the way his stance shifted, became less formal, less guarded. "How's the school?"
"Also tedious. But with more yelling."
"Sounds like your ideal environment."
"You know me so well."
They were being awkward. Stilted. Their words landing too carefully, too precisely, like they were both navigating a minefield and neither was willing to admit they could see the explosives.
Hopefully nobody noticed.
Because you see, her and Sparky had a bit of a secret.
Let's rewind about a year and a half ago.
—
The message had arrived by hawk, which should have been Toph's first clue that something was wrong. Zuko never sent hawks. Hawks were for official correspondence, for treaties and trade agreements and threats disguised as diplomacy. Personal messages came through the network of earthbender couriers she maintained.
But there it was: a Fire Nation military hawk, its talons clicking impatiently on her office windowsill, a cylinder of bamboo strapped to its leg.
The note inside was barely a note at all. She gets one of her messengers to read it to her.
‘I need to not be Fire Lord for one night. Can you help?’
- Z
It sounded agitated. Maybe Desperate. So unlike the Zuko she knows.
She'd grinned then, sharp and hungry. Oh, she could absolutely help with that.
—
He'd arrived at the coordinates—a nondescript warehouse district in the lower ring of Ba Sing Se—wearing a hooded cloak that did absolutely nothing to hide his identity. She could feel his vibration from fifty feet away, the particular cadence of his walk, the weight distribution that marked him as a firebender.
"Nice disguise, Sparky," she'd called out, leaning against a crumbling wall. "Very inconspicuous. Very 'mysterious stranger.' Definitely not the Fire Lord at all."
He'd flinched at her voice, then laughed—a short, rusty sound. "I don't know why I thought I could sneak up on you."
"Because you're an idiot," she'd said fondly, pushing off the wall and closing the distance between them. She'd reached up without hesitation, finding his face with her palms, mapping the changes since she'd last seen him. New lines at his eyes. His same old burn on his eye shaped in a hand print. A fresh scar, small, near his hairline. His jaw was sharper, if possible. More defined. "Rough year?"
"You have no idea," he'd said, and his voice had been so tired. Not physically—Zuko was in peak condition, she could feel the dense muscle of him, the coiled power in his frame—but spiritually. Emotionally.
"Well," she'd said, dropping her hands and grabbing his wrist instead, pulling him into the darkness of the warehouse district. "Lucky for you, I know exactly how to fix that. But first let’s fix your appearance."
She undid his fire lord topknot, gathering his hair—it was long now, reaching past his shoulder blades—she put it in a simple bun on the back of his head. The shorter pieces at the front of his hair sticking out, which was fine because it probably covered more of his scar. He let her do it. Even though she was blind and it could look like a mess, neither of them would know. It’s just the kind of trust they have in each other. It happens when you’ve survived the things they’ve survived together.
She'd started small. Or what passed for small in Toph Beifong's world.
An underground earthbending fight club, hidden beneath a teahouse in the Middle Ring. The vibrations were glorious—bodies colliding with stone, the roar of a bloodthirsty crowd, the sharp crack of rock against rock. She'd felt Zuko tense beside her as they watched from the shadows, his hand finding her elbow in the darkness.
"Toph, this is illegal," he'd whispered, scandalized.
"Everything fun is illegal, Sparky. Loosen up." She'd dragged him to the betting counter, placed an outrageous sum on a fighter she knew would win—she could read his stance, his center of gravity, the minute shifts in his weight that telegraphed every move—and collected her winnings while Zuko stared at her with something like awe.
"You really are the greatest earthbender in the world," he'd said, and there'd been no mockery in it. Just fact. Just seeing her, the way few people ever bothered to.
"Damn right I am," she'd replied, but her grin had felt different. Softer. She'd bought them both drinks with her winnings, something strong and fiery that burned going down, and watched him relax by degrees. First his shoulders dropped. Then his jaw unclenched. Then he laughed—actually laughed—at something terrible she'd said about one of the fighters, and the sound of it had sent something warm spiraling through her chest.
They'd gone to three more clubs that night. She'd fought in one of them—just a quick match, nothing serious, against a cocky amateur who'd underestimated the blind girl—and felt Zuko's eyes on her the entire time. Felt the way his vibration shifted when she won, something hot and sharp that she couldn't quite name.
By midnight, he was actually smiling. Actually present, not the guarded, distant Fire Lord who showed up to reunions and left early, but the boy she'd traveled with. The boy who'd once been so awkward and angry and trying so hard. He was still trying, she realized. Just... differently now.
The brothel had been her idea. Obviously.
She'd felt his vibration go absolutely still when she led him through the beaded curtain, the air thick with incense and perfume and the low hum of music from somewhere deeper in the building. The women—and men—who worked here were professionals, their footsteps practiced, their voices smooth as silk.
"Toph," Zuko had hissed, grabbing her arm. His fingers were hot, even through her sleeve. "We can't—we shouldn't—"
"Relax, Your Lordship," she'd teased, dragging him further in. "We're just looking. Consider it... cultural education."
But Zuko had been blushing. She'd known it without seeing it—could feel the heat radiating off his face, could hear the stammer in his voice as one of the workers approached them with a professional smile in her tone.
"Welcome, honored guests. Are you looking for companionship this evening? We have—"
"Just a tour!" Zuko had practically yelped. "We're just—Toph, tell her we're just looking!"
She'd laughed. Laughed so hard she'd had to lean against his shoulder for support, feeling the rigid tension in his frame, the mortification vibrating off him in waves. "He's shy," she'd told the worker, wiping tears from her useless eyes. "Very sheltered. Fire Nation nobility, you know how it is."
"Toph—"
"Maybe just a drink, then? In the lounge?"
They'd barely made it to the lounge before Zuko had grabbed her hand—her actual hand, not her wrist, his fingers threading through hers with desperate urgency—and dragged her back out into the street. The door had barely closed behind them before he was speaking, his voice low and rough and almost angry.
"What was that?"
"Fun," she'd said, still grinning. "You should try it sometime."
"Toph, I'm the Fire Lord. If anyone saw me—if there were spies, if someone recognized—"
"Nobody recognized you," she'd interrupted, squeezing his hand. She hadn't let go yet. Neither had he. "And even if they did, what are they gonna do? Tell the world the Fire Lord visited a brothel and didn't even touch anyone? Scandalous."
He'd stared at her. She'd felt the weight of it, his attention focused entirely on her like a beam of sunlight through clouds. Then he'd laughed again, helpless and genuine, and pulled her into a hug that smelled of smoke and the jasmine incense from the brothel and something uniquely, intoxicatingly him.
"You're terrible," he'd said into her hair.
"You secretly love my terribleness sparky," she'd replied, and the words had felt dangerously close to true.
The bars came after that. A progression, a descent, a glorious unraveling.
They'd found a place in the Lower Ring, some dive that smelled of spilled beer and sweat and the particular vibration of music played too loud on instruments that were slightly out of tune. Toph had loved it immediately. The chaos, the noise, the way she could feel everything and nothing all at once—no expectations, no history, just the present moment and the man beside her.
They'd gotten drunk. Properly, thoroughly drunk, on rice wine and something clear and vicious that the bartender called "lightning in a bottle." Zuko had loosened in ways she'd never seen before. Told her stories about his council—old men who still treated him like the scarred, angry teenager he'd been, who questioned every decision, who made him feel like he was playing at being Fire Lord and they were all waiting for him to fail.
"They want me to marry," he'd said at one point, his voice slurring slightly, his head resting on his folded arms on the bar. "Some noblewoman from the colonies. Good bloodline. Good connections. 'For the stability of the nation,' they say."
"Gross," Toph had replied, because it was.
"They don't care that I don't—that I can't—" He'd stopped. Shaken his head. "Never mind."
She'd reached over, found his hand on the bar, covered it with her own. "You don't have to do anything you don't want to do, Sparky. You're the Fire Lord. Fire. Lord. That means you make the rules."
"I make the rules," he'd repeated, like he was tasting the words. Testing them. "I make the rules."
"Damn right."
And he'd looked at her then. She'd felt it, the shift in his vibration, the way his breathing changed, the sudden heat radiating from his skin that had nothing to do with firebending. She'd felt beautiful in that moment, without ever needing to see herself. Felt it in the way he was looking at her.
She'd changed in the years since the war. And not just because she grew up. She knew it intellectually, from the way people's vibrations changed when they saw her, from the comments she pretended not to hear. Her hair had grown long, past the middle of her back now, heavy and straight and apparently "striking." Her features had softened, her mother would have said—though Toph preferred to think of it as her edges becoming more precise, more dangerous. And her body... her body was strong. Muscled from years of training, from the constant practice that kept her at the peak of her art. Arms that could shatter stone, a core that could hold a stance against any opponent.
She was beautiful. She knew it. But knowing it and feeling it were different things. And in that bar, with Zuko's attention on her like a physical touch, she'd felt it.
They'd stumbled out into the night sometime after midnight, the air cool against their flushed skin. She'd led him back to her school through back alleys and shortcuts, her feet reading the earth with practiced ease, his hand in hers as he followed her lead without question.
The gardens of her school were quiet at this hour, the students asleep, the world reduced to the whisper of wind through bamboo and the distant hum of the city. She'd brought him to her favorite spot—a small pavilion overlooking a koi pond, the water still and dark and vibrating with the life beneath its surface.
They'd sat in silence for a while. The kind of comfortable silence that only existed between people who knew each other too well, who'd seen each other at their worst and stayed anyway.
"The responsibility gets to me sometimes," Zuko had said suddenly, his voice quiet in the darkness. Not slurred anymore, but soft. Vulnerable in a way that made her chest ache. "The weight of it. The... the expectation that I'll always be perfect. Always be strong. That I can't ever..."
He'd trailed off. She'd felt him shaking his head, felt the vibration of his hand tightening on the bench between them.
"That's lame," she'd said, because it was her default, because softness felt dangerous, because if she let herself be gentle with him she wasn't sure where it would end.
But then—then she'd done something she hadn't planned. Something that terrified her.
She'd told him something real.
"I'm lonely," she'd said, and the words had tasted like blood, like confession, like tearing open a wound she'd kept bandaged for years. "I'm so fucking lonely, Sparky. I miss everyone. I miss this—" she'd gestured vaguely at the space between them, at the memory of what they'd been, what they'd had "—and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to... to be someone who has people. Who keeps them. I don’t know how to move on."
The silence that followed had been heavy. Terrifying. She'd waited for him to laugh, to deflect, to do what she would have done—make a joke, change the subject, run.
Instead, he'd moved. She'd felt it, the shift of his weight on the bench, the vibration of him turning toward her. Felt his hand find her face, his fingers tracing her cheekbone with a gentleness that made her breath catch.
"Toph," he'd said, and her name had never sounded like that before. Like a prayer. Like a promise. Like something he was starving for.
And then he'd kissed her.
It wasn't gentle. Wasn't careful. His mouth crashed into hers with the force of a man who'd been holding back for years, who'd been drowning in responsibility and propriety and the suffocating weight of a crown, and had finally found air. His lips were hot—always so hot—and tasted of rice wine and smoke and something darker, something that made her head spin worse than the alcohol ever could. His hand cradled her jaw like she was something precious, something breakable, which was hilarious because she was Toph Beifong and she broke other things. But she didn't pull away. She couldn't have pulled away if the temple was collapsing around them.
She leaned in, her hands finding his shoulders, his chest, mapping the dense muscle of him through his tunic with a greed that shocked her. He was solid. Real. Not the distant Fire Lord who sent hawks and signed treaties, but a man of heat and weight and desperate, aching want.
He'd lifted her effortlessly into her lap—she was not small, not really, dense with muscle and power and the stubbornness of earth itself, but he was stronger, broader, his arms wrapping around her waist and pulling her close like she weighed nothing. Like she was his. His tongue found hers, tentative for exactly half a second before turning ravenous, delving into her mouth with a hunger that made her moan, actually moan, a sound she'd never made for anyone before. A sound she'd never allowed herself to make.
His hands roamed her body with a reverence that made her whimper, but there was nothing gentle in his touch. He gripped her hips hard enough to bruise, his thumbs pressing into the soft skin above her waistband, his fingers digging in like he was afraid she'd vanish if he didn't hold on. And she wanted it. Wanted the ache, the mark, the proof that this was real and happening and not another lonely fantasy she'd conjured in her empty suite.
She'd explored him with her own hands, greedy and insistent and demanding. The sharp line of his jaw, rough with stubble she hadn't expected. The broad planes of his shoulders, the dense muscle of his chest beneath the thin fabric of his tunic. She found the scar that puckered the skin over his heart—the one from his father, from his childhood, from every horror he'd survived—and traced it with her thumb, feeling him shudder against her. She mapped every inch she could reach, memorizing him through touch the way she memorized the earth, learning the vibration of his body the way she learned a new fighting stance. But this was better. This was alive.
He was the only man who had ever made her lose control. Made her whimper and whine for more, made her arch into his touch like a cat seeking warmth, made her forget that she was supposed to be tough, supposed to be untouchable, supposed to be in control.
She ground down against him and felt him groan into her mouth—a raw, broken sound that vibrated through her chest and settled somewhere low and desperate in her belly. His hands slid beneath her tunic and found the sensitive skin of her back, his palms hot and calloused and perfect, dragging up her spine with a pressure that made her shiver, made her whine, made her clutch at his shoulders like he was the only solid thing in a world that had suddenly turned to water.
"Toph," he gasped against her mouth, her name a ragged breath, a curse, a confession. His hips bucked up to meet hers, and she felt him—felt him, hard and wanting beneath her, and the knowledge that she did this to him, that she made the Fire Lord lose his composure, made her dizzy with power and need and something terrifyingly close to worship.
She bit his lower lip, not gentle, drawing a sharp inhale from him that she swallowed with her next kiss. Her fingers tangled in his hair—longer than she remembered, silky and thick—and pulled, tilting his head back to give her better access to the column of his throat. She pressed her mouth to the pulse hammering there, tasting salt and smoke and Zuko, feeling his hands tighten on her waist with near-painful intensity.
"Tell me to stop," he whispered, his voice wrecked, his body taut as a bowstring beneath her. "Tell me to stop and I will. I swear—I swear I'll—"
She answered by dragging her mouth back to his, by rolling her hips in a slow, deliberate circle that made him curse against her lips, his hands sliding down to grip her thighs and pull her impossibly closer. There was no space between them now. No air. Just heat and friction and the desperate, building rhythm of two people who had denied themselves for too long.
His fingers found the edge of her tunic, hesitated—asking, always asking, even now when he was trembling with need—and she grabbed his wrist and guided his hand beneath the fabric herself, too impatient for his politeness. His palm flattened against her stomach, hot as a brand, and she sucked in a breath, her muscles jumping beneath his touch. He explored her with the same reverent hunger, mapping the ridges of her ribs, the curve of her waist, the sensitive skin just below her breast that made her gasp and arch into him.
"You're beautiful," he breathed against her neck, his voice raw, almost angry. "You're so fucking beautiful and I can't—I can't—"
She didn't want to hear what he couldn't do. Didn't want reality to intrude on this perfect, terrible moment. She caught his mouth again, kissed him until they were both breathless, until her lips felt swollen and tender and marked by him. She could feel his heart hammering against her palm where it rested on his chest, could feel the vibration of his restraint fraying at the edges, could feel the exact moment he stopped thinking and just felt.
It should have been weird. They'd known each other since they were teenagers, kids really, since he was the angry prince chasing them across the world and she was the blind bandit who'd joined a war she didn't need to fight. They were friends. Comrades. Part of a family that was already fractured enough without adding... whatever this was.
But it wasn't weird. It was right. It was the most right thing she'd felt in years, maybe ever, and that was what terrified her.
So she'd pulled back.
She'd been the one to break the kiss, to press her palms against his chest and create distance between them. She'd felt his confusion, his hurt, the way his hands lingered on her hips like he couldn't quite believe she was leaving, like his fingers were memorizing the shape of her even as she retreated.
"Toph—"
"I can't," she'd said, and her voice had been raw, scraped thin. But then the panic set in—that terrible, familiar panic of wanting something too much, of needing someone too deeply—and she retreated behind her armor, deflecting and lying because honesty had never been safe, because softness had always been punished.
She punched his arm lightly, forced a smirk onto her lips that felt like a crack in a dam. "This is too weird. We must be wayyy too drunk, Sparky."
The silence that followed was suffocating. She'd felt him searching her face—useless, since she couldn't see his expression, since she couldn't read the hurt she knew was there. Felt the way his vibration shifted, closed off, rebuilt the walls she'd spent all night helping him tear down.
"Right," he'd said finally, and his voice was flat. Empty. The Fire Lord again. "Too drunk. Of course."
They hadn't seen each other since.
—
Back in the present, in the Air Temple courtyard with her family surrounding them and Zuko's vibration overlapping with hers in the ancient stone, Toph swallowed hard.
"Toph?" Zuko's voice, concerned. He'd noticed her stillness, the way she'd gone rigid mid-conversation. "You okay?"
"Fine," she said, her smirk snapping back into place like a shield. "Just remembering how much I hate your face. Takes a lot of mental energy."
He laughed, but she felt the hesitation in it. Felt the way his vibration shifted, questioning, searching for the truth she wouldn't give him.
"Well," he said, and there was something layered in his voice, something that spoke of memory and distance and the ghost of her hands on his skin, "I'm sure you'll have plenty of time to tell me all about it. Three and a half weeks, apparently."
"Three and a half weeks," she agreed, and wondered if it would be enough time to fix what she'd broken.
Or if she would just break it further.
—
Katara drags Toph to her rooms, arm interlinked with hers like they're still teenagers sneaking off to cause trouble instead of grown women with nations and schools and secrets between them. Katara was the only girl friend Toph had ever had—really, the only friend who'd ever tried to do the girl stuff with her, the braiding and the gossip and the emotional conversations that made Toph want to crawl out of her own skin. Toph still didn't know how to do any of it properly. She didn't know how to be soft, how to be open, how to let someone in without immediately planning her escape route.
But Katara had never seemed to mind. She'd just... adjusted. Learned Toph's language. Met her where she was instead of trying to drag her somewhere else.
"Toph, your hair has gotten so long!" Katara says, running her fingers through the thick black strands that fall past Toph's waist. "Can I braid it?"
Toph waves a hand, aiming for dismissive, landing somewhere near resigned. "Sure. Why not?"
She sits in a carved wooden chair—air temple craftsmanship, she can feel the intricate whorls in the grain, centuries of hands that have rested here before hers—and leans her head back, letting Katara's fingers work through her hair. The sensation is... nice. She won't admit it, but it's nice. Being touched without expectation. Being cared for without performance. Katara separates her hair into sections with a tenderness that makes Toph's throat tight, begins weaving the strands with a rhythm that matches the distant waterfall's crash.
"So..." Katara starts, and Toph knows that tone. That careful, casual tone that means Katara has been waiting to say something and has finally found her entry point. "What's going on with you and Zuko? Are you two fighting or something?"
It takes everything—everything—for Toph not to stiffen.
She forces herself to calm down, forces her muscles to relax one by one, forces her voice into the register of careless indifference she's perfected over years of practice.
"Nothing," she says, shrugging with deliberate looseness. "Sparky is just always a grump."
"He was looking at you weird is all..."
He was?
The thought hits her like a physical blow, steals her breath for half a second before she catches herself. She shoves it down, buries it under layers of armor and deflection.
"Well I wouldn't know, would I?" she says. "Can't see."
She can feel Katara roll her eyes—the subtle shift in her weight, the huff of breath that isn't quite a laugh. "You know what I mean, Toph."
"I have something I need to tell you," Katara says, her voice dropping to a whisper, quiet like she's afraid the stone walls themselves might overhear. Like she's afraid of her own words.
"You're pregnant," Toph says easily. Because she is the greatest earthbender in the world, because she can feel the vibrations of two heartbeats where there should be one, because Katara's gait has shifted almost imperceptibly, her center of gravity adjusting to the new weight growing inside her.
"Wha—how did you know?!" Katara's hands still in Toph's hair, her entire body going rigid with shock.
"I can feel it," Toph says, as if it's obvious. "Two heartbeats in your body. One fast, one slow. Yours and..." She pauses, calculating. "About eight weeks, I'd guess. Maybe nine. Congrats."
Katara goes quiet. Her foot starts tapping against the stone floor—a nervous habit Toph remembers from the war, from the nights when Katara would sit by the fire and worry about Aang, about Sokka, about the world. Tap. Tap-tap. Tap.
Toph frowns, tilting her head. The vibration of Katara's heartbeat has shifted, accelerated. Not excitement. Something else.
"That's a good thing, right?" She has no idea. Don't people like Katara and Aang hope and dream of small babies and shit like that? Don't they plan for it, want it, build their whole future around the possibility?
"Yes," Katara responds, but her voice is thin, stretched tight. "I mean, I'm excited. I'm just scared." A breath, shaky. "And I didn't think we would start having a baby until later in life. I'm only twenty-three. We were supposed to have time. To travel more. To build Republic City. To just... be us for a while longer."
Toph is quiet for a moment, considering. Then: "But you'll be a great mom."
"You think so?" Katara's voice is small, stripped of the confidence that usually defines her. This is the Katara that few people see—the girl who lost her mother too young, who raised her brother in a war zone, who still wakes up sometimes expecting to find herself back on a fishing boat with the world burning around her.
"You're literally braiding my hair because it was too messy for your preference," Toph says, aiming for teasing, landing somewhere near genuine. "That's mom behavior. You've been practicing for years and you didn't even know it."
Katara laughs, but it's watery, uneven. "And we weren't trying for a baby. But I guess we didn't do much to prevent it. We were kind of... irresponsible." Her voice drops even lower, embarrassed.
"Ew." Toph makes a face, exaggerated and theatrical. "I do not need to know about you and Twinkle Toes' sex life. I will literally throw myself off this mountain."
You can feel Katara roll her eyes again, but there's a smile in her voice now, lighter than before. "You're impossible."
"I bet he's excited though?" Toph asks, because this is the part she's supposed to ask, the part where she acts like a normal friend who understands normal things.
Katara is silent.
The silence stretches, heavy and loaded, and Toph feels it settle in her stomach like a stone.
"You haven't told him," Toph states, the realization clicking into place with terrible certainty.
"No..." Katara's voice is barely audible.
"Katara..."
"I know. I know." Katara's hands resume their work in Toph's hair, but her fingers are trembling now, the braid uneven and rushed. "I plan on telling him after the wedding. Just when everything is settled. When there's no stress, no pressure, no... no chance of it overshadowing anything. This is Aang's moment. Our moment, as a group. I don't want to make it about me. About this."
"So I'm the only one that knows?"
"Yes."
Toph is quiet for a long moment, processing. The weight of the secret settles on her shoulders, familiar and unwelcome. She is good at secrets. Has always been good at them—her own and others'. But this one feels different. This one feels like a promise, like a trust she's not sure she deserves.
Then she smirks, sharp and sudden, the expression feeling like armor snapping back into place.
"This'll be fun," she says, and there's a dangerous edge to her voice, a glint of the old Toph who loved chaos and mischief and watching the world burn just to see what would rise from the ashes.
"Toph—"
"Oh, relax, Sweetness. Your secret's safe with me." She pauses, tilts her head back toward where she knows Katara is standing. "But you should tell him. Soon. Because secrets have a way of coming out, and when they do, they don't come out gentle."
She feels Katara go still, feels the shift in her vibration as the words land. Feels, too, the irony of her own advice, the hypocrisy of telling someone to be honest when she herself is buried under a mountain of things unsaid.
"Okay, since we're doing that girl thing and sharing secrets..." Toph says, leaning her head back to ‘look’ up at Katara. Toph has never been able to stand being seen. Better to give up the secret on her own terms than have it wrestled from her. "Zuko and I hooked up last year."
“What?!” Katara shrieks, and the sound is so loud, so Katara, that Toph feels it in her teeth. The brush in Katara's hands clatters to the stone floor, a sharp vibration that echoes through Toph's feet.
Then her voice drops, goes quiet but still frantic, a whisper that carries more weight than any shout.
"What?"
"It's not a big deal," Toph says, aiming for casual, for breezy, for the girl who doesn't care about anything. She closes her eyes, blocking out the world in the only way she can, creating darkness within darkness. "We were drunk. It was stupid. Moving on."
"Not a—it's a huge deal!" Katara's entire body has gone still, rigid with shock. Toph can feel it in the vibrations—the way Katara's weight shifts, the way her heartbeat accelerates, the way her breathing goes shallow and fast. "He's the Fire Lord! He's—did you two... you know?"
"God, Katara, we're adults now. You can say the word 'sex.'" Toph smirks, the expression feeling like a mask she's welded to her face. "Not like you're not familiar with the act, Miss Pregnant."
Katara blushes fiercely—Toph can feel the heat radiating off her, can hear the stammer in her voice. "Did you two have sex?"
"No," Toph says, and the word is true but insufficient. It doesn't capture what happened in her garden, the way he'd looked at her, the way she'd felt seen in a way that still makes her chest ache. "We just made out. That's why it's not a big deal. There was some grinding though, some not-so-sweet hand placements."
"Was it good?" Katara asks, and there's a curiosity in her voice that Toph recognizes.
"Oh yeah," Toph grins, sharp and dangerous, leaning into the performance. "You'd be surprised what Zuko can do with his tongue. On the outside he's such a dud, all stiff and proper and 'Yes, honorable council member, let me consider your proposal'—but damn, he can really—"
"Okay, okay!" Katara interrupts, scandalized, her hands coming up like she can physically ward off Toph's words. "I don't want to know!"
"Your loss," Toph shrugs, but the bravado is already cracking at the edges, already letting something colder seep through.
"Anyways," she continues, her voice dropping, losing some of its performative edge. "I kind of am the one that didn't take things too far. I know that's weird since I'm the reckless one but..." She pauses, swallows. "It was just weird," she lies. The word tastes like ash. It wasn't weird. It was too good. Too right. Too terrifying in its rightness. "And we haven't talked since..."
The silence stretches between them, heavy with everything unsaid. Toph can feel Katara processing, feel the shift in her vibration as pieces click together.
"So that's why he was looking at you like that..." Katara says slowly, like she's solving a puzzle she didn't know existed.
"I guess," Toph breathes, aiming for indifference, landing somewhere near broken. She doesn't care. She doesn't care. "It's whatever."
"It's not whatever." Katara's voice has shifted, gone from scandalized to concerned, that mother-hen tone that makes Toph want to scream and cry in equal measure. "Friends hooking up is never good. What if your friendship is ruined? What if things are weird forever? What if—"
"He'll get over it," Toph says, cutting her off. The words come out sharp, final, a door slamming shut. "He has to."
Because if he doesn't—if he can't—if things are broken between them in a way that can't be fixed...
She doesn't let herself finish the thought.
"He has to," she says again, and this time the words are quieter. Almost a prayer.
—
The dining hall was open to the sky, the evening air cool and thin at this altitude, carrying the scent of pine and distant rain. Stars were beginning to prick through the darkening blue, distant and cold and indifferent. Toph could feel the space through her feet—ancient stone worn smooth by centuries of airbender feet, a long table hewn from a single massive tree trunk that hummed with the memory of the forest it came from, the vibrations of cooking fires from somewhere below where Katara had apparently been commanding the kitchen all day.
She let Katara guide her to a seat, still processing the weight of their shared secrets, the pregnancy and the hookup and the terrifying intimacy of being known.
Her hair was half up, half down, the strands Katara had braided woven through the loose waves like dark ribbons. The braids pulled at her scalp in a way that was oddly grounding, a constant reminder that she was here, that this was real, that she wasn't alone in her empty suite anymore.
She felt them arrive one by one, her senses mapping the room like a battlefield. Sokka first, his footsteps heavy and confident, accompanied by the clatter of something mechanical he was undoubtedly showing Suki. "—and then I said, 'That's not a sword, this is a sword,' and the guy just—oh, hey, Toph! Looking fancy! Did Katara attack you with a hairbrush?"
"Something like that," Toph drawled, leaning back in her chair with deliberate insouciance. "Some of us clean up nice, Snoozles. You, however, still smell like you haven't bathed since the North Pole."
"I'll have you know I bathed yesterday," Sokka protested, but she could hear the grin in his voice. "Suki can confirm."
"Can confirm," Suki said, her footsteps light and controlled as she took the seat beside him. "He used actual soap and everything. I was shocked."
Aang arrived next, his step still buoyant but accompanied now by the constant, gentle vibration of Katara beside him. They moved like one person, Toph realized with a strange pang in her chest—his hand finding the small of her back, her shoulder brushing his arm, their heartbeats syncing in a way that made them feel like a single entity rather than two separate people.
"Everyone's here!" Aang said, and his voice was bright with a joy that Toph could feel radiating off him like heat. "This is perfect. This is exactly—" He paused, and she felt him reach for Katara's hand, their fingers intertwining with the ease of long practice. "I've missed this. All of us together. It feels like... like home."
"Don't get sappy on us, Twinkle Toes," Toph said, but there was no bite in it. She was too busy listening to the last set of footsteps approaching from the eastern corridor.
Controlled. Deliberate.
"Flameo Hotman!" Aang called out. "You look all professional. It's just us here, you know? You don't have to be the Fire Lord."
"It's unseemly to arrive to a dinner in improper clothes," Zuko replied, and Toph could hear the formality in his voice.
Toph snorted under her breath. What a Zuko response. Predictable. Stiff. Safe.
She felt him look at her. Felt the shift in his vibration as his attention snapped to her like a compass needle finding north, like a flame finding oxygen. Felt the heat of his gaze like a physical touch, fire pointed directly at her. What was up with that?
"Your hair..." he breathed out, and his voice had gone strange. Soft. Almost reverent.
"Does it look bad or something?" Toph demanded, her defenses snapping up like iron walls. "Why is everyone talking about my hair?"
"It looks different," Sokka said at the same time Aang said,
"Katara did a good job."
At the same time Zuko said,
"It looks nice."
That shut her right up.
The words hung in the air between them, heavy and loaded. Nice. He'd said it like he meant something else entirely. Like he was remembering the way his fingers had tangled in that same hair, the way she'd arched into his touch, the way she'd—
She glared down at her plate in front of her that she couldn't see. Why was her heart doing this weird thing in her chest? Hammering against her ribs like it was trying to escape. Maybe she was getting sick? No, that was absurd. She was Toph Beifong. She didn't get sick. She sure as fuck didn't get flustered.
She cleared her throat, breaking the silence that had fallen over the room like a shroud. "So what are we doing for the next month? It better be worth my time."
"Traditional wedding celebrations from both my culture and Aang's," Katara answered, her voice warm with the pleasure of sharing plans. "Most of them involve the families of each person, and you guys are our family."
"Aww, how sweet," Sokka said, and Toph could imagine him smiling, could feel the vibration of his cheeks lifting.
Toph really hoped she was present when Sokka found out Katara was pregnant. The explosion would be glorious.
"Tomorrow we'll take Appa to the Southern Water Tribe where they'll be throwing us a banquet of sorts," Aang continued.
"So tonight we're free?" Toph asked, and she could feel her own smirk forming, sharp and dangerous.
"Uh-oh," Sokka said. "She has that evil look on her face."
"Shut it, Snoozles. I was just going to suggest we all have a spar. It'll be fun. Last one standing is the winner."
Everyone perked up at that. They may act like she was crazy, but everyone here was just as competitive as her. Just as hungry for the thrill of movement, the clarity of combat, the simplicity of winning and losing.
"Except for Katara," Toph added, the lie smooth as silk. "She's not feeling well."
"You're not?" Aang said, turning to her with a frown she could feel in his vibration—the sudden tension, the protective instinct flaring.
"She has a headache, Twinkle Toes. She's not dying. Relax." Toph waved a dismissive hand. "I can feel her brain waves."
Total lie, but nobody would question her because they all had no idea how her vibration-seeing actually worked.
"Then deal," Aang said, and she could hear the grin in his voice. "I'll kick your butt."
Toph hollers, the sound echoing off the ancient stone. "I'll wipe the floor with you."
"Hey, I've got some new inventions that might surprise you guys," Sokka cut in.
"I too have been training extensively," Zuko said, his voice carefully neutral. "It's required of the Fire Lord to be in perfect shape."
Perfect shape?
Toph wants to see for herself. She bets he's ripped—more ripped than he was a year ago, the dense muscle of him honed by duty and discipline into something almost weaponized. She wants to run her tongue along his abs, wants to map the new topography of his body with her hands, wants to—
Bad thoughts! Shoo!
She forces her mind back to the conversation, but the image lingers, hot and unwelcome, branded behind her useless eyes.
"So, Toph," Sokka starts, and she can tell by the shift in his vibration—the way he leans forward, the sly tilt of his voice—that whatever he's about to say will make her want to punch him. "When are you gonna settle down? I'm surprised you haven't dated a big buff earthbender man yet."
Ugh.
"Why would I settle down?" she asks, her voice dripping with disdain. "I'm in my prime. Men throw themselves at me and monogamy is boring."
"But don't you want a partner?" Aang asks, and his voice is gentle, curious, without judgment. Which somehow makes it worse.
"It's pretty nice to have someone to share everything with," Sokka adds, and she can feel Suki's hand find his on the table, their fingers intertwining.
Ew.
"You all disgust me!" she exclaims, but her heart isn't in the performance. She's too busy feeling the weight of Zuko's attention, the way his vibration has gone still and listening. "And why isn't anyone dragging Sparky for not having a partner?"
The silence that follows is different. Heavier. Wrong.
"Zuko does have a partner," Sokka says with a scoff, like she's an idiot for not knowing. "Seriously, Toph, pay attention. You're blind, not deaf. He's engaged."
Engaged.
The word hits her like a physical blow. Like earthbending to the chest, all the air leaving her lungs in a rush. She feels her own heartbeat stutter, feels the blood drain from her face, feels something cold and terrible settle in her stomach.
What? Since when?
Why does her stomach suddenly feel like it's dropped through the floor, through the mountain, through the earth itself? Why does her chest feel like someone has reached inside and squeezed?
Engaged. The word sits wrong in her head, jagged and sharp, cutting her from the inside.
"I'm not engaged yet," Zuko corrects, and his voice is careful, measured, the Fire Lord speaking. "But I will be soon. The offers have been made."
"To who?" Toph asks, and her voice comes out flat. Dangerous. She imagines her eyes have narrowed, imagines the expression on her face is something feral and furious. She feels something spark in her chest—anger, bright and blazing, hot enough to rival any firebender's flame.
Hadn't he just said last year that he didn't want to marry? He'd told her in the bar, his voice slurred with drink and honesty, that he didn't want to marry anyone the old bats picked out for him. That he wanted to make his own decisions, be his own person, live before he was chained to a throne and a wife and a life he didn't choose.
"Her name is Ru Lan," Zuko says, and his voice is so neutral, so carefully empty, that she wants to scream. "She's the daughter of a noble Fire Nation family."
"Is she a strong bender?" Toph finds herself asking, and the question is a trap, a challenge, a gauntlet thrown.
Could I beat her in a fight? Could I bury her in the earth and leave her there?
"No," Zuko says, and there's something in his voice she can't read. Something that might be regret, might be resignation, might be nothing at all. "She's a nonbender."
Toph opens her mouth to say something snide, something cutting, something that will carve this moment into something she can control.
"So," Katara cuts in, sensing the turn in direction, the dangerous energy building in the room like a storm. "I'll be the judge of this fight. Let's get started."
And Toph lets herself be herded toward the training courtyard, lets the familiar vibration of stone beneath her feet ground her, lets the promise of violence wash over her like a balm.
But underneath it all, the word echoes in her mind, relentless and cruel:
Engaged. Engaged. Engaged.
Pfft! Like she cares …
—
The training courtyard was open to the night sky, ancient stone flags worn smooth by centuries of airbender practice. Toph could feel every crack, every imperfection, every whisper of wind that skated across the surface. The mountain air was thin and cold, sharp in her lungs, carrying the distant howl of wind through temple spires. Somewhere above, a flying bison groaned in its sleep, a low rumble that vibrated through the bedrock.
Katara settled onto a stone bench at the edge, wrapping her arms around herself against the chill.
"Rules are simple," she called out. "No lethal blows. First one to stay down for ten seconds loses. Everything else is fair game."
"Everything?" Sokka grinned, and Toph could feel him fumbling with something at his belt—his new inventions, no doubt. "Even my—"
"Especially your whatever-that-is," Toph interrupted, dropping into a fighting stance, her bare feet gripping the stone like roots. "Bring it, Snoozles. I'll crush your toy and your ego in one move."
Aang laughed, the sound bright and boyish, and then he was moving—really moving, airbending propelling him in a blur of speed that Toph could barely track through vibration alone. He struck at Sokka first, a gust of wind that sent her brother stumbling backward with a yelp.
"Hey! I wasn't ready!"
"You're never ready," Suki called, launching herself at Aang with a warrior's precision, her kyoshi fans snapping open with a sound like breaking glass. She drove him back, footwork flawless, forcing him to dodge rather than counter.
Toph felt Zuko shift—felt the heat building in his core, the way his weight transferred onto the balls of his feet, ready to spring. He was watching her. Waiting. Measuring.
She didn't give him the satisfaction of making the first move.
She earthbended the ground beneath his feet instead.
Stone erupted in a jagged pillar, catching Zuko mid-step. He twisted, fire blooming from his fists, melting the rock into slag that rained down around him. The heat washed over Toph's face, familiar and infuriating.
"Dirty," he said, and she could hear the smile in his voice.
"I'm the Blind Bandit," she shot back, already moving, already sensing his next position through the vibrations of his landing. "Dirty is my middle name."
She struck at him with a column of earth, dense and fast, and he burned through it, flames white-hot, stepping through the debris with a grace that made her teeth ache. They'd sparred a hundred times in the war, but this was different. He was faster now. More controlled. More deadly.
And she was angry.
She poured it into her bending, into every strike. Anger at him for making her feel this way. Anger at herself for caring. Anger at the word engaged echoing in her skull like a war drum. The stone responded to her fury, rising in spikes and waves and crushing walls that he barely dodged, fire cutting through her attacks with surgical precision.
Why should she care? She didn't care. She didn't.
She swept his legs with a low ripple of earth and he leaped, fire jetting from his feet sailing over her head and landing behind her. She spun, sensing his heat signature, his heartbeat, the vibration of his muscles tensing for a strike. She caught his wrist, her grip iron-tight, and pulled, using his momentum to slam her shoulder into his chest.
He grunted, the air leaving his lungs, but his free hand found her waist—when had he gotten so fast?—and he lifted, using firebending to propel them both backward, rolling across the stone in a tangle of limbs that ended with him pinning her shoulders.
For one heartbeat, they were still. She could feel his chest heaving against hers, his heart hammering in time with her own, his breath hot against her cheek. She could smell the smoke and sweat and something else, something that made her want to arch up into him and also shove him through a wall.
Then she earthbended the ground beneath them into a ramp and sent them both sliding apart, scrambling to their feet.
"Getting distracted, Sparky?" she taunted, but her voice was breathless, raw.
"You're the one distracted," he countered, and the words landed like a blow because they were true.
She wanted to scream. She threw herself back into the fight with renewed fury.
Sokka's boomerang caught her in the shoulder while she was focused on Zuko—a glancing blow, but enough to spin her. She snarled, earthbending a shield that caught Aang's air blast and redirected it into Sokka's chest, sending him sprawling.
"That's for the cheap shot, Snoozles!"
"Teamwork!" Aang called, laughing, already spinning into a tornado that lifted debris and dust into a blinding whirlwind.
Toph didn't need her eyes. She felt them all—Sokka's heavy tread as he recovered, Suki's light footwork circling for an opening, Zuko's heat signature moving through the dust like a beacon, Aang's barely-there vibration as he rode the air currents.
She stomped, and the courtyard shattered.
Stone pillars erupted in a ring around her, a fortress of rock that caught Suki mid-leap and sent her tumbling. Toph felt the warrior roll, recover, fans slicing through the air with a whistle that she tracked by sound alone. Suki was good. Better than good. But Toph was better.
She caught Suki's ankle with a tendril of earth and yanked, slamming her into the stone with enough force to wind her. "Down!" Toph called, already turning.
Aang hit her from above—literally from above, dropping out of the sky with a staff strike that she barely blocked, her forearm singing with pain. She snarled, grabbing his staff and pulling, earthbending beneath his feet to destabilize him. He flipped, airbending cushioning his fall, but she was already there, a wall of stone rising to meet him.
He bent the air between them, shattering her attack into dust, but the debris blinded him long enough for her to close the distance. She struck at his ribs—pulled the blow at the last second, because this was Aang, because she loved him, because she wasn't actually trying to hurt anyone—and he caught her wrist, laughing.
"Got you!"
"You wish, Twinkle Toes."
She headbutted him. Gently.
He went down, groaning, and she felt Katara start counting from the sidelines. "One... two..."
Zuko's fire caught her in the back—not hot enough to burn, but enough to send her stumbling forward, her tunic singed, her skin stinging. She roared, spinning, earthbending with both fists, stone missiles that he dodged, dodged, dodged, fire cutting through her assault like a knife.
He was good. Better than he'd ever been.
She hated it. She loved it. She wanted to bury him and kiss him and scream.
They clashed in the center of the courtyard, fire and earth meeting in explosions of steam and shattered rock. She felt his fist graze her cheek—felt her own elbow catch his ribs—felt them both stagger, breathing hard, circling like predators.
"You're not focusing," he said, and his voice was low, meant only for her.
"Shut up," she spat, and launched another attack, a wave of stone that he melted into glass, the heat blinding in its intensity.
Sokka's boomerang caught Zuko in the back of the knee—finally, a good shot—and the Fire Lord went down, hard. Toph didn't hesitate. She earthbended a cage around him, thick stone bars that he immediately began heating, melting, but it was too late.
"One... two... three..." Katara counted.
Toph turned, searching for her next opponent, and found Suki and Sokka advancing together, a team, their vibrations synchronized in a way that spoke of years of partnership.
"Tag team?" Sokka called.
"Cheating," Toph shot back, grinning despite herself, despite the anger still coiling in her gut.
"There's no cheating in war!" Suki yelled, and launched herself.
Toph met her, earth and steel clashing, the kyoshi fans striking sparks where they met her stone shields. Sokka circled, boomerang ready, waiting for an opening. She felt him throw—felt the weapon's unique vibration cutting through the air—and caught it with a pillar of earth, redirecting it back at him with a flick of her wrist.
"Hey! That's my boomerang!"
"Not anymore!"
Suki struck while she was distracted, a fan blade grazing her ribs—not cutting, but enough to sting, enough to remind her that Suki was a warrior who had trained since childhood, who had led an army, who was not to be underestimated.
Toph earthbended the ground beneath Suki's feet into a slide, sending her careening toward Sokka. They collided with a grunt, a tangle of limbs and curses, and Toph advanced—
Only to feel the heat behind her, too late.
Zuko had melted through the cage. Had recovered. Had moved with a firebender's speed that she should have anticipated, should have felt, but her mind was still on engaged, still on Ru Lan, still on the memory of his mouth on hers and the way he'd said her name like it was sacred.
His arms wrapped around her from behind, pinning her arms to her sides, his chest heaving against her back.
"Yield," he breathed in her ear, and his voice was rough, wrecked, human in a way that the Fire Lord never was.
She stomped, earthbending directly beneath them both, the stone erupting upward and sending them both tumbling. They rolled, grappling, limbs tangled, fire and earth forgotten in favor of pure, brutal physicality. She elbowed his ribs—he caught her wrist—she kneed his thigh—he flipped her, pinning her shoulders again, his knees bracketing her hips, his face inches from hers.
She could feel his breath. Could smell the sweat and smoke and him. Could feel his heart hammering against her own, syncopated and wild.
"Yield," he said again, softer this time.
"Never," she snarled, and headbutted him.
Not gently.
He reeled back, hands flying to his nose, and she earthbended a wave that caught him, caught Sokka and Suki who had recovered and were rushing toward her, caught Aang who had been sneaking up from behind on a cushion of air.
The wave slammed them all into the far wall of the courtyard—a controlled blow, enough to wind, not wound—and Toph stood alone in the center, breathing hard, fists clenched, every muscle trembling with exertion and rage.
She'd won. She'd won.
But even as the thought formed, she felt her own knees buckle. Felt the adrenaline drain away, leaving her shaking and empty. Felt the anger recede, replaced by something worse—something hollow and aching and lonely.
She'd won, but she was still thinking about the word engaged. Still thinking about Ru Lan. Damnit! She wanted to claw at her brain. what was wrong with her?! Something was wrong.
She collapsed onto the stone, legs folding beneath her, and stared up at the sky she couldn't see. Her chest heaved. Her ribs ached where Suki had tagged her. Her cheek throbbed where Zuko had grazed her. Every part of her hurt, and it was glorious.
A groan from the wall. Then another. Then laughter—Sokka's, rusty and disbelieving.
"She got us. She actually got all of us."
"At once," Suki added, her voice muffled like she was still pressed against the stone. "That's... actually impressive. Terrifying, but impressive."
"I think my nose is bleeding," Aang complained, but he was laughing too, the sound bubbling up despite himself.
"Join the club," Zuko muttered, and Toph heard him shift, felt him sit up against the wall, his vibration heavy with exhaustion. "Toph... that was..."
"Incredible?" she supplied, her own laugh escaping before she could stop it. It sounded broken, a little wild, but it was real.
"Insane," he corrected, but she could hear the smile in his voice. Could feel the warmth of it, reaching across the courtyard like a hand extended in truce.
One by one, they dragged themselves to the center of the courtyard, collapsing in a heap of bruised limbs and heaving chests. Sokka threw an arm over her shoulders, his weight familiar and comforting. Suki leaned against his other side, her head on his shoulder. Aang sprawled across their legs, groaning dramatically about his various injuries. Zuko sat close enough that she could feel his heat, his knee brushing hers, his shoulder a solid presence against her arm.
They were all battered. All breathless. All grinning like fools despite the aches that would bloom into spectacular bruises by morning.
And Toph felt it—that rare, precious thing she'd been missing for years. The vibration of family, of belonging, of being surrounded by people who knew her and loved her anyway. Who had seen her at her worst and chosen to stay.
She let her head fall back against the stone, let the cold seep into her scalp, let the stars she couldn't see wheel overhead in their indifferent dance. Zuko's knee was warm against hers. Sokka's arm was heavy across her shoulders. Aang was humming something off-key, and Suki was laughing at whatever Katara was shouting from the bench about "irresponsible idiots"
It was nice.
It was so nice to be with family again.
She wouldn't think about tomorrow. Wouldn't think about the fact that in three and a half weeks, they would all go back to their separate lives, and she would return to her empty suite and her empty bed and her empty, endless days of teaching students who would never be her family.
She would think about now. About this. About the laughter and the bruises and the warmth of people who loved her, even if they didn't know all of her secrets.
Even if she didn't know how to let them.
"Again tomorrow?" Sokka asked, his voice drowsy, already half-asleep.
"You're on, Snoozles," Toph said, and her voice was steady, almost normal. "I'll beat you even worse next time."
"Big talk for someone who can barely sit up."
"I can sit up fine. I'm choosing to lie down. It's called strategy."
"That's not what strategy means."
"Shut up, Sokka."
They lay there in comfortable silence, the mountain air cold against their flushed skin, the ancient stone holding them like a cradle. And for the first time in years, Toph felt something close to peace.
Close. But not quite.
Because Zuko's knee was still pressed against hers, and she could feel his heartbeat through the stone, and she was still so angry, still so hungry, still so desperately, destructively alive in a way that only he had ever made her feel.
Engaged, she reminded herself. He is engaged. He is not yours. He was never yours. He was never going to be yours.
And she doesn’t care.
She doesn’t.