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They had sat for dinner that Bill had made for them. A simple pasta dish since he knew alec wasn't really big on heavier foods.
“How was work today?” Bill asked while taking a bite of food and looking to Alec for his response. He had noticed something was off for a week but he knew his husband and knew he had to wait to get it out of him instead of forcing it.
“T’was fine” Alec replied coldly taking a big sip from his almost full glass of whiskey. He knew that Bill would say something about not pouring too much in the glass. But why did he care so much? That voice who has been haunting him for years has decided to speak up and tell him to pour a full glass.
They stayed silent other than the quiet clank of Bill eating his dinner. Alec was just staring at his plate.
After some time Bill spoke up.
“Well then… Yes dear, thank you for asking. My day was nice. We finally got the new interns for the wing and it's been nice to have some extra hands.”
As Bill continued to talk about his day Alec was not listening, he was still thinking about the case and trying to think of why he had such weird déjà vu walking into the crime scene. Then Bill's voice cleared up and he said. “Oh and Ellie texted me and asked if we wanted to do dinner with her this weekend if your up to it”
Suddenly Alec stood up, said nothing and left the room and headed for their bedroom.
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Alec watched the clock hit 11PM, 12AM, 1 AM, but he just couldn't sleep. He could hear the soft snoring of his partner next to him.
“Fuck it.” he whispered to no one. And got out of bed and headed down to the place in the house he has been frequenting lately. The liquor cabinet. He grabbed the bottle and instead of a glass just took a big swig.
That's when he could hear the yelling down the hall.
“ YOU DINNAE EVEN WANT HIM!!”
“I KNOW BUT YOUR THE NOW WHO COULDN’T KEEP IT IN THEIR PANTS NOW COULD YOU!”
He slowly crept towards it. Then he was in his old home. But he didn't deter him; he kept walking towards the yelling and it got louder.
“AS IF THE HARDY NAME SHOULD BE CONTINUED WITH THAT DUMB BOY!” His father and mother were in the living room arguing again like they did almost every night.
That's when he saw it happen… his mother turning around to take another drag of her cigarette. When he saw his dad rush to the kitchen and grab the knife and lunged at her full force. The scream was something Alec would never get out of his head. Alec ran over to go help his mother and tried to stop the bleeding but he knew how this story ended. He’s only seen it play out in his mind over and over.
He wakes up with a start. Panting and had that tight feeling in his chest.
“Shit.” He grabs his phone and checks, his pacemaker went off.
“I need a drink.” Again he walks back to the cabinet but this time only has a glass then goes back to bed.
He ran downstairs and when he got to the living room he saw her laying there in a pool of her own blood. Thats odd didnt this just happen? He shakes his head running over to try and help stop the bleeding. In the same ending, instead of waking, he is suddenly in the doorway. He runs over and again tries to stop the bleeding. And as he watches the light leave her eyes it starts over again and again and again.
“Why are you doing this to me!” he yells at his father who is just standing there with the knife.
“Because you're a failure of a son and a disappointment to the Hardy name. I thought with getting a son our family name could live on! But nae you have to go and marry a man for christ sake!”
That's when it starts over again. But this time is off instead of his mother lying there, it's Bill and he's crying out for Alec.
Alec can't do this anymore he runs to the bathroom. Upon entering he sees his evil face in the mirror and smashes it to keep him away. Then he’s on top of Alec like he used to do when he was just a lad. Touching him and telling him he's helping him out since he'll probably die a virgin.
So Alec is swinging on the mirror shards and him. Not noticing that he is demolishing his thighs in the process. That's when he hears footsteps moving quickly towards the bathroom.
He looks up and sees his father standing in the door frame. He’s yelling at him but Alec can't make out what he's saying with the ringing in his ears and the pain in his thighs.
“GO AWAY!” Alec screams. “So what you killed the man I love now you're here to finish me off?!”
Alec hurls the almost empty bottle of whiskey at his fathers head.
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It was all a blur for Bill. He could feel Alec get out of bed but just assumed he was using the bathroom.
Then he heard the screaming. Saw the blood. Saw Alec on the floor in a pool of his own blood, his thigh a mess. He tried to approach but Alec just chucked the bottle at his head.
He ran back to their room grabbing his phone and dialing 999.
The rest of the night was a blur. By the time EMS got there Alec had passed out due to blood loss. The ride to the hospital was short and they took him away for surgery right away leaving Bill to wait. He stood there until a nurse came and helped him to the room where Hardy would recover.
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He could smell it before he opened his eyes. That strong smell of disinfectant. He could feel the bandages on his thigh.
But why, the last thing he remembered was being in bed curled up to Bill after they had a quiet dinner.
He opened his eyes and there was Bill sitting in the chair next to his bed reading a book.
“Mph what happen?” Words still a bit slurred from disuse.
“Hey baby how are you feeling?” Bill put his book down and walked over to the bed.
“I’m tired. What happened? Why am I here? When can I leave?” In classic Alec fashion rattled off so many questions before Bill had a chance to answer any of them.
“Do you not remember?” He looked at him with concern.
“No, the last thing I remember was us cuddled up in bed.”
“Alec, I found you in the bathroom with a glass shard in your hand ripping apart your thigh with a bottle of whiskey in your other. You threw the bottle at my head.”
The room was silent for a while then Alec croaked up.
“I- I know that was my father, h-he was the one attacking me, he was assaulting me. ”
That’s why he started crying. Bill wrapped him in his arms and let him cry. Eventually he stopped and fell asleep in Bill's arms and he laid him down and let him sleep watching over him like the guardian angel he was for him.
There would still be days where Alec would look in the mirror and shudder seeing the man’s face behind him. He would still drink but only with Bill around to keep him in moderation. He’s not okay but he knows with time that he will be and that he’s got a supportive husband that loves him and wants to be with him.